my therapist freaked out

The feeling of being in the subway station in the afternoon came again.Ke Fan reacted quickly, and immediately struggled to turn over, wanting to see what was going on.

But he was thumping on the bed like a drowning duck. Because he got up too late in the morning, the quilt that he slept all night was not folded.He couldn't even look back.

"Damn it, it must be that personality competing for my body!" Ke Fan thought of this, he pulled up 12 points of energy, and his whole body was full of energy.

Stay awake and protect your personality!

The cold touch on the back of the neck was obvious, and Ke Fan felt like a chicken being held by the neck to be sold in the market.Something cold like a rope and like fingers grabbed his throat and slowly tightened it.

Ke Fan couldn't breathe for a moment, his face that had just turned white from fright slowly turned red, and he struggled again, but with all his strength, his fingers were only slightly raised.

"You...can't kill me..." Ke Fan stared at him, struggling to discuss with his sub-personality who refused to breathe, "I'm dead, uh, you...also, don't, think, live... .”

The pressure on his neck disappeared instantly, and his tense body instantly went limp. He gasped for breath, and found that his hands and feet were free again.

Ke Fan was bored in the quilt for a while like an ostrich, and then slowly got up.He glanced at the four corners of the room vigilantly, walked slowly to the living room, and wanted to take the medicine.

His hands were shaking badly, he picked up the glass on the coffee table, and planned to pour warm water to take the medicine.

Even though he was frightened like this, Ke Fan insisted on taking medicine strictly according to the doctor's advice.

He picked up the thermos bottle on the ground, uncorked the bottle, and poured half of it into the glass, only to find that the water was already completely cold.He has been out of his mind for the past few days, so he doesn't have the energy to boil hot water.

Ke Fan looked at the psychotropic drugs in the aluminum foil package and the half-glass of water that could hardly feel the heat. He put the thermos bottle on the ground, sat on the sofa and began to cry.

His thin body seemed lonely and vulnerable in this small room.

Ke Fan was very sad, how could he have such a disease.

If you can't control it, will you be insane to the point of suicide?

Ke Fan held his head and cried for a while, tears falling down uncontrollably.

He finally finished venting, it was already dark outside the window, Ke Fan was dizzy and his stomach was growling from crying.

He shook his head, intending to boil some water and take medicine.

As long as you take your medicine well, you will be fine.It was so difficult when I was young, and I have grown up so much, now everything is better, I must not give up, I must live my life well!

Ke Fan encouraged himself, stood up and walked to the kitchen.But after taking two steps, he suddenly felt that something was not quite right.

Ke Fan's pace slowed down, he looked at his skirt and trousers.

When I cried just now, the place where the tears fell down did not become wet at all.

Ke Fan's heart skipped a beat, and then it vibrated violently.

He turned his head abruptly, staring at the sofa he was sitting on just now, everything was as usual, nothing was wrong.

The whole room became extremely quiet, and the sound of Ke Fan swallowing saliva was deafening to his own ears.

Suddenly, that cold touch came again, and gently wiped away the last wet tears on his face.

Ke Fan was startled, he didn't dare to move, he was so scared that he almost wet his pants.After a while, nothing happened.Ke Fan walked quickly to the kitchen, took the electric kettle and turned on the faucet, dazed in the rushing water.

What exactly is going on.Ke Fan, don't be afraid, baby, don't be afraid, take the medicine, you'll be fine after taking the medicine.

Ke Fan liked to comfort himself since he was a child. He grew up in an orphanage. When he was sick, sad, and bullied, he would comfort himself, baby, don't be afraid.

He saw other mothers in the park comforting their children like this.

Even now that he has grown up, he is still used to saying this to himself in his heart when encountering things.

After the water was full, it overflowed and wet the back of Ke Fan's hands. He quickly turned off the tap, poured out part of the water and put it on the heating seat, and pressed the button.

Ke Fan thought about it, he went to the bedroom to pick up the phone, the strange thing was that the phone turned on again, showing that there was still more than 70.00% of the battery.

He didn't think too much, and dialed Xiaoxi's number.

Xiaoxi was probably playing a game, and she picked up the CRBT within a few seconds: "Hello, Ke Fan? I may have accidentally pressed the wrong key and hung up just now. If you call again, you will be on the phone. Get better. Is it all right?"

Xiaoxi's enthusiastic voice brought warmth to Ke Fan's cold situation. When Ke Fan spoke, his throat seemed to be choked: "Little, Xiaoxi, can I stay at your place tonight?"

The moment Ke Fan said it, he regretted it. He and Xiaoxi were not very close friends, so if he spoke rashly, would it embarrass Xiaoxi, and he didn't know how to refuse?

Not allowing him to think too much, Xiaoxi's clear voice came through the microphone: "Of course! Do you want to come? Great, great, I'm fine today, so where are you now, do you want me to come?" pick you up?"

Xiaoxi's enthusiasm was open and forthright, so that Ke Fan couldn't help but smile on his face while listening on the phone.

He said, "Where is your home? I'll go there by myself. Don't pick me up."

Ke Fan caressed the bed sheet unconsciously with the hand that was not holding the phone, and quickly asked Xiaoxi for the address, and hung up the phone.

He took a deep breath and straightened his clothes.

Before leaving, Ke Fan cut off the power, he looked at the bathroom door, and wanted to wash his face.But he still had lingering fears about his previous experience, so he had to give up.He changed his shoes at the door, then locked the door and left with a backpack containing a change of clothes and medicine.

