Rebirth of the Double-faced Superstar

"...And what I didn't even know was that I had already wet my pants..."

"Jiang Feng didn't seem to know how to be afraid. She covered my mouth and asked me to get off the chair. She said that your pants are wet, so why don't we just go play in the water. I was scared in my heart. I don't know how her father treats Lianlian. What are you doing, but I knew at that time that her father was a policeman, and he looked majestic, which made me fear him inexplicably."

"So we went to the bathroom to play in the water. After a long time, Lianlian also came. Her face was whiter than usual. She told me that brother, my stomach hurts, and I want to go back..."

"Your master was smoking a cigarette by the door. I still remember his expression at that time. It was the expression of a person struggling with one foot in heaven and one foot in hell. His brows, and the look of dodging and escaping after committing a crime."

"He sent us back to the orphanage and packed us a bag of delicious things. When he handed us over to the aunt in the yard, I saw your master greedily lingering on Lianlian's body with his eyes. Then, his eyes swept to me again, he knelt down, hooked my chin and whispered in my ear, "Broken teeth, such a big guy peed his pants, how shameful! Don't worry, I will Keep this secret for you, this is our common secret!"

"I saw him squatting in front of me, his neck was just at the level of my eyes, I could see his Adam's apple sliding up and down with what he said, I don't know why, at that time I , A weird and terrifying thought came to my mind, this old man looks really annoying, his long neck is really annoying, he is the one who caused Lianlian to bleed so much, one day, I will also let your There is as much blood on the neck as hers!"

"That night, I, who was already asleep, woke up again by a strange coincidence, and I couldn't sleep anymore."

"I know that the old dean was on duty in the courtyard that day. He is recognized as a good leader in the courtyard. Whenever he is on duty on holidays and Sundays, he will take the initiative to transfer to his shift."

"I ran to his room. He was still awake and was leaning on the bed reading a book. When he saw me rushing in without knocking on the door, he hurriedly put the book in his hand under his body and straightened his pants."

"At that time, I was still young, and I didn't quite understand his embarrassed and annoyed expression. When I grew up, I naturally understood that he should be reading some colored book to comfort himself at that time, but I bumped into him."

"I told him what I had been holding back for a whole day like a bamboo tube pouring beans, because he is the kindest and greatest grandfather in the hearts of all our orphans. I told him what the policeman did to Lianlian, and told him that Lianlian had shed a lot of blood !"

"His face suddenly changed color, white for a while, blue for a while, walking back and forth in the room, finally, he pulled me to sit on the bed, firmly grasped my wrist, with a seriousness that I have never seen before. He looked at me with a straight face, and told me that this matter was not allowed to be told to anyone other than him, otherwise, he would drive me and Lian Lian out of the orphanage."

"I don't know why the old dean has such a face. It's a very strange face. Speaking of it, it seems that what I said is related to him. But his appearance scares me. After all, he is our last Respected Grandpa Dean, I have never seen him look so stern and stern. So I don't understand why he threatened me and asked me not to mention it."

Luo Xi suddenly smiled coldly in the recording.

"So after I gradually understood, I understood, because he, like your master, has done ugly things to Lian Lian that are worse than beasts. He won't let me tell others about your master, of course I want the truth about Lianlian being bullied by others not to be revealed. Because in that case, it is very likely that his actions will also be revealed. Of course, these are all after I grow up, and it is also when Lianlian finally It was only after the accident that I finally understood.”

Luo Xi in the recording pen seemed to pause for a few seconds.

The recorder was still working, Fu Xindong stared at the red indicator light closely, and seemed to see the boy's painful expression when he recalled the past in his mind.

"Uncle, do you know? Since that day, I seem to have grown up a lot overnight. From then on, I will quietly pay attention to Lianlian's whereabouts, instead of going crazy like boys of the same age every day." Playing. Slowly, some people found that I became more and more quiet and silent. They all said that this is the performance of children growing up. They don't know that under my calm and peaceful appearance, my heart is in one Strange changes happen every day."

"As time goes by, I finally know where the candy and other small snacks that Lianlian often brought to me in the past came from. I also know that she often gets ignorant from which small shop outside the gate. come out, sometimes with disheveled hair, and sometimes with scars all over the dark places of the body."

"I found that I started to hate her inexplicably, and sometimes I would deliberately crush the things she brought me. But uncle, you know, you understand me, I don't really hate her, but I can't say it from the bottom of my heart. I feel sorry for her and pity her. But I don't know what to do, I can't help her, especially when I secretly saw her being taken to the duty room alone by the old dean and didn't come out for a long time, I was angry again , and afraid."

