sound of silence

It seems that silence, really silence.

After returning that day, Pan Qiqin swore secretly that he would force himself to forget the whole party process, of course, the main purpose was to drive Shen Jingyu out of his heart.But this time, Shen Jingyu was one step ahead of him, and there was no news, and he didn't even connect to the Internet. In the end, Pan Qiqin was thinking about him for no reason.

Mingyue: "Have you encountered Silence today?"

Han Shuiyin: "No."

Mingyue: "Did he not come up these two weeks or did I miss the time?"

Han Shuiyin: "...Probably didn't come up!"

Mingyue: "Yeah...he didn't even reply to the message board!"

Han Shuiyin: "Well... I know... a lot of people have asked me!"

Mingyue: "Didn't you say last time that he promised to have an online gathering? Why didn't you hear about it all of a sudden?"

Han Shuiyin: "...I don't know either, I'll ask him when I meet him!"

Worst of all, there are people who keep reminding me.

Pan Qiqin is staring at the computer screen in a daze at this moment~ For the first time, he feels that the Internet is really...boring!

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"Aqin! A man named Shen is calling to see you!"

As soon as he got home, his mother yelled at him.The range hood in the kitchen was so loud, but Pan Qiqin could hear it clearly.

His heart skipped a beat, and he immediately ran to the phone...but he saw a note pasted next to it, with only the word "沉" in a careless word, and nothing else.

He stared at the note paper for a while, then walked into the room and began to search for the jacket he wore that day.Because he remembered that at the end of the meeting, Qiu Fengyu or Liu Bangqi did not know who sent out a palm-sized address book to everyone present.It has everyone's contact numbers.

After finding the address book, he ran back to the phone in a hurry, picked up the phone and dialed...

Pan Qiqin's heart beat faster and faster as the phone was pressed...

What am I going to say to him?No, no, what is he looking for from me?What has he been doing these two weeks?Why are there no people?

Pan Qiqin's mind couldn't stop thinking about it for a moment...

That day, he was obviously so cold to me... No, I can't say he was cold, I haven't seen him for seven years... Even if we talked for a long time on the Internet... It's not his real identity... Besides, I was so unfeeling to him back then... And he has 80.00 [-]% likely to commit suicide for himself...

Wow!Do not think!Do not think!I can't think about it anymore... Every time, as long as I think about this matter, my heart feels aching for no reason! !

Pan Qiqin shook his head, stroked his heart, and listened to the ringing of the phone...

"Hello!" an unusually deep male voice.

"Hmm...Excuse me...Shen...Jingyu..."

Click!

Pan Qiqin's heart skipped a beat, and he quickly hung up the phone!

Depend on!What am I doing!He just-can't talk... how could he call me!

Wow...it's too embarrassing!As soon as I saw the surname "Shen", I thought of him!

But I felt a heart beating at a stall, my face was hot, and my whole body was limp in front of the phone, almost unable to stand up...

Memory is really the most tenacious thing.It not only travels through time, cuts space, and even distorts character... Like now, it's been seven years since we saw each other.However, the turbulence in his impression is everything he had seven years ago, his expression, his character, his singing voice, and even the relationship that he hated the most...

铃…

The phone in his hand rang suddenly, which shocked Pan Qiqin!

The whole mood was still immersed in the extreme embarrassment just now, so Pan Qiqin had to let out a long breath before answering the phone.

"Hmm... hello..."

"...um... are you... Aqin?" a strange...hesitant...stuttering...male voice...

"I am... Pan Qiqin, who are you?"

"I... am... Shen... Jing Yu, did you just... just... call... looking for me?"

What?What?No way?Who?Pan Qiqin's eyes widened, his mouth opened wide, and he couldn't believe what he heard.

"Who...you say you are?" Pan Qiqin was completely unconscious from the fright.

The other party seemed to laugh for a long time before stammering again: "I am... Shen... Jing Yu, it was... it wasn't you... calling... looking for me?"

"You...you...you...how..." Except, you, you, you, Pan Qiqin really didn't know how to proceed...

The other party coughed dryly and said, "No... are you looking for... me?"

"No...not...you...I mean...you...can't...you can't talk?" Hearing Shen Jingyu's weird stuttering pronunciation, Pan Qiqin couldn't help but stutter.

"...I...can't...say...uh...we...now...go online...let's talk...ok..."

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I've been on chat sites for so many years, I'm afraid I haven't been as urgent as I am today.

At six o'clock in the afternoon, the chat room was empty.Pan Qiqin was afraid of being disturbed, so he opened ICQ directly...

