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Being able to reunite with the children who had been separated for many days, apart from the expected emotions and surprises, this was probably the only day in which Jiang Shanglu woke up and felt in a good mood in so many days.

So even though he was still a little uncomfortable, Jiang Shanglu sat up from the bed forcefully, put on his clothes, and hugged Deng Tao, who was still twitching, into his arms.

When he saw Poinsettia next to him and looked at Deng Tao and himself with a little envy, Jiang Shanglu waved at him helplessly, and then he saw Poinsettia smiling happily, and quickly climbed up and threw himself into Jiang Shanglu's arms affectionately. hugged him.

"Have you all eaten dinner? Xie Qin's craftsmanship is worse than mine, right?"

With a lazy expression, he asked with a smile, Xie Qin and him took turns cooking in the Tibetan temple these days, but there was a shortage of supplies on the top of the mountain, so they couldn't find any tricks.

So seeing the two children here together at this moment, Jiang Shanglu inevitably began to worry about whether they were being destroyed by things that even he had no appetite for. When he heard him ask this question, the poinsettia immediately remembered the terrible things Xie Qin made. Smiling and shaking his head,

"No, no, second uncle, what we ate today was not the dinner made by Uncle Xie, but the glutinous rice balls made by Wenying for Xiaotao and me alone. When we went up the mountain today, Sister Guihua, her siblings, and us were killed at the foot of the mountain together. Those big vultures are blocking us, it was Wen Ying and Brother Tang Zong who went down to save us, and then brought everyone up safely, the glutinous rice balls made by Wen Ying are delicious, right Xiaotao?"

"It's okay, there's no such exaggeration, have you never eaten glutinous rice balls in your life? Why don't you be so new to the world!"

The poinsettia was stared reproachfully by her own Xiaotao, and the poinsettia was choked up for a moment, thinking that obviously you ate up all of your own and robbed me of half a bowl, why are you turning your face and denying others now.

And since hearing that Wen Ying made glutinous rice balls for them, Jiang Shanglu's eyes were a bit indescribably complicated. After a while, Jiang Shanglu slowly came back to his senses, and then lowered his head and asked them with a thoughtful smile.

"What kind of stuffing are the glutinous rice balls?"

"Oh, brown sugar and sesame, second uncle, why are you asking this?"

"Nothing... Just ask."

Forcibly swallowing the words on his lips that he was embarrassed to say, Jiang Shanglu sighed and laughed, and it seemed that nothing was wrong, but for the first time, some inexplicable emotions flashed in his eyes.

Seeing this, Deng Tao frowned as if he had vaguely noticed something. After noticing that Jiang Shanglu's cheeks had become much thinner during this time, although he didn't say anything, he was still very worried about him. Deng Tao still thought about it. Biting his lip, he tentatively asked,

"Hey, Jiang Shanglu, let me ask you, what happened to you two while we were away?

"En? What's the matter?" Jiang Shanglu raised his head and smiled deliberately to pretend to be confused.

"Hmmm! Don't play dumb! You think I can't see—"

Before Deng Tao finished speaking, Poinsettia quickly pulled her. Realizing that her tone was really aggressive now, Deng Tao flattened her mouth aggrievedly, fell silent for a while, then lowered her head and twisted her fingers muttered angrily,

"If the two of you really dare to mess around, I won't bother with either of you. Both of you are big villains, and I won't knit scarves for you again."

"No...I swear no."

Being amused by this extremely sensitive little girl, Jiang Shanglu made a lot of promises to make the two children feel at ease, and just talked with the children in such a good atmosphere for a while, and was quarreled His head was a little big, but Jiang Shanglu was still in a good mood, so he listened to Poinsettia and Deng Tao chattering at him one by one,

"Second Uncle, are your shoulders sore? Shall I beat you?"

"I'll come and beat you too! Is it comfortable? What about this side? Do you want to beat the right side again?"

