After the divorce, the ex-husband joined the Shura field

The moment the door was opened, Shi Jin smelled a strong smell of alcohol, and Song Xingli's brows and eyes were stained with a flushed look, and his brows immediately frowned.

"Why are you drinking? Drinking alcohol will make your stomach feel uncomfortable. You shouldn't drink it."

Song Xingli opened the door, turned around and walked back to the house, then stopped at the porch: "Didn't you take something, go get it, take it away after you finish it."

Heh, when I saw him drinking before, I would always ask 'who made you drink' in a commanding tone, but now it's fine, and I will add an explanation, because he will have a stomachache, so he is not allowed to drink.

He said and turned on all the lights in the house.

In an instant, the huge room was brightly lit, and it still looked like the darkness and loneliness just now.

Seeing Song Xingli walking barefoot on the floor, Shi Jin frowned even more.Then he set his eyes on Song Xingli's back, his whole body was filled with the coldness of "don't let strangers in". This is the Song Xingli he knew. The Song Xingli who loves to be coquettish and talkative is no longer there. If he doesn't, he won't be there. He is like a stranger.

Divorced in the morning, now I can treat him as a stranger and be indifferent.

Today is not only his birthday, but also the day of divorce. He will never think about celebrating his birthday again in the future.

"Shi Jin, don't come after you've got your things, I'm going to sell this house."

Shi Jin hadn't entered the door yet, he was standing at the door, his footsteps stopped when he heard these words, he couldn't believe it: "...what?"

This house has seven years of memories between him and Song Xingli, all the things are here.

Don't just leave it like this?

"Is there anything to be suspicious about?" Song Xingli turned around and felt a little funny at Shi Jin's "what": "We are already divorced, what do we still keep this house for, I want to start a new life, and naturally put the past Throw away everything you hate."

Shi Jin's eyes flickered when he heard the word 'hate', as if a needle had been stabbed into his heart:

"Do you hate...?"

"Don't you think you don't hate it?" Song Xingli dared to ask back when he heard Shi Jin, turned away his face and chuckled, and put away all his expressions in the next second to respond indifferently: "Shi Jin, you made me feel that I have loved you for the past 20 years. You are a dumb person, and you are still a dumb person who thinks he is enjoying himself, and you treat me as a fool who plays with me at will."

"I didn't treat you as a fool, I always put you in my heart, I..." Hearing Song Xingli's indifferent words, Shi Jin still found it hard to accept, and he also couldn't accept Song Xingli leaving his side like this, Even after signing the divorce agreement, he still couldn't accept it: "I'll change it, okay?"

He found that his mind was blank, and it seemed that he couldn't even say any good words when he tried to persuade him to stay.

It seems that Song Xingli is always at his fingertips for love talk and casual coquettishness, and what he does is always material things.

"Shi Jin, you don't need to change now." Song Xingli walked up to Shi Jin, and looked up at Shi Jin who used to always treat him casually with a begging expression in his eyes: "We are divorced, you treat him as you usually do." I am the best, so I can see more clearly that we are married or divorced, it doesn't make any difference to you. Just like when I chased you and you didn't answer, then you proposed to me, and after getting married, you didn't say anything. Same as getting married."

"It's not the same." Shi Jin seemed to be trying to relieve some emotions, turned his face away and took a deep breath, his jaw line was a little tense due to the movement of clenching his teeth, and then looked at Song Xingli with deep eyes: "You mean to me are different."

"Why is it different? Oh, I am different from Luo Qing in your mind, right? He can sit on your desk, but I can't. He can wear perfume, but I can't. He can do everything for you I'm not allowed to do things, so I'm different in your heart, right?"

When Shi Jin saw Song Xingli smiling so easily and saying such ironic words to him, his heart was blocked and uncomfortable.

But what can he do, he knows that he is wrong, but Song Xingli will never give him a chance to correct it.

