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Before the bowl of glutinous rice balls was cooked, the atmosphere of Wen Ying and Jiang Shanglu was a bit indescribable.

As soon as Wen Ying finished those words, he continued to cook glutinous rice balls with his head down as if nothing had happened at all, as if his words were all about the glutinous rice balls in the pot, and he refused to show Jiang Shanglu a face .

And he was a little helpless by his contradictory attitude of not wanting to let go of himself but resisting himself. Jiang Shanglu, who knew that he must still be waiting for an answer, thought about it or sighed and said with a smile,

"Oh, I see."

I see, this is obviously a very ambiguous answer.

At least Wen Ying didn't feel Jiang Shanglu's true attitude after hearing it, which made the frowning young man with no emotional ups and downs suddenly a little uneasy.

And just as Wen Ying, who was always paying attention to the movement behind him, was thinking about whether he should say something else to ease the atmosphere at the moment, he suddenly heard Jiang Shanglu add something slowly behind him.

"You don't let me down, and I don't let you down."

These eight words made the expression on Wen Ying's face suddenly stiff. At this moment, his cold and world-weary heart almost collapsed, and only a sweet and bitter taste that he could not describe at all slowly spread.

Before that, he had been in a situation where he was extremely nervous and anxious, blaming himself at a loss, but he hadn't found a way to vent it. This is obvious from the fact that he would show his favor to Jiang Shanglu in such a subtle way. .

Fortunately, Jiang Shanglu seems to always have the patience and perseverance to try to see through the true emotions floating under his indifferent eyes.

And even though Wen Ying in front of him didn't say anything, he clearly felt that the cold feeling on the young man's body melted a little. Jiang Shanglu was not in a hurry to continue to say something, and maintained this relatively relaxed mood. Air atmosphere chatted with him a few other words, and then watched Wen Ying continue to cook glutinous rice balls for him seriously.

During the conversation, the aroma of glutinous rice came through the hazy heat, and the sweetness of red dates and fermented glutinous rice was also very attractive. Thinking about it carefully, it is impossible for farmers around Pulan County to have many kinds of sesame wheat, the main crop of Tibetans. This is obviously not included. Now that the snow has not yet melted, the source of these glutinous rice and sesame seeds is even more worth thinking about.

Jiang Shanglu didn't know where he went to get these things, but he didn't understand Wen Ying's love for him.

Thinking of this, the man sitting alone at the door sighed silently, and stared at the hand on his knee with a silent look for a while.

The palms of his hands looked very rough. Although the ten phalanges were still as thin and delicate as before, those ugly scars and traces of skin adhesion still seriously affected the original beauty of these hands. One point is actually the same as his person.

This kind of thinking is really not in line with Jiang Shanglu's usual conceited personality, so he just averted his eyes in a self-deprecating manner, and for a while, he only felt that he was really living a little bit more now.

While thinking about it, he realized that someone came from behind and slowly sat down beside him, and then the bowl of glutinous rice balls that he had been waiting for for a long time was finally handed to him.

Everything still seems to be the same as it has been many times in the past.

A quiet night for the two of them, a supper that Jiang Shanglu likes, and then they sit together and talk for a while while eating.

Although the current situation is obviously different from before, and the moods of the two of them are indescribably complicated at the moment, but when Jiang Shanglu took over the porcelain bowl that should be very hot at the bottom, he didn't care. When he felt very hot, he still glanced at the white-haired young man beside him who was wiping his hands with his head down and asked again.

"You don't eat?"

"Well, don't eat."

With a cold voice, Wen Ying, whose long hair was as white as snow, was purely narrating the facts, but it still sounded repulsive.

Jiang Shanglu, who could hear some bad mood in his words, just nodded, and then began to lower his head to eat the bowl of glutinous rice balls in his hand, and asked about the next things that Wen Ying obviously didn't want others to know.

It's just that Wen Ying himself seems to have begun to realize that his improper expression of emotions will bring bad feelings to others, so after being silent for a while, he still took the initiative to look at Jiang Shanglu's pale and thin side face and the sugar-stained face. With slightly red lips, he explained something sincerely.

