sound of silence

"What do you think our president is angry about? It's like eating dynamite! Just ask him to remember that he will be performing at the welcome party, so why don't you give people health care?"

"Then you have to ask that—Li Ji! The two of them stick together every day!"

Liu Bangqi rolled his eyes, walked out of the club angrily, and met Pan Qiqin, wearing a loose jersey, running forward with a flushed face, Liu Bangqi quickly grabbed the bell-breaker.

"What are you doing?" Pan Qiqin said urgently, "Don't say anything now! I have something urgent!" As he spoke, he wanted to break away from him.

But Liu Bangqi grasped it firmly and said: "Hey! Why is Jingyu so angry? Does he really not care about the New Year's Eve party? We have already arranged the program with the director-general!"

"Oh! You ask me, who should I ask? I'm not the roundworm in his stomach, and besides, I can't perform with him at this orientation party!!"

Liu Bangqi's heart flashed, and he seemed to feel a little angry about their president, so he hurriedly said, "Why don't you go up? It's agreed that you two - Youke Lilin - will go up!"

"I can't help it! It was Xiangyun's birthday! I have to accompany her! I told the senior the day before yesterday!"

"Xiangyun? That Zhao Xiangyun who knows the department? Didn't you break up last month?"

Pan Qiqin blinked, blushed suddenly, and mumbled, "...No...we were just losing our temper at that time! There is no real division! We made it clear last week!"

Liu Bangqi frowned and said: "You are like this, no wonder Jing Yu gets angry, every time you fall in love, you don't take anything seriously!"

"Hou..." Pan Qiqin sighed helplessly, "Don't say that! Anyway, there are so many people in the club, and seniors don't necessarily have to match me!"

Liu Bangqi's eyes widened immediately and he said: "Aqin! You are too selfish! At the beginning, the president formed a team. If you hadn't been arguing to form a duo with him, he wouldn't have quarreled with Hong Yaming and the others. So stiff, why are you saying such things now?"

"I know! That's not what I meant...I meant to say...Seniors can form groups with other people sometimes! It doesn't have to be me! The songs I make are not afraid of being used by others, and I am not the only one who can play bass in the group... "

Liu Bangqi gasped on the spot, and was about to teach this selfish guy a lesson when a voice as cold as ice suddenly sounded...

"I understand what you mean! Well... I won't force you! However, I have something to talk to you, you come in!!"

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"Senior... what are you thinking! You have been in a daze! Senior Shen is calling you!" Yixiu pushed him suddenly, and Pan Qiqin came back to his senses immediately!

"Hmm... who do you think is looking for me?"

"Senior Shen! He kept waving at you, but you didn't respond!"

"Where...where...where is he..." Pan Qiqin felt all the bones in his body tighten suddenly, and when he looked up, a dozen or so eyes from the audience shot at him like arrows, making him stand up involuntarily. .

Shen Jingyu was actually very recognizable.Wearing a red T-shirt, jeans, light brown hair, thin cheeks, and elegant facial features, he stood in the crowd like a lake of water.

I saw him nodding his head at a distance, smiled, and then turned away, listening to a group of people chatting non-stop!

In front of him, Pan Qiqin felt that he was suddenly half shorter, and his usual "deputy station master" air was completely defeated.

Because strictly speaking, today, or even in the past, it can be said that he has made a big move by him!

However, seeing everyone chatting and eating happily, he couldn't have a seizure at all, he could only sullenly, hold his breath, and joke with everyone.

"Jingyu, where are we going to eat later!" Suddenly a voice broke through the air.

Shen Jingyu immediately raised her head and glanced at the crowd. Of course, she also spotted Pan Qiqin, but he stayed on him for half a second, and just turned his thumb around and tapped down.

"Eat at a restaurant? Okay! I'll make a reservation with the counter first!"

What is he thinking?Do you hate me that much?Although it is not too late for a gentleman to take revenge for three years, but... it has been seven years since that incident... Could it be that he is still holding grudges! ?

Suffering this long-lost indifference, Pan Qiqin suddenly felt extremely uncomfortable!

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In the classroom, the sunlight was fragmented by the blinds, and the sunlight was scattered on Shen Jingyu's body.

