golden age

Looking at her leaving figure, Atobe suddenly felt irresistible.He even felt that this was the only chance in his life to catch her.

These days, the figure of Xiyuansi Jinzheng always easily appeared in his mind.

The little girl in the exquisite and gorgeous kimono once stood in the courtyard full of red maples, smiling at him reservedly and gracefully.That astonishing beauty has not been affected by age at all, and traces of beauty can still be clearly seen on her young face.However, even so, it can't change Keigo Atobe's feelings for her.Atobe doesn't like her, she is just a woman he must marry in the future.

Then one day, he met her on the most unexpected occasion, and the past came to his mind all of a sudden, but he didn't understand why he could remember clearly the color of the clothes she was wearing that day.

In the past few years, Atobe has heard a lot of gossip and gossip.But his parents have never made it clear.He was indifferent to this marriage at first, and now he is even more lazy to pay attention to it.Adults have their own concerns about gains and losses, and it is not up to him.

But he never thought that he was responsible for her.Atobe didn't like it, and she certainly didn't.Only the two of them were unwilling in this marriage.

Seeing her again made him involuntarily curious.It's time for him to meet his fiancée.Did people come to Tokyo because of him?

After meeting, she really disappointed him a little.

Deliberately elegant and reserved, not as generous and noble as before.He seemed a little uneasy and at a loss under his care.Atobu scrutinized her from the inside out.I found that she was far from what I remembered.He didn't know what was going on, could it be that the Xiyuan Temple family also fell here?

He didn't mean to despise her deliberately, but in just a few years, the young lady of the Xiyuan Temple family has become like an ordinary person.He really couldn't accept it.

No, it shouldn't be like this.

Although Atobe doesn't like Jinzheng.However, he agrees with Jin Zheng, even admires Jin Zheng.Because no one can do better and more perfect than her.She is a born princess, her noble temperament and elegant demeanor are soaked in her bones and blood, and will not be changed by any external changes.

So, why did she undergo such a huge change?

Is it because of the hardships of life over the years that she has to learn to face the reality?Was it the pain of the past that made her want to stay away from that world completely?Why does she want to forget?Want to forget so completely?

What kind of pain and hatred did she go through, and she became like a completely different person.

Atobe suddenly felt that she had a reason to hate him, a reason to never want to see him again in her life.

If at the beginning, he could have cared more about her and learned more about her recent situation, wouldn't she have become like this?

In the world they live in, love is the most meaningless, and there is only snobbery and hypocrisy under the flashy appearance.It's not that he didn't know, but he didn't help her when she needed it most.

May I ask, Xiyuansi Jinzheng, who else in this world can rely on?

And he should be her most natural reliance.

If this is the way you choose to escape the pain, then I will help you and help you return to the original you.Xiyuan Temple Jinzheng, this is to make up.

I sat quietly on the grass.It is far away from the brightly lit dance floor, but you can still see the dots of lights, floating and swaying in the night, like dreams one by one.

I have woken up before I dreamed.

There are some things I don't want to think about.Because what you do is what you do, even if it's just on the spur of the moment.

If you think too much, you will regret it.

It is rare to see the moon tonight.The crescent moon in the sky looks very high and far away.Just like the world in Jinzheng's memory.We thought there were osmanthus trees and jade rabbits in the moon, but in fact, if we don’t go there, how would we know the coldness and loneliness there.

Chang'e lives alone, only blue sea and blue sky, lonely day and night.

The sky is illuminated by colorful fireworks, and there are cheering crowds below.But all of this seems far away.I have come to a world that doesn't belong to me. I don't understand why I have to bear those things that have nothing to do with me in the end.

In the distance, fireworks are in full bloom, blooming brilliantly in the night sky, shining brightly.

There is still a slight chill in the night now.Because it's not the peak of summer yet.I used to think that summer is a season with many stories.Those touches that I am familiar with, those youthful time, all seem to be in summer.

However, I don't know where the stories that belong to me begin and where they will end.

I stood up and felt that it was a mistake to come to Bingdi today.I should have made up my mind not to go anywhere near here.Atobe's performance today really surprised me, and made me a little overwhelmed.I would rather he was still that lofty young master, and then we could get farther and farther until there was no intersection.

However, I don't know what it is. In the dark place of fleeting years, it grows quietly and quietly.My calm life is destined not to last forever.

Xiyuansi Jinzheng, when did this name become the biggest worry in my life.

The fireworks were still going on, I turned and left, letting them bloom grandly and wantonly behind me.

Life is not that kind of fireworks, it can be just for the moment of glory, without hesitation.If it can be so simple and beautiful, why so many helplessness and compromise?

Even if it is difficult and unbearable, we still have to live.

The huge and magnificent school gate stands silently in the night at this moment.It doesn't seem to be as imposing as during the day.I leaned against some cold marble, quietly looking at the dark night sky.

"Xiyuan Temple Jinzheng." When I turned my head, I saw Atobe's figure half hidden in the deep night, it seemed a little less lazy and luxurious, and a little more soft and steady.

