Eccentricity

Chen Ziying's heart ached when she heard the words suppressed in her throat, mixed with vague crying, and she choked up holding her: "It's okay, sister, you still have me."

"I said long ago that Gu Qiong is not a good person, sister, you still have me."

As if she didn't hear it, Chen Qiran curled herself into a semi-curved shape, huddled against the wall, clutched the pillow and wept, muttering to herself, "It's my fault, it's because I'm not popular, that's why she Dislike me."

Chen Ziying's heart was broken when she heard that, she pulled Chen Ziran's shoulders to make her face herself, and growled in pain: "Sister, what nonsense are you talking about? You are the most likable! It's all that Gu Qiong's fault! It's her blindness! It's a good thing for her to give up on you, you will definitely find someone who truly loves you in the future, do you know that?"

Chen Ziran raised his eyes blankly to look at her, and in just a second, his short eyelashes drooped down again quickly, covering the moisture that kept overflowing from his eyes.

She didn't want to face Chen Ziying at the moment, so she hugged herself tightly mockingly.

Chen Ziying would not understand.Her life was bright and smooth, so how could she understand Chen Ziran?

Everyone loves her, everyone is close to her, even if it is a stranger who has never met on the main road, as long as Chen Ziying shows a smile, the stranger will show kindness.

Chen Ziying has no shortage of love, companionship, or warmth.She doesn't lack anything, so she doesn't understand Chen Ziran.

When she wears the most beautiful dance dress to go to a dance class that costs hundreds of dollars a class, she enjoys the praise of the teacher, the pride of her parents, and the play of her peers, and she doesn't understand that Chen Ziran is locked up and unable to stretch her hands and feet How scary it was in the small cabinet. When she was laughing, Chen Ziran was so frightened by the cockroaches that crawled over her feet that she cried, and her little hands were scratched in the cabinet until they were bloody and bloody, but no one rescued her.

She took a group photo with her parents and teachers on the stage with the award for the first grade in her grade. When her parents went to her parent meeting proudly, they would not understand that other children sat with their parents on the day of the parent meeting. Only Chen Alone alone, sitting alone with a small chair around a group of happy families with parents and children, feeling at a loss.They asked Chen Ziran innocently, where are your parents?Chen Ziran didn't know how to answer, so he smiled like a fool and said that he was in his sister's class.She is like a helpless little animal, abandoned by her parents before she has learned to survive in this world.

How easy it is for Chen Ziying to meet someone who loves her, so she doesn't understand the bitterness of Chen Ziran's longing for the word love for 18 years, and she also doesn't understand how precious it is for Chen Ziran to meet someone who loves her. Met one, never again.

At this moment, Chen Ziran was afraid of seeing Chen Ziying's face, she was afraid that she would be jealous of everything her sister had.

You and your sister are obviously twins, why are you so different?

That's right, Chen Ziran is also thinking about this question, she and Chen Ziying are obviously twins, why are they so different?Aren't twins supposed to look exactly alike?Why is Chen Ziying beautiful, excellent, and everyone loves her, why is she not like Chen Ziying?Why is God so unfair?Even if she only gets a little bit of Chen Ziying's merits, won't her parents and people around her favor her a little bit more?

It's so ugly.

Chen Ziran blocked the tears that kept pouring out of her eyes.She was already unlovable enough, how could she have such a despicable jealousy to make herself even uglier?

My sister is so good, she deserves all the love.

She was crying so hard that Chen Ziying was heartbroken, and hugged her tighter and cried with her, but the tighter Chen Ziying hugged her to comfort her, she had to face the confrontation between jealousy and condemnation in her heart. Embracing cannot comfort her, it will only make her sad to the point of splitting.

It was too easy for Chen Ziying to get everything. She didn't know how important Gu Qiong was to Chen Ziran, but she only knew that Gu Qiong was not a good person, so she tried every means to get her away from Chen Ziran. I wonder if my sister will hurt more.

