Dressed as a top-notch stand-in for the president

Ji Yu felt that her tears could not stop suddenly.

Perhaps in her life, the role of "mother" has been absent for too long, and Chu Nanxing's mother is too friendly, completely in line with all the appearances of mothers in Ji Yu's heart - she will cry when the child is crying and helpless. , Appear when you are hurt, use gentle embrace and voice to soothe all the scars the other party has suffered from the outside world.

Ji Yu never thought that she would confide these unimaginable things to this gentle lady who appeared in front of her. She also couldn't understand what kind of mood she was in at this moment. Maybe it was simply that she couldn't bear these heavy burdens Stuff, if she doesn't pour out that overload of bad energy right away, she'll probably die in the day-to-day haze afterwards.

"I...no one bullied me...but I did something bad..."

She felt the calming, calming power in Yu Su's body. Tears kept rolling down her face. When she spoke, Ji Yu's voice was full of remorse.

Yu Su still had that gentle voice, without any sense of reproach: "What is it?"

Ji Yu was at a loss, didn't know how to describe it, only tears flowed down like broken beads, her fingertips moved, she seemed to want to hug him back, but in the end she was timid and didn't dare to move forward——

This kind lady is not her mother.

With a strange feeling of guilt, as if stealing someone's family, Ji Yu lightly licked her lower lip, and said, "I, I once had someone I liked very much, but we didn't really meet each other at that time. noodle."

She said: "I thought I liked her enough... But after we lost contact for a while, I accidentally met her in real life. Her personality has changed. Maybe she just didn't recognize her. out of me, so she didn't treat me as well as before... Anyway, I spent a lot of time with her in person, and I didn't even recognize her as the person I used to like."

Thinking of this, Ji Yu felt that her heart was entwined by some thorny thorns, so that every breath she took brought a kind of pain rolling into the blood, making her limbs tremble involuntarily.

She shed more tears silently, obviously in the past four years, she thought that there was nothing worthy of her sadness, but looking back now, Ji Yu saw many things hidden in the details of life.

"When we were living together, I felt that she was arrogant and conceited. She didn't even know the real way to treat someone well. She just blindly gave me the things she liked... I watched countless times with cold eyes, glad that I didn't know how to treat someone well." Fall in love with this guy."

"But, in fact, the one who is really arrogant is me..."

Ji Yu lowered her eyes slightly, and seeing her tears fall on Yu Su's shoulders, she couldn't help but raised her hand to wipe around her eyes, only to realize that she had tears streaming down her face, she wanted to leave a bit, so that she wouldn't be rude enough to offend The other party, but Yu Su thought she didn't feel safe enough, so she didn't dare to confide in her anymore, so she just folded her arms and hugged her tighter, and even patted her on the back comfortingly, and said softly:

"it's okay no problem."

Ji Yu was strangely coaxed by her voice again, and choked up a bit. Now she is almost masochistically throwing those ugly adjectives on herself, as if she can feel better this way, just like in the snowy winter day. Believers who insist on walking barefoot and heading towards the Holy Land in a penance way.

"It's my fault... When I didn't recognize her, I treated her very badly. When I saw something she gave me that I didn't like, I didn't refuse it. She mistakenly thought that I liked it, and then I Watching her go further and further down the wrong path like this, it seems that if I leave in the future, I won't have to bear the consequences of deceiving others' sincerity."

"I also don't let her see my true hobbies, or even let her know what I really think. Every time I get along with her, I wrap myself in a turtle shell, only pretending to be another side to let her look."

"But... I obviously had many opportunities. If I met her at that time, I would treat her with sincerity, get along well with her, and even let her see what I have learned with her. Maybe she will recognize it. mine."

After Ji Yu turned 16, she never regretted anything.

Yet now.

But she wished she could turn back the pointer of time to when she first came to this world. On that winter day, when she was holding her arms so cold that she was shaking, she met Meng Rendong who came out of a fashion banquet.

If she smiled at that time and said to the other party: "I fell in love with you at first sight, would you like to try to have a relationship with me?"

Will everything be different?

A relationship that was supposed to lead to a better life, but because of her initial idea of ​​finding "Si Tian" as a substitute, it started in the wrong way, so the fruit it produced was also astringent and bitter, which made them both miserable.

The more Ji Yu thought about it, the more she collapsed. She almost couldn't stand still, and finally she completely gave up the burden of being an idol, and fell on Yu Su's shoulder, crying so sadly, like a child who has done something wrong and is at a loss for her parents. Confession, but do not know how to save.

