Eccentricity

Chen Qiran has seen enough of the self-proclaimed affection in Gu Qiong's eyes. She liked her so much in the past, but seeing the affection in her eyes, she was afraid that her heart would turn into scum. There was a little bit of turmoil, and when I could look at it calmly, I finally saw these eyes pretending to be affectionate, full of falsehood and self-touching.

She could move Gu Qiong herself, but she couldn't move Chen Qiran anymore.

Gu Qiong stood in the courtyard of an old farmer's house with an old brick wall, a leaf fell on the shiny high-heeled shoes, which looked very split.

Chen Ziran is much shorter than her, and she wears high heels again, and pushes her close to Chen Ziran like a giant. Chen Ziran doesn't even bother to look up at her, and looks down at her approaching toes, thinking sarcastically, noble What is Miss Gu going to do again?

Gu Qiong slowly raised his hand.

She originally wanted to hug Chen Ziran, but she was scared back by the smell on her body, and changed her fingertips forward, wanting to touch Chen Ziran's face and feel the scar on her face.

Before he touched it, he was blocked by Chen Ziran with a backhand, with a slap, showing no mercy.

Gu Qiong's face was slightly embarrassed, the opened hand stopped in mid-air, turned back in embarrassment and touched his nose, then put it down, and sneered: "Will it still hurt?"

When Chen Ziran was lying on the hospital bed bloody and bloody, Gu Qiong never asked her if it hurt.

How could the scar that had been scabbed for five years still hurt? What really hurt was Chen Ziran's right arm, which Gu Qiong couldn't see and didn't know.

Chen Qiran didn't even have the strength to laugh at him. Facing Gu Qiong, his expression was strangely calm. There was neither happiness nor sadness on his face, let alone a collapse of restraint. After a long silence, he asked lightly: "Gu Qiong, what are you doing?" Do you want to make it up to me?"

"Yes! Ah Ran, please give me a chance!" A gleam of hope floated on Gu Qiong's face, and he took half a step forward with joy.

Chen Ziran nodded at her, "Okay, I'll give you a chance."

"Aran..." Gu Qiong choked up a little.

Only to hear Chen Ziran say again: "Let me tell you, I now have a family and friends, and all my dreams that were once elusive and elusive have come true, and I am living a very happy life." She paused, afraid that Gu Qiong would think that she was He said these words in a fit of anger, and he put on a straight face again, and said to Gu Qiong with a serious look in his eyes: "The best compensation you can give me now is to disappear from my life and never appear again. .”

There was no element of anger in Chen Yuran's words, she really thought so and hoped so.

When Chen Ziran was most desperate, Gu Qi stabbed her in the abyss again, almost stabbing her so that she could never get up again. Halfway up the mountain, you can see the sun rising on the top of the mountain. As long as you work harder, it doesn't matter even if you climb slowly. As long as there are no accidents, you will be able to get back on track sooner or later.

And at this time, the person who stabbed her so hard that she almost couldn't turn over was standing in front of her in full clothes, smiling at her and stretching out his hand, saying that he wanted to give her a hand. Can Chen Ziran still believe it?

Give her your hand, and let her throw herself back into the abyss one more time?

Chen Yuran was a bit naive in her bones, but she was not stupid, the pain and screams were still on her body from the unforgettable injury, how could she dare to extend her hand to her.

Chen Ziran has no other thoughts about Gu Qiong, the only thought is that Gu Qiong should leave as soon as possible, the farther the better, and never see each other for the rest of his life, so that he can forget her.

"Aran." Gu Qiong's voice was low and hoarse, "I know you still hate me, I am sincere this time, you only gave me one last chance, I will prove it to you, huh?"

Sure enough, she thought that Chen Ziran was angry, and all she said were angry words, and she became more and more reluctant to leave, and couldn't bear to leave Chen Ziran here to suffer.

Chen Ziran looked at her hypocrisy, and didn't want to keep the last bit of false politeness to maintain the face of strangers. The fragile shell of her heart collapsed, and the shoulders that she had braced in front of Gu Qiong were also rickety—she was injured in a car accident that year. It's not just her right arm, her back bone can no longer support her upper body which is always upright. She bends her neck a little so that it won't press on her lumbar spine, and she can feel better.

