I heard you don't know Mary Sue? [Transmigration Book]

Under the warm yellow and quiet light, in a slightly empty room, a young man in a black loose nightgown is squatting on a soft sofa, staring at the book in his hand expressionlessly. The pages of the book have been turned to the end, the boy Still motionless.

What should a person do before dying?Everyone's answer must be different.

Fengmo has no answer.It seems that when he opened the book and finished it, it was only because there was only such a thing around him.

Everything in the apartment was donated in advance, and the remaining savings have been donated to the orphanage.Although there are no good memories of that place for him, but relative to him, not all children have been unadopted like him.Since it exists, it must also bring hope to some people, so that hope can continue, even if it does not include him, it is a very beautiful thing.

Then I don't know what to do.I don't know what he wants.

Maybe he knows.It's just that I can't get it, and I don't know how to fight for it.

He knew clearly in his heart that those things did not belong to him.

Because of a heart attack, his lips, hands and feet were already purple, the skin on his lower body was swollen, and his face was pale with purple.The body is so thin that even I feel terrible.

He almost forgot what his original self looked like.In my memory, because he was busy working to support himself, and was busy using all his free time to study and go to class, he rarely looked in the mirror, and boys didn't need to look in the mirror much, even less now.

There's no expression anyway, is there?

Feng Mo looked down at the book in his hand, he had already turned to the last page, the hero and heroine looked at each other happily and smiled, then kissed, the vicious female supporting role and the gentle male supporting role all backed out sadly.

Fairytale-like happy and ridiculous ending.No, maybe it's not as good as a fairy tale.At least the fairy tale itself is based on fiction, but it puts the original absurd and ridiculous things into the background of reality, and then packages them in an exquisite appearance in an attempt to rectify the name.

And ding is only for a relatively small number of people, and for the majority of people other than that few people, it is just regret and pain.

But the reality is that no one is destined to be the protagonist, and no one can dominate the world.So such fantasies are needed, and worlds that seem to be specially created for the hero and heroine are born. If those become reality, then the author is killing some people and fulfilling others.

Not even the fantasy world is fair.Where does the positive energy come from?That girl was still a little too naive.

A manipulative happy ending, blind and unreal.

There is no god in the real world.So everyone becomes the protagonist of their own life, from birth to death, holding a unique script.

So he is also his own protagonist?I'm afraid it is.

So his script is: not needed.Not recognized.There is no meaning to exist.

What a tedious script.

But why is it so difficult when it is actually performed? It is so difficult that he has persisted for so many years and finally he still can't go on.In the end, there is nothing, even life is about to be lost.

Feng Mo stared at the smiling person on the cover with empty eyes.

What is it like to love someone?

What does it feel like to be loved?

What's it like to have family?

What's it like to make friends normally?

do not know.

He tried to pull a smile, but failed.

He remembered a year ago when he practiced smiling in front of the mirror every day at home.It didn't work out then.But unwilling to give up.

The doctor said to him: "There is no problem with facial nerves. It should be caused by psychological problems when I was young. It is recommended to get help from people close to me. As long as you find the crux and overcome the psychological barriers, there is a possibility of recovery." After hearing this, he really I went to practice obediently, but did not go to the so-called "close person" that the doctor said.

It is impossible to untie the so-called heart knot.

The only one close was long dead.His mother refused to admit him until she died.Hated him to death.

That's okay too.

To be honest, he was a little envious of the protagonist in the book.But I also know that it is illogical.It's just a love product of a little girl's fantasy.

How could a boy fall in love with a girl at first sight just because he accidentally knocked into his arms?How can one person's love be divided between two people?Although the book says that there is no reason for love, it is not so absurd.What's more, love is the world of monopoly.

In the book, there is a person whose name is homonymous to his, and his name is Feng Mo.He also has a heart attack.In the end he died.

Fantastic coincidence.

As if it was meant to be.

Ridiculously "fated".

The girl said that she would give him positive energy and hoped that he would be influenced.But it is impossible.

Even if it is envy, it is absolutely impossible to be assimilated because of this.No matter how unfortunate life is, it is impossible to abandon dignity and indulge in fantasy.

Feng Mo's breathing has gradually become rapid.This feeling is familiar to him.One hand clenched the robe on his chest, and his whole body curled up in pain.

very tired.As if falling asleep at any moment.