The name of "Silence" appeared on the online list at once.He excitedly clicked on the name... However, when he put his hands on the keyboard, he suddenly didn't know how to open "Tap"!

Han Shuiyin: "HI~~~"

Quiet: "HI~~~"

I still use typing, get used to it...

Han Shuiyin: "Senior, your voice..."

Jing Mo: "Don't call me senior, just treat me as Jing Mo! QQ!"

Han Shuiyin: "OK~~ Then, tell me... what's going on with you, okay? Didn't you say you can't talk? Why now... I really want to know! Also, what are you calling me for..."

The other end of the computer was silent for a long time, Pan Qiqin felt that he was thinking again, so he didn't rush him, and waited for a minute before seeing the response...

Jing Mo: "Next time we have a chance to meet, let me tell you again... As for me calling you... Heh~~ You are looking for me, right? You hung up the phone suddenly, and I just called back!"

Han Shuiyin: "No, I want to know, I want to know now!---Obviously you called me first!"

Jing Mo: "Heh~~~ Then you come to me now! Let me tell you!---I didn't call! I answered according to the phone display, I didn't know it was you! I only recognized you when I heard your voice from!"

Han Shuiyin: "Okay! I'll look for you now! Give me your address! --- Then who is calling me? I only have a friend named Shen!"

Jing Mo: "Don't be joking! I live in Hsinchu! Heh~~~ Really!---Who left a message for you? Didn't you leave a phone number?"

Han Shuiyin: "I'm not joking! I want to know now! Otherwise I won't be able to sleep!---It's really not you?"

Quiet: "I didn't call you! I haven't used the phone for a long time!"

Han Shuiyin: "Then how did you call me just now? ---Answer me, your address! Don't gossip about him!"

here we go again!Silence stopped responding again.Pan Qiqin waited for a long while, seeing no response from the computer, he couldn't help feeling a little anxious, and when he was about to run to the phone, he was stopped in time by the oh-oh.

What came was a long string of addresses, and at the same time it said: "Tomorrow! Come back tomorrow weekend! --- If there is anything, we can talk about it tomorrow..."

This is called breaking the ax and sinking the boat, right?

Pan Qiqin looked at the word "silence" and jumped from "online" to "offline".The whole person has a feeling of exhaustion.It seems to be relieved, and it seems to have solved a problem...but there is also some indescribable excitement!

However, it's really tomorrow...Pan Qiqin's regret has somehow reached its peak.

How should I say it?Um... just say... I have something to do at home... But what if... he asks me what's the matter, how should I answer?

Pan Qiqin was holding the phone, thinking about it, but he couldn't figure out what medicine he took wrongly yesterday. He wanted to see him immediately and ask about the eight generations of his ancestors, and he didn't understand why he suddenly flinched now. I didn't even have the courage to meet him at all.

"Hello..." When the call came through, it was a loud female voice.

"...Please find Shen Jingyu..."

"Stunned? Who? You mean Shen Jingyu?"

"Yes Yes…"

"Oh, you are looking for my second brother..." The other party hesitated for a while and said, "Who are you?"

"I'm his...college student..."

"Oh...haven't you been in touch for a long time?" She paused, and said with hesitation: "Well...do you know my second brother...it's not convenient to talk on the phone now..."

Pan Qiqin hurriedly said: "I know, I know the situation of the senior, um... My surname is Pan, and I have something urgent to tell him... If he is here, can I invite him to listen, he just needs to listen! He understands !"

"Pan?!"

Are you careless?Why did Pan Qiqin feel a little surprised by her tone!But before he had time to think about it, his sister said again: "...you wait a while!! I'll call him now..."

After waiting for about 3 minutes, her sister's voice sounded again.

"Hmm...I'll give the phone to my second brother now, you can talk now!"

explain?I have to say it!The problem is, it's really hard to speak in the face of a half-voiced phone call!

"Well...senior...I'm Aqin...I was supposed to go to your place today, but I...have something to do at home, so I can't go..." Pan Qiqin managed to suppress his awkwardness and said.

Time passed by, and there was no response from the other end of the phone...

Pan Qiqin felt his heart pounding, and really didn't know what to do, so he said again: "...Senior, otherwise, let's go online now and chat with ICQ, okay?"

Still a long silence...

Pan Qiqin and the others were at a loss, and when she was about to say something more, her sister's voice sounded again: "Hey, hello, is he still there?"

"I'm here! I'm here! Um...Senior, he...he..."

"My second brother went back to the room, are you finished?"

