Just don't get divorced [Interstellar]

Yan Shuqing had a lengthy dream about the trivial things in the past.

In the dream, he went back to his boyhood. At that time, he still had an immature and shabby face. It was cold and he was homeless, because he secretly applied for the military academy without telling his adoptive father, but he had no money to pay the tuition. Disliked that he had an empty mouth to eat, and could not bring a penny to the family, so he drove him out of the house in a rage, and told him to figure out how to pay for the tuition. His own creation.

He had no choice but to run out to do odd jobs alone, but he was not yet 16 years old at that time, and he was unwilling to hire an underage kid anywhere, so he could only go to the black market to work as a coolie. His bean sprout-like body was wrapped in thin single clothes, and he carried loads heavier than his weight again and again, just to earn the few hard-earned money.

Later, the adoptive father heard from nowhere that he had made money, and from then on, he came to him for cigarette money every day. He worked twelve hours a day and could only earn twenty, but his adoptive father earned more than ten yuan for a pack of cigarettes, but he There is no way, because without money he doesn't even have a place to stay at night.

The water was so deep and the fire so hot, he always thought that he would get through this time if he persisted, so he endured no matter how hard or tired he was.

This day, the boss took over the job of cleaning the glass of the building. Because it is hundreds of meters high, few people are willing to do it. But the start of the military academy is getting closer. He heard that everyone can give an extra [-]. If If you do it a few more times, you will definitely be able to get enough tuition fees before the start of school, so I agreed without hesitation.

But an accident happened on that day, because the auxiliary robot leaked electricity and burned the safety rope tied to his body. He couldn't control his balance and fell from a building hundreds of meters high. His face with chilblain hurts, and there are screams everywhere, but at this moment, no one can save him...

Just when he thought that he would fall straight down and be turned into a pulp like this, a pair of strong arms caught him and held him tightly in his arms, without falling any further.

The sun was dazzling that day, and he couldn't see the face of the person behind him, but felt that the person's embrace was extremely warm, as if it could dispel the cold of the whole winter.

He raised his head and tried hard to see the man's face clearly. Fragments of sunlight above his head were cast from the cracks in the trees, as bright as the military academy rooftop when he was taking a nap. At this moment, the figure flashed in front of him. Mo's pupils, he immediately recognized this person.

"Jin Heng"

He couldn't help screaming, the Jin Heng in his memory was also so young, his slightly green face was tense, the moment he met his eyes, his ears were slightly red, and he shook off his hand stiffly , turned around and quickly walked out of the rooftop.

Yan Shuqing subconsciously chased after him, and countless lights and shadows shuttled around him. He watched himself grow from a thin bean sprout to become firm and strong, as if chasing Jin Heng through his entire youth, and finally in the Stopped in front of a door.

His heart throbbed involuntarily, his fingers trembled slightly for some unknown reason, and he gently pushed open the door. There was darkness in front of him, and a long red carpet appeared in front of him, extending to the end of the boundless. On the one hand, Jin Heng was waiting for him.

But in a blink of an eye, the greenness faded from his face, and he became taller, stronger, and more handsome. He was wearing a neat black suit, which set off that sharp face. The moment Yan Shuqing looked over without blinking, Yan Shuqing's heart trembled, and he subconsciously stepped on the red carpet.

This scene is too familiar, as if he had just experienced it not long ago. Magnificent music sounded in his ears, and there seemed to be many people around him, but in the dark environment, he could only see Jin Heng's face clearly. There, it seemed to be a heroic knight in front of the Twin Towers Church.

At this time, he stretched out his hand to him, and the corners of his mouth that did not reveal his emotions easily curled up slightly, "Shu Qing, come quickly, I have been waiting for you."

"Don't be nervous, you still have me, and no monsters dare to come if I'm around."

Meeting his shy but firm eyes, Yan Shuqing held his breath and walked towards him step by step.

