golden age

"The children of the Xiyuan Temple family have always been watched and admired by the world. Their words, deeds, and actions, if they are slightly inappropriate, will fall into the eyes of everyone, and they will be regarded as inappropriate and have a responsibility. Because of their surnames. They were born with the surname of Xiyuan Temple on their backs. They can only do their best, and of course they are the best. Even in our circle, they are aloof and can only be looked up to. Perhaps because of this, none of us can see her shadow under her halo." Feng sighed heavily.Jin Zheng, do you really have resentment in your heart, or are you really too tired, so you want to forget so thoroughly?

"Jinzheng..." Ruomi looked at that beautiful figure.She never knew about Jinzheng's past life, and all the splendor and splendor she could imagine was nothing compared to the sadness and heaviness she heard from Feng today.

"If all that was left to her in the past is sadness, I would rather she forget it completely." Feng's eyes were full of pity, sadness, bewilderment and firmness.Jin Zheng, if this is your reason for not coming to see us, then I won't blame you.Although you have changed a lot now, I would like to see your changes now.

"When I met her, she was icy and cold, repulsive. But she was unbelievably beautiful, unattainable. However, she was actually a very gentle person. It's just that at that time she probably didn't Know how to deal with ordinary people like us. In fact, think about it, if I had taken the initiative, she might have forgotten those things faster. I have always wanted to be friends with her, but I have always used her as an excuse not to approach Her. Feng Jun, I only learned about her past today. I had doubts before, and I also felt a little... some blame. But in fact, she is the one who should be understood the most. But I haven't been able to fully do it. .”

"Miss Morita, don't say that. Jinzheng is a very proud person. She is not the kind of person who would easily tell others that she is sad. If I hadn't known her since childhood, I would never have understood her." Feng comforted.

"Jin Zheng will definitely feel relieved, at least she still has a friend like you."

"As for me, I was not by her side when she needed help the most. In those days, she walked alone." In fact, why didn't Feng want to help Jin Zheng, but it was precisely because he knew Jin Zheng , knowing that Jinzheng would not let people see her fragile and sad side.They have been taught since childhood that no matter how sad they are, there will always be only a smile on their faces.

Therefore, Feng had to wait, and there was nothing she could do except wait.

Unfortunately, what he finally waited for was not the former Xiyuansi Jinzheng.It should be said that he did not wait in the end.

"Fortunately, she has already come over. Feng Jun, Jin Zheng won't mind these things, you are her most important friend. As long as we can be together happily in the days to come, wouldn't it be fine?" Ruomi smiled at Feng Said, I can see that Feng also blames himself a little bit.

On the one hand, he was worried about her, and on the other hand, he used her character and pride as an excuse.On the one hand, I can understand her behavior, on the other hand, I blame her a little bit.Feng was so contradictory, waiting day after day.When I saw her again, although she didn't seem to be the one in my memory, I felt relieved.

Although the waiting time was a bit long, she finally came out.Everyone thought that Jin Zheng's depression was due to his family relationship.Everyone takes it for granted.This is indeed the reason.But Feng knew that the reason why Jinzheng couldn't cheer up was because of her father.Jin Zheng has always loved and admired his father deeply.Jin Zheng has always wanted to be like her father.That's why she couldn't accept it.

Once, twice, three times, four times... How many times have I stepped on Atobe?

Atobe and I are now dancing a slow waltz, which is already a very slow dance music, and the rhythm of three-three beats is also very easy to master.The background music is my favorite "Stories from the Vienna Woods".

However, all this is meaningless in the face of the fact that I can't dance.

Atobe is well-trained, and there is no sign of anger on his face.There is only a frown when I step on his.Well, isn't this the calm before the storm?

However, it is amazing that I can still observe Atobe's face when I am in a hurry.

I laughed at myself.

"My uncle really didn't expect that you can be so clumsy." Atobe's tone seemed to reveal some helplessness, which surprised me a little.Look at his eyes again, they are actually very peaceful.It's really weird, doesn't he feel ashamed now?I have such a partner.

"What are you doing looking at me? Even if you don't know how to dance now, you must have learned it before. Relax, I will take you. You recall." Atobe's extra considerate words made me feel like A little flattered.

Quickly dig out Jin Zheng's memory.But it doesn't seem to be very useful, so I smiled wryly.It seems that as long as Atobe leads me around like this.

Would it make people think that Atobe is actually dancing with a monkey?And it's just a stupid monkey?Now I am really an animal.

Fortunately, this song is only an excerpt, not all of it, otherwise I will have to kill the guy who controls the sound before Atobe kills me.

Fortunately, the lights here are dreamy and unreal, making it hard to see.I can completely pretend that I didn't see those mocking or spiteful eyes.That's all, just treat it as a dream.I can't tell if it's a dream or a nightmare.It's not like I haven't imagined dancing with a handsome boy in the middle of the dance floor, with all the lights and eyes focused on me.Turning around, the skirt fluttered in the air, full of surprises.

But now, I am like a clumsy ugly duckling, with the appearance of a white swan, but without the cultivation of a white swan.

The light dazzled my eyes, and Atobe's face was so close to me, but I felt that he was so far away.I can't be the Jin Zheng I used to be, and I can't stand beside such a dazzling and outstanding him.That's why I chose to withdraw early, fearing that I would not be able to hold back my wild thoughts.It's not that I haven't had Cinderella's dream.I am not a princess, but I can't resist the temptation of this beauty.So there should be no flukes in the first place.