"Gu Qiong." Chen Yuran's face was a little sad, which was a little emotional overflow from her cracked heart, "Do you think I'm angry with you?"

There is only a little sadness on the face, but the pain is already exploding in the heart.

She thought that she really loved the wrong person. For a selfish person like Gu Qi, when she saw herself like this, all she could think of was the guilt in her heart. She didn't leave any room for Chen Ziran's dignity at all. Would it be naive to think that she could stay with him for a lifetime?Think she'll give herself a home?

For such a person, it will be a matter of time to empathize with someone else, not Chen Ziying, but someone else.

What Chen Ziran wanted, she couldn't give it before, and she couldn't give it now.All she can give Chen Ziran is pain.

"I'm not angry, everything I said is true, please go, I finally had a little happiness, Gu Qiong, if you really want to make up for me, don't take the happiness I have now from me Take it away from my hand, and I will be grateful to you forever."

After Chen Ziran finished speaking, tears were a little unbearable. She put down her dignity and begged Gu Qiong in a low voice. She didn't know if Gu Qiong listened, but she no longer had the energy to distinguish. She urgently needs to go back to her little home now. , with her only relative in this world, draw a little strength to support the hard work in the afternoon.

If she doesn't work for half a day, she will lose a few days of food money. She is a little better off now than before, but she can't stop her hands and feet. An An will spend a lot of money to go to college in the future.

Chen Qiran can't be broken, she still has An An, she wants to support An An, and give her the best she can.

She is only An An in this world.

……

Chen An'an had already made lunch, fearing that the food would be cold, he warmed it up in a steamer over low heat, and ate it together when Chen Ziran came back.

Chen Ziran came back later than usual today, and Chen Anan thought that some worker in the environmental sanitation team where his mother was working must have asked for leave today, and needed his mother to share more of his work.An An didn't complain. After cooking and cleaning the stove, she consciously recited words on the desk.

This desk was specially purchased by Chen Ziran for Chen Anan's study.

Many things in the house were bought by Chen Ziran specially for Chen Anan, such as the bookshelf in the corner and the toy corner. There are new ones and second-hand ones. Generally speaking, there are more second-hand ones. She held her face in her lap and said: "Books are new as long as we haven't read them, and toys are new as long as we haven't played with them. These books and toys are not broken. Why does mother always say sorry? "

This is not just a comfort to Chen Yuran, but also Chen Anan's sincere words.

Back then, Chen An'an was wanted by no one, and he fought stray dogs for food in the garbage dump, but it was Chen Ziran who picked her up and gave her a home.

Chen An'an has forgotten the family when she was younger, and the memories of the bits and pieces are not good. Her original parents only knew to fight and quarrel. Chen An'an was so scared that she cried and no one cared about her. A sea of ​​blood.

When she was first taken in by Chen Ziran, Chen An'an often had nightmares in the middle of the night, blood red in the dream, and she cried loudly. Run away all of Chen Anan's scary nightmares.

Chen Ziran is very good at telling stories, about Alibaba and the Forty Thieves, Chen Anan envied Alibaba for finally getting all the wealth of the thieves, and said in her arms: "Mom, if only we could meet the Forty Thieves too." , so that we will become very rich and very rich.”

Chen Ziran scratched the tip of her nose with pain, and said: "An'an, remember, you have to be down-to-earth, and you can't take things that are not your own, or you will be punished by God."

Chen An'an seemed to understand, but Chen Ziran continued to tell her that the tadpoles were looking for their mothers.

Hearing that the little tadpole finally found her mother, Chen Anan threw herself on Chen Ziran's shoulder with tears in her eyes and sobbed. She felt that she was just a little tadpole, swimming and swimming, and finally reached her mother, and found her dearest and most unique mother.

Chen Ziran often feels guilty for not being able to give An An better, but Chen An'an feels that her mother has already given her the best in the world.

Thinking of the past, Chen Anan wanted to cry again. At this time, Chen Anan opened the door to go home. Chen Anan secretly wiped his eyes and jumped off the chair to pick her up, "Mom, are you hungry? Have you eaten the buns you brought this morning? Go wash your hands and I'll bring you food."

