This year

On the eve of the winter solstice, Su Zhao moved into a new house and paid the down payment himself. After the renovation, the remaining 50 yuan was donated to several primary schools in impoverished mountainous areas to buy them winter supplies.The house is all decorated with environmentally friendly materials. During the vacant period, it is filled with the plants she raised herself. She can move in when it is vacant until the winter solstice. She thinks about the curiosity of those guys in the group over the years about her private life, and decides to let them come to her house to recognize her. Door.

On the day of the winter solstice, Mama Su and Uncle He went to the battle in person, and all the colleagues in the group brought their families to congratulate her on her housewarming. Everyone was also very moved. This baby was finally willing to let them recognize the door. The first feeling after entering the door was, this The decoration seems to be made by someone with a mental cleanliness, it is so simple that there is no superfluous thing, it is indeed Su Zhao's style.After looking around, they all nodded to each other, agreeing that it is basically impossible for two people to live in this house.

Most of the colleagues in the group are married and have children. Only she and Xiao Zhao are lonely. Xiao Zhao is still young. At her age, outsiders think she should get married.There are many children today, and Xiao Hua had a great time playing with them. Su Zhao was always ready to answer all kinds of questions they might ask, but until the dinner, no one of them asked questions about boyfriends, and they had been very happy before. Xiao Xiao's daughter-in-law, who cared about this matter, also focused on teasing the children today, and didn't mention this at all.She didn't know if this was an appointment or not, but it really felt so warm for a moment.

What made her feel even more warm was that Su Yuan didn't tell her that he had prepared a gift for every guest who came. It was a scarf designed by him. He and the proofer made it all by hand. It was very beautiful and warm, and it was worn by children. I like them all so much, I kiss him one by one.The children love to eat the dumplings made by Su's mother, and the adults are full of praise for Uncle He's fried dishes. They are all urging them to open the store in Dongzhou City, preferably near the research institute, and they will visit every day in the future.Su's mother was so happy from ear to ear: "Oh, the rent in that area is expensive. Lao He and I think the place is very good now, and the customers are all regular customers, which is very good. If you want to eat the dishes made by your uncle and aunt, you can give it Su Zhao said, we will come here to cook, and you also come to eat."

The night was getting darker and darker. Su Ma wanted to clean up after the guests left, but Su Zhao refused to let her go. She took Su Yuan and He Han to clean up, and then watched TV with them for a while.After they all rested, the two mother and daughter walked to the balcony together, looking at the lights of Wanjia outside, they didn't speak for a while.The glass of water in Su's mother's hand was almost finished, and then she patted her daughter on the shoulder: "Mom knows that you are sad, and also knows that you are a child who doesn't show emotions, but if you are really sad, you have to tell mom. .”

It's really... very uncomfortable.

Su Zhao lay on Su Ma's shoulder, wiping away the tears that were about to fall, without saying anything.Seeing this scene, He Han, who originally wanted to come quietly to scare them, was inexplicably sad, and went back to the room covered with a quilt and had a hard time.

Su's mother also felt uncomfortable holding the child, but what can she say, if the girl wants to leave, can she still stop her?She also knows that her daughter is not the kind of person who can cry and make troubles to force something, but she just can't figure it out, why is it so difficult, why is it so difficult to find someone to live with.After thinking for a while, he patted Su Zhao: "It's not uncomfortable, there will be a daughter-in-law in the future, don't cry, if you can't do it, why don't you go after Jiayu again..."

It was really funny for a second, and Su Zhao also convinced this mother.

After breaking up with Chu Yanhui for more than two months, the two had no contact with each other. After the breakup, Su Zhao carefully thought about the process of the two from realizing that they were in love and then separating. Yanhui's words, for example, her personality, and Chu Yanhui's personality are complementary if you say it well, but they don't match if you say it badly.For life, it is also the kind that does not create surprises step by step. Unlike some people, they live their lives colorfully and cultivate themselves to have an attractive aura. Standing there and doing nothing, just smiling will be very attractive , such as... Yi Xunyun.Thinking of this, I stopped thinking about it again. Could it be that the responsibility for the failure should be attributed to the intervention of outsiders?

Love is a very unreasonable thing. At the beginning, Chu Yanhui fell in love with her because of a long chat on the beach, but now he can leave unreasonably because he knows the ins and outs of their love.It seemed extremely ridiculous to her, but that's how it happened.

As for Shen Jiayu, to be honest, she really didn't think about this name for more than two months. Although she saw it every day at work, she just saw that feeling just by looking at it in her head.After breaking up with Chu Yanhui, do you have to accept the regretful feelings from your ex now?Then what was the breakup between the two at the beginning, such a sad process, made me almost deny my ability to love at that time, now, Chu Yanhui finally made up for that knife, what is love, it seems to be nothing.

On Christmas Day, Shen Jiayu sent Xiao Hua to act like a baby in order to pull Su Zhao to go shopping together. Along the way, Su Zhao just hugged Xiao Hua to tease her, and basically didn't talk to Shen Jiayu.When the three of them were having Christmas dinner in the restaurant, Su Zhao saw the people at the table not far away, it was Chu Yanhui and Yi Xunyun. For some reason, the moment she looked over, she saw Chu Yanhui's face by illusion. To the anxious desire to explain.