"It's not because of you... I haven't felt any hunger since half a month ago."

Saying this, I noticed that Jiang Shanglu's expression had changed obviously. Wen Ying didn't know how to explain these special evolutionary characteristics of her body to him in detail, so she could only soften her tone as much as possible, then lowered her head and slowly took off her shoes Show Jiang Shanglu that he has begun to become a little deformed, showing a weird feeling like old tree roots.

"Lose the five senses and desires, maximize the rational use of organs and limbs, the evolution of creatures is endless, I may... really come to an end."

The voice of the young man who lowered his head and put his shoes on again sounded calm, but it was obvious that it took all his energy to confess to his lover the ugly changes in his body.

For a moment, he didn't want to look into Jiang Shanglu's eyes, and only thought that perhaps hiding from him for the rest of his life would be his proper destination.

What he didn't expect was that Jiang Shanglu, who had witnessed all this with his own eyes, just put the glutinous rice ball bowl in his hand on the ground at his feet, and then spread his hands to Wen Ying for a look, before raising his eyebrows at him asked a question.

"Is it ugly?"

Having said that, Jiang Shanglu deliberately showed Wen Ying the scars on his fingers and palms. Under normal circumstances, normal people would not have any positive comments on these hands, but Wen Ying was only slow when he saw them. Slowly meeting his eyes, he shook his head in confusion and replied,

"No, it's beautiful."

"...Can you cooperate a little bit, how can you let me continue talking now."

I wanted to comfort the young man in front of me by saying 'we are just as ugly, you don't need to have any psychological burden', but Jiang Shanglu, who didn't know how to respond to his completely unreasonable words, looked at it in a complicated mood. I glanced at him, and then I was taken aback by Wen Ying's eyes that I was telling the truth.

Inexplicably, there was a feeling of being praised and praised. Jiang Shanglu, who turned his face to look at the other side, tried hard not to show himself too obviously, but the corners of his mouth showed a helpless arc of being pleased.

And it seems that he also noticed that he likes to hear himself say that. Although the emotion is seriously lacking, but the IQ is still very reliable, Wen Ying thought about it seriously, and said with an expression of indifference but sincerity,

"Actually, you really don't have any shortcomings in my eyes. No matter what you do, you will be very attractive to me. I just don't have any desires. It doesn't mean that I have lost my normal physiological functions. It's just that I think you should be out of mood recently. so--"

"Okay, okay, okay, okay."

Hurry up to interrupt what His Excellency Shenshu, who doesn't even know how to write because he has no human emotions, is going to say next. After picking up the glutinous rice ball bowl again, he ate slowly and asked with a curious smile.

"Is this what your evolved, more sophisticated brain taught you to say?"

"No, I wanted to say it myself."

Your Excellency Shenshu's face filled with "I will never lie" brought great credibility to his words. When he looked at you quietly with the eyes that completely rationalized and measured emotions, Jiang Shanglu almost started I wondered if it was my inexplicable cranky thinking before that I misunderstood his full love.

And suddenly there was a sense of resignation that he could only be willing to crash to death on this tree in this life, Jiang Shanglu ate the last sesame dumpling in the bowl, and then licked himself unsatisfactorily lips looked at him and said,

"The workmanship is good, and the words are very pleasant, but I can ask... did you spend a few nights thinking of this?"

"...three nights."

"Where did you stay and think?"

"By the dakini lake."

"What are you doing in that place at night?"

"... Hutuktu told me that the things that were accidentally lost when crossing the Zhuomala mountain pass can only be found by themselves. In the past, Bon believers prayed to the gods by kowtowing a thousand long heads The health of my family and loved ones, I don't have any religious beliefs, and probably no gods will care about me, but I still want to give it a try."

Not surprisingly, he learned the real reason why he went there three nights ago. Hearing him talk about his health problems, Jiang Shanglu also took advantage of the opportunity to think of what Ji Congyun told himself before. I also want to get some ideas from him about planting seedlings. Jiang Shanglu thought about it and asked him with a smile,

"If Congyun's vaccine plantation fails, I will really be paralyzed. Will you find it troublesome, Wen Ying?"