The two lively and restless little guys scrambled to beat his old waist and back. Jiang Shanglu, who had always had problems with his spine, didn't dare to let them mess around, so he hurriedly and helplessly stopped them and was about to sit up and ask casually. down to business.

Coincidentally, the curtain at the door was lifted at this time, and Deng Tao and the others in the room also stopped their movements when they heard the movement. Jiang Shanglu, who was still whispering to them, looked up and saw Ji Cong, whom he hadn't seen for a long time. Yun stood at the door with an uneasy expression, and a tall and thin figure walked in behind him.

Wen Ying.

The moment their eyes met, neither of them took the initiative to speak, and Wen Ying, who looked distant and indifferent, looked at him lightly, paused for a few seconds, and then moved away gently.

Jiang Shanglu, who pursed his lips, didn't react too much when he saw this. He lowered his head and let the two children go out to play by themselves for a while, and then watched Wen Ying who didn't even say a word to him, took the two children and turned around and walked away. up.

The young man who watched Wen Ying leave and went straight to the door smiled. Ji Congyun, whose eye circles were still red, eased a little when he saw this, and walked in slowly to approach him, lowering his head and lightly. lightly said,

"Mr. Jiang, long time no see."

"Well, sit down."

Jiang Shanglu's voice was as chic and calm as before. Ji Congyun was still very uncomfortable for him, but now he felt a little relieved for no reason.

Even though because of his own physical problems, he could clearly see all the terrible sequelae left by microorganisms on Jiang Shanglu's battered body, but thinking of what he had just talked about with Wen Ying outside, Ji Congyun still Taking a deep breath with difficulty, he lowered his head and said with red eyes,

"At that time, I really shouldn't have left. If I stayed—"

Jiang Shanglu stared at him slowly before he finished speaking and stopped in embarrassment. Ji Congyun knew that even if he stayed at that time, he might not be able to help him, he was speechless for a while. It's more of an unspeakable self-loathing in my heart.

And he raised his hand and patted his thin shoulders and hooked the corners of his mouth and couldn't help laughing. Jiang Shanglu, who knew that his current serious illness might scare Ji Congyun, couldn't say much, so he could only relax and continue Changing the subject with a smile,

"I'm fine, and didn't you come to help me this time? I hope everything will go well this time. Speaking of which, do you have time to talk to Wen Ying now during the day?"

Hearing him mentioning Wenying, Ji Congyun's eyes moved for some reason. He didn't know how to describe it to Jiang Shanglu, but he was really a little afraid that the appearance just now looked completely strange, and he could hardly find the connection with the past. Wen Ying for any resemblance.

Seeing him lower his head and twitch the corners of his mouth in embarrassment, Jiang Shanglu, who can probably guess what will happen, also smiled and comforted him, saying,

"In fact, he has been thinking about you very much in his heart, but he has been a little stressed recently, and he is not in a good mood. He looks relatively... well, you have seen it too, but if he dares to say anything to you, you Just don't be polite and scold him directly, if it were you, he would definitely not talk back."

"I... How dare I... I couldn't beat him before, and now it's even more impossible."

Ji Congyun was made very helpless by Jiang Shanglu's words and replied in a funny way. When he was outside, he didn't say a few words with Wen Ying. The main thing he said was about the experiment of planting BCG on Jiang Shanglu. thing.

It's just that Ji Congyun and Wen Ying also confessed the possible fatal danger of BCG in some special groups of people, but thinking of the depressive expression on Wen Ying's face that he couldn't describe in words at that time, he sighed silently The tone of Ji Congyun looked at Jiang Shanglu again, and his eyes became inexplicably serious.

"Mr. Jiang, next I will ask you some more personal questions. I hope you don't mind. I have just asked Wen Ying outside, but some questions still need you to answer me personally. This is related to whether I can I can't plant the BCG vaccine to restore immunity to you now, so please cooperate with me, please?"

"Well, you can ask."

"Have you ever had a history of drug allergies?"

"Yes, I have always had allergic reactions to many anesthetics including morphine, and I had one not long ago, and I had a particularly severe reaction at that time..."

