Between life and death [unlimited]

Jiang Lai felt as if he had slept for a long time, and it seemed that he had slept for a long time.The pain from the leg wound stimulated his nerve center from time to time, and every time he struggled to wake up, but he never succeeded.

In short, this time he slept extremely unsteadily. Apart from the physical pain, he also suffered mentally.Many times he thought that he was dead, otherwise, how could those memories that he had deliberately forgotten would suddenly appear in front of his eyes?

This reminded him of the revolving lanterns he saw at the Spring Festival temple fairs when he was a child-the air was heated by the candles to drive the wheel shafts to rotate, and the little people reflected on the lantern screens seemed to come alive, making all kinds of lanterns. action.

He felt that the scene-changing scenes were just like his life. It seemed that all the roads could lead to Rome, but in fact everything had already been decided, and there were actually very few choices for him to make.

And in his childhood, he had no choice at all.

The little boy who was hidden deep in his memory and was often disfigured because of crying, now appeared vividly in front of him.

The little boy who looks like a bean sprouts, with his big black eyes, is full of curiosity and cautiously observes the 26-year-old Jiang Shuang who is standing opposite him and is in good health.

The little face that had just cried was full of stains, which made him look like a little tabby cat, but the little boy's facial features were about seven or eight percent similar to that of the adult Jiang Xun.

Seeing the shabby sleeveless vest worn by the little boy, Jiang Lai was suddenly awakened by an inexplicably familiar feeling——

Jiang Li's real name is not Jiang Li, but he can't remember his original name now.

He may have another official name, but he may also have been called by his mother's nickname all the time.Anyway, no matter whether he had a name or no name before, he felt that he was just a foxtail neglected by his mother.

There has never been any romance between Jiang Lai's father and mother, only a one-night affair.Therefore, Jiang Shui, who was a child, became an excuse for his mother to play when she was angry.

The childhood of ordinary children is full of snacks, toys, and laughter, but until joining the organization, Jiang Shuang has never experienced the joy of having snacks and toys for children of the same age.

In that relatively poor native family memory, Jiang Li still remembers that his biological mother always beat and scolded him who had no way to resist.In his childhood, Jiang Lai always had large and small bruises on his body.

However, after the beating and scolding, the mother would hold him and cry together, and continued to curse those men who had sworn to each other, but never took responsibility.Her beautiful face always leaves two black traces of tears. When she was a child, Jiang Xun didn't know that it was her mother's crying eye makeup.

Jiang Lai has very few memories of his childhood life. He only remembers that his mother would lock him at home when he was on night shift.

Dim lights, moldy half steamed buns thrown on the table, clothes soaked in water that smelled of strong cheap perfume, tobacco and alcohol... These constituted the whole life of Jiang Shang when he was young.

Later, when he grew up, when faced with his mother's daily scolding and fighting, Jiang Xun didn't know whether he was used to it or what, he began to cry less, and he also became unaccustomed to talking to people.

Perhaps, this was the first important choice he made for his own life—he completely closed his heart, and he never opened it to others easily in the years to come.

When he grew up, that is, after he entered the organization, when other instructors taught them the general knowledge of medicine to these dead men, Jiang Xun realized that he had a disease called "emotional isolation".

As the name suggests, when Jiang Shang encounters unbearable pressure or emotional trauma, he will use the methods of ignoring, suppressing and isolating his emotions to alleviate the pain.Just like in the animal world, some animals will pretend to be dead when they encounter their natural enemies.But avoiding reality and practicing emotional isolation was life-saving medicine for him as a child.

Jiang Lai couldn't remember at what age he left that cage-like home.

About one time after my mother was drunk, she shook his weak body and cried, "Why do you want to destroy me...why, why don't you die..."

Jiang Lai was completely indifferent to these actions at that time.He just numbly let his mother drag him to the street, watched his mother disappear until she disappeared, and thought about when his mother would return to normal, and then came to pick him up.

However, the moment he imagined that his mother would look back never came.After Jiang Lai stayed in the same place overnight, he was cold and hungry. He still couldn't remember the way home, so he could only rely on luck to find the direction.

Before that, Jiang Lai had never been too far away from home, and the scattered high-rise buildings on the street were as strange as "monsters" to him.In this dazzling world, he slowly lost his way and became one of those homeless people who wandered the streets.