"Sister, it's not your fault, you will meet better ones, don't blame yourself." She would only offer such pale consolation, which was of no use at all.She is so smart and has a very high dual quotient, but she never thought about why her sister was even hurt by Gu Qiong, and why she took all the blame on herself.

Children who don't get love are like this, they don't love themselves, they don't like others, they beg for a little love from others, if others refuse to give it, it must be their own fault, because they are not liked by others.

Chen Ziran has been like this for 18 years, how can she change it overnight?

Chen Ziying didn't understand, she thought she was good to her sister, and she wanted to stamp out the last bit of warmth in her heart, thinking contentedly, I saved her sister.

The two sisters cuddled together and cried for a while. As lunch approached, Chen Ziran finally stopped sobbing.

Chen Ziying went to cook for her without saying a word, and asked her to eat when it was ready, but Chen Ziran was tasteless, and finished eating the rice in her bowl, saying that I was full, put the bowl in the kitchen, and put it on the table The dishes didn't move at all.

She was in a trance today and couldn't go to work. She had already asked Chen Ziying to call the restaurant to ask for leave in advance.She went back to bed after lunch, and Chen Ziying was worried. She went to see her several times in the afternoon, but she finally stopped crying.

Chen Ziying was relieved, thinking that it would be good for Chen Ziran to cry once, and she had walked out of the shadow of broken love.

She didn't know that it would take a long time for ordinary people to fall in love, let alone Chen Ziran, who is loved by no one?Chen Ziran poured everything she had into it, and once Gu Qiong left, she lost everything.

In the past, she still had herself, but later she handed herself over to Gu Qiong. Now, she has lost even herself.

I'm afraid there will be shadows in the future.

During dinner, my father got off work, played cards for several days, and my mother, who had lost all her money in her pocket, was finally willing to come back. When she entered the door and saw Chen Ziran, she immediately changed her face, sneering, "Oh, this is not us!" Is Miss Chen from home? You’ve had enough outings, you know you’re back?”

With two red eye circles under Chen Ziran's eyes, her fingers shook violently.

"Mom, are you back? How's your luck? You must be starving? Come and eat, there's your favorite fish soup."

Both Chen Ziying and Liang Roujie love to eat fish, while Chen Ziran and his father Chen Dazhi are people who don't touch fish at all, but because Liang Roujie loves to eat, the family still buys them often. Whenever there is fish, it must be for Liang Roujie and Chen Ziying.

Liang Roujie sarcastically satirized Chen Ziran, "I thought you would fall in love with a rich man and fly on a branch to become a phoenix, and you would no longer look down on our small place. I always teach you that people must have self-knowledge. Don’t you know what kind of thing? Think you can really climb high? Don’t even look at your own virtues, how can someone look up to you?”

"Okay, you've been playing mahjong and talking all day, and your throat doesn't hurt? Drink some water and rest, okay? I'll serve you a bowl of fish soup! I just tasted it, it's fresh and sweet, it's good Drink it!" Chen Ziying laughed and took Liang Roujie into the kitchen for dinner, but Liang Roujie's mouth still didn't stop for a moment.

"Okay, let's eat." Chen Dazhi, who was eating in silence, also said something.

"What? You don't like it when I say a few words to her, do you? I know you love her. You don't care about Ziying and I. You only have your precious daughter in your heart! How can I marry you? Are you such a wimp? Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Every piece fell out.

Chen Dazhi was a little impatient, and warned her in a low voice: "Can you keep your voice down? Let the neighbor next door hear the joke."

"A joke? I'm not afraid of people's jokes! Your father and daughter are colluding to bully our mother and daughter. What kind of jokes am I afraid of? I just want the neighbors to see and comment on how you have treated me all these years!"

In the restaurant, Liang Roujie was crying alone, while the rest of the father and daughter sat silently and let her curse.

Liang Roujie's sharp voice chattered endlessly, every sentence just hit Chen Ziran's heart, her chest was sore and painful, her eyes became moist, she lowered her head and grabbed her trouser leg, bit her lip, and suppressed the tears in her eyes go back.

