I am really a language teacher

Once upon a time, Sun Ping always thought that time travel or rebirth into a parallel time and space would be a very happy thing.Because at any time, he could make a cloud piercing finger to meet thousands of troops, and his whole body exuded a domineering aura that made people look at him.But actually?This strange plane is completely unfamiliar to him, and he is not even as good as a newborn here.Because newborns at least have their own parents who can lead them to know the world.And he had to rely on himself to understand the world. Even after two years, Sun Ping still felt that there was a gap between him and the world.

Sun Ping suddenly felt that the reason why he loves writing is that even if it is just plagiarism, but the sense of peace in the process of writing is what he enjoys.This is because I can use writing to escape many practical problems, which is why the works I choose are mostly skeptical and existential works, because my state of mind is like this.

Although Sun Ping didn't think that his life would be as unfortunate as Osamu Dazai, he did feel a great sense of despair when transcribing "No Longer Human".This sense of despair revealed in the text once seeped into Sun Ping's bone marrow through the skin. terrible feeling.

Sun Ping opened the door on one side of the lounge, and there was a small balcony outside.Because the bedroom Sun Ping chose was the master bedroom of the whole suite, the view from this balcony is also the most beautiful.Father Sun also arranged the small balcony. In the corner are a few rose plants that can withstand the environment, and on the small table in the middle of the balcony is a plate of narcissus.Sun Ping sat on the armchair beside the table, and took out a pack of cigarettes from the drawer of the table.

Sun Ping seldom smokes, but he still smokes here occasionally when he needs to relax.This pack of cigarettes seemed to have been stored for a long time, and it was a bit damp, but Sun Ping didn't mind putting it on.

After returning from the balcony, Sun Ping sat in front of the computer, and two works appeared in his mind.One is "Light, Wind, and Dream" by Atsushi Nakajima, and the other is "Lemon" by Kijiro Kajii.The style of these two works is quite similar to Osamu Dazai, so it is no wonder that Sun Ping thinks of their works.

"Light, Wind and Dream" is a very special work, it can be said to be a travelogue or a novel.The reason why it is called a travelogue is because the scenery in the novel is completely real.And the reason why it is called a novel is because the author is not the protagonist in the travel notes.

"Light, Wind and Dream" is Atsushi Nakajima's life in the Samoyed Islands based on other people's letters and diaries and his own reasonable imagination. The experience that this life brings to readers is escape.In the author's writing, the life on the archipelago is as peaceful and quiet as heaven, and people's body and soul are at peace at this moment.Through such a life, the author expresses his dissatisfaction with his own reality and his helplessness of being unable to change.

The works of Kajii Kijiro go even further, because Kajii Kijiro suffered from tuberculosis since he was a child.To know the era of Kajii Kijiro, tuberculosis was almost a fatal disease.So Kajii Kijiro almost died young, and did not leave too many surviving works.

All his works are his reflections on the world and life as a patient, and "Lemon" represents his attitude towards Western culture.Because lemon, as a Western fruit, is popular in the East, Kajii Keijiro regards lemon as a bomb in the West, and writes such a novel based on it.

The tone of the two novels is still escape and struggle, but compared with the despair of "No Place in the World", the style of these two short stories is obviously much gentler.

After typing the last character, Sun Ping looked at the time displayed by the system. It was already past two o'clock in the morning.Newage and worldmusic were played in the room. This kind of original music without any decoration can make Sun Ping feel the call of the wilderness, and then relax his mood.

The fragrance in the room is a kind of incense stick that Sun Ping likes very much. This kind of incense stick is a kind of incense stick jointly launched by a female writer and the master of Valerian Caifang.The tranquil sandalwood is mixed with the happy cherry blossom fragrance, and Sun Ping himself is somewhat intoxicated in this environment.

Sun Ping rubbed his face, dripped a few drops of artificial tears into his eyes, then stood up and stretched.He opened the window to exchange the dreary air in the room.He walked out the door, intending to go downstairs to make a pot of tea.

But he saw that there was still light in Guo Yi's room, so he walked over.He knocked lightly on the door, and after getting permission, he turned the lock and walked in.Guo Yi was lying on the bed at this moment, the desk lamp beside the bed was on, and he was reading a book with a kindle.

He saw Sun Ping walking in and asked, "Are you still asleep? I happen to be reading a novel too."

"What novel are you reading?" Sun Ping leaned over and put the teapot on the table beside him.Naturally, Sun Ping got into bed and asked while lying beside Guo Yi.

"What other novels are there? It's those love novels that are disdained by your writers." Guo Yi shrugged, "It's impossible not to read more other people's novels. God knows what tastes the current readers like. I'm still struggling with it today. Douxima, people may love Xianxia tomorrow. If you don’t read novels written by other authors, you really don’t know what the trend is.”