Chen Ziran hummed, and Chen Anan heard her nasal voice, "Mom, what's wrong with you? You must have caught a cold!" Chen Anan touched her forehead, but it wasn't hot.

Chen Ziran smiled and took off her hand, "I'm fine, maybe I didn't sleep well last night, I'll be fine after dinner for half an hour before going to work."

"Really?" Chen Anan was skeptical, "You can't lie to me, don't tell me until your body can't stand it anymore, then I will be more anxious."

"My little butler gets bigger and more worried." Chen Yuran smiled and put a piece of meat into Chen An'an's bowl, "Don't worry, I know what's in my heart, An'an, hurry up and eat, you've been waiting for me for so long, you're starving, right?" ?”

"I drank a carton of milk in the morning and ate two small biscuits. I'm not hungry."

"It's good to drink milk, drink more milk, and grow taller."

"Well! I want to grow up quickly and earn money, so my mother doesn't have to work so hard." Chen An'an gave Chen Ziran a piece of braised tofu, her eyes curled up, "Mom, you should eat more too."

Life is not as tight as it used to be, and Chen Ziran still doesn't like meat very much, let alone fish and shrimp.She is a heavy manual worker, and her body will collapse if she does not supplement enough fat and protein. In order to provide her with sufficient nutrition, Chen Anan made meat into dishes in different ways, so that she could not taste the meat, and she also tried her best to stir-fry vegetables. Stir-fry with meat oil to add fat.

Now Chen Ziran can accept eating minced meat. First, marinate it with scallion and ginger cooking wine, and you can still taste a little fishy smell. At least he can accept it. Unlike before, he vomited as soon as he ate it.

Staying with Chen An'an, the heart that was stabbed by Gu Qiong didn't hurt so much. After lunch, the mother and daughter were talking and laughing. When clearing the table, Chen An'an remembered, "By the way, Mom, there is someone I don't know this morning. Auntie was looking for you, I remembered your words and didn't open the door for her."

Chen Ziran's eyelashes trembled, and she said calmly, "Got it."

"Who is that? Is it your former friend? Why have you never heard of it?"

"No, maybe it's a salesman. An'an did the right thing. If there are strangers in the future, they can't open the door either."

"Well, I know."

In the afternoon, when Chen Ziran went out, she didn't see Gu Qiong, thinking that she had listened to her own words, and relaxed a little. Who would have thought that after nine o'clock in the evening, when she got off work, Gu Qiong appeared at the gate of the yard lingeringly. I also took a beautiful pastry box.

Seeing Chen Ziran approaching, Gu Qiong smiled like offering a treasure: "Aran, I brought your favorite cake over here, let's go and taste it together to see if it's delicious."

Chen Ziran walked straight up to her, without even looking at the snack box she held up, and asked her directly: "Miss Gu, what sentence did you not understand when I told you at noon?"

"I..." Gu Qi's smile cracked, "I understand."

"Then what are you doing here?"

"I..." Gu Qiong closed her eyes and did enough psychological construction. When she opened her eyes again, the smile in her eyes became her usual self-confidence and calmness. She said, "Aran, if you don't want me to make up, then I will pursue again you."

Chen Ziran: "..."

What's the difference?

She didn't want to get entangled in boring word games with Gu Qiong, so she bypassed Gu Qiong and continued to walk forward. Gu Qiong followed her into the corridor and into the basement.

Only Chen Ziran lived in the basement. The corridor was dark and narrow, and his footsteps echoed when he landed. Chen Qiran walked in front and heard Gu Qiong shouting behind him: "Aran, don't you want a home? Now I'm back , I can give you a home!"

The sound bounced repeatedly between the walls of the narrow passage, shaking the dust accumulated over the years on the ceiling.

The small basement where Chen Xunran lived was not soundproof, and Gu Qiong's shout disturbed the sensor lights in the corridor, as well as Chen An'an in the room and Zhou Suxin who came to play with Chen An'an. When they heard the sound, they opened the door and stuck their heads out. Just turned on.