When he was about to arrive, he called Xiaoxi. Xiaoxi lived closer to the city center and closer to the company.After receiving his call, he was already waiting for him at the gate of the community.

Ke Fan hurried up to meet him, and said embarrassedly, "Oh, Xiaoxi, thank you."

Xiaoxi glanced at his red eyes indiscriminately, and said with a smile: "You're welcome, I've wanted to invite you to my house for a long time."

"Won't that bother you? Is there anyone else in your house? Does the co-renter mind if you bring someone back?" Ke Fan just remembered this, and came here as soon as his brain got hot. In case Xiaoxi has a boyfriend living with her at home what to do?

Ke Fan scratched his hair angrily, but he still didn't want to go home. If Xiaoxi's house really had someone else, he would go to find an Internet cafe nearby and eat chicken until dawn!

Xiaoxi shook her head as she led him home: "No, I rent my own place, so I won't bother you at all. Don't be so polite. By the way, there is a gay bar nearby that opens today. Do you want to go see it with me?" see?"

Xiaoxi also took Ke Fan to the so-called "gay bar" before. To be honest, Ke Fan didn't like this kind of place very much.He couldn't let go at all, like a quail in a flock of chickens, and he didn't fit in with the people next to him.

Bite the bullet and go gay with Xiaoxi, it's not good to leave immediately.He was sitting on pins and needles on the sofa, and occasionally someone came to strike up a conversation, and he would panic and be full of defenses.It's not enough to push people away like a straight man.

Seeing his reaction, Xiaoxi laughed and said that she couldn't find a boyfriend like this.Although conservative and security-conscious are good things, no 1 will have the patience to like such a 0.

Ke Fan was not very happy at the time, and he didn't have to find 1.

Today Xiaoxi brought it up again, and he wanted to refuse with a bitter face, but seeing Xiaoxi looking forward to it, he hesitated.

"Don't worry, this bar is opened by my old friend. The booths are all hidden and closed, and no one will strike up a conversation. You can see the outside from the inside, but people outside can't see the inside." Xiaoxi explained, He took out his mobile phone and showed Ke Fan the photo sent by his friend, "Here, take a look, even if you do it inside, no one will find out. It suits you so much. You can enjoy the outside bar at the deck 1 hey."

"..." Hearing Xiaoxi's explicit words, Ke Fan looked around vigilantly, and was relieved to find no one nearby.

"How about it, go, go, go!" Xiaoxi's eyes were shining, and he gently pushed Ke Fan with his elbow, "Come with me!"

Ke Fan looked at him pretending to be pitiful, begging himself like a puppy, and couldn't help laughing: "Okay then."

Xiaoxi happily said "yeah", and he immediately sent a WeChat message to his friend: "Then I will ask him to reserve a good seat for us!"

Then Xiaoxi took Ke Fan home, and the house Xiaoxi rented turned out to be one bedroom and two living rooms, and the area was not small.Xiaoxi didn't prepare any slippers, and Ke Fan didn't bring any slippers himself, so he had to walk around on the floor wearing socks.

"Wow, Xiaoxi, the house you rented is so big!" It must have cost a lot of money, but Ke Fan swallowed the last sentence. It is not good to talk about money with colleagues who are not too close.

Xiaoxi was busy rummaging through boxes and cabinets, spraying her hair with setting spray: "Ah, is it, it's okay."

Then he called Ke Fan over, looked at his white T-shirt and suit pants, and frowned: "Hey, do you have other clothes, this is not an outfit for going to a nightclub."

Ke Fan thought about the clothes in his bag and said, "There are also white shirts for work."

"Pfft!" Xiao Xi burst out laughing, and he waved his hand: "I'm not joking at you, I'm hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!"

Ke Fan couldn't help laughing: "It's okay, I just went to have a look and have fun, just wear this."

Xiaoxi shook her head, and said, "That's not okay, I'm not the kind of green tea diao who uses friends to set off herself, I have to find clothes for you to wear."

"Ah, no need...don't bother Xiaoxi..."

"No, oh, come here!"

Ke Fan still wore a white shirt and suit pants at his own insistence, but Xiao Xi unbuttoned it to the third button and put on a trendy tie.

"It's too big!" Ke Fan looked at the neon sign of "Cross" that appeared in the distance, "How many floors does this gay bar rent?"

Xiaoxi was in high spirits: "That's right, there is an opening performance tonight, that's why I let you come!"

Xiaoxi's friend really left a booth for them. The owner of this gay bar looks like a big guy and a thick guy, and he looks very difficult to mess with.

But the whole body is full of the feeling of 1.

Before coming here, Ke Fan thought the boss was also a zero.After all, this is an era of an aging population.

This man didn't see Ke Fan at all, with a bit of arrogance and obedience, he kept introducing the furnishings of the store to Xiaoxi.

Before eight o'clock, the bar was almost full.

"Ke Fan, can you wait for me at the booth first?" Xiaoxi said apologetically, "I'll come as soon as I go with Wu Gang."

Wu Gang finally looked at Ke Fan, and quickly looked him up and down, without saying a word.

Ke Fan walked up to their booth, and sure enough, as Xiaoxi said, this booth has a fully enclosed glass door, and it is impossible to see clearly what's going on inside from the outside.

"Okay, okay, don't worry about me, just go!" Ke Fan said.

"Okay, tonight you and your friends order whatever you want, it's all mine." Wu Gang said to Ke Fan with a smile, but his eyes were fixed on Xiaoxi's waist.

The author says:

Your attack is almost ok, and you can show your face.