But this red carpet seems to have no end at all, the lights in front of him are getting dimmer, and Jin Heng's figure is getting more and more blurred, he can't help but run, wanting to hold his hand quickly, but Just when he was about to catch him, he fell heavily to the ground.

His fingers slid across Jin Heng's palm, and the next moment his eyes were pitch black, and Jin Heng's figure turned into fragments and disappeared in front of him.

"Shuqing, I can't wait for you."

Like a sigh, submerged in the endless night, Yan Shuqing's whole body trembled uncontrollably, a piercing pain came, he opened his eyes at once, and found himself lying on the hospital bed with blood transfusion on his arm .

"Wake up, wake up!"

Someone next to him shouted in surprise, and then all the people gathered around. With so many people appearing in front of him, Yan Shuqing opened his eyes with difficulty, and tried hard to speak, but there was only a whirring sound in his throat.

Admiral Chen next to him patted his arm, "Your throat is frostbitten, don't force yourself to speak, how do you feel now?"

Seeing a familiar figure suddenly, Yan Shuqing was still a little bit stunned. His eye sockets hurt badly, and he tried to open his eyes wide to identify everyone in front of him. It took a long time before he recognized that they were all members of the Falcon team, " Everyone... are you okay?"

He hoarsely uttered a sentence, and the members next to him were all very excited, "Everyone is fine, although there are many injuries, but in the end the task was successfully completed, and the group of enemy troops has been completely wiped out by us." .”

Hearing this, Yan Shuqing twitched the corners of his mouth, and finally heaved a sigh of relief. His memory is still a little fuzzy, and he can't remember what happened before. Then, I looked around subconsciously, and said hoarsely, "...Where is this place, how long have I been asleep?"

Han Ming next to him patted his hand, "We're at the Falcon base, you've been in a coma for three days, if you, the hero, don't wake up, we're going to go crazy."

"Yeah Shu Yan, thanks to you and..."

The man paused, and was hit hard by the person next to him before continuing to smile, "Thanks to you contacting the Alpha garrison in time and sending the rescue signal, otherwise all of us would have been buried in that ghost of Canglan Mountain." place."

Yan Shuqing had a severe headache, didn't notice the dodge in his tone, avoided the shoulders wrapped in thick gauze, propped himself up and wanted to sit up, but as soon as he moved his stomach felt a sharp stabbing pain, familiar The pain made him wake up for a moment, and the memory that he had deliberately forgotten was instantly uncovered bloody.

The blaze that filled the sky, the explosion of nuclear bombs... and the figure that suddenly shattered into pieces in the dream made his eyelashes tremble a few times, "...Where is Duanze, where is he now?"

As soon as these words came out, everyone froze.

"Duanze... Duanze is still in a coma, Shu Yan, you should take good care of your injuries first, and it won't be too late to care about others after you recover."

Yan Shuqing nodded, and before everyone could react, he pulled out the blood transfusion tube on his arm, and the bright red blood flowed out instantly, leaving sinuous and glaring traces on the quilt, "Which room is he in? I'll go see him."

"Shu Yan, stop messing around! You are still seriously injured and can't move!"

"That's right, Shu Yan, Duanze is in a coma now, what's the use of going to see him?"

Several people hurriedly supported him, and stood in front of him with a lot of chatter, looking very nervous.

Yan Shuqing caught their dodging gaze, his heart sank suddenly, he clenched his fists tightly, restraining the trembling all over his body, "Since he was injured more seriously than me, and now he is hospitalized at the same time, why can't I go to the hospital?" Look at him? Did you guys hide something from me? What happened to him! "

Several people were silent at the same time, Yan Shuqing stretched out his hand to push them away and staggered out the door. At the moment of stalemate, Chen Cheng, who walked in with the injection, happened to see this scene, and hurried forward to support him, "What are you messing around with now! Can't get out of bed!"