The two screamed in unison.

"Mom?" This was Chen Anan's worried cry to Chen Ziran.

"Gu... Gu Gu Gu... President Gu?" This was Zhou Suxin who was so frightened that her jaw almost dropped.

Gu Qi had no impression of Zhou Suxin. He frowned when he heard her calling himself that, thinking that he was probably an employee of the company, and it was not something to be happy to meet an employee in such a place.

Chen Qiran and Gu Qiong's old accounts, unwilling to involve family and friends, wiped his face, with two bags under the eyes hanging on his face, please Zhou Suxin to help her take care of An An, turned his head tiredly and said to Gu Qiong: "Let's Let's talk somewhere else."

Gu Qiong glanced at the little girl who protruded half of her body from the door. She looked seven or eight years old, and she was quite cute, with curly hair like a doll.

In the afternoon, Gu Qiong had already investigated Chen Ziran's whereabouts in the past five years since he disappeared. Chen Ziran was not married, and this little girl was adopted by her.She is such a good person, because she has endured hardships, so she doesn't want to see others suffer. If she is not ideal, she will not be a thankless elementary school teacher.

The news of Chen Ziran's unmarried rekindled Gu Qiong's confidence. Gu Qiong also knew that Chen Ziran hadn't even had a close friend in recent years except for her daughter. She thought that Chen Ziran must be waiting for her, otherwise why would she not be married for five years? Don't have anyone close?So Gu Qiong believed that Chen Ziran was talking angry, she was angry with herself.

It doesn't matter if you don't forgive for a while, as long as the feelings are in place, sooner or later you will forgive.

Gu Qiong handed the pastry box in his hand to Chen An'an who was behind the door, showing a very sincere smile, "An'an, this is the first time we meet, I am Gu Qiong, a friend of your mother, this is a meeting gift for you."

Chen An'an looked at this beautiful woman who seemed to be shining, and reached out to pick it up in a daze. Chen Ziran stood in the distance and reminded: "An'an, do you still remember what mother told you?"

Chen An'an retracted her hand as if shocked, put her hands behind her back, and shook her head, "You can't take things that aren't your own."

Chen Ziran used to say this sentence often.

Gu Qiong's chest hurt slightly, and he smiled and encouraged An An: "It's okay, Auntie is not an outsider, but one of us, so it doesn't matter to take Auntie's gift."

Chen Anan looked at her, then at her mother, and shook her head firmly, "You are not one of us. My mother doesn't like you."

It made Gu Qiong's heart hurt even more, she straightened up, and handed the snack box to Zhou Suxin who was still dumbfounded, "Take it."

Zhou Suxin took it with trembling hands, and saw Gu Qiong turn around and go out, and said to Chen Ziran, "Ah Ran, just as you said, find a place to have a good chat."

Watching the two walk away, Zhou Suxin felt that her back was covered with sweat, and she leaned against the door in a state of collapse, and asked Chen An'an, "Your mother knows our President Gu? Why haven't you heard of it before?"

"I don't know." Chen Anan shook her head, "I've never heard her say that either."

"It doesn't matter, let's see what good things Mr. Gu brought you. The cakes in this store are so precious! And they are limited in quantity, so you can't buy them even if you wait in line. I've had your honor today, and I'll have a real treat." Zhou Suxin said Then he opened the box, took a piece of exquisite dim sum and ate it, not forgetting to greet Chen An'an, "You come to eat too."

"You can eat it yourself, I don't want it." Chen Anan sat on the side without looking at it.

She really likes cakes, but her mother will buy them for her, and she doesn't need to be courted by people her mother doesn't like.

……

Gu Qiong originally wanted to find a quiet shop with Chen Ziran and sit in a box where no one would disturb them and have a good chat, but Chen Ziran didn't give her this chance.

Chen Ziran turned around in the criss-cross alleys, making Gu Qie almost dizzy, and finally stopped in a dead end where no one passed by, and the surrounding buildings were also considered dangerous and uninhabitable. , is a place suitable for "chatting".

Chen Qiran didn't have the time to tease her out, so he cut straight to the point: "Gu Qiong, how can you let me go? Tell me, as long as I can do it, I will do it."

