There is a kind of love you know

The next day, Xu Luyan didn't go to work. I don't think he was afraid of me running away, so he didn't go to work to watch me, right?

I thought about it and thought it was impossible, he might just be to me.Interested for a while, it will become boring after a while.

What's more, people are creatures that like the new and dislike the old. How can a sudden feeling last for a long time.

But it's fine if Xu Luyan and I leave, maybe it will be a new beginning when we arrive in another city, and all the bad things will be forgotten.

I'm not looking forward to my future, but all I can do is live every day, even if it's a life I don't like, I have to face it.

In a trance, I feel as if I have begun to have a concept of life.

Life can't be whatever you want it to be.

I think generally speaking, I was lucky. I was lucky to meet Xu Luyan.

Looking at the high-hanging sun, at least it doesn't make me feel glaring now.

The thin body of the young man stood by the balcony, the weak wind blew the corner of the young man's clothes, accompanied by that eye-catching smile, Xu Luyan's heart beat a little faster.

"Do you want to go out for a stroll?" Xu Luyan felt his heartbeat so clearly for the first time, it was the emotion he had been looking for after living for so many years.

I looked back at him and shook my head after thinking about it, "I don't want to go out, it's good to stay in the room."

Xu Luyan investigated the other party earlier, and he generally knew the situation of the person in front of him, so he didn't say much, just walked over and stood side by side with the boy.

Following the direction I was looking at, Xu Luyan didn't know what the other party was looking at, but the sadness in those eyes made him feel distressed.

"Xu Luyan, what if you got bored of me within five years?" I asked him in a very light tone, and this was the answer I really wanted to know.

"No." If it's you, I won't.

Xu Luyan didn't say the latter sentence. He didn't particularly like to express his feelings directly, but the person he liked, he would treat that person well for the rest of his life, but he had never met him before.

"Really? What if?" I don't really believe in the relationship between people, just like my parents. They don't like each other and get married. Isn't that a kind of pain and torture?

"For me, there are no ifs." Xu Luyan has already passed his youth, and what he wants must not be the pursuit of novelty. This is a very clear thing.

I thought about Xu Luyan's words, but I just smiled and said nothing.

There are too many uncertainties in this world, who can really know what?

Especially feelings, maybe not really feelings.

"Let's go out for a walk, maybe you won't come back in the future."

I was taken aback by Xu Luyan's words, and I probably knew what he meant later, so I finally went out with him.

So sure at the beginning, but not sure later.

Sitting in the car, I didn't know where Xu Luyan was going to take me for a stroll.

Although I have lived in this city for 17 years, there are many places I have never been to, and there are many things I do not understand.

Then let those things that I don't know be buried in this city together, and there will be no special changes.

Watching the car drive to a neighborhood I was familiar with, I felt a little bit in my heart, and turned to look at Xu Luyan.

"You want to send me back?" In fact, I also felt that staying with Xu Luyan for so many days was like a dream, unreal.

"I didn't think about it that way." Xu Lu extended his hand to touch my cheek. I reflexively wanted to avoid it, but when I saw his eyes, I didn't move.

Get used to it now, and nothing bad will happen.

Do I know when to obey?When my dad beat me before, I just let my dad kick and beat me without saying a word, just not wanting to get more violent treatment.

It's not difficult to just not resist Xu Luyan now, after all, he is the patron, so I can't resist.

"What do you want to bring me here?" I really don't want to see my dad, no, is he my dad?

"Don't you want to see me?"

After Xu Luyan finished speaking, I really wanted to say "I don't want to", but those two words seemed to be stuck in my throat.

I didn't speak, I was silent, maybe I still had such a glimmer of expectation, but I was afraid of facing such a cruel reality like before.

"Don't run away, it's only one time."

At that time, I didn't understand what Xu Luyan said, and I found out later that he thought he had made a decision for me.

I looked at him, opened my mouth, but couldn't say anything, I could only look at him sadly, but when I saw the harmonious scene outside the glass window, I felt that the sadness in my heart was so ridiculous.

My dad and Aunt Luo hugged each other, talking and laughing, and came back from not far away, with vegetables in their hands, probably going back to cook.

He probably forgot that he had my son and started his new life.

Xu Luyan looked out of the window following my gaze, and his expression didn't change. After all, he had seen this kind of thing too much, so he didn't think it was strange.

But my distressed expression made him feel distressed.

"Do you want to get out of the car?"

I shook my head, since my dad has already ignored me, am I still making fun of myself?

"Let's go, it's meaningless." Yes, family affection really means nothing to me.

Xu Luyan really wanted to hold the person in front of him in his arms, so he hesitated and didn't do that.

"Let's go, Uncle Li." Xu Luyan said lightly.

When Uncle Li heard it, he drove away. The moment I passed by my dad and Aunt Luo, I thought I would cry, but there was nothing.

That's right, family affection has lost its concept, so I don't have to feel sorry for it.

The car behind was just driving around, not what I expected, Xu Luyan didn't take me to see my mother.

I wonder how big this city is?

I looked at the scene outside the car window and felt strangely strange.

It turns out that this city where I have lived for 17 years is so strange, so what else can I miss.

I leaned against the back of the car mat and fell asleep unconsciously.

This is probably the first time I fell asleep so peacefully, no one woke me up, and I was doing my last dream about this city.

Xu Luyan kept letting Uncle Li drive the car. He didn't want to wake up the sleeping boy.

Xu Luyan wanted to be with the other party forever, what would that be like?Should be very happy.

He didn't want to break such a quiet atmosphere.

What's more, he wanted to look at each other like this, maybe he didn't realize how gentle the smile on the corner of his mouth was.

The next day, I was in a daze. I was taken to the airport by Xu Luyan without much awareness.

I was just waiting for the plane to take off with Xu Luyan, and I thought that the moment I got on the plane, some fragments of my past would flash in my mind, but there was nothing.

Without my parents, without Xu Jinyi, without any fragments of this city, it seems that those people and things have never appeared in my life.

I just realized that there are very few things left in my heart, and I don't want to be sad and unforgettable as some people say.

Probably I really don't have anything to miss in this city.

The clouds outside the plane window are so white, and they are so close, but they can't be touched. This is also a great sadness.

Xu Luyan looked at the people around him in a daze, and frowned slightly. Was he a little too selfish, but he didn't want to let go of what he wanted so easily, he was afraid that he would regret it in the future.

"Still reluctant?" Xu Luyan's voice faded in my ear, and I turned my head to look at him.

"No." I answered so firmly, and it was also my truest thought, I really didn't miss it at all.

Xu Luyan looked at me and smiled helplessly, "If not, then don't look sad."

I was silent and nodded slightly.

Maybe, everyone will have a little emotion that can't be let go, but under the condition of time to dilute in the future, that emotion will be wiped away.

I wonder if I will regret my decision in the future?But I'm not far away, am I?

Inexplicably, I felt a chill on my face, but nothing happened after I wiped it, maybe it was just my illusion again.

I didn't look at the time, I just hope it goes faster, so I will forget a lot of things, and my troubles will disappear.