……

Ji Yu cried so much that she was almost choking, and she managed to calm down, and continued:

"I'm not that good... But she still likes me."

"She obviously didn't recognize me, but she has already started to like me, and because of my fear and resistance, I refused her further advances, and I ran away from her. I didn't want my previous thoughts of my sweetheart to change. It is cheap and fickle, so I left quickly, but now, I know that the person I have been looking for for so long is her."

"When she didn't recognize me, she didn't do anything to hurt me except that she couldn't love anyone."

"But what about me?"

"I seem to treat her very well, but in fact, I don't care who she is or what she is thinking. If someone with the same face is in front of me, I can treat that person like this... I pretend to be gentle Her appearance deceived her sincerity."

"I'm always hurting her...why do I do so many bad things?"

Ji Yu couldn't continue, she was about to be overwhelmed by the mountains and seas of guilt, especially when she thought of how many times, Meng Rendong tried to keep her, and she hurt each other again and again.

That time in the sea fishing.

If she had left Meng Rendong behind and chose to rush down to catch up with Si Tian, ​​what would have happened?

Thinking about it, Ji Yuguang felt scared for a while. Among so many choices, she wanted to abandon Meng Rendong countless times without even thinking about it, but Meng Rendong... even before remembering things, in a hundred times, The 99 choices that have been made have all been tilted in Ji Yu's direction first.

After the breakup, Ji Yu didn't save her any face, and the proud Meng Rendong was hit hard emotionally, and realized that he was just a stand-in for Ji Yu's feelings—

Rao is so.

Later in the swimming pool, she also came out the first time Ji Yu encountered danger.

Meng Rendong is so serious and trying to save those mistakes he made, only Ji Yu is still immersed in his own world, escaping from everything.

……

Yu Su didn't really understand the story.

After all, she was getting old, and some things were too difficult for her to turn around, so I had to understand that Ji Yu met another person on the Internet, and then met in real life, but the conversation turned out to be unpleasant.

She sighed softly, and didn't know how to comfort Ji Yu, because in her eyes, Ji Yu was just a child who hadn't grown up and was similar to Jian Yu. Emotions go through.

Yu Su looked at this matter from the perspective of someone who has experienced it, and she can roughly understand that this is a slightly unexpected emotional experience between two young people, and in a relationship, the most important thing is—"Do you still like her? "

"If you like her, you can admit your mistake frankly. If she still likes you, isn't that just a good thing?"

"Good things don't last long, sometimes life always likes to play some jokes on us."

Ji Yu heard her calmly clearing away the fog and pointing to the core issue, but she shook her head in confusion:

"I... I don't know anymore."

"Now I feel that my liking is so cheap. I'm not as affectionate as I show myself. Otherwise, no matter what she becomes, I should recognize it."

When Yu Su heard her words that scolded herself to the extreme, she suddenly laughed softly, and while comforting Ji Yu, said softly:

"Silly boy."

"How can there be so many loves in this world that are born to be a pair, fall in love at first sight and go smoothly? How can there be so many pairs of souls who are just right when they meet and can never be separated for life?"

"Most people are just talking about ordinary love, and their enthusiasm and confidence have been honed by firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, and then in the sudden difficulties again and again, they either hold hands with each other, grit their teeth and get through it, sometimes I will still encounter the same problems as before, so I am discouraged and unwilling to persist, or suddenly, one party let go, and the other party just didn't catch it. gone."

This is why human beings are always singing the praises of those beautiful loves.

Not because those feelings are so intense and full, but because the triviality of life and the long time are enough to sculpt people into another appearance quietly. In the different appearances of poverty, wealth, hardship, and success, keep the original intention, remember that you want to go down with each other, and persist until the end. This is a place worthy of praise.

Human nature is greedy, selfish, seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, lazy...

But a long-lasting love needs to violate this instinct again and again. At first, the novelty and impulsiveness can make dopamine secrete happiness, which makes people greedy, but this freshness cannot be repeated in one thing. , from the point where a kiss or a hug can make you blush and your heart beats slowly, it gradually becomes a habit even if you touch each other skin-to-skin, and the habit is the most terrible thing, it can make people mistake the original treasures for gravel.

……

Yu Su hoped that everything would go well for Ji Yu and not suffer so many hardships, but she was also afraid that even if she reunited with her, she would encounter many difficulties in life.

