Eccentricity

Chen Qiran was not left-handed in the first place, since he could no longer use his right hand, except for the very necessary fine work, he deliberately used his left hand to complete the rest of the time, the slap on Gu Qiong's face was also done with his left hand, within a few seconds after the slap Inside, Gu Qiong's face was red and swollen, and Chen Ziran's hanging left hand was trembling uncontrollably.

The rough palm hit the delicate face, like rubbing it hard with sandpaper, half of Gu Qiong's face was numb, and his tongue touched his mouth, it was fishy, ​​and blood was spattered out of his mouth.

Half of her beautiful face was red, and her eyes were filled with mist. I looked pitiful. Except for Chen Ziran, no one dared to hit her so hard, and no one was willing to hit her so hard. .

If it was in Gu's house, that person's slap would be blocked by bodyguards who never left before it fell on Gu Qiong's face, and a series of smooth and smooth capture techniques would follow, making the person who wanted to slap Gu Qiong's face immobilized .

Gu Qiong could easily dodge this slap, but she changed her mind a second before she moved.

One is to bet that Chen Ziran will not be so unfeeling, that Chen Ziran still has love for her, that Chen Ziran will never be willing to give her a slap in the face.

The second is to plan Chen Yuran in his heart and deliberately slap her to make her feel guilty and give himself a chance to get close to her again.

Neither outcome was the right bet.

Chen Ziran's reaction was unexpected. After she slapped Gu Qiong, she seemed to be in more pain than Gu Qiong. The hand that hit him was trembling all the time, and her eyes were fixed on Gu Qiong. There was no guilt, no guilt. Love is nothing but shame and resentment.

Before Gu Qi realized that she had said too much, she had already started to panic, "Aran, I..."

Before finishing speaking, Chen Ziran's red eyes filled with tears blocked her back.

Chen Yuran's lips were trembling, and he didn't say anything for several times, but finally he spoke, only a few short words: "You go."

"Aran..."

"I'll never again..." Chen Yuran's fingers twitched, resisting the crying in his throat, and finished what he wanted to say word by word, "I don't want to see you again."

Chen Qiran didn't understand, she survived for so many years, her life got better and better, more and more sunny, every day was happier than the day before, how did such a good day become the life of an inferior person in Gu Qiong's mouth ?

What qualifications does Gu Qiong have to satirize Chen Qiran from above?Chen Qiran walked all the way, and never took a penny from Gu Qiong. Her life was earned bit by bit by her hands. She sweated so much, suffered so much, and was so tired that she returned home at night. Jia didn't even want to move his fingers, and most of his bones were sore on rainy days.No matter how difficult the days were, Chen Ziran gritted her teeth and forcibly survived. She always remembered to be happy, to love herself, to live optimistically, and to look forward...

What Chen Ziran wants is really simple, even simpler than most people in the world. She wants a home, and after meeting An An, she finally got one. Before Gu Qiong appeared, Chen Ziran had no idea about the life she had Not satisfied, on the contrary, she is very grateful and content, thanking God for his extrajudicial grace, after going around and around, she still has what she desires most.

Chen Ziran's life of doing his best and a life of happiness and contentment, when it comes to Gu Qiong's mouth, what else is there other than contempt and disdain?

Chen Ziran really wanted to ask her, why did you look down on me so much, why did you come back to me?

We are not people from the same world, but when we were young, we happened to cross each other at a point, wouldn't it be good to go away after that?Why do you go to the extra effort to turn back just to humiliate me and make my life worthless?

Chen Ziran was full of anger and resentment, and wanted to vent to Gu Qiong, her chest was heaving violently, and the stubbornness in her eyes made people feel distressed, she almost said it, the words reached the tip of her tongue, after thinking about it, she swallowed it back, and lowered her head , self-deprecatingly wry smile.

Forget it, what else is there to talk about with someone like Gu Qiong.

She has everything and doesn't care about anything. Even if she said it, she wouldn't understand it, and maybe she still regarded it as a joke in her heart.

Gu Qiong saw the expression Chen Ziran looked at her, from resentment to grievance, with tears in his eyes, as if he wanted to vent his emotions to her, but later, the moisture of grievance in his eyes gradually dissipated, and finally turned into despair.

All her emotions went towards Gu Qiong, but she didn't guess one thing right.

Gu Qiong looked at her, the distance between them was only two steps, but Gu Qiong had a deep feeling in his heart, Chen Ziran was pushed away by her.

The original distance between them, although not close, is not too far. As long as they find the right angle, Gu Qie can still pull her back with one hand. In just a few minutes, the distance between Chen Ziran and her is already far away. When she was out of reach, even with a long bamboo pole, it was Gu Qiong who pushed her away with his own hands.

Gu Qiong panicked and didn't know what to do.

She regretted it.

She made a mistake in the most critical step to restore Chen Ziran.

If time can be turned back, Gu Qiong is willing to go bankrupt to save it. Unfortunately, the most fair thing in the world is time. When it passes, it is gone. No matter how much you cover the sky with your hands, you can't bring back the time that has passed, and you can't take back what you have said. bad words.