Yan Shuqing didn't have time to ask him why he suddenly appeared here, let alone the previous blood test results, and grabbed his wrist, "You must know what's wrong with him, tell me, Jin... Where is Duanze? "

Chen Cheng's lips trembled and he didn't say a word. At this moment, General Chen, who had been silent beside him, suddenly said in a low voice, "Shu Yan, don't ask any more questions."

"Duanze... died in battle."

"General Chen!" Chen Cheng let out a low growl, he pursed his lips tightly and couldn't speak, the whole room fell into dead silence instantly.

Yan Shuqing froze on the spot, and it took a long time before he twitched the corners of his mouth and said with a smile, "Sir, stop joking, you...you know how to scare me."

General Chen took a deep breath, wiped his face and stood up, his eyes were already red, "Shu Yan, I won't make such jokes about my soldiers, Duanze is really gone..."

Yan Shuqing pressed the tip of his tongue against his right mouth, took a deep breath, and laughed softly, "You guys are boring like this. I'm a sick person, and I really can't stand the stimulation. Sir, is it because I don't behave well at ordinary times? , or did I almost fail this mission and let you down? Are you guys working together to tease me?"

When he smiled, his eyes were bent, and there was an inconspicuous dimple on one cheek, which even looked a bit playful, but only those who knew him could see the violent shaking in his pupils.

At this moment, Han Ming stepped forward and grabbed his arm, "Enough Shu Yan, you need to rest now, and we will talk about these issues after you recover."

Yan Shuqing shook off his hand and looked at the silent group of people, "Why don't you talk anymore, did that even Duanze team up to lie to me? This bastard, look at me if I don't deal with him .”

As he spoke, he pushed open the door and was about to go out. Admiral Chen grabbed him and growled with scarlet eyes, "Shu Yan, don't lie to yourself anymore, Duanze is really dead!"

"When we and the reinforcements arrived, we only found you alone. We turned Canglan Mountain upside down for hundreds of miles. There was no shadow of Duanze at all. The outpost you lived in was completely razed to the ground. It is impossible for Duanze to be alive after such a big explosion!"

One sentence hit Yan Shuqing's head like a sap, and the last thing he wanted to think about was the scene of the explosion that night. As long as he closed his eyes, the scene of Jin Heng pushing him away and being engulfed by the fire would replay before his eyes again and again.

He tried hard to deceive himself, telling himself that all this was just like the dream just now, it was all fake, as soon as he woke up, it would disappear, Jin Heng was still by his side, he was just injured, and now he was just lying on the bed The next door to him was waiting for him to open the door to reveal those expectant red ears.

But the last layer of camouflage was completely torn by Admiral Chen. The eyes of everyone in the room made him shiver from the cold, forcing him to face the reality.

"...so you didn't find his... person?"

Yan Shuqing couldn't say the word "corpse", as if as long as he didn't say it, he could still believe that Jin Heng was still alive.

"Shu Yan, don't be stupid... There was a blizzard all night that night. When we found you, you were almost out of breath. Even if Duanze was not killed in the explosion, It is impossible to survive in such an environment.”

Han Ming shook Yan Shuqing's arm, frowning tightly, trying to make him wake up.

Yan Shuqing stood in the same place speechless, his whole body trembling violently uncontrollably, his eye sockets were sore, but he couldn't shed a single tear, he closed his eyes abruptly, and suddenly recalled in his ears the memory of Jin Heng and him in the dream The last thing he said, he said, "Shuqing, I can't wait for you."

Yan Shuqing choked up hard, his chest heaved violently, and while trying to get rid of the others in one breath, he wanted to get out of the room, but his eyes went dark, and he fell to the ground.

***

It was like having a big absurd dream. When he woke up again, Yan Shuqing didn't want to open his eyes. He just lay there quietly, listening to the beating sound of mechanical instruments beside his ears, afraid that when he opened his eyes, he wouldn't open his eyes again. To face even worse news.

At this moment, the sound of footsteps came to my ears, and I walked to him and sat down, "Shuqing, I know you're awake."