This is a true mother's mentality. When you put your child in the greenhouse, you are afraid that if the greenhouse is broken one day and there is no thorough care, a little rain and wind outside will make her wither; When I go to the wild, I don't feel at ease, I'm afraid that a jackal, tiger or leopard will come and take her away, so it's always a torment.

So I can only follow the child step by step, teaching her how to protect herself, and hoping that all the difficulties she encounters can be handled by herself. I wish I could prop up the whole sky and take all those terrible injuries for her. Block it first, leaving only some gentle ones, enough to teach her to grow.

After saying the previous words, she didn't continue to ask, as if she respected whether Ji Yu wanted to give up or continue, now she just wiped away Ji Yu's tears with a handkerchief, and then asked her with a smile :

"Would you like to come in with me for some tea?"

"I'll take you to taste the Yuqian Longjing I just bought from someone, how about it?"

Ji Yu looked at the way she laughed, and felt like crying again. She was thinking why she didn't have such a good mother, but soon she realized that her mentality was too fragile, so she laughed at herself from the bottom of her heart. On the face, She wiped away her tears, folded Yu Su's handkerchief, and prepared to go back and wash it before returning it to the lady.

"it is good."

She smiled through tears, and the whole person seemed to relax a little.

……

outside the alley.

Meng Rendong originally planned to find a place nearby to rest first, in case Si Tian encountered something and wanted to ask her for help but she wasn't there, but he was half asleep and half asleep, but when he didn't sleep well, he received a call from Kong Rufan.

"Where did you hide such a beautiful idol in our family?"

"The show will start recording in half an hour, let her come back quickly, there are some changes in the process here."

Meng Rendong was a little dizzy from the interspersed dreams, and just said "huh?" in a nasal voice, as if he hadn't realized what happened.

After Kong Rufan patiently repeated it again and asked her to hand in someone, Meng Rendong sat up from the bed, distractedly glanced at the messages on the phone, and asked Kong Rufan to wait—

As a result, it turned over.

She saw dozens of lines of messages from Si Tian.

"Ah... I seem to have screwed up."

"Help, Ji Yu won't be able to bear the truth and be provoked? Is it because I speak the wrong way?"

"Mr. Meng! QAQ, what should I do? Ji Yu seems to have disappeared..."

Meng Rendong pulled down all the way. When he saw the last sentence, although the exhaustion in his body had not completely dissipated, he sat up immediately, and instinctively walked towards the door until Kong Rufan asked again. , she realized that her phone was still connected, so she pinched the bridge of her nose, closed her eyes, cheered up and said:

"I see."

"I'll send you back now."

It wasn't until he hung up the phone that Meng Rendong felt the trouble belatedly.

Ji Yu didn't bring his mobile phone, so he must have been affected by Si Tian's words, and he didn't return to the set at this time, where would he go?

Meng Rendong was anxious for a while like a headless chicken, and then he thought of something, and made a phone call while walking outside.

……

After ten minutes.

Ji Yu regained her mood, holding a cup, and sitting with Yu Su in the old house in this ancient city chatting, because of her gaffe just now, she tried to save her image in Yu Su's heart, so she almost answered every question, very well-behaved.

Until there was a knock at the door.

Yu Su got up first, and then...

Bring Meng Rendong in together.

When meeting those black eyes, Ji Yu reflexively moved his eyes away, Meng Rendong was always paying attention to her reaction, seeing that she was avoiding him even more than before, so he only smiled wryly in his heart, and then turned to Yu Su Say politely and respectfully:

"Aunt Su, recently a friend of mine brought back some supplements from abroad. I'll bring them to you another day. Now that the program over there is urging me, I'll take this little friend back first."

She didn't know what she said to Yu Su before, but now the smile on Yu Su's face was a little gentler, she nodded when she heard Meng Rendong's words, and then said to Ji Yu:

"I wanted to keep you for lunch. Since I have work to do, let's do it next time. You are welcome to come to me next time."

Ji Yu put down the teacup, stood up a little embarrassed, thanked Yu Su, and apologized again for her gaffe just now, and then her face flushed belatedly, so she walked towards the outside quickly, before going out He hesitated for a moment, bowed seriously to Yu Su and said, next time I will remember to bring a gift to visit, I hope she will not be disgusted.

Then he flew away as if flying.