It is said that before death, people will experience tidal breathing and their thoughts will be confused.

Everything in front of me gradually blurred.

He suddenly saw the woman.

In a small dilapidated room, she was standing inside, holding a letter in one hand, and smashing a wine bottle at a boy with the other. The four-year-old child fell to the ground, his eyes were blood red, and he held a bottle in his hand. A toy dog ​​without ears.The toy dog, he remembered, was the boy's only toy, which had never had ears, and she had given it to him.Later crossing the road and being run over by a truck.Then he doesn't play with toys anymore.

On a quiet summer afternoon, she stood at the door of the orphanage. The bright sunlight could almost make people faint. A five-year-old boy was standing inside the door, pressing his chapped lips tightly, and stretched out his hand to grab the door. The thorns cut open his skin, staining it red.The children in twos and threes behind were whispering.She just turned around and walked away quickly without hesitation.

In the dark alley, a few gangsters ran out in panic with knives, and the woman fell to the ground covered in blood.The teenage boy knelt beside her, his hands trembling, his mouth opened and closed, as if he had exhausted all his strength to make a sound.

"……Mother."

"Don't call me mother! If it weren't for you, a dumb, dead star, monster, Ah Han wouldn't want me. You shouldn't have survived at all! Cough... If it wasn't for you... Without you..."

……

18 years.Everything is like a revolving lantern flashing in front of your eyes.

Feng Mo's breathing gradually slowed down, and the hand that was tightly clutching his chest was also weakly released.Everything in front of me is getting darker and darker, as if the whole world has lost its light.

empty.There was a dead silence.

The boy squatting on the sofa had already closed his eyes.His expression was as calm as if he was just asleep.

The world remains the same.He was right.He's dead, no one will know.

The colorful books next to it are still spread out.The person on the cover is still smiling happily.The contents of the book are still ridiculous.Nothing has changed.

If our light in this world is gone, will we go to another place?

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Can a person really have another chance at life after death?Fengmo's answer is no.

Indeed not.Everything he's been through for the past 18 years, everything he's read in books tells him that's impossible.No fluke.Life is fair at this point, everyone gets only one chance to live.And he has lost it.

But he is awake now.No purple hands and feet, no swelling of the skin, no pain in the chest or body.He is healthy except for a bandage over his head and a broken left leg.

But that's not his face.

Normal teenagers have all watched Qing Chuan dramas and time-traveling novels, and even if they haven't seen them, they have at least heard of them.But Fengmo didn't.Games, novels, comics, he knows nothing about these.

All his life, he only learned loneliness, the hardship of life, the difficulty of maintaining dignity, the confusion of being homeless, the threat of death, the longing for knowledge and the longing for a normal life.

Incomplete life.

Disjointed emotions.

Too much white space.

After he finally talked himself into accepting death, the world played another trick on him.

Become another person named Feng Mo, with memories that do not belong to him, but a body that originally belonged to others.other people's lives.

He began to suspect that he was a despicable predator.

However, the doctor told him that Feng Mo's heart stopped for a few seconds.When everyone thought he was dead, he miraculously came back to life.

Feng Mo knew that it was not a miracle.He is not the original Feng Mo.

What's even more absurd is that he suspects that he doesn't exist at all.

A world that exists in a novel?It's just a fantasy.

But everything fits surprisingly well with the content of that novel.

He got another chance to live, he is not completely new to this world, he should be ecstatic, full of fighting spirit, and then start a new life.

But this body is not his.

The one who should be sitting here is not him.

It wasn't him who should be alive.

But the person who should have these is dead.

Died in a car accident, protecting his girlfriend.That person lost four years of life.He didn't know that he would eventually die of a heart attack at the age of 20, and he didn't know that the girl he tried so hard to protect would end up falling in love with someone else.He died knowing nothing.Then Feng Mo replaced him.

Feng Mo knew everything about the original owner, past, present, and possible future endings.

But that doesn't mean he can live in the place of another.They have very different personalities and very different hobbies.The original owner was a normal person, but he was not.The original owner had a girl who swore to protect her forever, but he couldn't do it.He didn't know what that feeling meant.He even felt intimidated.

He shouldn't be the one who gets the script.