Hearing the word "Shuqing", he had to open his eyes, and met Chen Cheng's complicated and difficult gaze.

The scene in front of him changed again, and all the Falcon members who had gathered around disappeared before. Chen Cheng was the only one in the big room. Yan Shuqing tried his best to focus, but found that everything in front of him was very strange. He opened his mouth and wanted to He asked where this place is, but after thinking about it, he felt that it didn't matter where it was, so he didn't bother to speak again, and tried to get up and get out of bed.

"Where are you going?"

Yan Shuqing remained silent.

Chen Cheng pressed him down, "I don't care where you are going, just lie down obediently now."

"I'm going to find General Chen, I have something to ask him." Yan Shuqing's voice was as hoarse as a broken gong, but he didn't care about it, and he was about to pull off Chen Cheng's arm. Infusion tube.

Chen Cheng became anxious all of a sudden, "Yan Shuqing, what are you trying to mess around with!? I told you clearly today, as long as I'm here, you don't want to go out of this door today! What do you think of your body, do you know? Know what's going on with you now!"

When he yelled at Yan Shuqing, he became anxious, his eyes were bloodshot quickly, and he threw Chen Cheng away and hissed in a low voice, "I can't control this much anymore! Don't use the doctor's parents' heart to oppress me, I have to stop now." Go back to Canglan Mountain!"

Staring at his violently rising and falling chest, Chen Cheng fell silent instead, and only spoke after a while, "You can't go back, because now we are on the battleship returning to the home star, and we are already a hundred and eight thousand miles away from the Falcon base."

"...Go back to the mother planet?" Yan Shuqing froze, stunned for a moment, and his face turned pale in an instant, "Who agreed to go back to the mother planet! How could you make such a decision for me while I was unconscious!"

He stared at Chen Cheng in disbelief, met a pair of calm eyes, felt chills all over his body, didn't want to look at him any more, and tore off a pile of colorful tubes on his body indiscriminately, and crawled away from Chen Cheng hands and jumped off the bed.

"Yan Shuqing, are you fucking crazy!" Chen Cheng blocked his way, and couldn't help but curse.

"Chen Cheng, get out of the way. For the sake of brotherhood in the past, I will not pursue today's matter, but I am not your experimental product. You can drag it around and transport it casually! Immediately order the battleship to make an emergency landing Don't blame me for beating you too!"

He hit Chen Cheng's ear with a fist, his whole body trembled violently, his eyes were fierce and helpless, Chen Cheng was so angry that he swung his fist and roared, "What do you want to do if you are pregnant and can't return to your mother planet! Did you live on Falcon Base and tell everyone you're a fucking obedience!"

After yelling these words, his own eyes were also red, Yan Shuqing froze in place, and after a long time he raised his head with difficulty, "...What did you say?"

Chen Cheng wiped his face, took a deep breath, "You heard me right, your blood test report is positive, and you are now pregnant! And there are signs of miscarriage, if you don't want to live, if you don't want this child, now you can I don't care if I jump off the battleship!"

Yan Shuqing sat down on a chair beside him, his head was buzzing, his whole body seemed to have his soul sucked out, and he couldn't speak a word.

Seeing him like this, Chen Cheng felt sore in his heart, and said with a wry smile, "I waited for you all night that day, in case you would come back suddenly, and the warships would leave until dawn to return, but I didn't wait for you, I thought you If you can't ask for leave, you don't think much about it, who would have thought that when you saw the result and hurried back, you would go to Canglan Mountain!"

"The doctors at the base don't understand what's going on with you, but I know very well. Do you know that when you were found from the snowy mountain, your legs were full of blood? If I come back later, don't say Child, you have to give your own life."

Thinking of the scene where Yan Shuqing was half buried in the snow covered in blood, Chen Cheng's hands trembled slightly, and he still has lingering fear in his heart.

Yan Shuqing was speechless, and subconsciously touched his stomach, feeling that fate had played an extremely absurd joke on him.