Pan Qiqin stood a little absent-mindedly, and kept looking at his watch, but he just leaned against the table with his head bowed, not speaking.

"Senior...I...I'm in a hurry...you...what are you going to say to me..."

Pan Qiqin never felt that he had anything to be afraid of. On the contrary, he thought he was quite amiable. But for some reason, the whole club, even the student union, said that his personality was very cold. If he didn't have a good singing voice, With a good handwriting, it seems that no one wants to get close to him.

In other words, Pan Qiqin was probably the only one in the whole school who had the guts to urge him!

"Where are you going?" Shen Jingyu asked in a deep voice.

"I have a date with Xiangyun..."

"...you...haven't you always wanted to practice the song The Sound of Silence..."

...No way...Why are you talking about this with me now!

If it weren't for respecting him as the president and partner, Pan Qiqin would almost burst into anger, and he suppressed it with difficulty, but he already showed impatience: "Senior... this matter... can we talk about it next time... Xiangyun is waiting for me at the school gate...I might have to leave first..." As he spoke, he stopped looking at him and hurriedly packed up his things.

Shen Jingyu saw his impatience, quickly took a deep breath, and said sternly: "Okay, let's talk next time...you... just finished running, remember to put on some clothes, the weather is getting colder and colder now..."

"Senior!" Pan Qiqin stopped his hand suddenly, looked at him with an incomprehensible expression, and said, "I'm not a three-year-old child, nor a freshman...you...you don't have to tell this every time, tell that...you need more Put on clothes, drink more water, eat more... can you stop being so nice to me?"

Seeing Shen Jingyu's suddenly stunned expression, Pan Qiqin knew that what he said just now seemed to be going too far.

However, he was so kind to himself that the entire club he had formed was so neurotic that he didn't openly say that they were gay!

And he understands that although the two are only two years apart in terms of age, they are like adults and children in terms of intelligence and EQ.

In other words, even if Shen Jingyu never cared about those nonsense, he couldn't do it himself!And now that he stepped on a landmine in his heart, he didn't want to accept him even more!

"Do you know...the cruelest words in the world are" Please don't be too nice to me? ""Shen Jingyu frowned, and suppressed: "If it's not because... I care..."

"I know you care about me! But I don't want it!"

"Senior, do you know why I broke up with Xiangyun last month?" Having made his words clear, Pan Qiqin resolutely said, "That's because you are too good to me!"

Shen Jingyu only felt that someone had stabbed his heart, and it hurt so much, but he just said calmly: "There is a gap in your...how can you blame me..."

"I'm not weird, I'm telling the truth!" Pan Qiqin looked up at him and said, "Do you know that you are very popular? The whole world is watching your every move!" He took a deep breath and said: "Just now At first, I didn’t care about other people’s jokes, but now even Xiangyun thinks you’re too nice to me!”

"Xiangyun...Xiangyun...Xiangyun!" Shen Jingyu seemed to be irritated by him, and couldn't help trembling: "I know you're in a relationship...but...do you have to listen to that woman for everything! "

Pan Qiqin was stunned on the spot, he had known him for two years, but he had never heard him speak in such a discriminatory colloquial language, but now he was arguing, so he didn't think too much about it, and said, "I just listen to her for everything. , will argue with her! Because I know you are not gay, you just take good care of me, like a younger brother! So I don’t want her to keep mocking you! Keep saying you are gay! That’s why we’re so stiff!”

Shen Jingyu raised her head, took a deep look at him, then turned her head, loosened her figure, leaned on the table again and said: "I... don't care what others say..."

"I know you don't care, but I do!" Pan Qiqin also turned back and continued to pack his things, "Not only do I not like people talking about you, I also don't like people talking about me! So, in the future, I...may not come to the club for a while ...You... don't look for me for now!"

A dozen or so people were divided into two sides, and a long table was densely surrounded.Pan Qiqin and Shen Jingyu were far away from each other with a tacit understanding.

Pan Qiqin was talking with the others, and he couldn't help but glance at him when there was a break.

What are you doing!He didn't take himself seriously at all!

Then what did he ask himself out for?Is it possible that you want to see the expression on your face when you are being turned around by him?