Song Xingli looked at Shi Jin in silence, his eyes under the glasses turned red, such a tall and proud man, seems to be crying in front of him for the second time, right?I cried once during the divorce in the morning, are you going to cry now?

So should he believe that Shi Jin once liked him?Otherwise, why would you be jealous?Could it be that he was still angry because he wiped his face?Hmm... not too much.

Then take it as Shi Jin once liked him, at least he can comfort himself by counting two years of grievances, 20 years is too much, no matter how you count him, it will be considered uncomfortable.

"Xingxing, I have been learning how to be the type you like in my heart. I have learned to be calm. I have learned not to hide my greed from you. I have learned to control my emotions. From the very beginning, I learned to become an adult, a stable, mature and restrained adult you like."

"I thought it was my change that made you like me, so you started to become obedient, obedient and clingy, and you stopped fighting and causing trouble with senior boys. I thought I really became the person you like."

"But I found that after I became like this, you paid more attention to Luo Qing, because Luo Qing also changed, he became different from before, he became cheerful and sunny, and became... with you Same."

"You often praise Luo Qing, you praise him for getting your true biography, you praise him to keep such a cheerful, don't always be so gentle, so your eyes are led away by Luo Qing's changes, you can't see me anymore .”

Shi Jin raised his hand to take off the gold-rimmed glasses, the light above his head fell on his handsome face without glasses, those eyes that always looked gentle and restrained under the glasses completely exposed the deep possessive desire, but they couldn't hide it either. Tired of living these days.

"Xing Xing, I'm jealous of Luo Qing."

The man's deep and hoarse voice was soft and slow, like a murmur but hit his heart heavily, and his plundering eyes were involuntarily led away by such strong and surging emotions.

The hand holding the glasses dropped to his side, Shi Jin approached Song Xingli, bent slightly to approach his beloved, and stared with deep eyes:

"I'm jealous that Luo Qing can approach you without any scruples, can approach you without any cover, and can easily get your attention, but I need to maintain the image you like and wait on the sidelines. How much I hate Luo Qing, how much I hate it as much as I hate it, his dirty thoughts about you make me sick and disdainful, but his madness scares me because I'm afraid of losing you again."

"Because his father almost made me lose you, he said in front of me that he would not make you feel better. Before that, you would not know how crazy he is. On the first night you went abroad, he invited me to the hotel, Just in the bathtub, holding the poster of you in the dance competition and cutting your wrists to commit suicide, the pool of blood-stained water, the sick and crazy face laughing and crying, in front of me saying love one after another But you really hate that you wanted to kill you, so you directed and acted out a scene in front of you."

"In the end, he was admitted to the hospital due to excessive blood loss and shock. The next day, the psychiatrist diagnosed him as bipolar disorder, and he was more prone to delirium mania. He would be extremely excited, restless, have hallucinations, auditory hallucinations, and even extreme behavior. You are his fuse, that is, he will be emotionally fluctuated or even crazy because of you."

Song Xingli had never seen Shi Jin like this before. Shi Jin who took off his glasses was still the gentle scum he was familiar with. He had rarely seen that kind of domineering over his face, and such predatory eyes made him feel a little strange. In the seven years of marriage, he has done all the intimate behaviors, but it seems that he didn't know that Shi Jin would have such a side.

And who said he likes calm and introverted men?

All of a sudden, he seemed to understand whose game this was. Such a scheming Luo Qing, who had planned the game for so many years, was really deliberate and careful at every step.

Luo Qing is really a lunatic, it has nothing to do with him if he is sick.Still want to blame him for the death of Luo Qing's father?It's fine if he didn't pursue the truth, but now he is still to blame?It's ridiculous.

Song Xingli pulled his lips with a smile:

"Shi Jin, your jealousy is too ridiculous."

When Shi Jin met Shang Song Xingli's eyes, he found that he couldn't refute it. After living for so many years, he was 30 years old, and now he realized that he couldn't love.

It's obviously the person he should hold in the palm of his hand and love, but why did he hurt him so deeply in the end.