Chen Cheng saw that his face was not right, so he couldn't help but whispered, "You have to think about your children if you don't think about yourself. Anyway, you made a great contribution this time. I just found a reason to say that you need to go back to your home planet for treatment. Shang Chen The general didn't make it difficult for you, so stop messing around, you don't want to lose the last bit of relationship with Jin Heng, do you?"

The last sentence made Yan Shuqing's lips tremble uncontrollably, and he suddenly smiled, "So what is this? I... I exchanged Jin Heng's life for a child?"

After saying this, he turned his head expressionlessly. The more he was like this, Chen Cheng felt more worried, and couldn't help comforting him, "Shuqing, you can't think like that, you..."

"Chen Cheng."

Before he could finish speaking, Yan Shuqing suddenly interrupted him, with an almost paranoid stubbornness and pleading in his eyes, "Can you help me and let the battleship go back to sail? I have to go back to the Falcon team, or you Just throw me somewhere and let me go back alone, I can't just go back to my mother planet."

Chen Cheng frowned violently, "You fucking...! What I said just now was all in vain! You and the piece of meat in your stomach are almost dying now, what can you do when you go back?"

"But I can't leave him there alone."

Yan Shuqing bit her lip tightly, not even feeling when her fingertips pricked her flesh, "I want to see people, and I want to see dead bodies. When I woke up, everyone told me that he was dead, but I didn't even How can you let me be reconciled if I haven't seen the dead body?"

As he spoke, he didn't know what he thought of, and his eyes suddenly burst into light, "Look, even a little guy who is a few months old and has no self-protection ability can survive. How can such a strong person like Jin Heng survive?" Say no, it's gone."

"Didn't it mean that the obedient with a high adaptation rate and the sword-wielder have a sense? I can feel that he must be alive. This guy is the best at fooling people. Before, he pretended to be Duanze and stayed by my side, making me He's been cheating all over the place, and it must be the same this time, he must be hiding somewhere, just waiting for me to find him, he has such an awkward temper, he needs to be coaxed, if I don't go to him, he will definitely You have to fight with me for the rest of your life..."

"Enough is enough." Chen Cheng interrupted his thoughts, and said with red eyes, "You should be sober, Jin Heng is already dead, even if you go a hundred times, the result will be the same!"

One sentence brought the entire cabin to an abrupt stop, leaving only the hum of the engine next to my ears.

Yan Shuqing raised his head after a while, looked at Chen Cheng, and there was no sign of a tear falling from his eyes.

From waking up from the serious injury to now, he didn't cry even when he heard the bad news of Jin Heng's death, but now he suddenly cried.

He never shed tears easily, and even looked down on people who shed tears when things happen, because he felt that crying could not solve any problems except to expose his weakness, but now he couldn't control his tears, and he felt as if he had been severely beaten. A big hole was torn out, and the strong wind was blowing in, causing his body to curl up uncontrollably.

Silent tears wet his knees, but he couldn't make a sound.

He remembered that late at night before departure, Jin Heng held him in his arms, and told him with a smile, "You still have me, no monsters dare to come without me."

At that time, it was just a joke, but who knew it became a prophecy. He knew very well that Jin Heng died to protect himself. At that time, he had enough time to jump down the steep slope and avoid the nuclear bomb, but he didn't .

He only focused on pushing him away, but he forgot that he was also a body of flesh and blood, not an invulnerable wall of copper and iron.

Yan Shuqing covered his eyes, tears scrambling to fall from his fingers.

From now on, there will be no more man who hugged him like a big dog and acted like a coquettish dog, no one would get angry with him with red ears and accuse him of ignoring himself, no one would deliberately abandon his identity as a colonel in order to find him To come up with a new identity, just to be by his side.

And no one will carry him up steadily, kiss his fingers and tell him, "Don't be afraid, I'm here"

The man standing at the end of the red carpet, holding the ring, and turning into the knight in front of the Twin Towers Church disappeared.

He lost Jin Heng forever.