"Have you had myocarditis recently? Is it frequent?"

"Actually, it doesn't affect my life too much, it's just a certain amount of pain, and I can still control it now."

"Uh, okay...then, have you spent the night with Wenying recently?"

Ji Congyun, who lowered his voice and asked the third question, was full of embarrassment and shame on his face. Just now he asked Wen Ying some similar questions outside.

It's just because he needs to ask the patient himself for confirmation, so he needs to ask more questions, and even if he is mentally prepared, he is obviously stunned for a moment. Jiang Shanglu, who knows what the overnight refers to, squints his eyes and thinks seriously After thinking about it, I replied quite naturally and with a smile on my face,

"No, I haven't spent the night with him for almost a month."

This doesn't sound like a couple's normal way of getting along. At least two men in their 30s and [-]s would stay together every day and do nothing. It sounds unbelievable, but the blushing Ji Congyun didn't If he dared to think about it, he nodded and continued to ask other questions.

During the period, he asked some questions that were actually quite private and difficult to answer with a sense of guilt, and with the mentality that he was seeking medical treatment now, and shame can only be embarrassing once, Jiang Shanglu He could only rub his temples thoughtfully, and began to recall with a half-smile,

"The last time was in Kazakhstan. Well, it seemed to be his last two days of flowering. Later, I was too sleepy and didn't remember the process... How and to what extent? Why do I have to ask this? Well, I have to go in ...No, he will be very careful every time and clean it up for me, so there is no risk of infection and wounds... But can I ask you a question? You really asked Wen Ying just now Are these questions?"

"Ah... I asked all of them." Ji Congyun blushed in embarrassment and replied.

"And how does he seem to react?"

I felt that it was really boring to ask such a question, but after thinking about it, the boring Jiang Shanglu couldn't help but ask.

"It doesn't seem like there's any big reaction, so I'll tell you the truth... Cough, but that guy refuses to answer me for life or death, so I can only ask you."

I can fully imagine what an awkward conversation it was. Jiang Shanglu thought it was a little funny at first, but now he really wants to laugh out loud.

Seeing that the parties involved were so completely indifferent, Ji Congyun, who always felt that it was impolite to pry into other people's private life like this, was relieved, and then the two began to discuss carefully for the next few days. Tianjiang Shanglu should pay attention to physical problems.

"The BCG vaccine is really dangerous to human life. In your current physical condition, to be honest, I don't recommend starting to plant the vaccine immediately, but there is no way to let the body's immune system continue to collapse, causing irreparable damage to the body." After the injury, it will have a greater impact on the rest of your life, so I will try to start the seedling sooner or later in the next week, but this process will be very painful, and there will be a feeling of fire in the spinal cord, and you may be in pain day and night I can't sleep, and there will be scars from the seedlings on my body, and in addition—"

"From the cloud."

Originally, he was still listening carefully to his one-sided explanation of the precautions to himself, but when he noticed a strange point in Ji Congyun's words, Jiang Shanglu suddenly narrowed his eyes in doubt, and seemed to be suspicious. He raised his head thoughtfully and interrupted aloud.

"Although I know that you are definitely trying to give me some confidence now, I am not a person without any medical knowledge. Let's not care about the extremely high mortality rate of this attempt itself. In fact, once it fails, the most direct one You didn't intend to tell me the consequences, did you? After a severe spinal cord injury, can I still walk on my own legs for the rest of my life?"

Jiang Shanglu bluntly dismantled his words and made Ji Congyun silent. He didn't expect that Jiang Shanglu's intuition would be so keen, and he would see through the question he was really having a hard time asking him so easily at the moment.

Ji Congyun, whose face was filled with guilt and helplessness just now, still looked at Jiang Shanglu with red eyes and murmured,

"I'm sorry, Mr. Jiang, I didn't mean to tell you, I was just afraid that you...wouldn't be able to accept it, Wen Ying asked me just now, so I'll tell you right now, there is a 70.00% chance of us doing this now It will cause the whole body to be paralyzed, but at the same time, you may also recover completely, and you will never have to suffer from the disease again..."

