little uncle

Zhou Hongyuan stood outside the door and did not return to the study until the lights in Cheng Yu's bedroom were completely extinguished.At this moment, he really realized that Cheng Yu was getting old.When we met for the first time on that rainy night, he was still complacent that time had not left a mark on Cheng Yu's body. Until then, he understood that time is fair to everyone, and it changes everyone without leaving any trace , including his uncle and himself.There is no such thing as an ageless face, no such thing as before, it is just a placebo to alleviate the guilt at first sight.

On Sunday, Cheng Yu was not in a hurry to get up after waking up, and only slowly got up from the bed after he heard Zhou Hongyuan's voice coming home early.

Zhou Hongyuan bought the same breakfast as yesterday, grits soup, pancakes, and put everything in front of Cheng Yu.Cheng Yu neither spoke nor reacted, picked up a piece of pancake with his chopsticks, spread it out in the palm of his hand, tore it into small pieces and threw it into the grits soup, soaked until soft and tasty before eating it.Zhou Hongyuan himself was not in a hurry to eat, he just looked at Cheng Yu.After Cheng Yu said that last night, he obviously didn't sleep peacefully, his eyes were dark and blue, and the light in his eyes was a little bit dim, and he looked listless, which made Zhou Hongyuan's heart ache.

Zhou Hongyuan didn't start eating until Cheng Yu was full.Cheng Yu sneered in his heart, only thinking that he was putting on an air.

After breakfast, Cheng Yu was about to pick up a book to read, but Zhou Hongyuan grabbed his hand and said, "Uncle, let's have a chat."

Cheng Yu was noncommittal.He didn't think it would be an easy and pleasant conversation, but he didn't feel the need to avoid it either.At least, in their relationship, he wasn't the guilty one.

"Uncle, I thought I knew you very well. I thought that even after ten years, I would still understand you, your thoughts, your qualities, and your habits..." Zhou Hongyuan laughed at himself Laughed, "But last night I realized how wrong I was, how ridiculous my wishful flattery was, how frivolous my care and greetings were..."

Cheng Yu thought to himself, isn't that right? He just wanted to sneer, but when he saw Zhou Hongyuan's frustrated eyes, half of his malice dissipated immediately, and he couldn't summon up the courage and strength to speak ill at each other.For Cheng Yu, uttering evil words has always required great strength.

Zhou Hongyuan continued, "Uncle, I really want to make up for my mistakes, and I really know my mistakes. Although I am not doing well enough now, can you give me a chance to get to know you? As long as you tell me, I will write it down with my heart, and I will correct it one by one, and I will treat you well with my heart."

Cheng Yu was moved, but he didn't know how to respond.The two of them were at a stalemate, although it was not at the point of view of the sword, it was extremely embarrassing.Cheng Yu knew that he didn't need to take Joe, and there was no need to deliberately say something to make Zhou Hongyuan sad, he was just very tired.

After a long time, Cheng Yu said calmly, "It's made up, and then?" Not everything can be made up, not all injuries can be forgiven, and not all broken mirrors can be reunited.Even if Zhou Hongyuan tried to fill all the gaps between the two of them for ten years with deliberate humbleness and flattery, that mirror will never look like it used to.Cheng Yu knew that he couldn't give Zhou Hongyuan the ending he wanted, whether it was family affection or so-called love, so he didn't want to waste the time and effort of the two of them.

Zhou Hongyuan didn't expect Cheng Yu to ask such a question. He was stunned for a while, "Uncle, if there is no more, I won't ask for anything. You don't have to promise me anything, let alone feel awkward. I owe you everything, and I will always owe it to you." your."

Cheng Yu smiled, lowered his head, and after a while, Fang raised his face, looked at Zhou Hongyuan, and said calmly, "The other day you asked me if I ever loved you, and I just remembered last night that in those When I was madly waiting for your phone call, waiting for your reply, and madly looking for you, I actually thought of using my own body to keep you." What an embarrassing, humble past, just like this. Yu said it lightly.But the easier Cheng Yu spoke, the more painful and remorseful Zhou Hongyuan felt.Every sentence, every word was a knife, which was stuck straight into Zhou Hongyuan's chest. He could barely breathe, and even every beat of his heart brought severe pain.Of course he knew that Cheng Yu didn't love him anymore, but he was such a straight man, in the most painful, entangled, and helpless days when he was abandoned by the only relative in the world, he was so humble that he was willing to use his own body to redeem everything .And all he wanted was for this child who was raised by himself and who had received countless kindness from him to be able to accompany him and talk to him.Zhou Hongyuan closed his eyes tightly, a few tears quickly fell from the corners of his eyes, and then he didn't know where they fell.

Zhou Hongyuan took a deep breath, he felt as if he was about to suffocate, the second hand on the clock was dragging, and every second passed was accompanied by irresistible pain.Zhou Hongyuan felt that he was going to be overwhelmed.

Seeing his sad look, Cheng Yu felt uncomfortable. He shook his head, smiled a few times, and comforted him, saying, "It's all over. No matter how sad the days are, they will pass the same way." "There is no suffering in this world that people can't endure, and Cheng Yu knew it well since he was a child.

Zhou Hongyuan held Cheng Yu's hand tightly, and he called Cheng Yu eagerly, "Uncle, Uncle..." Every sound was like crying blood, and every sound was like a knife cutting through everyone's heart.Zhou Hongyuan was terrified, afraid of missing out from now on, even more afraid of never seeing this person in front of him again.He owed Cheng Yu too much, and Cheng Yu should punish him well, preferably with a lifetime of punishment.

Cheng Yu was stuck with a lot of words and couldn't speak them all the time. At this moment, he simply poured them all out, "You still sent me a check and a savings card. Zhou Hongyuan, you actually want to use money to compensate me..."

Zhou Hongyuan lowered his head even more.At that time, he had just joined JPMorgan Chase as an intern, and he got a very generous salary for him at that time. He suddenly thought of Cheng Yu as if he had a conscience, but at that time he didn't want to contact Cheng Yu directly. Then they remitted the foreign exchange to Mei Ting in China, and transferred the money to Cheng Yu through a check written by Mei Ting.When Cheng Yu received the check, he naturally had doubts. He asked a friend in the bank to inquire, only to find out that the person who sent the check was Mei Ting, who was studying at S Province Normal University at that time.Cheng Yu quickly thought of Zhou Hongyuan who left without saying goodbye, so it was impossible for him to accept this humiliating money.If no one picks up the money, the check will naturally be voided.Zhou Hongyuan had nothing to do with him, but he didn't insist anymore.Later, when Zhou Hongyuan returned to the country, he dragged Mei Ting to send the savings card every year. Cheng Yu was really annoyed by Zhou Hongyuan's behavior, but it was inconvenient to come to negotiate with a girl, so he had to return the mail intact every time.

Zhou Hongyuan clenched his hands, he didn't even have the face to look up in front of Cheng Yu.He actually tried to use money to cover up his despicableness and shamelessness, and he used money again and again to insult Cheng Yu's feelings for him for many years.He is really worse than a beast.

Cheng Yu sighed, too many words will be lost, he has said too much useless nonsense today, he is nearly forty years old, and he still doesn't understand, what's the point of these resentments and nagging.

It's useless, everything is useless.

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It's early morning again, and I have to work tomorrow.I'm having a hard time.good night~