"Gu Qiong, the best compensation you can give me is to disappear from my eyes. I don't want anything else."

Chen Ziran dropped this sentence, and walked away from her side without any hesitation.

Gu Qiong's heart shrank into a ball, he panicked and blocked Chen Ziran's way by instinct, but was pushed away by Chen Ziran.

A heavy manual laborer, her strength is much stronger than that of her gentle girlhood when she was in school. Gu Qi's heart hit the wall and hurt, but she couldn't care about it. Now she is focused on keeping Chen Ziran, even herself. She didn't know why she wanted to keep Chen Ziran, but there was a voice in her subconscious telling her that she couldn't let Chen Ziran go, if she left, she might never come back.

Gu Qi quickly stood up, took two big steps forward, and grabbed Chen Ziran's wrist.

Chen Yuran had suffered a loss in her hands once, how could there be a second time, he found a tricky angle and twisted away with his backhand, his rapid forward steps changed to running, with the sound of the wind whistling in his ears.

Gu Qiong also ran after her with long legs. At this time, what was dirty and smelly was out of her scope of thinking, and there was only one thought in her mind - she must not let Chen go alone.

So he simply opened his arms, directly wrapped Chen Yuran in his arms, and locked his arms tightly.

With arms like pincers, Chen Ziran kicked and beat him but couldn't break free. He usually has a mild temper like boiled water. He always smiles when he sees everyone. Even the landlord sister Wu said that she has never seen Xiao Chen so calm Now the person is full of anger, his eyes are forced to be red, and he can't kick or open, so he bites his teeth and hits his head!One mouth bit on the arm that trapped her, and the sharp teeth pierced through Gu Qiong's haute couture shirt and sank into her flesh. The mouth was filled with the smell of blood, which made people sick!

Gu Qiong frowned, took a low breath, and locked Chen Ziran's strength a little deeper.Chen Ziran bumped her head backwards, knocking Gu Qiong to the ground, even she fell down.

The two wrestled in a dark alley without any rules, breathing and snorting, and finally their eyes were red. Chen Ziran bit her and bumped into her, while growling, "Why do you look down on me? What right do you have to look down on me?" Me? I didn't take a penny from you, everything I got today was earned by myself, by myself!"

As soon as the words that were stuffed in her chest were uttered, it was like a flood had released the sluice. The pain she had suppressed for several years poured out, and the tears burst and fell on Gu Qiong's eyelids, as if Gu Qiong was also crying.

"Why are you coming back? What else are you trying to cheat from me?" Chen Ziran cracked his throat and wrestled with Gu Qiong.

It hurts, how can it hurt so much.The arm shackled by Gu Qiong hurt, the ribs pressed by her hurt, and the viscera under the ribs hurt even more from being torn and bitten. The pain made Chen Ziran feel like he was about to explode.

Her struggle became weaker and weaker, like a rabbit whose throat was bitten by a ferocious beast. At first she could kick her legs vigorously, begging to struggle to escape, but then the blood dried up and she remained motionless.

Gu Qiong was lying on the ground, with Chen Ziran trapped in her arms, her chest and back were stained, and she was doomed to scrap an expensive shirt, and her long hair had just been carefully cared for.

And Chen Ziran's short hair tied at the back of her head was forked and rough, tied at her neckline, like some kind of hard animal mane, very uncomfortable.

Gu Qiong didn't dare to let go.

It turned out not to be so.

In Gu Qiong's memory, Chen Qiran's hair was as soft and docile as her character, and it felt very good to the touch. Sometimes the two of them nestled together when they had nothing to do, and Gu Qiong could play with her hair all day long.

How could it be like this?

The bones of the person in his arms seemed to be thinner than before.

How much has Chen Ziran suffered all these years?

For the first time, Gu Qiong was finally willing to be tempted, thinking a little bit about Chen Ziran's life.

Chen Ziran was unmoved.

She was trapped on Gu Qiong's chest, she had no strength to struggle, she could only cry sideways, and the tears stained the shirt fabric on Gu Qiong's chest, accumulating a small piece of spreading dirt.

She murmured, not knowing whether to speak to Gu Qiang or to herself.

"Why are you pestering me again? What else do you want to use me for? Are you looking at someone next to me again? Are you going to pursue her by getting close to me?"

Chen Yuran bit her lips until blood oozes, "Gu Qiong, according to your conditions, just chase after me, can you stop hurting me? I..."

Chen Ziran gritted his teeth.

She wanted to say that I was in pain.

Fortunately, I didn't say it.

You can't show weakness in front of Gu Qiong, she won't love you, she will only laugh at you.

"Aran." Gu Qiong hugged her, his voice choked up, "I won't use you anymore."

She finally buried her face in Chen Ziran's messy hair.

It smells bad, sweat mixed with rancidity.

Gu Qiong's heart was strangely free from the initial resistance, only at this moment, it was full of distress.

I feel sorry for Chen Ziran's struggle to survive these years, and I feel sorry for how many people have looked at her, even Gu Qiong himself treated her so badly.

Gu Qiong's tears flowed down, "Aran, I won't lie to you again, I like you."