"Atobe-kun? Why are you here?" I was surprised by his appearance, but his tone was rarely calm.Anyway, there were enough surprises today.

"I'm looking for you."

I smiled: "You're not here to settle accounts with me, are you?"

"No. That's not your fault either."

"It doesn't matter whose fault it is. I don't think you will find a worse partner than me in your life. Keigo Atobe's face is still more important than mine."

"You are also from the Xiyuan Temple family, how can you be so indifferent."

"A member of the Xiyuan Temple family?" I chuckled, and looked up at the endless night sky, "Yes, I am a member of the Xiyuan Temple family. But now, the people of the Xiyuan Temple family don't have to care about face. No. Those things are worthless and meaningless."

"Are you really planning to go on like this?" Atobe's voice suddenly became harsh.

"What? Isn't this bad?"

"Is this okay? Do you think this is good? Xiyuansi Jinzheng, you shouldn't be like this."

"Then what do you think I should look like?"

"You, you should be the most beautiful and noble princess in the world." Atobe stared at me, his eyes seemed to be full of those long past events.

"Do you think I'm ugly and humble now? Is it because Xiyuan Temple Jinzheng is nothing if he loses the aura of his family?" I also looked at him, wondering if I was still in his eyes. What.

"Don't you know the meaning of the surname Xiyuansi? It means being different and superior to others."

"That's all in the past, it's in the past! The current Xiyuan Temple family is probably more pathetic than ordinary people!" Once the once glorious family fell, the glory and prosperity of the past would only be the irony and sorrow of today. .What else do you want to remember?

"But you are different! You are Xiyuansi Jinzheng!"

"I'm different? How am I different? Have you ever thought that Xiyuansi Jinzheng is just a little girl who just turned 14 years old. Are you going to be too cruel to her? What do you want her for? What should she do? No matter how sad, sad and desperate she is, she still has to smile beautifully and noblely? Is this what you call the daughter of the Xiyuan Temple family? The past, in her opinion, can only tell her about today How pathetic and pitiful I am, even her pride is so ironic!" I unconsciously shouted to Atobe, why do you always force her and make her do things she doesn't want to do?Always want her to struggle and suffer?You despised her because of the decline of the Xiyuan Temple family. When she worked so hard to maintain that noble and elegant appearance, where were you?Now she can't hold on anymore, when she doesn't want to be a doll with delicate face but no life, you want her to go back to the past again!However, the real Xiyuansi Jinzheng is no longer in this world!

"I didn't come to quarrel with you, I just wanted to tell you that if you want, I can help you and help you go back." Atobe's expression was a little sad and pity, as if he was begging me.

"Help me go back? Where? You don't understand, I can't go back." I'm not the Xiyuan Temple Jinzheng I used to be. Even you can't let me go back.She has left, leaving this city that made her sad and hopeless.Keigo Atobe, the Jin Zheng you were looking for is no longer here.And me, not her.

"I know that I did something wrong in the past. If you resent me, I have nothing to say. But, I don't want to see you, to see you so... so... giving up on yourself..." Atobe As he spoke, he unconsciously looked away.

"Give up on yourself?" If you hadn't given up on Jin Zheng first, how could she give up on herself?I looked at Atobe's self-blaming expression, but I couldn't feel relieved.All he saw was the radiant Jin Zheng.He also took it for granted that Xiyuan Temple Jinzheng should be like that.

Atobe, you are too late after all.

"Kinggo Atobe, I haven't given up on myself, I just want to live a better and more comfortable life for myself. I won't change anything, and I can't change it. If you think the current me makes you so unbearable If the purpose is, then we will never meet again from now on. You can just treat me as giving up on myself, or even giving up on myself. If you want to be friends with me or something, then please accept me as I am now. I don’t feel that Myself, what's wrong with me! Maybe we really are people from two worlds." After I finished speaking, I looked at him quietly.Probably, in the eyes of Keigo Atobe, I am no longer worthy to stand with him.It seems that choosing to terminate the engagement at the beginning was such a wise thing.Even if he is willing, what he wants is the original Xiyuansi Jinzheng, but unfortunately, I am not anymore.

Atobe looked at me as if he wanted to say something but he didn't say it.I let him down and confused him.But Atobu, do you know that when you did that, you already hurt Jin Zheng.Perhaps, you should simply choose to make a clean break, so that instead of hating you, she can be relieved.Even, I don't have to come to this world.So today you, what you found back is the original her.

What is it that makes fate misplaced?One step late, one life late.

At that time, we were all still young, thinking that there was nothing irreparable in youth, even those lost years.

The silent night enveloped us quietly.He and I didn't say anything, just looked at each other for a long, long time.I can't read his eyes, I can't see through his heart.What about him, how much does he know about me now, about Jinzheng of Xiyuan Temple now?

I used to believe that even if you are not the most loving couple in this world, you will be the most compatible couple in this world.Your intelligence, your talent, can make you luckier than most couples in the world.

Fate, who on earth is playing this joke with us?

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