Rebirth of the Double-faced Superstar

Fu Xindong found that the cigarettes in the cigarette case had been smoked by himself.

Luo Xi's voice in the recorder seemed to have become a little hoarse, but it was still so low and calm.

"Uncle, since then, for more than ten years, I have been wandering and wandering alone in the wilderness of this world."

"I ran to the pier with the opera troupe who ran around the rivers and lakes. While doing tricks, I begged the big horns in the class to learn to sing opera. I ran out at night to buy wine and vegetables for others. I was desperately saving money, I wanted to go to school, and I wanted to be a leader like a normal person, with unlimited scenery.”

"But, that's all during the daytime."

"During the day, I am like a weed under the weight of a huge boulder. Because I have been baptized by the sun in the cracks, I know that there is still warmth and hope in this world. I stretched hard, rushed, and desperately wanted The boulder that was pressing on the top of the head pushed away, trying to create more opportunities for myself to absorb the sun."

"So, in the daytime, in everyone's eyes, I am that cheerful and lively handsome boy."

"But at night, in countless dreams dripping with cold sweat, I became the murderer who pushed my sister down the stairs with my own hands."

"I began to be more and more afraid of the night, because the boundless night seemed to have penetrated my soul. It made me suffer from memories all the time."

"I can no longer separate myself from the tragic past, every night, no matter whether I open or close my eyes, the faces of those ugly, obscene men will appear in front of my eyes in turn like a revolving lantern. "

"At the beginning, my eyes were still their living faces. Slowly, in my mind, they have gradually turned into bloody corpses. That's right! Since then, I have been imagining how Kill them sleepless night after night."

"They have grown into long and deep thorns in my heart, making me breathless, and even the lightest breath will feel pain that cannot be eliminated. These thorns can't be pulled out quickly."

"Moreover, I not only want to pull them out, I also want to cut off the ugly roots of those sluts, so that these beasts will never have children and grandchildren forever!"

Fu Xindong bit his lips firmly, he could hear from Luoxi's gradually changing tone that this boy was talking about the intense indignation and twisted soul of the tragic past.

Yes, I have to say that this kind of Luoxi is like a blooming poppy flower in a dark corner, as beautiful as it is beautiful, but it has long been poisonous.

"Finally, time has come to a certain day this year, to the day when I found out that Lianlian was bullied by your sanctimonious master more than ten years ago."

"All the hatred and curses, all the depression and anger, finally, let me pick up the knife of revenge on that day."

"Do you know, deep down in my heart, for so many years, the first person to kill is your master."

"At that time, I just received a private invitation from the crew of "Return to Come". Because Ye Guizhou was suddenly bedridden, he fell ill in a hotel in Huangshan and fell into a coma. The crew was filming a major dance on Tiandu Peak. Yaxi could no longer be dragged on, so they found me in private."

"I promised them to go to the emergency, so the night before I left, I finally came to your master's house, a place I have been observing secretly for a long time."

"To be honest, Uncle, compared to those who were killed by me later, your master's house is indeed the most difficult to enter. Because he is a sophisticated old policeman, and he also has the ability to surpass ordinary peers. But , These are all difficult for me, because I have been preparing for too long, his daily living habits, when there will be other people at home, how to knock on his door smoothly, all possible occurrences, I have already prepared Clearly understood."

"So, on that day when the milkman was supposed to come to collect milk fees on a monthly basis, I knocked on his door with my best imitation."

"He is worthy of being an old policeman. He tried to fight back and defend himself the moment I found something abnormal after breaking in. It's a pity, uncle, he doesn't know how many years I have been preparing for this day! How could I resist him? Chance?"

"And he, after all, is in his dying years, how could he be the opponent of me, a well-armed, young and strong Avenger? What's more, how does he know what kind of deep-rooted hatred that red-eyed me carries, How much strength that hatred has brought me!"

"I killed him, and viciously cut off that thing, and fed it to the wild dogs in the suburbs. Uncle, you know, no matter how many times I have seen such pictures in dreams before, but when I kill it with my own hands After touching him, the intense, even frightening pleasure hit me like a tsunami. That feeling made me excited, and made me convulsively excited, Uncle, can you understand my feeling?"

"No, uncle, don't be angry with me... I know, you must be sad, sad, and even half ashamed when I say this, right, uncle?"

Fu Xindong shook his head vigorously, but did not open his tightly closed eyes.It's just that his fingers that were clasping each other were already crackling.

"Uncle... After that, you already know everything, and I don't want to tell you the same details of murders. It's nothing more than that I can't get rid of my demons. Really, those who have been hidden for many years The shadows in my heart, their restraint and hints to me in my dreams every night... Uncle, I really can't resist."

