Dedicated to Luhe

If, I mean if.

If I hadn't known that Lu He was not gay, I would have suspected that he was confessing to me.

But the question is, do I really know?

When did he say he wasn't gay?

In the few seconds I watched him in silence, I suddenly realized a problem, that is, Lu He never discussed his sexuality with me.

Of course, generally speaking, people will always default to each other as straight, unless you are surrounded by gays.

I tacitly agreed that Lu He was chasing girls, but the problem is, he didn't admit it.

It is shameful to speculate on others, and it is even more shameful to speculate on others' sexual orientation.

But the few seconds I stared at him made me doubt life very much.

I pretended to laugh easily: "This is what I said..."

I stood up, picked up a bottle of mineral water on the table, unscrewed the cap hard, and said before drinking: "I don't know, I thought you were confessing to me."

I tried my best to sound like a joke, and I said, "Lu He, you can't do this, you know I'm gay."

"I know."

While he was talking, I started to drink water, trying to quench the little fire that was crazily rising inside of me.

A single spark can start a prairie fire, but I can't just set myself on fire, it's not appropriate.

I told myself to take it easy while drinking water, thinking about things a little bit, Lu He was impossible.

However, before my flame was extinguished, I heard Lu He say: "If you want to understand it as a confession, I have no objection."

The plastic water bottle exploded in my hand. I only drank a few sips of the water that cost two yuan a bottle, and sprayed it all over the place.

When I turned to look at Lu He, his face was covered with water and his clothes were also wet.

I couldn't react at all, and I didn't even think about wiping his face with a tissue. I just looked at him like an idiot, and I was stunned for about... I don't know how long.

In short, it should be a long time, so long that Lu He frowned and asked me: "Is it because you were scared by me?"

I'm such an adult, except for ghosts, other things don't scare me, I just find it a little unbelievable.

It's like the students who take the naked test are told that they are the first in the grade. Is this possible?

I said, "Lu He, don't make trouble. A person like me who is always thirsty in the emotional world can't stand such a joke. If he takes it seriously, then you will be in trouble."

Lu He said, "Why do you think I'm joking with you?"

He took out a tissue to wipe his face, then took out another clean one, took off his glasses, and wiped it carefully.

Looking down to wipe his glasses, he said, "I look like I'm joking?"

When Lu He became serious, he really felt a sense of oppression, which made me dare not breathe.

"Then... don't you really come here to repay your kindness?" I said, "Although I saved your life, I am not Xu Xian, nor are you Bai Suzhen, so there is really no need for a promise. Although I have been single for 30 years , but it doesn't have to be."

Lu He finished wiping his glasses, put them on again, and sat there looking at me.

He said, "Ask you a question."

"Hey, you ask." The atmosphere was a little weird, and I panicked.

"Do you like me?" As if afraid of my misunderstanding, he explained specifically, "I want the kind of liking in love. I want to hold hands with me, kiss me, and do other things with me. Do you feel this way?"

It's so straightforward.

I don't know what to do other than swallow my saliva.

"Then let me ask in another way," Lu He said, "are you willing to change your sexual fantasy object from Beckham to me?"

There is not much difference between changing and not changing, it is still very straightforward.

I raised my hand and rubbed my wet face with my wet arm, guessing that the whole person looked very embarrassed now.

What are you doing now?

I'm being confessed?

Still being fooled?

Or...are you acting in an idol drama at eight o'clock?

No, it's definitely not the eight o'clock file, and gay themes won't pass the review.

My mind started to wander again.

"Shu Wang."

Lu He's voice brought my attention back.

I said: "Lu He, whether I like you or not is not the point, the point is that I don't need you to repay me in this way."

"I don't have one." Lu He stood up, picked up the towel I threw there from the side of the bed, and rubbed my face vigorously.

He seemed to be a little angry, and when he wiped my face, his hands were quite strong, very much like the posture my mother used to wipe my face when I was a child, wishing I could peel off a layer of skin.

"You think too much," he said.

What am I thinking too much about?

"If I want to repay you for that incident, there are many ways to achieve the goal. Life is not an idol drama, and no one will really dedicate themselves to it." Lu He said, "I like you because I like you."

like me?

What does he like about me?

"what do you like about me?"

"I don't know." Lu He said, "It's just a feeling."

With a towel in his hand, he was standing within half an arm's reach of me. We were so close that I could even see the mole at the corner of his eye.

We were really close, and I never knew he had a mole in the corner of his eye before.

I stared at his mole, and heard him say to me: "In the beginning, I really wanted to take care of you because I was grateful to you, and I didn't even feel that I fell in love with you when you learned how to cook. .”

I took half a step back, I really couldn't bear him being so close to me, my heartbeat was too loud, and it would disturb him.

"I have been a smart person since I was a child, but I can't see clearly about this matter." Lu He said, "I don't know what is attracted to you, but I think everything about you is very attractive to me. Of course, I want to reiterate that I didn't fall in love with you because you told me unintentionally that I would rather die than live. This kind of relationship came so strangely that I don't know, but it just happened."

He said: "You are the only one in my life circle who likes men as much as I do. I used to feel very lonely, but now I am very fortunate that the only one is you. It is very fortunate."

What is he saying?

My mind doesn't turn at all.

"Then you chose me because of this?"

"You are too stupid." Lu He said, "No, you are too cautious."

Seeing me step back, he also took half a step back.

We kept our distance, and he said to me: "I didn't know this until I fell in love with you, so I wanted to boil the frog in warm water."

"You call me a frog?"

"Yes, you're a frog," he said, "I wanted to simmer slowly, but today I'm so rushed, I don't want to procrastinate."

He sighed: "If there is a big fire, it will all end together."

What he said made me want to sigh too. After so long, why are you so slow?

Is his fire too small?Or am I just too stupid?

The floor of my room was wet because of the bottle of mineral water.

When I looked down and saw the water on the floor, I found myself a little dizzy.

"Lu He," I said, "I have something to ask."

"Tell me." He was very serious, like a project manager waiting for the opening of the bid.

I raised my head, looked at him, frowned like him, and asked him, "Does our company... allow office romance?"

It's a good job, and I don't really want to quit just yet.