little uncle

Cheng Yu's heart was hopeless, he took his hand out of Zhou Hongyuan's, and he did not want to talk with Zhou Hongyuan any more.Zhou Hongyuan held him back, as if he was afraid that he would disappear before his eyes.

Cheng Yu frowned. He didn't know what else to say between himself and Zhou Hongyuan, but he didn't have the strength to tear him apart anymore, so Cheng Yu didn't insist, and simply sat down peacefully as Zhou Hongyuan wished. on the sofa.

Zhou Hongyuan frowned tightly, Cheng Yu even felt a little strange in his heart, he was the one who was hurt, and he was the one who was embarrassing, why did Zhou Hongyuan make such a painful look again?It's just to make myself feel uncomfortable.Cheng Yu suddenly thought of that many, many years ago, that child who knew he was not Zhou Yunwei's biological son, but insisted on putting on a show, intentionally made him feel sorry, and deliberately made him soft-hearted.Zhou Hongyuan has never had a kind heart. He is like a ferocious wolf. The weakness and pitifulness he pretends to be is just to wait for the opportunity to recharge his energy. His sharp claws and teeth are all hidden. Under the skin.

Zhou Hongyuan used a lot of courage, and finally asked what was in his heart, "Uncle, why have you never been married?"

Cheng Yu was startled for a moment, as if he didn't expect Zhou Hongyuan to ask about this matter today.He didn't hide anything, let alone exaggerate, "Actually, when you were in high school, I had a girl I liked, but I know you don't like me dating and getting married." Speaking of this, Cheng Yu made a mocking smile, " At that time, I was afraid of affecting your emotions and your life, so I never stayed with her. Later, after you finished the college entrance examination, she was married."

Zhou Hongyuan's heart tightened.Cheng Yu went on to say, "Later, after you went abroad, I lived in a daze for half a year, during which time I had a girlfriend. In [-], I paid off my mortgage and was about to quit my job and go to graduate school. She didn't want me to study and said Unstable, insecure, unable to communicate with each other, each sticking to their own opinions, and finally broke up."

Zhou Hongyuan opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say.He instinctively resented everyone who couldn't make Cheng Yu get what he wanted, but at this moment he couldn't help but thank that girl for leaving.

"Later, when I was in graduate school, I was with a school girl. After graduation, she entered the system and had better choices."

Zhou Hongyuan's expression was a bit complicated, of course he didn't want Cheng Yu to get married and have children, but hearing Cheng Yu tell these sad things without pain, he felt inexplicably uncomfortable in his heart.

The fate of a person in this life is limited. Sometimes, if you miss it, you will never have another chance.Cheng Yu had already understood this truth.Whether you are in love or getting married, you must not only have a heart, but also pay attention to the right time, place and people. Both are indispensable.Life is so long, there are always people who are greeted and sent away, and there are always people who can't stay, so it's better to let go.After breaking up for such a long time, Cheng Yu put it down long ago. It wasn't sad, but it was aroused a little bit, and his mood sank a bit, and he simply turned the conversation elsewhere, and asked Zhou Hongyuan lightly, "What about you?" , you're going to be thirty too."

Zhou Hongyuan didn't expect Cheng Yu to ask about his relationship experience, so he lowered his head inadvertently. After a long time, the curiosity in Cheng Yu's heart disappeared, and he said bluntly, "I've never been in love before. G."

After saying this, Zhou Hongyuan regretted it, and the next second, he heard a cold snort from Cheng Yu's mouth, and he didn't want to look at him any more.

Zhou Hongyuan was terrified and hated his own stupidity. He tugged on Cheng Yu's sleeve flatteringly, but he didn't dare to explain, for fear of making Cheng Yu even more annoyed.After thinking about it, Zhou Hongyuan finally choked out a sentence from his poor brain, "Uncle, I am serious about you."

Cheng Yu gave him a blank look like a village idiot, not understanding the meaning of what Zhou Hongyuan said to him.Could it be that he wanted to tell himself that in Zhou Hongyuan's heart, he was still more important than those friends with sex, and that he had to be grateful to Dale?

Zhou Hongyuan licked his lips, and he timidly tugged at the corner of Cheng Yu's clothes, saying, "Uncle, Uncle, I only love you. Before, now, and from now on, I will only love you."

It's fine not to mention it, but after Zhou Hongyuan finished his words, the suppressed pain in Cheng Yu's heart burned up. Cheng Yu hated the love and love in Zhou Hongyuan's mouth so much, he clenched his fists, and the blue veins on the back of his hand snaked out With a distorted posture, the words spoken are extremely light, "Can you tell me why you left me in the first place? You love me and want me, why do you still treat me like this? Ten years, Zhou Hongyuan, you left me for ten years, And say you love me."