"Come talk with me." Sun Ping squeezed beside Guo Yi and said, "I think you are right. I really seldom share my inner secrets with others. So I decided to chat with you and talk about each other. Speak from your heart."

"When you say that, I suddenly feel very strange." Guo Yi put down his Kindle and looked at Sun Ping with some doubts.Then he stretched out his hand and touched Sun Ping's forehead to check if he was a little hot. "Who would come over carelessly and say, hey, buddy, let me tell you a secret in my heart, do you want to listen? Your attitude and timing are a bit wrong."

"Don't talk nonsense, if you don't listen, I won't talk about it next time!" Sun Ping was also arrogant once in a while.In fact, what he wants to talk about now are some memory fragments left in his consciousness by the former deity. "When you and Aunt Guo came to my house for the first time, I actually hated you very much. I hated Aunt Guo, and I also hated you...but Aunt Guo treated me very well. Gradually, I couldn't hate you anymore. But because of doing I have done a lot of things that make me feel ashamed, so I feel that I have no face to meet Aunt Guo, so I always try to avoid meeting Aunt Guo.

As for you, at first I just hated it, but later I got a little tangled up.You are the kind of person that boys are willing to be friends with you, because you are simple and kind, and the important thing is that you look good and have good grades.I have always felt that if you were my younger brother, I would be very happy, and I would take you to meet all my friends.But you are not, you and I were forced to be brothers.So I am afraid, I am afraid that you are not outstanding, I am afraid that my father will like you more than me, I am afraid that my friends will get closer to you and reject me...

Anyway, I think you're going to take everything from me.But I also feel that I should be tolerant to you, because you are not a bad person, and you are also my younger brother.do you know?There is something in you that can arouse boys' desire to protect, so I think I should be worse than you, and I should make my father like you more and my friends get closer to you. "

"What does it mean that I am more likely to arouse boys' desire to protect me! Sun Ping, please explain it to me!" Guo Yi said dissatisfied.

"When boys see you, their first reaction is that you are a younger brother who should be protected. By the way, do your boyfriends also think that you are a victim at first impression, and then you are also willing to be oppressed? "Sun Ping hurriedly said.

Guo Yi turned over and pressed Sun Ping under him, "What do you mean I am willing to be oppressed? Tell you, I am still a virgin!"

"What do you need from a virgin? Are you from the front or the back?" Sun Ping continued jokingly.

"There are places in front of me and behind me!" Guo Yi became angry, "Why are you talking about this topic with me? Are you flirting?"

Sun Ping lifted Guo Yi off his body, and said with a smile, "If you weren't my younger brother, I really wouldn't mind seducing you." Sun Ping suddenly moved up to Guo Yi's face, sniffed him, "You said if I lick you, will you turn your face?"

"Can you give it a try?" Guo Yi put on an attitude of giving it a try if you have the ability.

And just when Guo Yi thought Sun Ping didn't dare, Sun Ping suddenly kissed him directly.When the warm lips touched the cold facial skin, Guo Yi seemed to be ignited with a flame in his heart, and his whole face turned red.

Sun Ping watched it for a while, and suddenly laughed, "When Sun Tao kissed you, I never saw you react like that. I just kiss you, and you are like nothing."

"Can it be the same? Sun Tao is my younger brother, what are you me?" Guo Yi was really panicked.

"I'm your elder brother too. Could it be that you think of me in your heart?" Sun Ping asked back with a smile.

Suddenly, the atmosphere in the room was a little ambiguous, and some wet things were spreading in the dry air of winter nights.Guo Yi was not talking, and Sun Ping put away his hippie smile.In fact, what Sun Ping didn't explain clearly was that in the bottom of Sun Ping's heart, he had an inexplicable affection for Guo Yi.At first, Sun Ping thought it was just a syndrome of teenage homosexuality.

But with the passage of time, Sun Ping found that the affection left to him by the deity could not be shaken away.Sun Ping has never had a girlfriend because he knows that there is someone in his heart.It's just that he didn't confirm it, nor did he deny it.Although there is no definite answer to this question now, he understands the reason for his avoidance.

"I'm going back to my room to sleep, remember to go to bed early." Sun Ping stood up and said to Guo Yi.

"Well, you also remember to go to bed early and have a good dream!" Guo Yi's plain voice sounded behind Sun Ping.

Back in his room, Sun Ping was lying on his bed, with every bit of himself and Guo Yi in his mind.Those pictures emerged in front of my eyes so real and clearly, and the scenes of the past are vivid in my mind.

Sun Ping shook his head, driving the spreading emotions out of his mind.He closed his eyes and fell asleep hard.

When he got up early the next day for morning exercises, Sun Ping saw Guo Yi who was drinking milk at the dining table.He smiled and asked, "Will we run together later?"

"Okay?" Guo Yi then replied.

Everything was so normal, as if nothing had happened.