Chen Ziran is tired enough from working every day, she needs to maintain a good mood and plenty of physical strength to support her and Chen An'an's home, and she really doesn't want to waste energy entangled with Gu Qiong.

"Aran..."

"Don't call me Aran, Gu Qiong, we are really not that close." Chen Ziran squatted down against the wall, "Look at me now." She pointed to her face, "You are so young and beautiful What kind of girl doesn't have it? Why bother to be angry with me."

"Aran, your face can be cured! The doctor said that as long as plastic surgery is done, it will return to its previous appearance in a few months! Even if you want to become more beautiful! As long as you want, you don't have to worry about money !"

Seeing her impatient, Chen Qiran just thought it was funny, "It's back to the way it was before, and then what? You won't be so opposed to my ugly face deep down in your heart, so you can harass me without any scruples. Is it?"

For a moment, Gu Qiong had a feeling of being seen through.

Although humble, she had to admit that she really thought so in her heart.

The current Chen Qiran, Gu Qiong was a little bit at a loss when he wanted to kiss her.

Chen Ziran has never hated anyone before, and Gu Qie was the first one. At this time, Gu Qie realized that her soft-spoken personality can be sharp-tongued, and every sentence hits Gu Qiong's unspeakable nasty discord. I was speechless.

Chen Ziran didn't feel that she was a stalker, she was just telling the truth.

In order to make Gu Qiong give up, she even digs her own wounds.The wound that had healed was cut open by her own hands, and she showed it to Gu Qiong bloody.

"Gu Qiong, do you still remember that you don't like me, you said it yourself."

"You said you liked my sister."

"You said you were with me just to get close to her."

"You said that if it wasn't for her, you wouldn't even give me a straight look."

Gu Qiong herself doesn't want to think of these hurtful words. In the past five years, she always remembers the love words she said to Chen Ziran when she got along with Chen Ziran. Chen Ziran looked at her warm eyes like water, so she was too confident. He thought that as long as he was willing to turn around, Chen Ziran would definitely accept her.

Now that Chen Ziran opened her wound and let Gu Qiong see the carrion in her heart, Gu Qiong began to face up to the knife he stabbed into Chen Ziran's heart.

A car accident is nothing, and a face is nothing. As long as people are alive, they can get through it. Is it possible to starve to death in the current world?

The knife wounds that really hurt people and made people unable to live were all stabbed in places where they could not be seen, and they were slowly tormented, and life was worse than death.

Chen Qiran was hurt so badly by Gu Qiong that life was worse than death, and she lived towards death again, but Gu Qiong forced her to die again.

Gu Qiong finally had to think of the night when they broke up, Chen Ziran hugged her and cried, begging her to do whatever she wanted, as long as she didn't leave her behind.

Tonight, the same plea, only it turned into asking her never to appear in her world again.

Gu Qiong couldn't utter all the sweet words he had prepared, so he could only speak dryly: "This time, I really like you."

"When did you say that you were not sincere?" Chen Yuran was tired of hearing her sincerity, "Gu Qiong, if you still feel sorry for me, just let me go, really, I don't want to lose my current happiness... "

"What happiness do you have now?" Gu Qi's anger surged up uncontrollably, and he retorted, "Living in the basement is happiness? Or picking up trash? You would rather feed that kid by picking up trash and let her suffer with you than Would you like to enjoy whatever you want by my side?"

With a sharp pain in his mouth, Chen Ziran bit his own tongue.

Her eyes widened, the depths of her pupils tightened, her heart twitched by Gu Qiong's words.

She looked up and looked at this woman who had given her heart.

The rehabilitation after the car accident was not as painful as Gu Qiong's words.

Being disfigured and being laughed at doesn't hurt as much as Gu Qiong's words.

The pain he has suffered in the past five years is not as painful as Gu Qiong's words.

The nightmare that kept her awake all night was not as painful as Gu Qiong's words.

Chen Ziran finally understood that the Gu Qiong in reality was a hundred times more ruthless than the Gu Qiong in the nightmare.

She finally couldn't help it, raised her hand, and slapped Gu Qiong hard on the face.

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