Jin Zheng has such self-confidence and pride, even if she does not rely on her family background, she can still stand beside Keigo Atobe, but it will not affect her own brilliance in the slightest.

I have found many reasons for Atobe.I can understand what he did. If it were me, I might not do it, or even go too far.But I still say that I can't forgive him myself, and I can't forgive him for Jin Zheng.Or, I'm just looking for a reason, a reason not to get close to him, a reason to cover up my inferiority complex.

I only knew before that if the light is too bright, it will hurt me, just like Jin Zheng.

In fact, it hurts others too.

But I said I will not regret it, I just have some regrets.

I'm not the kind of person who regrets, neither me nor Jinzheng.

I don't even know when the music stopped.Atobe finished his movements, but I was still stunned, I didn't know where to focus my eyes.

it's over.I think this will be the first and last dance I danced with Keigo Atobe.I am afraid that he will never find a worse partner than me in his whole life.

"I'm right, I really can't dance. Keigo Atobe, I'd better find someone else in the future." I don't know how I can still smile at this moment, and I don't know how bright and deep this smile is. ethereal.

"Do you really hate the past so much? You hate it so much that you have to forget everything you learned from it?" Atobe looked at me deeply, as if trying to see through my eyes .

"I don't know either." I'm not Jinzheng, I don't think she would be so disgusted, "Atobe, what happened today, I think I did something wrong. You are right, even if we break the engagement No, and we shouldn’t be tit-for-tat everywhere. It’s a lie to say that you didn’t blame you for the past, but now I don’t mind. If you don’t mind, we can try to improve our relationship. "

Atobe looked at me quietly, my hand was still in his, and his hand was still on my waist.But the next dance song has already started, and people who entered the venue one after another looked at us curiously, with explicit inquiry in their eyes.

But he didn't seem to let go of me at all, and he didn't mean to let me go.He looked at me with confused and confused eyes, a little bit puzzled, a bit guilty, a bit...heartache, and, reluctance?I don't know if I read it wrong, but I feel that my whole body seems to be sucked into his deep eyes.

Those brilliant lights didn't seem to shine into the depths of his eyes.I suddenly felt that I was a little charmed, so I hurriedly broke free from his hand and almost ran out of the venue.

When he came to the sidelines, he turned around and saw that he was still standing there, his figure blurred.The lights are flickering, and the men and women around are dancing and spinning, but it makes him extraordinarily lonely and sad.

Why do I feel this way?Did I just hate him before?No, it's not just that.If I didn't come to this world as Xiyuansi Jinzheng, I wouldn't mind being close to him.However, after meeting Jin Zheng, he knew what kind of woman was worthy of him.

Sorry, it was my choice that hurt your pride and self-esteem in the first place.I thought this would maintain your family's reputation and make the world think it was my arbitrary and unreasonable actions.But I forgot that pride and dignity are equally important to you people.Otherwise, Jin Zheng wouldn't be so resistant to this engagement.

I blamed many of my faults on him, but I just didn't want to take responsibility.It was Atobe who did not come to Jin Zheng in time, it was Atobe who made Jin Zheng so embarrassed and tormented, it was Atobe who ignored Jin Zheng...but Atobe was only a 15-year-old boy, how much could he think of? ?I am 7 years older than him, but I can only shirk and escape.

What happened to him today?What happened to me today?Where did these feelings of guilt come from?

The night wind seems to be a little cool.I took one last look at the dance floor and he was gone.

Walking to Feng and Ruomi, their concerned eyes warmed my heart.

"I'm fine. Isn't the dance I just did unsightly?"

"No, Jinzheng..." Both Feng and Ruomi rushed forward to comfort me.

"You don't need to comfort me. I still have this self-knowledge. Chotaro, you can play with Wakami for a while. I'll go first."

"Jin Zheng, where are you going?"

"Where are you going? Find a hole to get in and hide?" I said with a smile, "Wakami, you and Chotaro have fun, Chotaro, you have to take care of her for me."

"But, Jin Zheng..."

"I know Jinzheng, don't go too far. I will come to you with Miss Morita later, don't worry." Ruomi wanted to say something, but Feng cut her off.

I gave them a reassuring smile and walked into the dark.

I have never been in the place where the lights are the most brilliant, and I will never have the opportunity to go to the place where the lights are the most brilliant in this life.

The author has something to say: The song "Stories from the Vienna Woods" is a waltz I like very much, and it is also a famous song by Johann Strauss Jr.The whole piece lasted more than ten minutes, so luckily I didn't finish dancing, otherwise Jinzheng would definitely be finished...

In fact, every girl dreams of dancing with a handsome prince.However, if there is such an outstanding man in front of me now, I can only refuse him, because I can't dance at all.

So I think, after Jinzheng finished this dance, he should have deeply felt that she and Atobe are not from the same world.

When I read a certain book before, there was a very classic saying in it: Dancing is a good step to talk about love.But the premise is that we have to know how to dance. After all, we rarely have such opportunities to learn dance.I have always thought that if I have the opportunity in the future, I must learn it.Originally, I wanted Jinzheng to have fun in the novel first, but in the end I decided to let her know how to dance, I feel a little sorry for her...