"Ah?" Pan Qiqin was stunned, and said in a daze, "Yes... yes... finished, then... may I ask... is your second brother's computer in his room?"

"…yes!"

"Oh! That's good! Thank you then! Goodbye!"

After hanging up the phone, Pan Qiqin let out a long breath, rushed to the room immediately, and turned on the computer...

Pan Qiqin stared straight at the computer screen... Time passed by again mercilessly, he went from standing upright to almost lying on the table... even slipped off the chair... However, on ICQ, two "silence" Words, lying offline all the time, seem to have no intention of coming alive at all...

"It seems... this guy... is angry!" Pan Qiqin's heart became entangled for no reason.

Depend on!When did this guy become so individual!Even if you don't go online, you won't go online!In the past, he... he... obviously didn't look like this!thick~~

Pan Qiqin stood up, pacing up and down in front of the computer irritably, seeming to be angry at him, and at the same time at himself, turned around several times, cursed seventy or eighty words, finally couldn't stand the pressure, picked up his coat, Ran out angrily.

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Pan Qiqin looked at the address in his hand and thought for 5 minutes before he raised his limp hand and pressed the bell.But as soon as the door opened, he... really thought, forget about committing suicide on the spot!

Because, for some reason, the family's living room was filled with people, old and young, men and women, and four or five children running around, big and small, of course, none of them was Shen Jingyu.And the most frightening thing was that these people all stopped moving after he entered the door, and all looked at him in unison.

"His surname is Pan! He said he was looking for his second brother!" The one who opened the door for him was a girl about seventeen or eighteen years old, and she announced to everyone happily.

Then, Pan Qiqin was warmly greeted by a group of people to sit on the sofa.

"Please... have a drink!" A man in his twenties hurriedly pushed a drink in front of him, and at the same time said to the child: "Xiaoman, go and call your second uncle down!"

A little girl uttered an "oh", and suddenly got out of the door and rushed upstairs.

"My name is Jingxin! I am four years behind my second brother!"

"My name is Jingya! I'm six years behind my second brother!"

"I'm his brother-in-law... um... this is his sister-in-law... this is his second sister... this is..."

"Hmm... auntie, hello... uh... this... big brother... uh..." A series of respected relatives, humble relatives, next-of-kin relatives, endless relatives... Pan Qiqin was about to cry, he really didn't know how to address them ...I had no choice but to squeeze out a smile, and nodded to everyone with my eyes.

"Hi...um...sorry...to interrupt your family reunion..."

"Oh! Don't say that! Have you eaten?"

"Yeah! Would you like to eat some...we've all eaten..."

"Let's go together... Let's make tea... Come!"

Everyone surrounded him, pushing each other, offering tea and dessert...

"This...would it be too disturbing...I think...I'd better come to visit next time..." Pan Qiqin really didn't expect that he was so timid. He asked for the address in a shameless manner that day, but now he immediately retreated.

"Oh, no! Wait a minute, he's coming down!"

"That's right, my house is on the third and fourth floors. He lives upstairs with his two younger sisters. Wait a minute!"

Pan Qiqin nodded blankly, maybe he was dazzled, but he always felt that everyone was looking at him with friendly but curious eyes...especially his...Mom.

It was a grey-haired, loose-fitting old lady who looked to be in her sixties and looked quite blessed.She was pushing a large plate of watermelon in front of him with a big smile on her face.

"Come on! Eat, you're welcome!"

"Thank you...Auntie..."

"It looks like this...Mr. Pan..." A big brother who claimed to be Shen Jingyu but looked like a gangster man with a crew cut, squeezed to his side with an unusually humble attitude, and said seriously in Taiwanese Mandarin: "I'm Jingyu Yu's big brother... you also know that Jing Yu... hey! Anyway, thank you for taking care of me...I'm really embarrassed, I say sorry on behalf of my mother... Anyway, I just want to thank you all.”

"Ah... no... no... no!" Pan Qiqin blinked, a little flustered by his fright, and hurriedly bent over and said, "I didn't do anything...you...you are too polite!"

God~~~ What is going on now? !He didn't even come over to be a guest, as if he had done something extraordinary!Who ~ come ~ save ~ me!

Just when he was about to collapse, a dry cough relieved his crisis.

"You're up... Mr. Pan said he was looking for you..." Following Jing Yu's words, everyone turned to the door... Then, the crowd finally dispersed from Pan Qiqin...

It seemed that Shen Jingyu had just been dug out of the bed, not only was his hair disheveled and his eyes were swollen, he also looked dizzy, but even so, everyone could tell that his complexion was very ugly, as if he was about to It's like devouring the whole family.