He doesn't remember how he came here in those days, what he ate and drank and where he stayed at night, but he clearly remembered the day he met Jiang Ke.

Because the weather that day was very bad, it is a season that always loves rain.

At that time, he hadn't had a full meal for several days, and when he was hiding under a bridge pier to avoid the rain, maybe it was God's mercy that made him see the meat floss bread on the ground at a glance.

"Cuckoo..." The moment he saw the bread, there was a rumbling sound from Jiang Xun's stomach.As a child, he didn't have time to think about it, he just knew that this piece of bread would be the most delicious food he had eaten these days.

And just as he was about to pick up the bread, there was another sharp and piercing meow from the shadow of the pier.

A wild cat with light gray fur and black spots on its back also slowly walked towards the bread.It stared at the lantern-like eyes, bared its fangs, and kept warning the young Jiang Li.

If it was an ordinary cat, Jiang Lai should be able to drive it away by throwing a stone.But this wild cat was very tall and strong, and its long tail was like a sharp whip. In its eyes, Jiang Lai, who was still very young, should not be considered an opponent.

Jiang Lai was frightened by the wild cat at first, but when he saw the wild cat was about to take away the bread, an unknown fire suddenly surged in his young heart from nowhere.

Seeing a few broken bricks at his feet, he immediately picked them up without thinking, and threw them at the cat.

The wild cat dodged and dodged Brick nimbly, but it immediately turned around and screamed at Jiang Xun, as crazy as if his mother usually beat him up.

At that time, Jiang Lai just stood there in a daze. He didn't have time to escape after seeing the wild cat. Then he felt a little pain and reached out to touch it. It turned out that there was blood on his face.

How he killed the cat later, Jiang Li can no longer remember the details.

But he still deeply remembered the anger that burned in his heart at that time, as if he poured all the anger and pain that had been accumulated in his heart for so many years on the beast that could not speak human words.

One hit, two hits, three hits... The brick in his hand kept falling to the ground, and when he stopped, the puddle of smashed flesh and blood on the ground could no longer recognize its original appearance.

Jiang Xun was panting heavily, sweat dripping down his forehead.He threw the brick in his hand to the ground, and then picked up the bread that he had managed to snatch back, but the expression on his face was unusually calm, as if he didn't realize that a life had just passed away under his hands.

Jiang Ke appeared after the end of this "war" between man and beast.

She had been standing quietly in the corner behind Jiang Xun before, but she just watched silently without making a sound.

Jiang Xun never found out that there was another woman behind him.Moreover, this woman actually watched the whole farce between him and the wild cat.

When she suddenly appeared in front of Jiang Lai, he was so frightened that he dropped the bread in his arms to the ground.At that time, Jiang Lai thought he had encountered a ghost.

"What's your name?" She stretched out her finger and just gently wiped Jiang Xun's messy face, her tone was so calm that there were no ups and downs.

Fortunately, she is human.But Jiang Xun didn't answer right away, he just carefully looked at the cold-looking woman standing in front of him with his dark eyes.

She has shoulder-length black straight hair, and her fingertips are cold and smooth. Her eyebrows and eyes are like the misty rain outside, and her whole person is enveloped in a lingering and ethereal beauty.

This is a completely different existence from his mother's heavily made-up face.

At that time, his height was only as long as Jiang Ke's legs. If he wanted to talk to her, he had to raise his neck.He couldn't remember how he answered, he only remembered Jiang Ke's eyes as black as the night, and there seemed to be no light in them.

After hearing his answer, she asked again: "Where's your family?"

Jiang Lai remembered saying to himself: "Everyone is dead." He really hoped so in his heart.

"Then, would you like to come with me?" Jiang Ke extended an invitation to him, her voice as cold as the winter wind, "I can make you very powerful."

In fact, she had just noticed that there was a special power in this child.Whether it is his resilience in the face of enemies or his ruthlessness in the face of life, these characteristics can make him a good enough killer in the future.

Regarding his future, Jiang Lai just stared at her and asked with some distrust: "You...can you really make me stronger?"

Jiang Ke suddenly smiled at him, and the orchid in the empty valley seemed to bloom at that moment.