Pan Qiqin himself didn't know what was going on, once he put himself in front of him, all the willfulness for no reason was released,

"Hey! Who has a pen! This one is out of water!"

Everyone stopped their voices and looked towards Lai Sheng. It was Qiu Fengyu who was sitting next to Shen Jingyu.

"Here, take it!" Yixiu threw one far away, and then saw Shen Jingyu pick up the pen, start writing on the paper, and then pushed it forward, a group of people surrounded the paper, talking in a hurry tongue.

"What are they doing?" Pan Qiqin was really curious about what Shen Jingyu wrote, but he didn't want to show that he was interested, so he casually asked Yixiu beside him.

"They?" Yixiu seemed to be confused.

"I mean... what did the senior write? Why are everyone surrounded by me!"

"Wow, disaster! Probably chatting! Anyway, it will take half an hour for BUFFET to start!"

Chatting... all the shit is written by hand... Pan Qiqin suddenly became a little inexplicably angry, always feeling that Shen Jingyu deliberately didn't let himself know what he was writing... the more he thought about it, the more angry he became...

"Hey, what are you guys talking about! Aqin is asking!" As soon as Yixiu said that, the group of people suddenly looked over!

Pan Qiqin felt as if a thousand arrows were piercing his heart, he couldn't help blushing, and said in a panic, "No! I... didn't ask! You guys continue... chatting!"

"Didn't you just ask me, what are they talking about?" Yixiu casually sipped her juice and asked suspiciously.

Wow!I'm not...very curious...Okay, okay, okay, even if I'm curious, but...you don't have to say it so loudly!I don't necessarily have to know!

"I..." Pan Qiqin blushed and didn't know how to answer. However, everyone's suspicious eyes didn't stop, but Shen Jingyu suddenly smiled at him and gently pushed the white paper towards him.

This action made Pan Qiqin feel embarrassed and wanted to jump into the hole, but since the incident happened...wouldn't he die if he didn't take a look?

Just like that, Pan Qiqin pulled the paper to his eyes pretending to be at ease...

It's still the same... ugly word!However, there are really a bunch of insignificant short words in it...

I’m doing business in a certain company now. The boss is still the same person. No, I haven’t had breakfast yet.

Holiday ˉYes ˉYes ˉYes, write something ˉI have a discount coupon! - Big deal! -

I thought it was a big secret!It turned out that they were all trivial matters!

"Here...you guys...I'm just curious..." Pan Qiqin glanced hastily, pushed the white paper back to him, and said anxiously: "I want to tell you why you don't need to say it, you write everything by hand...so mysterious..."

Am I wrong?No!Why are you looking at me like that!

Pan Qiqin caught a surprised look, it turned out to be most of the people... no, I should say all of them, they all stopped their voices and all looked at him.Including Shen Jingyu...

"Aqin...you...you..." Yixiu's face was terribly pale.

"What!?" Pan Qiqin subconsciously realized that he seemed to have done something super stupid, but when he thought about it quickly, he never felt that he had done any wrong step!

At this moment, Liu Bangqi moved from his seat to Pan Qiqin's side with a blunt sound, leaned into his ear with a pale face, and said in an almost inaudible voice: "Aqin...you don't know...Jing Yu said Are you speechless?"

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Shen Jingyu grabbed him.

Pan Qiqin had never seen him move so out of control.It's like dead parents!

"You... why do you care so much about those words!"

"That's how I am!" Pan Qiqin's impatience rose to the highest point.He really didn't want to treat Shen Jingyu with such an irritable attitude.However, his behavior made Pan Qiqin feel unspeakable anxiety.

Shen Jingyu pouted, panted, and thought for a while before saying: "Aqin, I can promise you...not coming to the club for now...but...you must be on stage at this orientation meeting! So we still have to meet and practice frequently!"

"No way, senior, Xiangyun will go mad!"

Shen Jingyu immediately said with a livid face, "You must go on stage!"

Pan Qiqin looked incredulously at the president who was usually as calm as water, but now he was out of control, and said, "Senior! You...you are so stupid!! I said that people all over the world have misunderstood it, and we don't want to leave any excuses for now. Well!"