Zhou Hongyuan hated himself already. He wished he could tear up that ridiculous, ignorant, despicable and shameless person ten years ago, so that he could see clearly what he had done to the benefactor who raised him.Cheng Yu gave him a home, gave him unconditional love and care, gave him endless tolerance and kindness, but what did he give Cheng Yu?It is deceit, disgust, perfunctory, and abandonment.Thinking about it, they had known each other for nearly 20 years, and all he had brought to Cheng Yu was endless hurt and humiliation.

Zhou Hongyuan really hated himself.He is dirty and vulgar, utilitarian and philistine, but he still dreams about the moon in the sky, dreaming that one day he can wash away his sins.

How could he be so arrogant, how could he have such a ridiculous idea?

Zhou Hongyuan couldn't hold on any longer, and with a "plop", he knelt down in front of Cheng Yu again.Different from the deliberate design at the door of the house on Friday to seek Cheng Yu's forgiveness, this time, he really hated himself and felt extremely guilty.He didn't know how to make up for himself, and all the compensations in ten years seemed frivolous and hypocritical.

Seeing Zhou Hongyuan knelt down to him again, Cheng Yu lost his mind in an instant.He pursed his lips hard, trying to pull him up, but he was still muttering, "Don't kneel to me, don't kneel." But Zhou Hongyuan was determined, no matter how Cheng Yu pulled him up, he refused to get up.Cheng Yu was anxious and angry, his eyes and nose were red, and when he blinked a little, a stream of tears fell on the ground. He covered his eyes with his hands, his voice choked up, "Why? Is it because I'm not good enough for you? Or did I do something wrong? Hongyuan, I haven’t done anything bad in my life, I don’t know why it happened.” Cheng Yu was so sad, tears overflowed from his fingers, he wiped it in a panic, but couldn’t make up his mind, Wipe more and more.

Zhou Hongyuan knelt on the ground and hugged Cheng Yu's waist. His heart seemed to be on fire and his eyes were flushed. For any reason, you have nothing wrong. The fault is only with me. I was blinded by glitz and fame. You left it behind."

Cheng Yu's sobs became more and more obvious, his shoulders trembled, and his whole body was like a thin piece of paper, being sucked into the vortex of the violent wind and rain.

Zhou Hongyuan took two deep breaths. He looked at Cheng Yu's face seriously, scraped out all the darkest and despicable self, and spread those darkest thoughts in front of Cheng Yu inch by inch, "I love you , I have loved you since I was very young. It is not just love, it is looking up, adoring, and desiring. At that time, I was willing to pile up all the positive and beautiful words in this world on you. You are all my beliefs , is my moonlight, my god."

Cheng Yu's mind was buzzing. He was like a corpse that had been dissected repeatedly. He shouldn't have felt any pain, but for some reason, it hurt so badly.

"But how much I admired you when I was a child, how much I despise and loathe you later?"

Cheng Yu suddenly took away the hand covering his face, his big eyes were filled with tears that had not yet rolled down, and he stared at Zhou Hongyuan firmly, as if he wanted to see through him.He never thought that Zhou Hongyuan despised himself.He didn't understand, he couldn't figure it out no matter what.

Zhou Hongyuan pulled his hair vigorously, "Uncle, I was wrong. At that time, I was too inferior, too proud, too arrogant, and too ridiculous. I just saw the world of feasting, greed, and eagerness. I just want to Thinking of possessing, thinking of becoming a master..."

Cheng Yu laughed at himself twice, "Yes, Hongyuan, I have never been a master, let alone give you the family background and money you want, I will only call over and over again, asking if you have any They didn’t have enough food and warm clothes.” They were two completely different types of people from the beginning, even two extremes.

"Uncle, it's always been my fault. I love you and rely on you. I spend your money and rely on you for support, but I look down on you in my heart. I am the most shameless, despicable and unworthy of you in this world." Sympathetic and pitiful person. I am not worthy of your giri, nor worthy of being your relative."

Cheng Yu was dumbfounded.He understood every word of Zhou Hongyuan, but he didn't understand what it meant when they were connected together.He didn't know why Zhou Hongyuan had so many thoughts, and he didn't understand how two extreme emotions converged in one person.

As Zhou Hongyuan said, love is real, dependence is real, escape is real, so following the trend, contempt and disgust are also real.He couldn't read Zhou Hongyuan, but when he opened his chest, his beating heart was still sad for Zhou Hongyuan, and his soft body was still reluctant to part with the child he raised with his own hands.

Zhou Hongyuan continued, "Uncle, I love you, and I will use my whole life to make it up to you."

Cheng Yu bit his lips tightly, and still didn't notice the bleeding. After a long time, he said softly, "I am willing to take you in because I still miss you even now. I accept your apology , but will never forgive you, this is the punishment you deserve."

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Zhou Hongyuan must have given Cheng Yu an explanation.It's two o'clock in the morning again, good night.