"I'm mad at myself because I know this poor girl is being ravaged by these old brutes and have no idea what to do."

"I began to dream non-stop. In my dreams, sometimes I would dream that I was actually a child of a wealthy family, with a handsome father and a beautiful mother. However, it seemed that my mother had disappeared since I was very young. Yes, in my dream, I would often cry for my mother until I woke up."

"More often, I will have a lot of murderous nightmares. I dream of some bloody scenes. It is a strong warrior who kills many of his enemies at night. Every time, he will let the blood of his enemies spurt It’s everywhere. And I always get unspeakable pleasure in such horrible nightmares. Uncle, do you know that my first nocturnal emission was after I dreamed of killing an old man.”

He seemed to pause.

"When I was overwhelmed and extremely excited by the first male physical pleasure in my life, I still clearly remembered that the face of the old man who was killed in the dream... was the face of your master."

"Finally, it's the day when Lianlian's accident happened."

"At that time, she and I were both 13 years old. The winter in the north had just passed, and we all started to change into thin clothes. At this time, I found that Lianlian's stomach seemed to be wrong."

"Really, I was the first to find out about this. Because the children were all wearing loose cotton padded clothes before, and everyone looked round and chubby. Lian Lian's body has changed, and no one will notice it at all. But when we put on our spring clothes that day, it was when your master came to pick us up to play at their house on the weekend, only the two of us went back to the bedroom first."

"I changed my clothes in twos and then went to help her. This has been a habit developed over the years. After all, her IQ is not enough, and the older she gets, the less she can take care of herself, and I am her elder brother, so I have been in the courtyard all the time. I have always taken care of her."

"So, I found out that her belly was big. Although I was only 13 years old, I was no longer as silly and innocent as I was a few years ago. I thought of something almost immediately. , Lianlian's belly must have a child!"

"I remember that I suddenly became unspeakably manic and angry. This poor girl, whose IQ is only three or two years old, and an orphan who is only 13 years old, was played by someone to conceive a child. Moreover, even though I have quietly mastered the beasts that almost certainly hurt him, God knows whose wild seed is in her belly!"

"I grabbed her and asked, shouted, and shook her like crazy. But she thought I was playing with her, and she just giggled, but couldn't say what I wanted to know at all, you know, at that moment , I know I'm going crazy!"

"I thought of the policeman waiting to pick us up in the mail room, your master, thinking that he was going to pick us up, and then coax me and his daughter to play some boring games, and he himself, would take Lianlian and disappear For two hours, the dirtiest thing in the world."

"I thought of the old dean, who was a smiling grandpa in front of the children every day, but would sneak Lianlian into the dormitory when he was on night shift... Fuck it, beasts! They're all beasts!"

Luo Xi's mood has obviously changed drastically, and the incomparable anger caused by recalling the past can be heard from the tone of his voice.

"There are also those who pick up rags and open small shops, they are all a bunch of damn things, and I don't know which one of them left unidentifiable wild species in Lianlian's stomach. "

"Uncle, do you know that at that time, I was only 13 years old, and I already had extremely abnormal emotions. The hatred in my heart was getting stronger every day, and at that time, I looked silly and didn't do anything. Lianlian who understands, looking at her bulging belly, I...I couldn't control myself, I grabbed her like crazy, and pulled her to the front of the stairs, she...she didn't understand anything, she was still smiling at me Hey, call me brother, brother, what are you doing..."

"What are you doing? Uncle, you know what I did! I dragged her up the stairs, pushed her hard, and watched her fall straight down from above, rolling all the way down, and she just screamed and disappeared The sound, the whole person fell on the slow platform like a soft rag doll."

"Did you know Uncle, our kind of stairs are very long, she just kept rolling down like that, and then fell there, motionless, with blood all over her body, all blood!"

"Uncle... don't be surprised, yes, it was me, I ended her life with my own hands. But at that time, I really just, just wanted to get rid of the child in her stomach."

"When I saw her motionless, I was stunned, but I reacted quickly. I cried and ran to the front and told everyone that Lian Lian fell down the stairs. When the ambulance came, I've been crying so hard."

"Lianlian stopped breathing in the hospital that night due to broken internal organs and massive bleeding."

"Shortly after that day, the Jingbei Orphanage lost another orphan of the same age, and it was me, your Luoxi."