"Talking?" Shen Jingyu gritted her teeth, stared at him and said, "Could it be... I'm really gay, so you'll never associate with me?"

Pan Qiqin was startled, looked around quickly, and said, "Senior, don't make such jokes at this time!"

"I'm not joking!" Shen Jingyu grabbed his hand, trembling...

No matter how rough the lines were, Pan Qiqin felt that something was wrong, and when he was about to stop him from saying something unimaginable, he had already opened his mouth.

"They're not wrong!" Shen Jingyu seemed to have made a lot of determination, gritted her teeth and said, "I think, I'm indeed gay, because I like you. I like you very much!"

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"What... do you mean?" Pan Qiqin stood up uncontrollably, looked at Shen Jingyu from a distance, and the unspeakable terror in his heart continued to expand and expand, like the night engulfing the white painting, bit by bit, mercilessly It erodes his calm mind.

Everyone's faces were embarrassing to the extreme, and their eyes were even more blinking, hiding, completely unaware of how abnormal his current reaction is... and Shen Jingyu was the same, only looked at him, and then turned away go.

At this moment, Pan Qiqin couldn't calm down any more, so he just stood there, stretched his hand, pointed at Shen Jingyu and said, "Bang Qi, tell me... what is... he... can't speak?"

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A group of people suddenly walked into the classroom, breaking the gloomy atmosphere between the two.

"What's the matter? What's the noise?" Everyone realized that the atmosphere was not normal, and immediately greeted each other with one word or another...

"Let me go!" Pan Qiqin angrily pushed Shen Jingyu away with his blushing face rapidly.

"Aqin..." Shen Jingyu tried to suppress the scene that was about to get out of control, but when the crowd rushed in, Pan Qiqin's emotions completely collapsed!

"Aqin...listen to me..." In such a hurry, Shen Jingyu didn't have the extra strength to calm down the sudden caring gaze, so he could only hold Pan Qiqin even more hastily.

"Don't call me! Don't call me! You pervert! Let go of me!" For some reason, Pan Qiqin just wanted to put on a play in front of everyone, a play that represented that he had nothing to do with him at all!

"Aqin! Why do you say that!" Unaccustomed to Pan Qiqin's rude language, everyone cut into the conversation between the two regardless of anything.

"That's right! What the hell happened!"

However, looking at Pan Qiqin's flaming eyes and trembling shoulders, Shen Jingyu's heart was filled with despair in an instant.

He knew, had known for a long time, that it was impossible for Pan Qiqin to accept such feelings, and he also understood, thoroughly understood, that when he knew the truth, he would definitely treat himself with a disgusting attitude that was a hundred times more common sense, but even if he was mentally prepared, he would Shen Jingyu still couldn't bear the vicious eyes that seemed to have been a feud with him for eight lifetimes!

"Please...you go out first,...don't worry about it!" Shen Jingyu felt that he was about to cry, but he still had to hold on...because he needed a perfect END, an END that needed Pan Qiqin's cooperation, even if it was just to say goodbye , I'm sorry, thank you, in short, he just couldn't stand Pan Qiqin in such a situation, turned and left.

However, this is not a one-man show.Besides, the director is Pan Qiqin.And he wants to deal with the current plot in the most destructive way.

"Don't call me...I hear your voice now...I feel...disgusted!"

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Shen Jingyu finally stood up.He nodded to everyone, pointed to himself, then to Pan Qiqin, and then to the outside again.

Unexpectedly, everyone understood the meaning—the two of them are going out ": talk".

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It has been a week since the dispute, and the broken relationship between the two is almost full of troubles.

The problem was that during this week, Shen Jingyu always went to Pan Qiqin's classroom to look for him, and Pan Qiqin yelled at him out of control.

The most embarrassing thing is that he always said the same sentence: "Even if I ask you! Don't come to me again... I hear your voice now... I really feel disgusted!"

Shen Jingyu understood that everyone felt worthless for him and felt wronged for him. Even though everyone really didn't know what happened to them, just hearing Pan Qiqin's vicious words made everyone unable to stand it. She tried to persuade him not to touch the wall again...but Shen Jingyu was still obsessed and forced to touch it.

At the welcome meeting, Pan Qiqin still took the stage.This is the condition that Shen Jingyu negotiated with him.