"Uncle, do you know? When I met you in such a day when I was sinking deeper and deeper into the abyss, when your affectionate eyes lightly projected towards me, I My heart, like the snow on the top of a glacier, has been melted too much by your warm love and care."

"At one point, I even thought that maybe God had forgiven me, who was so sinful, that I would bring you, who is as warm as sunshine, to my side to melt my coldness and extinguish the fire of hatred."

"Uncle, I really want to rein in the precipice and go ashore, hold your hand, and live the most ordinary but happiest life in the world. You cook soup, I wash dishes; you go to work, I film; exercise together, Walking together, shopping together, going home together, having sex together... Really, I want to, I really want to..."

Luo Xi's voice echoed in the recording pen, and anyone could hear the irrepressible tenderness and sadness in the voice.

Fu Xindong lay flat on the bed, motionless, only the corners of his mouth trembling slightly.

"But Uncle, can you understand how sad it is for a soul deeply surrounded by guilt?"

"When I touch your strong body with my murderous hands, there will always be an inexplicable force that wants my fingers to escape from your chest quickly. When I snuggle in your warm embrace and look at your chest and forearm One glorious and holy scar after another, I always feel that every touch and kiss I will pollute the scars that symbolize glory and justice."

"Honey, sometimes you question that I don't let go of my body enough, and always worry that it's your bravery that my body can't bear. How do you know, for me, how much I want my heart and My body will open closed doors for you."

"But, uncle, do you know? In my body, even every cell is fighting against itself all the time. The more I want to have you, the more I want to escape from you, because everything about you represents Everything about me symbolizes justice, kindness, loyalty and love, while everything about me symbolizes sin, ugliness, betrayal and hatred."

"Yes, I hate myself as much as I love you!"

"I can't forget the collision with you in the night when I was running after the murder, the rainy alley, and your deep voice and strong arms."

"Uncle, I can't forget the pot of chicken soup you brought to the hospital. I drank it very cleanly. I don't think you may have noticed. I wiped away the tear from the corner of my eye behind your back."

"From birth to growing up, I have always been a lonely child with a lonely soul. Someone fed me, gave me shelter, gave me care and help, but no one gave me love, gave me like Love like yours is warm and quietly illuminates that lonely and cold heart."

"Uncle, when I know that you love me as much as I love you, when I know that the man who is as tall and firm as a green pine will regard myself as his sweetheart, you know how cruel I was and how many times I bit it. Lips, how many slaps have you given yourself!"

"Because I want to run away from you, Uncle, you know that!"

"Because you are a policeman who symbolizes justice, and I, I am a criminal with a rotten heart and a broken body. I am afraid of your serious attitude of looking for evidence and finding the truth, and I am even more afraid that you will find out who you are chasing. It's the disappointment when you are the lover on the tip of your heart, no, it should be said to be despair, really, the feeling that life is worse than death, I really don't want you to taste it."

"But, but I am such a selfish child, because I have never had such love. Ever since I was thrown by the river, since I was a baby, I have been accepted by one family after another. Ever since I pushed away, ever since I learned to read people's faces early in the orphanage, I have longed for someone, someone who is like a father and brother, who can give me his shoulders to rely on, and who can take care of me. His embrace warms me, Uncle, that person is you!"

"So, so I still approached you, walked into your heart, and walked into the only days in this life that made me feel happy and missed."

"But, but I know that all of this will finally... finally come to an end."

"Uncle, the crimes I committed, the people I killed, there is no other way but myself to bear the consequences. I can't let you cover up and let me go, and then torture my soul forever on the high platform of justice. I I can't let my sin defile the divine justice. Faced with all this, I have no choice but to die as an apology. But my love, I really love you, so much that you can never imagine. I can do it for you Death, no matter how many times I block the gun, as long as it is for you, I will have no regrets. For you, I hope that even if my body is smashed to pieces, my soul can linger in Huangshan forever, waiting for you, come and see me."

"Uncle, the day you and I first met, above Wanren Tiandu, in the vastness of clouds and mist, we met each other because of fate. Now I am going. The world is so big that I don't choose any other place, and I am still here." The sky is extremely high, the green pines are like a cover, and the valley is a grave, so I will use it as my burial place. Meet here, part here, let me live in this place where I can become a fairy and fly forever, I believe, here If you can bury my body, you can definitely save my reborn soul!"

"Uncle, if there is an afterlife, you must remember your little carrot and Luoxi, I will always... love you!"