In fact, she rarely shows this expression.

But at that time, she saw in the depths of the child's eyes the longing for great power that had been dormant for a long time.

She bent down suddenly, looked straight into Jiang Xun's eyes, and solemnly replied to him like a promise: "I will definitely make you the top killer in the world."

Thinking of the rigorous training and cruel elimination competitions in the organization, she said lightly: "But, only by surviving desperately can you become strong."

Jiang Lai didn't quite understand the difference between living and dying at that time, but instead of asking, he asked, "What's your name?"

"My name is Jiang Ke, and I will be your instructor from now on." Jiang Ke stood up, and her figure became taller in an instant.

She re-named him, "Since we met by the river in the rainy season, your name will be Jiang Li from now on. Shuigong Jiang, Yu San Lai, has the same pronunciation as mine, but a different word."

Jiang Lai is very satisfied with his new name, but his face does not show his inner joy.

The memory after this is like a slideshow. Jiang Shui watched his young self practice different practices day after day and year after year in that organization, and then participated in cruel competitions one after another. .

Although there were many difficulties and dangers in the process, he finally survived successfully.

Looking back now from the perspective of a bystander, although that organization deprived him of a lot, it also gave him a lot.Jiang Lai didn't have much affection for the organization that had educated him, but he definitely didn't have any resentment.

If you want to say who impressed Jiang Lai the most during the 20 years he lived, then his answer must not be the mother who gave him life, but Jiang Ke who gave him a new life.

Jiang Xun entered the organization at a very young age, and began to perform missions since he was 12 years old. The phrase "Only by living can you become strong" that he saw at the time, inspired him to endure many life-and-death situations long night.

But Jiang Ke didn't wait for the day when Jiang Lai really stepped into the top killer.

As killers who always hide in the dark and never see the light of their lives, death is only a matter of time for them.When performing each mission, they will hold the determination to die.

Unlike Jiang Xun's failed assassination, Jiang Ke died of internal strife within the organization.Before Jiang Lai's accidental death, the size of the organization had been reduced a lot, and the original behemoth that devoured countless lives was buried in it not only the target people, but also many members of the organization who died due to civil strife.

When the civil strife was organized, he was performing a mission in a distant country. When he came back and learned of Jiang Ke's death, his face was as calm as ever, without any expression of emotion.It is impossible to say that Jiang Lai was indifferent to Jiang Ke's death.

So, in the end, he took the initiative to apply to go to the punishment room, and spent a day and a night facing the wall in thought.At that time, his heart was like an open window, and the wind blowing from nowhere always whizzed through the middle, but at that time he didn't know what this emotion was.

Looking back now, Jiang Lai thinks it must be a feeling of regret.

He regretted that Jiang Ke could not witness the moment when he became a top killer.

……

When Jiang Lai woke up, he found that the wound on his leg had been stitched up at some point, and even the blood stains around it had been cleaned up. Then he looked up and saw Si Yufeng resting on a chair beside him.

This seems to be the second time Si Yufeng has taken care of him.

But because he had been lying flat for too long, there was a burst of pain from the tailbone.He had no choice but to turn his body over with difficulty, and this action just woke up Si Yufeng next to him.

"Hmm...Jiang Li, are you awake?"

Si Yufeng rubbed his eyes vigorously, as if he hadn't woken up yet, but he pulled himself together and asked about Jiang Xun's situation, "How are you feeling now? Are you better? The situation was urgent at the time, so I sewed up the wound for you, is there anything uncomfortable about you now?"

Hearing Si Yufeng say such a series of words of concern for him in one breath, Jiang Li just shook his head lightly while lying on the pillow.His lips were dry and flaky due to lack of water, and his voice sounded a little hoarse, "...you should go back and rest first."

Seeing Si Yufeng's exhausted appearance from taking care of him, Jiang Xun always felt a little guilty.In fact, he doesn't really like being taken care of by others, which will make him feel indebted, even if the person who takes care of him is a teammate, he will still feel very uncomfortable.

Si Yufeng shook his head at first, but then he had no choice but to nod when he saw Jiang Lai's persistent gaze.He got up and poured Jiang a glass of water, "Jiang, drink some water first, your mouth is peeling."