In other words, he was going to take the stage, and Shen Jingyu would never look for him again.

When the two rehearsed, they didn't say anything.Waiting until the official start, Shen Jingyu began to sing...

Just like the sea where the moon is missing or the tide is ebbing, a piece of my heart was torn away by you

After so many years, the regret is still there. There is a kind of injury that will never heal in my life.

I use a heavy snow to cover the lost love buried deep in my heart

Whenever I say that the relationship is still blank, no one can hear that I am feeling emotional

always hide you in the song

Don't let the world disturb this secret thought

Hang around in the most lingering place, cling to the most beautiful place

over and over again in the night

always hide you in the song

I hope that one day you will hear in the sea of ​​people

Weep at the highest pitch and choke at the most sentimental

Those who listen to the song are intoxicated by this sad song, who knows

(Hide you in the song Lyricist: Shi Rencheng / Composer: Zheng Zhiming Original singer: Alan Tam)

Kuang!

When Pan Qiqin sang the chorus again, he flipped his hands and slammed the bass to the ground.

Music, singing, and noise all stopped in an instant.

In the auditorium, all the teachers and students were dumbfounded.

Shen Jingyu grabbed the microphone with a pale face, closed her mouth, and turned her head to meet Pan Qiqin's out-of-control eyes.

For the first time, Shen Jingyu felt his hands and feet go weak, and it was also the first time he felt what it means to be at a loss.

Although he didn't know what Pan Qiqin was getting angry with, he had an intuition that the anger had something to do with him.However, Pan Qiqin didn't wait for him to ask, he left him on the spot and walked off the stage.

Pan Qiqin couldn't remember how he made such a mess when he stepped off the stage.I don't know any news about him after that.I just remember that I did something that I regret every time I think about it.

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The two sat opposite each other in a double seat on the other side of the restaurant.The look is very different.

Originally, he was the most relaxed and proud person, but now his whole face was tense like weeping.

The other person, who was supposed to be the saddest, was smiling instead. At the same time, he asked the waiter for a pen and paper with a relaxed attitude, and placed it between the two of them generously.

"I... want to clarify one thing first..." Pan Qiqin suddenly realized that he was afraid to look him in the face, so he could only stare at the table and said, "You...just be silent!"

Shen Jingyu smiled and nodded.

"Then...you...you knew it was me from the white website, why didn't you tell me? I told a bunch of lies!"

Shen Jingyu picked up a pen and wrote on the white paper: "I don't know what part of what you said is a lie."

"It's just me... getting a girlfriend!"

Shen Jingyu raised his eyes to look at him, and then wrote: "We only got along for two years...well, I only remember that you seem to have handed in one or two during this time, I don't know the rest...so I don't know that you are lying .”

"Really... oh... then... I'll ask you again..." As soon as the words fell, Pan Qiqin felt that his attitude seemed to be asking for a confession, and quickly changed his mouth: "I... mean, I want to ask you... what is your... voice?" it's..."

Shen Jingyu turned the pen in her hand, looked up at him, but didn't write any more.

"You...are willing to bring me here to talk in front of them, don't you just want to tell me? Or...you don't want to talk?"

Shen Jingyu wrote: "No."

"Then... what happened?"

The smile disappeared from Shen Jingyu's face, and he let out a long breath before raising his pen to write: "I... committed suicide once."

Pan Qiqin felt his heart skip a beat, opened his eyes wide and said, "You...you..." But he couldn't say anything.

Shen Jingyu thought for a moment, then wrote again: "I drank...pesticide, so my throat was burned..."

"When... when did this happen? You... why are you so stupid! What is it for?" Pan Qiqin stared at him and asked three times, unable to pretend to be indifferent.

"...It's all over. Don't mention it! I'm glad you came to the party! A few years ago, I sent you invitation cards, but you didn't come, so I didn't send any more...This time..."

Pan Qiqin suddenly held his hand, stopped him from writing, and said, "I didn't receive any invitation card. My family moved to Taoyuan as soon as I graduated from university..." He paused and said, "Please tell me , exactly when did it happen...and what is it for!」

Shen Jingyu raised her head and smiled at him, then wrote: "Han Shuiyin, why did you suddenly become a curious baby? You... used to... hated me... didn't you? Let me tell you, I'm still gay now!"