"...It sounds like it's really hard to make a choice."

Ever since he heard the word paralyzed, his expression froze a little. After a long time, Jiang Shanglu smiled at Ji Congyun with a self-deprecating smile and said this again.

Ji Congyun, with tears in his eyes, didn't know what to say after hearing this, but he really felt sorry for the man in front of him who had saved his life, and also felt the limitations of his abilities .

But Wu Zi fell silent and thought about something in his heart for a while, Jiang Shanglu did not directly express his true inner thoughts, but slowly raised his eyes and asked Ji Congyun casually with a smile.

"How did Wen Ying tell you after she found out about this?"

"He said... Let me come in and ask you first, this is not something he can decide for you."

I don't know why when he heard such an answer, Jiang Shanglu felt relieved. He lowered his head and smiled in a subtle mood. His heartbeat, which was almost a little disturbed by the word paralyzed just now, gradually stabilized. After a while, he finally said to Ji Congyun, why don't we wait until tomorrow, let me think about it carefully.

Knowing that he must be in a complicated mood now, Ji Congyun didn't say anything more, just nodded and wiped his red eyes, got up and left.

It’s actually not too late now, but the five trees and six flowers who searched for a day near the main mountains such as the Great Bodhi Pagoda, the Palace of the Lord, and the Yaksha Manxian Palace with Wenying during the day still couldn’t hold on to each other. Drowsy fell asleep early.

But after he watched Ji Congyun leave, Jiang Shanglu, who was still mentally sober, didn't think about the question that was a bit difficult to decide just now. Instead, he put on a thicker woolen coat for himself, and went straight out of the room Then he coughed and walked slowly along the dimly lit corridor of the Tibetan temple to the back of the Buddhist hall.

Getting up in the middle of the night to find leftovers to eat, no matter how you listen to it, you will feel a little bleak and a little ridiculous.

Jiang Shanglu had never lived a day like this in the first half of his life, but now he suffers all day long for things that he doesn't know if he will get anything in return, and he doesn't seem to have any obvious bad emotions.

But when he saw in the small kitchen behind the Buddhist hall with his own eyes those ugly-looking yaks that would not even eat a mouthful of tea, water and rice, Jiang Shanglu pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed with a depressed expression.

But at this moment, he suddenly felt that there seemed to be someone standing behind him, and when Jiang Shanglu subconsciously looked back, he happened to meet the indifferent eyes of Wen Ying, who was standing at the door, looking at him at the moment.

At this moment, the atmosphere between the two of them was really weird. Although Jiang Shanglu smiled at him afterwards, he didn't take the initiative to say hello to Wen Ying after that.

Because he suddenly found that he didn't seem to know how to talk to Wen Ying in front of him. Whether it was pretending to be calm or something else, the two hadn't actively communicated for so many days, and they could basically be regarded as people in the cold war. Probably pretend nothing happened.

And Wen Ying, who didn't say a word, just stood at the door and stared at him for a while, after thinking about it, he still walked towards him.

When he saw the food that Jiang Shanglu was about to eat, the white-haired young man frowned indistinctly, then raised his hand and poured out the completely cold tea, waiting for him to put his gray After slowly pulling up the edge of his sleeves, the young man said a word to the man beside him.

"Go find a place to sit."

Hearing this extremely familiar tone, Jiang Shanglu was really not used to it for a while, but after lowering his head and twitching the corners of his pale mouth, he still sat on the side slowly, and began to watch Wenying silently there again. He got busy on his own.

Although they obviously had no desire to speak during this process, after a while, Wen Ying, who turned his back to him, still took the initiative to communicate with him, saying,

"I sent them both to bed."

"OK, thank you."

After saying this, the two of them fell silent again. Wen Ying, who had never looked back, felt that Jiang Shanglu who was sitting behind him didn't seem to want to talk to him very much, and his inorganic pure white eyes flickered subtly for some reason. one time.