It was the first time Pan Qiqin saw him in such a mess, and it was also the first time he saw his "angry" expression.

However, Pan Qiqin had never encountered such a strange battle, so Shen Jingyu's appearance made him overjoyed and squeezed out of the crowd, walking towards him as if asking for help.

"Learn... master!"

Shen Jingyu opened his half-asleep and half-awake eyes, and showed him a tired smile, his lips moved, as if to say something, but in the end he didn't make a sound, just took his arm, pointed to the roof, and made a gesture Tea moves.

Pan Qiqin understood that he wanted to go upstairs with him, but when he turned around and saw a group of people blinking at him, he couldn't help wondering: "Or... let's go outside and talk... um... I... don't necessarily want to know right away... Maybe... "

Shen Jingyu stopped listening now, waved to his family, and dragged him straight outside, completely ignoring his family's calls.

At this moment, Pan Qiqin suddenly realized one thing, that is, Shen Jingyu's personality in his family did not seem to be as humble and polite as outside, he was a bit like a half-emperor, because after he waved his hand, all the family members were shocked. He closed his mouth, and only dared to greet Pan Qiqin with his eyes...

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The living room on the fourth floor was as big as the third floor, but there was no one there.Pan Qiqin finally breathed a sigh of relief, and sat lazily on the sofa.

Shen Jingyu sat beside him, poured him a glass of water on the table, then pointed to her hair, intending to wash it. "You are busy, you are busy..."

Seeing him standing up slowly, Pan Qiqin suddenly came to his senses and said, "You look... very tired..."

Shen Jingyu turned to look at him for a while, Pan Qiqin was a little puzzled, Shen Jingyu smiled with difficulty, took his hand and touched his forehead.

Yo!Hot!

Just now, when he suddenly pulled my hand, I was really shocked. Now, after realizing that he had a fever, I couldn't help but startled: "You have a cold? Did you rest just now?"

Shen Jingyu nodded with a wry smile, and then pointed to the room with a tired face. Pan Qiqin didn't know why, so he picked up the pen and paper beside him, and scribbled: "Shall we go to the room to chat? I want to lie down..."

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The room was bigger than Pan Qiqin imagined.However, it was more chaotic than he imagined.

There are two large bookcases at the top, densely filled with books, and a 17-inch LCD screen is placed on the desk. In addition, the big bed and the floor of the room are full of clothes and sundries.It's a thousand miles away from his clean and elegant appearance.

It was a bit awkward to walk into his place for the first time, but Shen Jingyu was very generous. As soon as he entered the room, he shrank into the bed, only his head was exposed, and looked at him in a daze.

"Have you...have you taken any medicine?"

Shen Jingyu nodded, stretched out her hand from under the quilt, and pointed to a corner of the room.It was a small whiteboard, and Pan Qiqin understood that he wanted to use it for communication.He quickly brought it to him.

Pan Qiqin dragged a chair and sat beside him and said, "You are so uncomfortable, let's make an appointment next time!"

As soon as Shen Jingyu heard it, she sat up immediately and began to write: "I'm fine, since you're all here, let's chat!"

"But you..."

Shen Jingyu wrote with a wry smile before he finished speaking: "How did you become such a good mother-in-law, you used to be very willful!"

Wow!I mean it!He even said my mother-in-law!Pan Qiqin's eyes widened, and he said a little dissatisfied: "If you don't care, I don't care! Your home, Hsinchu, is not far away! I came here by train, you think I like to go back so carelessly ah!"

Shen Jingyu smiled, and then wrote: "Yes, yes, then, I said junior, what do you want to ask me? You have come all the way!!"

yeah?Yes, what do I...want to ask! ?Pan Qiqin was stunned, and suddenly he was a little dumbfounded by his question.

"What are you doing now?" Seeing him in a daze, Shen Jingyu couldn't help writing first.

"I... our company specializes in helping people design web pages, and I'm the engineer inside!"

"Oh! No wonder you became the deputy stationmaster of White Literature..."

"No...it's just a hobby..."

"Then you seldom play musical instruments now?"

Instrument... BASS?It's been a long time... a long time, a long time!Since...then I dropped it on the ground, it has never been touched again...Pan Qiqin suddenly felt a little depressed, and always felt that this memory was a bit unbearable.

"No... I played! I haven't played for a long time!" Pan Qiqin lowered his eyes and thought for a while, then suddenly said, "What about you? What are you doing now..."