Is it because of growing up?Are you mature?Or is it more tolerant of the diversity of human nature?

As soon as Pan Qiqin saw Shen Jingyu, he remembered the past, and of course he also remembered that he was a comrade, but... I don't know why... Looking at him now, I don't feel disgusted at all, and even a little pleasantly surprised, but, after knowing that he hurts After choking his throat and losing his voice...his stomach started to writhe.

And he knows that this twisting represents a kind of eager pain, which belongs to reluctance and distress, not disgust!

"I... don't know how to say it... I'm sorry... I was really naive before... At that time... I cared too much about other people's eyes, so I treated you like that... But now I really care..."

Shen Jingyu raised her hand to stop him, and wrote with a smile: "Don't mention the past, I know your kindness now, but actually, I'm still very embarrassed when I think about it! It troubled you very much at that time! But ...You have to forgive me, you are my first date!"

Now, his pen is very humorous and quick to respond, exactly like the "Silence" on the website, not the melancholy, cold, and overwhelmed Shen Jingyu seven years ago!

However, memory and reality fought, and Pan Qiqin didn't know how to face it.

"You... have changed a lot..." Pan Qiqin finally spoke.

Shen Jingyu wrote again: "You have changed too! At least, you are willing to sit with me now!"

Pan Qiqin couldn't help but asked again: "Senior... When did this happen?"

Shen Jingyu was stunned and paused for a while before writing "I", but stopped writing.

"how?"

He finally continued: "I—don't want to answer."

As soon as I saw him, I thought back to the past. In my memory, I still stayed on the expression that he cared about me.But his refusal to answer made Pan Qiqin suddenly understand that the past is really all over...

He is no longer a college student who is obsessed with him, and the two are no longer the tacit combination "Yuke Lilin". Now, they are the most familiar strangers who haven't seen each other for seven years.

For some reason, Pan Qiqin... suddenly felt deeply hurt.

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"Senior, what did you guys talk about just now?" Yixiu asked softly while eating.

Pan Qiqin said softly: "It's nothing!" He took a sip of the juice, and suddenly said suddenly: "Yixiu, do you know when the senior's throat was injured?"

"Yeah? You...you really haven't been in touch?!"

Pan Qiqin forcibly suppressed his impatience and said, "Do you really know?"

Yixiu pursed her lips, turned her head and thought, "Well...it seems to be...before...the seniors graduated...probably...a few days after you guys had an unpleasant encounter at the orientation meeting...I don't really remember...It's been a long time ...He dropped out of school after that...Some people even said that he had throat cancer! Fortunately, he was fine..."

Days after Orientation... OMG!

For some reason, Pan Qiqin suddenly felt his heart tighten...

"Graduate" theme song SOUNDOFSILENCE The sound of silence

The Sound of Silence, like Scarborough Fair, is an episode of film graduates, one at the beginning and one at the end.The first song of the same name in 1966 won the top spot in the US charts; the latter won the Oscar for Best Film Interlude in 1969.The styles of the two songs are similar, both of which are classic nostalgic feelings.I remember someone said that its melody is quiet, spotless, and gently brushes past my ears.It is easy to think of the dawn after the snow and the breeze in the field.Sitting in the afterglow of the setting sun at dusk, flipping through photos of classmates at graduation, immersed in scenes of campus past events, turning pages of bustling graduation ceremonies, the beautiful melody of "The Sound of Silence" went straight to my heart...

Simon (Paul Simon) is a miracle in the American music scene, often dubbed the reputation of composer, singer and guitarist, in fact, it is not too much to add a poet.His solo singing and duet works with Garfunkel (Art Garfunkel) are almost all from his hands.His lyrics start with beautiful poetry, and his songs have beautiful and charming melodies.Simon and Garfunkel's duet, which has been popular for many years since the late 60s, can be said to be the best duet in the history of pop music. Simon's voice is relaxed and natural, while Garfunkel's tone is soft and pure, and the harmony of the two is as rich and colorful as poetry and dreams. , is memorable.

The Sound of Silence