And lightly lowered his eyes to look at the glutinous rice balls that he happened to be holding on his flour-stained palms. In the past few days, he went to more than a dozen residential buildings around Pulan County alone, and only then did he buy this half bag of refined flour and sesame seeds. In the end, he chose to remain silent, and after a while he spoke indifferently to Jiang Shanglu behind him,

"Although Wang Zhimo is a complete bastard, he did say something right in the past."

Hearing Wen Ying suddenly talk to him so endlessly, feeling a little surprised in his heart, Jiang Shanglu raised his eyes and looked at his back without saying a word, but still patiently waited for his next words, and Wen Ying was realizing that Jiang Shanglu didn't pause for too long after listening, he just lowered his head and continued to make Jiang Shanglu glutinous rice balls seriously while saying with a cold face,

"Even if you worked hard for three years before, as long as you don't work hard for a second, someone will suspect that your hard work in the past three years is fake."

"It's as if your previous efforts were all in vain, fake, flawless performance, and selfish deceit, and everyone will scramble to condemn you, and somehow rob you of your hard work. results without even giving you a chance to fight for it or keep working on it.”

"No one will care how hard you have worked, or what you have paid for. People are like this, aren't they?"

Hearing the soaring resentment in his words, if Jiang Shanglu couldn't see that His Excellency Shenshu had feelings for him, he would have lived to this age in vain.

But when I think about it carefully, I have been so inexplicably cold and violent by him for several days, and now I still have to be said that by him. Jiang Shanglu, who is used to this bad temper, suddenly laughed after a while, and then He squinted his eyes and asked Wen Ying, who turned his back to him, with interest,

"So are you venting your dissatisfaction with me now, Wen Ying?"

As soon as he opened his mouth in such a strange tone, Wen Ying's heart, which had basically no emotional fluctuations, suddenly felt a little strange.

He actually didn't want to say these things to Jiang Shanglu at first, but he saw Xie Qin's uncertain factor with Jiang Shanglu these two days, and now he vaguely felt the change in Jiang Shanglu's attitude towards him, so he was out of control Said those words just now.

But after saying it, Wen Ying felt that something was wrong. Although he was completely unclear about what to say and what not to say so as not to arouse the disgust of others, when asked by Jiang Shanglu at this moment, he still felt that something was wrong. After being silent for a while, he frowned and said softly,

"No, I have nothing against you."

"Then what do you mean by those words just now? Are you angrily expressing to me your love that has not completely disappeared and you plan to carry it to the end? Oh, no, you obviously praised Wang Zhimo without mentioning a word Me, it seems that I should stop being sentimental."

Jiang Shanglu was talking nonsense like crazy, and he couldn't help laughing, but the person behind him deliberately changed the topic and didn't want to say anything. Wen Ying frowned and poured down a plate of glutinous rice balls In the boiling pot, he stirred it with chopsticks and closed the lid. After a long time, he closed his eyes and pursed his lips in a daze and replied,

"Yes."

"What is it?"

"I love you."

"kindness?"

This confession as if narrating the facts was so sudden that Jiang Shanglu didn't even think of it. Even when they were first together, he had never gotten such a solemn "I love you" from Wen Ying's mouth.

And hurriedly raised his head to look at the guy standing not far away who was said to be about to have no human feelings. For a while, Jiang Shanglu only heard Wen Ying's voice coming towards him gently as if through a layer of distorted mist.

"[-3654,786] These are your current coordinates, and I have always made myself remember this, so no matter how far away your people are, I can find you. You are indeed me and a person, Proof of a living tree, but it never really occurred to me to catch you for that."

"I'm about to forget all the feelings of human beings, but I really don't want to forget you. Although I don't know whether this feeling is love now, when I try to convert all my feelings into mass units, I I don't feel that your weight has become lighter in my mind... Maybe this is the love of a monster who has no emotions, no matter you are... still willing to believe it or not."