Although Meng Rendong didn't know why Ji Yu appeared here, but seeing her eyes flushed earlier, he also guessed that she had too much emotional ups and downs after knowing the truth. Although she wanted to catch up and ask Ji Yu's attitude clearly, Yu Su stopped her again.

"Xiao Meng."

Meng Rendong stopped and looked at her seriously.

Yu Su hesitated and said: "...She really looks like Jian Yu, right?"

Meng Rendong was a little afraid to answer this question.

Yu Su was a little persistent, and asked in another direction: "Do you think... Jian Yu will come back?"

Meng Rendong tensed her cheeks, for a long time, when she was about to answer seriously, Yu Su smiled to herself, waved her hand, and didn't want to keep her.

"It's because I think too much. Huaide always says that about me. Did what you said just now make you embarrassed?"

"Next time, Aunt Su won't say anything."

But Meng Rendong shook his head, took another deep look at Yu Su, and said carefully, "Aunt Su, no matter if she comes back or not, no matter where she is, she is so good, there will always be someone to protect her. "

Yu Su seemed to believe it, but also seemed to be trying to comfort her. In short, she smiled and responded to Meng Rendong, "Yeah."

Meng Rendong suddenly added another sentence: "Me too."

Yu Su didn't understand, and asked in confusion: "Huh?"

Meng Rendong looked at her, and there seemed to be a lot of information in her eyes, which quickly faded away. She and Yu Su's eyes fell apart at the touch of each other, and then like other polite juniors, she lowered her eyes and said:

"No matter when, if I meet her, I will protect her."

Yu Su smiled, she looked at Meng Rendong, and then at the direction of the door, but this time she didn't answer.

……

It was only after Meng Rendong went out that he realized that Ji Yu was standing by the white wall outside the courtyard, looking up at the direction of the eaves, as if he was really interested in the stone carved beasts on it.

But Meng Rendong missed a beat in his heart, and couldn't help thinking affectionately, was she waiting for him?

What would she say to herself?

Thinking of this, she slowed down a bit in that direction. When Ji Yu heard the sound of footsteps and looked towards her, the moment their eyes met, they all stopped at the same time, as if they had passed through years. An old friend finally reunited.

After staring at each other for an unknown amount of time, Meng Rendong couldn't help it anymore. She was like a criminal who had already been charged and was waiting for the final court verdict. She was too nervous to bear Ji Yu's gaze.

Maybe she is really too tired, from yesterday to now, she has dealt with too many things.

So she should be rational and cautious, and don't approach Ji Yu in a way that would be disgusted, but at this time, she followed the impulse in her heart and walked up quickly. Before Ji Yu could react, she hugged him into his arms.

Smelling the familiar smell from the other person, Meng Liandong closed his eyes, together with those impulses, annoyance and fear, he expressed his emotions at once——

"You scared me to death."

Ji Yu, who was hugged by her, was stunned for a moment when she heard this, and stretched out her hand in the air, not knowing whether to hug or push her.

Immediately afterwards, she felt Meng Rendong's trembling. She was so arrogant and indifferent before, but now she trembled because of a hug. It made Ji Yu feel that the person who hugged her was about to shatter. It was so fragile. She didn't dare to move while being hugged.

In this way, she heard the other party's familiar voice fall into her ears:

"next time……"

"It's okay to be angry, or you don't want to talk to me for the rest of your life, but don't let me find you, okay?"

Meng Rendong recalled how he had just been quarreled by Kong Rufan's phone call from under the covers, and the fear came back to him, and he seemed to return to seven years ago, when Chu Jianyu disappeared from the world because of drowning, It made her irreparable and impossible to find, and she was surrounded by fear of being at a loss every day.

With blue tiles and white walls, there is a cool breeze passing through the ancient alleys in the cool autumn, as if a rain with autumn frost can fall at any time, sinking the whole world into this blue cold pool.

In the small alley of the Chu family alley where no one passes by, one person is hugged by another person, and the posture seems to be intimate, but in fact it is a person who seems to be drowning in a long river, fragilely grasping a life-saving straw that keeps slipping away from his palm , She grasped it tightly again and again, trying to keep the straw in her palm for a longer time, and she was too tired to let go.

Ji Yu heard Meng Rendong's voice with a little humble pleading, as if even getting a response from himself was an extravagant hope, the cold emotion of the past no longer existed, replaced by an indescribable cautiousness:

"Ji Yu, don't disappear into my world, okay?"