Jiang Lai did not reject Si Yufeng's kindness this time, and took a sip of the water.Then Si Yufeng began to ask with concern: "Are you hungry now? After returning from the mission world, you probably haven't eaten yet. Let me make some?"

Jiang Li just wanted to stop him, "No need..." But the empty stomach let out a "goo" sound untimely

Jiang Xun: "..." Si Yufeng held back his smile, walked to the door and said to him, "I'd better go and make something to eat, and treat it as asking you to eat with me. Speaking of which, I haven't I have already eaten."

Soon, Si Yufeng brought in two bowls of steaming porridge from outside, and then found a small table from somewhere and put it on the bed.

He just wanted to help Jiang Xun get up, but was stopped by Jiang Xun, "I can..." Si Yufeng didn't insist anymore.

Looking at the small table on the bed, Jiang Lai couldn't help sighing, "Actually, I can go to the restaurant to eat..."

Si Yufeng smiled at him and said, "This is the exclusive VIP service in high-end wards, which is very rare! Besides, your wound has just been stitched up, and there is nothing else to do now, so it's okay to enjoy it once in a while."

Jiang Lai was blocked by him and couldn't speak a word.Although the reasoning is the same, he always feels that something is weird...

Si Yufeng put another bowl of porridge in front of Jiang Xun, then picked up his own bowl and sat on the chair next to him, scooped up a little with a spoon, put it in front of his mouth, and let it cool slowly.

Jiang Lai looked at him strangely, not understanding why Si Yufeng was still sitting on the chair.

"Huh?" Noticing Jiang Lai's gaze, Si Yufeng asked vaguely with the spoon still in his mouth.

"Go to bed." Jiang Lai sat back to make room for him, "Eat with me."

In fact, Si Yufeng chose to sit in the chair next to him just now because he was afraid of approaching Jiang Shuang abruptly, "Are you sure?" Seeing that Jiang Sel had insisted, he didn't hesitate too much, and sat directly opposite Jiang Sel.

Because Jiang Shuang's legs are not easy to bend, he can only put his legs straight under the table.But Si Yufeng had no choice but to sit down next to the bed, unable to fully get on the bed, turned his upper body to face Jiang Lu, his legs were still hanging by the bed.

Looking at Si Yufeng's distorted sitting posture, Jiang Lai wondered if he had come up with a bad idea...

Si Yufeng himself didn't pay much attention to it, but he saw that Jiang Xun hadn't eaten it all this time, so he took the initiative to ask, "Jiang Xun, why don't you eat it? Is it because I didn't like what I cooked?"

"No." Jiang Lai came back to his senses, picked up a spoon, scooped some from the bowl and put it into his mouth.

Hmm... Unexpectedly, the taste of this porridge is not bad.

Si Yufeng noticed Jiang Lai's suddenly stretched brows, and quickly asked, "How is it? Is the taste okay?"

"Yeah." Jiang Lai nodded sincerely this time.It seems that what Si Yufeng said before that he can cook is true, and the taste of what he cooks is really good.

Seeing that Jiang Lai was satisfied, Si Yufeng's enthusiasm for cooking immediately increased, and he said with great interest: "From now on, let's not go out to eat, let me cook every day! Oh, by the way, there is also Senior Zhang Jian, I guess He will often come over for dinner in the future..."

"I have to go to training with you in the future, and I can't be lazy anymore... I almost couldn't lift you up just now." Si Yufeng felt that what he just said was ambiguous, and quickly added: "Of course, I didn't mean your weight Shen means that I am really too weak..."

It was past midnight, and this might be the only room in the remote apartment with a light on.

Jiang Lai sat there quietly, watching Si Yufeng start planning his future arrangements, his jade-like face seemed to be lit by the warm lights in the room.Compared with the current life and the previous life of wandering, Jiang Lai suddenly felt a sense of peace of mind.

1903 at Bright View Apartments.

This is where he and Si Yufeng first came into contact, and it will always be his safe haven.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-07-0623:12:42~2020-07-0800:30:19期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Ying Qing Liao Bai, Ci Xiaosheng 1;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 4 bottles of Junxie; 2 bottles of Jibuqing; 1 bottle of Yingqingbai;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!