"Shi Jin, it's you who are afraid. You are afraid because of your guilty conscience. You think I had an accident because I wanted to chase you, right?"

Shi Jin's body froze instantly.

"To be honest, I'm not afraid at all, because I don't remember at all. Even if I remember now, I remember how Luo Qing's father pinched my neck to prevent me from breathing, and how he stabbed the knife into my stomach , and then fall into the river, I am not afraid."

Shi Jin's pupils shrank suddenly, and he stared blankly at Song Xingli: "...Luo Qing's father, did he touch you?"

Isn't it an accident? !

... Wasn't it an accident?

The idea that he had persisted for so many years was like a city wall that collapsed in an instant, overwhelming him.

Seeing Shi Jin's surprised expression, Song Xingli laughed in his heart, look, no one knows, if he doesn't remember and won't remember the grievances he has suffered, no one will know, let alone the sinner died long ago, how will he get away Get back the evidence.

Nothing makes sense.

Shi Jin looked at Song Xingli, and the moment the truth hit his head, which was ten years late, completely baffled him, so what has he been busy with all these years?He thought it was his fault that caused Song Xingli to chase him in the heavy rain, and was seriously injured in a car accident, which implicated Luo Qing's father and made Luo Qing lose the only father in the world.

The reason why Luo Qing went crazy suddenly was because he quarreled with Song Xingli and indirectly caused his father's death, and the reason why he wanted to hurt Song Xingli was because he still got Song Xingli.

But now she told him otherwise.

Back then, she was eager to marry Song Xingli because she was afraid that Luo Qing would really take Song Xingli away, and Luo Qing also hated Song Xingli for so many years because of resentment, but in fact it was not what they saw at all.

So what exactly has he been doing for the past seven years.

Song Xingli smiled easily and said: "Yeah, you don't know, even I forgot the only thing you know, so who would know. It was Luo Qing's father who wanted to kidnap me and threaten my parents to pay him 5000 million debts. I didn't Promise, he wants to tear up the ticket."

Shi Jin's mind went blank, the truth seemed to condemn how ridiculous he was.

Really...

it is ridiculous.

The hands beside him were clenched tightly, listening to the condemnation, looking at the lover who was so close, what right did he have to approach, he didn't even find out this thing, how did he protect Song Xingli.

"... Xingxing, I shouldn't have quarreled with you back then, and I shouldn't have investigated the truth. I failed to protect you." Seeing Song Xingli standing staggeringly, he subconsciously wanted to support her.

Song Xingli's body turned slightly to avoid Shi Jin's outstretched hand, and he looked at Shi Jin indifferently from the side, the tails of his eyes were a little bit red with a little drunkenness.

"Shi Jin, sometimes I really don't understand you."

Shi Jin listened silently to Song Xingli's condemnation, as long as he scolded him, he didn't care, at least Song Xingli would still scold him.

"I pretended to be the type of person you like. Don't you like gentle and obedient people? But I have obviously become the person you like, so why don't you talk to me more? Why don't you always show up when I perform? I can't find you when I need you? Since you have already done this, don't you know the consequences? Do you think I, Song Xingli, am a fool? Then why bother to apologize to me at this time?"

Shi Jin frowned: "..." When did he say that he likes gentle and well-behaved people.

"That time I really wanted to say that I don't want to chase you anymore, I was tired, because I couldn't chase you no matter what, I really wanted to give up, and I found that we were really not suitable." Song Xingli felt that he wanted to give up , Yun Danfeng smiled lightly: "Shi Jin, I didn't want you in the first place. This marriage shouldn't have started. These seven years have been treated as me playing with you. Now that you are free, you should celebrate happily Celebrate isn't it?"

"I'm not happy, I'm sad."

Song Xingli looked at Shang Shijin, his eyes seemed to be scrutinizing, today was really a fresh day for him, and Shijin would be so embarrassed sometimes.

Really never get tired of it.

But he was still upset.