After being patient again and again, I sent a message and made an appointment to meet on the top floor.She made an excuse to go to the bathroom, and Shen Jiayu fed Xiaohua without looking up: "I can see what you see, don't lie to me, go." Su Zhao was speechless for a while, this feeling is really not good how good.

She went to the top floor first, and adults and children were having fun on the big skating rink. When Chu Yan came back up, she handed him a cup of coffee. The two walked to the side and looked outside through the floor-to-ceiling windows. They didn't speak for a while. .

——"Actually, just now, I wanted to explain that she and I are not what you think, but now I feel that this explanation is too redundant."

After not seeing him for more than two months, Chu Yanhui couldn't help but look at Su Zhao secretly, his temperament was even colder than before.She and Yi Xunyun didn't come here for dinner together, but Yi Xunyun was leaving tomorrow, she decided after much deliberation to have a farewell meal, to put an end to her inexplicable heartbeat.After the two had been idle for a while, she still told Su Zhao about the situation, and looked at her with a smile: "So, you got back together with Ms. Shen? Then I also count..."

——"I have never understood your way of thinking. Today, you can tell me thoroughly about Yanhui, or you can tell me firmly that you left me because you didn't love me."

——"Probably a kind of "poor mentality", because of the family situation since I was young, I always felt that I would not get complete love, especially after I met you, the feelings you gave me were so rich and beautiful, I couldn't help it. Serve carefully from time to time, so that kind of worry will increase day by day. It is a kind of thought that I cannot control. If I don’t know that I am the "third party" who broke up you and Shen Jiayu, then this extreme psychology may still be suppressed. Temporarily suppress it for a while, but after knowing it, I am almost counting down the days when you and her get back together every day. That feeling is really going crazy, you know Su Zhao."

——"As for Yi Xunyun, I know that you and Tang Daohe have the same opinion deep down in your heart. You think that I am attracted to her because of her status and her money. In fact, Su Zhao, you are the type I admire the most. Really, she is well-educated, gentle, and can make money. I was tempted by her at that time, and I always felt baffled. Now that I think about it, it’s probably because I know that I don’t need to have any psychological burden when I’m with her, and she will love her. When I disappeared, I clearly cut off all lovers, and so did I. Because of my father's relationship, I was never afraid of any feelings that clearly stated that I would break off, but I would be relieved by it. But you are different from Su Zhao, you are the kind of person who has clearly People who have no feelings but will be bound by responsibilities, the specific manifestation of your not loving someone is not breaking up immediately and decisively, nor using tricks to keep the other person away, you will abuse yourself, and you will hide your true feelings to deal with what you feel Those who are responsible are responsible.”

——"If I say I don't love you anymore, I will keep watching you abuse yourself, and even laugh at your cowardice in my heart. But Su Zhao, I have always loved you, so what you do is really not abuse You yourself are abusing me even more. When I think about this, I feel like a sinner, and I know clearly that there is definitely still affection between you and Shen Jiayu. Therefore, I can only choose to leave you, which is to let us go The two live together."

After Chu Yan finished speaking, Su Zhao also finished his coffee. Holding the coffee cup and looking at the person in front of her, she suddenly understood that if the other person has always had this kind of psychology, no matter how well she does , and it is impossible to keep someone, because the other party nailed her to the assumption that "she will definitely cheat" from the beginning.This is a kind of idea that looks ridiculous to others, but the other party is very serious and persistent.If the other party hadn't taken the initiative to walk out of this narrow path full of thorns, no one would be able to drag her back. What's more, it was indeed some of her own behavior that triggered her to go down this path.

Really... so sad.Stretching out his hand and slowly holding her hand, Su Zhao's eyes were a little moist: "Why don't you be more "cruel", and drag me for the rest of my life as punishment. I know I'm not the best person to heal the thoughts in your heart." Good medicine, but at least, let's try it out, just go on like this, until the day we leave this world, maybe you will find that there is no one else in my heart. Even if there is, you will find that your cruelty has won, because We have lived a lifetime. Yan Hui, okay?"

Su Zhao's words brought tears to her eyes, Chu Yanhui really began to waver, but in the end, she chose to shake her head: "I'm sorry Su Zhao, I really can't do it, at least not now."

——"Yan Hui, I think you are really cruel to me. Isn't the choice of falling in love not staying together? Why do you have to leave, and what you said is making me a prison. In the future, I will be with anyone , are all to confirm your words. I really can't understand why we can't live a good life. "

Both eyes were red, looking at each other, snow began to fall outside the window, Chu Yan recalled the first snowy day they spent together, Su Zhao went downstairs early in the morning and built a snowman for her, "Dabai" ", when I received the call and stood by the window looking at the excited person waving at her below, I really believed for a moment that fairy tales existed, and she was the beloved protagonist in the fairy tales.Time... is cruel.

After she left, Su Zhao watched the snow falling harder and harder outside for a long time, holding back tears in her red eyes, until Xiao Hua came to her side and took her hand and called her aunt to hug her, then she smiled and let the tears fall Come, but shyly hid tears on Xiaohua's bib.