Don't cry, at least not in front of Liang Roujie.

She is not the one who likes you, nor the one who loves you. When she cries, she will only get more sarcasm. Why bother to make this embarrassing.

This time, Liang Roujie's words hurt more than any of the previous ones. In the past, Chen Ziran endured it silently, and could still refute in his heart. There must be someone who loves me waiting for me in the world. When I grow up, I will definitely find it.But now, she couldn't refute even one sentence, and everything Liang Roujie said became true.

Don't look at your own virtues, how can someone look up to you?

Chen Ziran's heart has been pierced by her words.

But did not cry.

People who are not loved don't deserve to cry.

Because no one will feel bad.

……

Life has to go on, Chen Ziran cheered up and looked in the right direction. At least, she was admitted to university. Even if her family didn't pay her, she could still save the first year's tuition by working part-time. She had no love. , but there are still ideals, and the hope of life is still there, so I can't give up because of this.

The next day after crying a lot, Chen Ziran went to work, nothing unusual, and said goodbye to Chen Ziying with a smile before going out.

Chen Ziying thought proudly, thanks to herself, she rescued her sister from Gu Qi's jaws, look, she's recovered now.

No one said about Chen Yuran's pain, she could only digest it by herself. There was a hole in her heart, the air leaked, and she felt cold all the time, and her heart was cold. In the past, only in winter would her hands and feet be cold, but now in summer, her hands and feet are also cold. Not hot anymore.

The western restaurant where she works is a high-end restaurant with a petty bourgeoisie atmosphere. Seats on Friday nights are often not booked, and they are often reserved by couples in love or young couples on the first day. Chen Ziran has a bad habit. She doesn't have to serve customers Sometimes I would stand in the corner, secretly observe those couples who are in a good relationship at first glance, and see how they get along.

Chen Ziran blamed herself for breaking up with Gu Qiong. It must be because she did something wrong that Gu Qiong would dislike her, so she had to carefully observe how other couples get along and see what she did wrong.

"You're still staring at your phone while you're eating. Your eyes are only on your phone. How can you still have me?" A young girl was dissatisfied with her date's use of his phone while eating, so she pulled his phone over and put it in her hand. Pouting her lips, she said proudly, "Is your phone prettier than mine? We're dating, can you be more serious?"

The boy on the opposite side smiled kindly, and explained in a low voice: "I can't ignore the boss looking for me about work, right? Didn't you say that your phone was broken a while ago? I'm trying to get more bonuses this month, and I'll give you Change it to the newest one!"

"Who cares about your latest mobile phone? I want you to accompany me seriously when we go on a date. Do you hear me?" Although the girl still pouted and complained, she could hear the tone of her words, full of endless complaints. joy.

Her self-confidence is natural, and she doesn't worry that her little temper will make her boyfriend stop loving her.

So Chen Ziran thought, he really doesn't have self-confidence when he is with Gu Qiong, who would like a cowardly guy?

There is another table of newlyweds. Today is their first wedding anniversary. The husband told the waiter in advance to hide a shining ring for him. When the dinner is over and dessert is served, it will be served in a cream cake. come up.

The mature lady, who seemed to be somewhat mature, cut the cake and revealed the ring, she was very pleasantly surprised. In front of everyone, she pulled the man's tie and kissed deeply. Congratulations, the attitude of the two is generous and natural, and they are not at all shy because of their intimacy.

Chen Qiran thought again, if she were herself, she would definitely not dare to take the initiative like this. Even if Gu Qiong gave her flowers, she would be very happy, and she would not take the initiative to hold her face and kiss her, but would just stand obediently and wait stupidly. Wait, wait for her to come and kiss yourself.

Confidence, initiative, such extroverted and enthusiastic qualities are attractive to people, but Chen Ziran can't learn them.

Her personality is fixed and cannot be reversed.

For example, let her take the initiative to kiss Gu Qiong, Chen Ziran will feel uneasy, what if Gu Qiong doesn't want her to kiss him?She always considers other people's feelings first, and puts her own thoughts later.