"I shouldn't be afraid of Luo Qing. I shouldn't have stood in front of you to protect you, and I shouldn't have restrained my love for you." In front of Xingli, the hand hanging by his side raised up to touch Song Xingli's face, but he stretched it out into the air and put it down restrainedly: "I know it's useless to say anything now, but I won't leave you, I will protect you out of your sight and will not let people bully you."

The hand that hung down silently tightened, and even with all his strength, he couldn't contain the soreness in his heart.

"You don't have to." Song Xingli took a step back and looked at Shi Jin with a cold expression: "I advise you to do less useless work, otherwise you will be disappointed like me, and the feeling of being hacked into pieces is not unacceptable. Of course, If you want that's your freedom."

The light in the living room was so bright, but Shi Jin felt that his world was cold and dark, and the pain in his chest was unbearably sore, as if he lacked oxygen. He no longer knew how to find it in the closed space. oxygen.

It was he who pulled out his own oxygen tube and forcibly cut off the heart and mouth. The blood was dripping, and it was he who caused it.

The real destroyer of this marriage is not Luo Qing, but himself.

Song Xingli drank half a bottle of wine and felt a little dizzy now. He leaned on the shoe cabinet at the entrance, touched the cigarette case on it, and lifted the lid with his fingertips familiarly. He lowered his head and bit out a cigarette. To expel means:

"Get your stuff and go."

Shi Jin was a little uneasy by Song Xingli's eyes. Wasn't he attracted by Song Xingli's perverse appearance back then?Why would they make such a mistake to play a character who is not their own.

That's because of Luo Qing.

But they would still be together even without Luo Qing, because from the first day they met, Song Xingli was in his world and couldn't get out

"Xingxing, I'm your ex-husband now, am I?"

"nonsense."

"That is, now I am a stranger to you."

"Nonsense." Song Xingli lit the cigarette with a 'click', and exhaled smoke rings. His slightly drunk and reddened eyes were covered by the smoke rings, and his appearance was so beautiful that it made people itch.

"After that, remember not to open the door casually, such as me." Shi Jin put his hand behind him and held it tightly until his knuckles turned white. wide awake.

No matter how painful it is, you have to learn to get used to it.

He has to gradually get used to the life without Song Xingli, the home without Song Xingli, the acting like a baby without Song Xingli, the vision without Song Xingli, the habit...

Without Song Xingli everything.

Song Xingli took a puff of cigarette, stood up and walked towards Shi Jin, he slowly exhaled the smoke ring, stepped on the 'j&l' that he had just thrown away, kicked Shi Jin unceremoniously, pushed Shi Jin out of the door with indifference Falling on Shi Jin:

"You come to get things when I'm not around, now bring the token of love between you and Luo Qing, and get out."

After he finished speaking, he closed the door with a bang, indifferent and ruthless.

Shi Jin just stood at the door without moving, the throbbing pain made his chest so tight that he could hardly breathe.His paranoia and possessiveness have paralyzed his reason, making him push his beloved away again and again. The protection he thinks is like a tomb of love piled up one by one, and it will become colder and colder. This deep love is buried in it.

And he was the chief culprit who piled up this tomb with his own hands, and finally buried himself.

He deserves it.

There was a 'bang' from the sky, and it rained heavily.

He turned sideways and watched the torrential rain fall in an instant. The rain crushed the grass in the flower bed at the door so that he couldn't straighten his back, and it also made him almost breathless.

His eyes were slightly hot, and he just watched the rainstorm for a long time without averting his eyes.

this rain...

It seemed to bring him back to the day when he was so painful that he wanted to tear his heart apart.

The author has something to say: Song Xingli: Don't just open the door for you?Okay, you said it, remember what you said, and overcome the wall in the future.

Time advance: qaq

【Luo Qing is a mad dog, it won't take long to get the lunch box】

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感谢在2020-08-1617:04:59~2020-08-1723:00:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: there is a red brick on the South Road;

Thanks to the little angel who threw mines: 1 orange is a bit sweet;

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