"Why do I find it troublesome?" Wen Ying frowned at him.

"...Don't say it's so easy, think about it carefully, I am 32 years old this year, once the vaccine fails and my immune system deteriorates, even if I think optimistically, I can only survive for ten years at most? This means that I I will torture you like a useless person until you are 35 years old. At that time, I will already be a 42-year-old man. In these ten years, I will rely on you for all my actions. According to your personality, you will not give up on me, but You have already done your best to me, maybe by that time you have forgotten even our past friendship, when you look at me, you will be a little puzzled and think that you will be so persistent..."

Before he finished speaking, Jiang Shanglu had already noticed that Wen Ying's face had sunk uncomfortably. He knew that his words were harsh and unpleasant.

But what should be made clear must be made clear, even if Wen Ying will get angry at him later, he will admit it, but Wen Ying did not get angry at Jiang Shanglu because of such malicious questioning, in fact, he just kept silent. Eyes looked very calm and said word by word,

"If one day Wenying will treat Jiang Shanglu like this, it means that he is just a beast and does not deserve to live at all. The absolute rationality in his mind will tell him that people like him should die immediately instead of giving up everything for him. Jiang Shanglu who has lived to this point will be very troublesome, do you understand me when I say that?"

It was the first time he heard such sharp words from his reticent mouth. Jiang Shanglu was silent for a while, nodded and apologized with difficulty, but Wen Ying didn't express anything when he heard him say that. Continuing to speak in a purely factual tone,

"I know you have concerns, and I acted really badly the other day, but I have never been a perfect person, so I can only try to give you everything within my ability, I know you I always have very high demands on myself, and I want to try my best to get rid of my health problems, and if you can help me a little bit, that's all."

"But in fact, for me, my biggest wish is to stay with my lover for the rest of my life. Even by then, when he is old, I will completely lose human feelings, but I swear I really I don’t want to lose him at all, he is my love, he is my world, it is my honor to stick to him.”

Jiang Shanglu, who was a little moved by his words, didn't know why his heart throbbed, but it was more of a sense of happiness mixed with sweet and bitter.

Wen Ying, who was sitting next to him, noticed that his eyes were a little red, his expression was a little nervous, and at the same time he wanted to raise his hand to touch him, but in the end he didn't rashly touch him without Jiang Shanglu's permission. With a patient and restrained look in his eyes, he lowered his head and said slowly,

"Everything has certain risks. Don't worry too much. It's good if Ji Congyun's method succeeds. It doesn't matter if it doesn't succeed. If you feel bad, talk to the children more. I know you will On the contrary, it will be very psychologically burdensome, so I will leave temporarily in the next few days. I have already sensed the traces of Tai Sui, but he deliberately created a lot of large microorganisms in the surrounding area to attack the nearby Tibetans, so I can only go first Go farther away with Tang Zong and the others to clean up the mess, and you and Xie Qin will wait here for Wen Tianming's people to come up, thank you for your hard work."

Saying this, the layers of ice and snow melted in my heart, only a kind of unspeakable emotion was spreading, Wen Ying stood up and was about to leave. He had been waiting in the corridor just now, but in fact, he wanted to make a bowl of glutinous rice balls for Jiang Shanglu himself. Say goodbye seriously.

But before he got up completely, Wen Ying felt that his hand was suddenly grabbed by the people around him, and Jiang Shanglu, who was pulling the corner of his mouth, looked a little hard to say something to him, but he just sighed for a long time He took the initiative to lean over again and kissed his slightly stiff lips.

"...you really scared me before, do you know that?"

Opening his mouth so softly, but there is also an unconcealable fear in his tone. Jiang Shanglu is not really able to face the fact that his lover may not love him, and he doesn't care at all. It's just that he also wants to give himself Both Wen Ying and Wen Ying reserved a little bit of leeway, and don't panic and simply choose to give up each other when encountering a little bit of trouble.