So it is doomed to be alone to swallow all the bitter fruit silently.

It's just that when she saw the bright ring, Chen Ziran remembered that the jade bead she bought was intended to be given to Gu Qiong, but she broke up before giving it away, and it is still in her schoolbag.

Then give it to her, just treat it as the last formal farewell, good reunion and separation.

When Chen Ziran bought this bead, she thought that when Gu Qiong wore it on her body 24 hours a day, she would think of the sender of the bead 24 hours a day. The last entanglement of the bead, whether Gu Qiong wears it or throws it anywhere to cover it with dust, as long as it doesn't stay with Chen Qiran, she will think of Gu Qiong when she sees the bead.

Chen Qiran didn't want to think of Gu Qiong so often, she wanted to bury her in her heart, look forward, save money to go to college, and live a good life.

Maybe in the future, when I think about it, I can smile knowingly, after all, she is the first person in the world who has ever liked Chen Ziran.

On the next rest day, her parents were not at home, and Chen Ziying didn't know where she was - she had a lot of contacts, and after the college entrance examination, she socialized much more than Chen Ziran.

Chen Ziran changed into her most decent clothes, neatly tidied up in front of the mirror, without a single crease, with the square jewelry box no bigger than a palm in his pocket, went out, and stopped a taxi.

She didn't ride her broken bicycle again, because she would sweat under the sun, and it gave off a smell that Gu Qiong didn't like. The last time she said goodbye to Gu Qiong, Chen Ziran wanted to leave her with the best image in her heart, and didn't want to think about it later. , always in despair in front of Gu Qiong.

Will Gu Qiong refuse to accept?On the co-pilot of the taxi, Chen Ziran bit her lip nervously, what was going on with her?If you want to leave a little bond with her after breaking up, what will Gu Qi think of her?Do you think she is shameless?

Don't be ashamed if you don't have shame, as long as you can deliver the things, it's the last time, and Chen Ziran also wants to be willful for a while.

The taxi stopped on the side of the road at the entrance of Guqiong Community, Chen Ziran paid the money and opened the door to get off, the driver shouted behind him: "Little girl, do you want to wait for you to come out? Anyway, you have to go back the same way , just take care of one more business for me."

"No..." Chen Ziran wanted to say no.

The cost of a taxi was too high, and Chen Ziran felt distressed, but after thinking about it, he nodded: "I will be out in about 10 minutes, so I will trouble you, master."

"Okay!" Master Dora went to work, smiling happily.

Chen Ziran wants to learn to be nicer to herself.Coming out of Gu Qiong's place, it must be another sad experience, and this place is so far away from Chen's house, it will take an hour to walk back, so it's a luxury.No one will treat her well in the future, if she wants to spoil herself again, who else can she count on?You can only count on yourself, and be good to yourself.

While thinking, Chen Ziran walked towards Gu Qiong's apartment building, walked around the lush garden, and turned a corner.The apartment building where Gu Qiong lives is at the innermost part of the community, with a deep and winding path, blocked by a lush tree, you have to go around the tree to see the door of the apartment building.

As soon as he walked behind the big tree, before he had time to go around, Chen Ziran saw the scene in front of him, and suddenly stopped in his steps, his pupils shrank, and his heart also tightened.

what did she seeGu Qiong stood at the door of the building, holding a person in his arms. The clothes Chen Ziran recognized that person was wearing were the ones Chen Ziying wore out this morning!

Chen Ziran was struck by thunder on the spot, and fell into the ice cellar under the scorching sun, unable to move.

Why did Gu Qiong and Chen Ziying embrace each other?Are they together?Impossible...impossible!

Chen Ziran put her hands in her pockets, clutching the small square box that hadn't been handed out yet, too hard, the box was deformed by her grip, she was on the verge of falling, and took a few steps back, something in her mind was about to come out, But it was so foggy that I couldn't tell.