"Our company is advertising design, and I am doing business."

yeah?business?Am I reading this wrong?Is it business?This...Taiwan has business that doesn't need to be talked about?

Pan Qiqin frowned, and was about to ask a question, but Shen Jingyu saw his doubts, and wrote with a smile: "The company is run by my brother-in-law, and he assigned me a partner. We are in a team of two, so I am only responsible for the design. The copywriter, and the other person is going to explain to the client!"

"Oh, that's it..." Pan Qiqin nodded thoughtfully.

At this moment, the atmosphere suddenly stopped.Pan Qiqin felt that his eyes were on his face, but for some reason, he didn't dare to look at him.He could only pretend to be relaxed and turned his eyes to the side, saying: "By the way...um...senior...you...how could you...call me that day? You...not..." He deliberately emphasized the tone of the phone.

Shen Jingyu didn't look away, just laughed silently, because his smile was a bit exaggerated, Pan Qiqin felt a little confused and said: "You...I...Did I say something wrong?"

"No...no.." he wrote.

To be honest, his handwriting is ugly enough, and writing while laughing like this is really ugly.Pan Qiqin noticed his face again, um, this guy seems to be pretty besides this one, other... oh~~

Pan Qiqin was laughed at and said, "Senior, what are you laughing at?"

"It's nothing, I'm just not used to seeing you being so careful, Yiyi, you used to yell!"

This... guy is cheap?He actually asked people to yell at him!Pan Qiqin suddenly felt irritated, and couldn't help but said: "Senior, are you going to tell me or not? If you don't tell me, I'm going back!"

"Talk!" Shen Jingyu wiped away her tears and continued to write: "But it's a long story..." He put down his pen, pointed at the bookcase, and then picked up his pen to write again: "You take the whole second drawer Give me!"

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There was a pile of messy papers in the drawer, Shen Jingyu dumped them all on the bed, then picked through them, took out one of them and handed it to Pan Qiqin.

Pan Qiqin took it over and took a look. Suddenly, he froze... no, it should be said that he was stunned...

Because, this is a doctor's certificate...

"During the car accident, my father died on the spot, and my throat was punctured by the broken steering wheel. I should have died...but I don't know how to save him!" Shen Jingyu wrote every word, as if writing someone else's The story... there is no particularly uncomfortable expression.

Pan Qiqin stared at him in disbelief and said, "You... I thought it was because of you..."

"Because of what?" Shen Jingyu looked up at his sudden angry expression, then started laughing again, and wrote: "No way, you don't really think I'm drinking pesticide, do you?"

He...when did he become... so evil~~~ He even joked about his disability! ! !

Because of this matter... for two weeks, I couldn't sleep well...

"It's nothing serious, why should I drink that stuff?" Shen Jingyu laughed until tears flowed out before continuing: "I really drank it, I'm probably dead!"

For some reason, Pan Qiqin felt that he was extremely agitated by his frivolous attitude, but he couldn't explain why.God, the more I think about it, the more my head hurts.Pan Qiqin stroked his head.Silent.

"Senior...I want to go back..."

yeah?Shen Jingyu finally put away her smile, looked at him innocently, and wrote: "Are you angry?"

"No... ah... I just suddenly felt..."

Suddenly, I feel that everything about you seems to have nothing to do with me!

"Because I didn't commit suicide for you, are you not in the mood to talk to me?"

Pan Qiqin stared at the crooked words and was dumbfounded.This guy is too rude!

"I wish you would kill yourself for me!" Pan Qiqin couldn't help but blushed and said angrily, "I came here because... I care, but you talk in such a casual manner... I don't want to talk anymore!" Saying this, he stood Get up, want to walk out the door.

Shen Jingyu immediately threw the whiteboard, got off the bed, grabbed him, moved her lips, but said nothing.

Knowing that he was impatient, Pan Qiqin couldn't help but soften his heart and said: "You... go back to bed and rest..."

Shen Jingyu hurriedly picked up the whiteboard, and hurriedly wrote: "Actually, there are very few people, no, no one like you who asks so directly, so I don't know what attitude to tell you right away! I don't I like to make myself miserable..."

Words appeared in a hurry on the whiteboard. Pan Qiqin was stunned for a while, and suddenly understood what he meant.

In fact, if the whole thing hadn't happened to Shen Jingyu, then I might have felt the unspeakable embarrassment of others, and I would know the truth of the matter through insinuation, but I didn't ask myself. However, it is more likely that I have no Wouldn't be interested to know!

So...why do I care so much about him?Thinking of this, Pan Qiqin's heart suddenly thumped.