But the facts have also proved that his patience with this person will always be rewarded, and his Wen Ying has never let him down, but when he heard the young man say sorry in a low voice, he couldn't hide his impulsive expression. His face kissed him deeply, and Jiang Shanglu fortunately closed his eyes and fully immersed himself in it.

While the two of them were rubbing each other's ears, Jiang Shanglu, who was just being hugged by him, was turned over and pressed to the ground forcefully by Wen Ying, and his cheeks flushed from being kissed, and he unconsciously raised his cheeks to look at the youth who enveloped him above , Jiang Shanglu, whose eyes were red from being tormented by him, straightened his messy long hair with his hands, and asked with a narrow smile.

"Aren't you almost losing your five senses, why are you so enthusiastic now?"

"It's been a month since the last time. I evolved, not died."

The lower part of the Shenshu Pavilion expressionlessly conveyed to him the little emotions that came from the disharmony of the plant life. Jiang Shanglu thought to himself that before the unilateral cold violence, I was obviously you, but now it is you who are dissatisfied with the whole world. What is the situation.

But thinking of the doctor's order that Ji Congyun just gave him, Uncle Jiang, who was actually quite interested, still looked regretfully at the young man who was holding his waist and refused to let go, then raised his hand and patted his head and smiled. One sentence.

Jiang Shanglu: "It's definitely not tonight."

Wen Ying: "........."

Jiang Shanglu: "Don't think too much, I was told by Congyun, although it makes me feel really shameless to let others know that we haven't had sex for more than a month, but you still go with peace of mind. Find your good friend Wang Taisui to settle the score, and talk about it when you come back."

Even though he was born with a lack of expression, Wen Ying's face was full of indescribable emotions at this moment, but after pursing his lips and nodding obediently, he did not let go of Jiang Shanglu in his arms immediately, but tightened his grip as if he was even more afraid that he would run away. She took the hand that hugged his waist.

And feeling the lack of all external emotions, only Wen Ying, who kept his attachment to him, was obviously more reasonable than before. On the one hand, Jiang Shanglu felt that this was actually quite good, on the other hand, he still seemed to want to laugh and took the initiative to discuss it. ,

"How about a different way?"

"Need not."

"Really?"

"kindness."

Wen Ying, who was frowning, said so, and slowly picked up Jiang Shanglu, whose clothes were all messed up by him, from the ground. His emotions that were rarely revealed just now have almost been sorted out, and he has never been interested in desire. He was very enthusiastic, and now that he was able to manage it completely rationally, he didn't have the time to take care of the bowl on the ground, so he walked back to the room at the end of the corridor step by step with Jiang Shanglu in his arms.

When the two of them talked about everything, they returned to the room lit with rich Tibetan incense. They chatted about some serious business, holding a Buddhist scripture in their hands and reading it under the ever-burning lamp. Lie flat on the bed and enjoy the long-lost Wenying massage for a while.

Speaking of Wen Ying, they haven't found the entrance to the legendary Mobius belt yet. Lying on the bed, Jiang Shanglu leaned on his arm and thought about it sleepily, then lazily opened a black poppy from his fingertips. Hua slowly said to him,

"Although the chance is not great, I don't think it is impossible to try it. If, as you said, the unknown third and fourth quadrants really exist in this world, then the scope for me to catch him will be reduced. ...But you just said that your emotions may also be lost in the fourth quadrant?"

Hearing Jiang Shanglu ask himself this question, Wen Ying didn't intend to hide it from him. After forcibly suppressing the cold emotions in his pure white eyes a little bit, he gently spoke with a thorough tone that saw through the mysteries of the world. open the mouth,

"The third and fourth quadrants are the unknown space below the ground level. Even I am not sure what is in those two worlds, but my brain vaguely tells me that everything that disappears from the first and second quadrants can be found in I found it there... The emotions of the tree are written in the leaves and flowers. When it withers, all external emotions disappear. My humanity and tree nature disappear before the germination period and after the flowering period respectively. With the entrances of the third and fourth quadrants, it is possible for me... to get back everything I lost in the first half of my life."