fleet citizen

She felt that the universe was really dark.At first she thought that at least a small area was bright, but in the end she found that she couldn't even figure out what the people she thought closest to her wanted.

She even doubted whether what she had done for so many years was meaningful.Did that person really want to be with her in the first place?Or just want to find a helper, and Yuan Yu happened to be attracted by her.Yuan Yu thought that he and her were like-minded, but maybe that was just Yuan Yu's own illusion.That person likes star travel, but maybe she doesn't see Yuan Yu as her kind, she just sees Yuan Yu as a follower - if so, then it was a mistake for them to form an identical relationship in the first place.

Yuan Yu wants to share all benefits and face all problems with her, but that person may not be willing.Because she has talent, she can make a greater contribution, and being with Yuan Yu is holding her back.Yuan Yu felt that he should realize this earlier, and have a clearer understanding of himself earlier, so that he would not be hurt so badly later.

Even Yuan Yu felt that that person might not think that they were in the same relationship.This is legally true, but Yuan Yu has always been following her footsteps and meeting her needs, and there seems to be nothing left for them other than that.Yuan Yu researched curvature drive for her, developed a more advanced spaceship for her, and formulated a more reasonable route for her. She is more like her technical advisor than her family.And when this technical consultant can be replaced by others, of course there is no need to continue to remember.Even now Yuan Yu can really be a technical consultant, and interstellar explorers including that person can come to her for reference, but they don't form a full-fledged relationship with her.

If so, then things are really absurd.It can't even be regarded as that person's fault. At that time, the marriage system had not been completely abolished, and the same-sex relationship was not as strict as it is now.All the faults fundamentally came from Yuan Yu herself. She didn't understand that that person only regarded her as a partner in work, and she didn't understand that because of her mediocrity, that person was destined to leave her in this way in the end .

Yuan Yu felt that she really needed to think about it.She still wants to continue to do research on curvature drive, so she will inevitably encounter something related to that person.She had to overcome this sensitivity, maybe just like that person forgot her, she also forgot those past events, and only regarded that person as a famous interstellar explorer who had nothing to do with her.

But no matter how much she tried to enlighten herself, it was completely useless, and it even made her thoughts more chaotic.She walked back and forth in the lounge, but she couldn't shed tears when she closed her eyes, and couldn't scream when she opened her mouth.She tore the hair rope from the back of her head and threw it on the ground, trying to shake her head and mess her hair like a savage to release the mood, but finally picked up the hair rope on the ground and tied her hair again .

She felt that something was chaotic in her heart, gathering strength to spew out, but it was not anger.She has no one to get angry with, let alone herself.Not so much resentment at that person's betrayal as dissatisfaction with her own mediocrity.

Just as Yuan Yu was tangled in the lounge, he heard the siren from the control room on the upper floor.

Yuan Yu quickly called up the control panel, which showed that there was a small ion-propelled shuttle following behind the "crow", and the shuttle sent her a communication request.

Yuan Yu passed the application strangely, and then heard Qin Jianguo's voice: "Yuan, I'm behind you."

"I can see it." Yuan Yu replied coldly.

"Let me go to your boat?" Qin Jianguo asked cautiously.

Yuan Yu really wanted to refuse, telling him to go home, unless she figured it out and went back by herself, don't bother her.However, she suddenly thought that Qin Jianguo, as her family, would also worry about her, and Sergey and Mint would also worry about her.Qin Jianguo would come to her if they regarded her as family, and if she also regarded them as family, she should let him enter the hatch.

Yuan Yu issued an automatic docking command, and the shuttle docked with the hatch at the tail of the "Crow" in a short while.After a rustle of air released between the docking hatches, Yuan Yu heard some hurried footsteps downstairs, and Qin Jianguo appeared at the stairs of the lounge.

"What are you doing here?" Yuan Yu didn't have the mood to talk to him.

Qin Jianguo looked at her, but smiled gently: "Sergei told you to go home for dinner."

"Keep my share." Yuan Yu walked to the other side of the bulkhead, facing the vast universe outside, clicked on the starry sky map on the control panel, and said subtly, "I still have work to do. "

"Is it the navigation plan?" Qin Jianguo approached her carefully, but his tone seemed to really believe that she was working, "Can I have a look too?"

Perhaps it was because his concern was obvious, or maybe his voice was too harmless, the hostility in Yuan Yu's heart dissipated a lot because of this, and he turned slightly so that Qin Jianguo could also see the holographic projection of the [-]D model of the Milky Way .

Qin Jianguo looked at the map of the starry sky quietly for a while, and then sighed softly: "The universe is so big. Just one galaxy occupies such a large space. Although it is empty, it is full of unknowns, tempting people to explore. "

"That's why there are interstellar explorers." Yuan Yu said lightly.

"However," Qin Jianguo said gently, his eyes still on the starry sky map, "The fundamental purpose of interstellar explorers to explore beyond the known star fields of the fleet is to protect those in those known spaces." people."

He stretched out his slender, graceful and extraordinarily fair fingers, and drew a line around the starry sky map, "The infinite distance, the unknown space invites people to explore," and then withdrew his hand, covering it with the tips of three fingers. The star field where the fleet is located on the disk of the Milky Way, "However, this is where people's hearts are."

Yuan Yu quickly understood what he meant.The citizens of the fleet explore space and seek the truth, in essence, to understand those unknown things, so as to better develop and protect the fleet itself in the known star field.Although the unknown part of the universe is vast, but in the known part, there are their families, their friends, and 70 billion comrades like them.

Therefore, any citizen of the Fleet can go and explore wherever the warpship can go, but will always remember that the place where the Fleet is is their home.Only with a home and a place they want to protect can they have the motivation to explore the unknown and the courage to fight against the darkness.

For fleet citizens, the fleet is where there are comrades, and home is where there are family members.Anyone can open up to their comrades, and anyone can share their joys and sorrows with their family members.People protect the fleet and their home, but they are also protected by their comrades and their families.If the voyage is too tiring, if it is too dark outside, you can still go home and walk into the faint but real lights lit by the family.

Thinking of this, Yuan Yu couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth slightly.

She knew that Qin Jianguo said that on purpose.Qin Jianguo is very shrewd, but he can make people like him; because he has experienced similar things, he can even understand Yuan Yu better than Sergey.But Sergey is too honest, defending his shortcomings and admitting death, it is really impossible not to let people trust and rely on him.Mint is very cute. In fact, he is a very down-to-earth and persistent person. He can even read books like "A Brief History of the Fleet". No matter what he does in the fleet, this kind of person will gain something.

She suddenly felt how lucky she was to have such a family.

But at this time, before Yuan Yu realized it, she had temporarily forgotten about that person.