Chen Ziran's heart was in a mess, she wanted to go up to ask Gu Qiong and Chen Ziying when they were together, but she thought in a cold sweat, she couldn't go up, if she went there rashly, both Chen Ziying and Gu Qiong would be embarrassed.

I must... must have misunderstood...

Chen Ziran turned around in confusion, turned around and left, as if there were wolves, tigers and leopards chasing her behind her, making her not dare to stop for a moment.

Chen Ziran ran out of the community all the way and opened the door of the taxi's co-pilot. The driver, bored, saw her get in the car and smiled, "Girl, did you finish the job so quickly? Didn't you say 10 minutes?"

"Drive fast..." Chen Yuran's heart was in turmoil, and he shouted sharply with red eyes: "Drive fast! Drive fast——"

"Okay... okay..." The driver was taken aback, he hurriedly lit the engine, and rushed out in a panic.

I was wrong, how could Gu Qiang and Chen Ziying be together?Chen Ziran clutched her head and thought in pain, no, they won't be together, her sister has a prejudice against Gu Qiong, and Gu Qiong never said that she likes Chen Ziying.

I didn't say it, but I showed it.

Chen Ziran remembered Gu Qi's hospitality to Chen Ziying when they first met, no matter how cold Chen Ziying was to her, she always greeted her with a smile, if she didn't like it, who would be willing to put a hot face on someone else's cold ass=ass?

Chen Yuran's heart sank straight down.

The more I thought about it, the more my heart sank, and finally I fell directly to the cliff and fell to pieces.

Her throat was choked by fear, and a terrible guess arose in her heart.

Could it be... Gu Qi has always liked Chen Ziying?

Would she come close to her because of Chen Ziying?

Just like the deskmate in junior high school?

"No... no!" Chen Ziran murmured nervously to himself, but the feeling in his heart became clearer and clearer. The more he said no, the more a voice in his heart forced her to admit: yes Such a thing.

Chen Ziran's heart was frozen, it was so cold, she sat in the co-pilot in a daze, the driver wanted to strike up a conversation, but she leaned on the car seat like a doll, without even moving her eyelids .

The driver stopped talking.

The sky is bright and bright outside, and the sun is almost roasting and melting people.

The air conditioner in the car was turned on too low, making Chen Ziran shiver with cold.

"Girl, what's bothering you? Young people want to be more open, so there's nothing you can't get through..."

The driver failed to make that "Kaner" sound.

His pupils constricted suddenly, and he slammed on the brakes while slamming the steering wheel!

But it was too late, a retrograde limousine on the opposite side slammed into them with lightning speed like an arrow leaving the string!

boom--

There was an earth-shattering explosion on the empty road!The loud noise attracted people from the facades on both sides of the road to come out to watch!

The two cars collided violently!The limousine has rolled over and crushed on the deformed taxi!

The time was too short for everyone to expect.

Chen Ziran was in a daze of frustration on the co-pilot, and when she regained consciousness, her eyes dimmed, the airbag hit her face heavily, there was a loud bang in her ears, the windshield was torn apart, and Chen Ziran's bones were damaged. There was a strong backlog, as if it had been broken, her eyes were blood red, the windshield pierced into the flesh of her face, and there was a huge bleeding hole from the left forehead to the right jaw.

Chen Ziran's eyes went dark, he lost consciousness, put his hands in his pockets, and tightly grasped the deformed jewelry box. Inside was a beautiful white jade bead that was transparent and could not be given away.

The author has something to say: The abuse chapter has officially begun.

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感谢在2020-08-0422:51:46~2020-08-0522:33:05期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 V Ni;

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: Mrs. Dong, the Golden Snitch can’t fly, V Ni 2; 46707441, Liuyao_Fengyin, Huakai Fugui, take a scumbag name, yanyan, a lonely sail, uncle in underpants 1 indivual;

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 3116126220 bottles; 10 bottles without tigers in the mountains; 5 bottles for the first day of junior high school; 2 bottles for Ana and Changan;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!