"You're talking nonsense, you don't like me, you're lying to me." Chen Ziran cried so hard that she couldn't even utter a sound, her shoulders twitched against Gu Qiong's chest, "It's not like this to like...it's not like this to like someone. "

When you like someone, you just want to see her well, to see her happy, Gu Qi never thought of making Chen Ziran well, she always only has herself in her heart.

Gu Qiong's chest was so painful that she couldn't breathe, she unconsciously let go of her hand, just because she didn't want to see the pain of Chen Ziran being trapped in her arms, and didn't want her to cry so painfully again.

As soon as she let go of her hand, Chen Ziran scrambled and escaped from her arms.

"You don't like me, you never liked me, you said it yourself!" Chen Ziran leaned against the wall, slowly slid on the ground, covering his face with his hands.

"I just want someone to really like me, is that wrong?"

She told herself not to cry, at least not to shed tears in front of this person, but the lacrimal glands didn't listen to her, she blocked her eyes so desperately, the tears still flowed out along her fingers, accumulated more and more, gathered in her On the thin, withered wrist joints that could be broken at any time, it flowed into a small river, and then landed on the concrete floor under his feet, forming a dirty puddle.

Shouldn't.

You shouldn't be crying.

Chen Ziran tried her best to shrink herself into a ball, her shoulders shook pitifully in the middle of the night, her internal organs seemed to be crushed by someone with an iron rod, the pain made her bones tremble.

What are you crying for?I am unwanted, my tears are worthless, and my pain is worthless.No one cares... who cares?Never before, and never again.

Even a funny ugly monster cries and the average person just laughs.

How fun, it turns out that monsters can cry too.

Why bother.

Why bother to humiliate yourself in front of the glamorous Miss Gu, why bother to cry in front of her!

Only those who are liked, loved, and cared about on the tip of their hearts all the time are qualified to cry, because there are people in the world who are distressed by these tears.

Chen Ziran is not qualified to cry.

No one cared about her, so who did she cry for?

"I want to too..." Don't cry.

"I also want to taste being liked..." Don't cry.

"What's it like..." Don't cry.

She pressed her palms tightly to her eyes until the eyeballs were about to explode.

She broke down in tears, thinking sadly, this sentence shouldn't be said, it's even more ridiculous.A person like her is neither human nor ghost, and is destined to be ridiculed by others. She can only maintain the last bit of her dignity in a lonely and careful way.

But Chen Ziran was in too much pain, as if pouring out a little depression would make the pain less painful.

Her shoulders twitched violently as if completely out of control, like the last withered yellow leaf rustling in the cold wind, she bit her lip, her body trembled so violently that she didn't make a sound.

This is the last bit of dignity in her heart.

Lips are bitten.

Like these two words is a sharp knife.

All these years, she has been cutting herself with this knife, and her heart is bloody. There is a big hole in her heart, which has been bleeding, and it has not healed even a day.

After having An An, Chen Ziran thought that the hole in his heart had healed, at least it wouldn't hurt when holding An An, but it didn't.

The hole was just pasted up with newspaper, and it would be pierced with a light poke, bleeding and air leakage again.

Chen Ziran has been thinking about it for many years, from the time he was sensible, until he was an adult, but he didn't understand that she was also raised by her father and mother, so why should her life be cheaper than other people's, and her father doesn't love her mother.

At the earliest time, she thought that she would act like a spoiled child without her younger sister, so she imitated her younger sister to be unreasonable, and was severely slapped by her mother. At that time, she was still young, at the age of six or seven years old, when she was still a woman of her mother, she slapped her with ten percent force. , and directly knocked Chen Ziran over.

The young Chen Ziran rolled all over his body, sat on the ground with his face covered in his hands, and was stunned for a long time, half of his face was numb.

It took a long, long time before I felt a burning pain and tasted blood.

The woman didn't say a word, walked up to Chen Ziran, and looked down at her condescendingly.

Under her contemptuous gaze, Chen Ziran was at a loss for what to do with embarrassment, his skinny little hands grabbed the hem of his clothes, his face flushed, he was so ashamed that he never dared to do anything out of the ordinary.

There was also the sixth birthday of myself and Chen Ziying that year. Chen Ziying had longevity noodles and boiled eggs. Liang Roujie stroked Chen Ziying's hair, smiled so kindly, and said, "Ziying is mother's little baby, obediently eat a bowl of longevity noodles." , after eating it, you can live a long life, and eat another red egg, so that my little baby will be safe and sound."

Chen Ziran was so greedy that he was drooling.

Later, Chen Ziying hid the red-skinned boiled egg and stuffed it for Liang Roujie where she couldn't see it, "Sister, eat quickly, after eating the red-skinned boiled egg, you will be healthy in the future."

She seemed to have stolen it, afraid of being discovered, and stuffed the egg into her mouth.

Boiled eggs are so delicious, she choked so much that she rolled her eyes and couldn't bear to spit it out.

It was discovered by Liang Roujie.

Liang Roujie dragged Chen Ziying aside, picked up an iron clothes hanger, twisted it straight, and lashed her arms and legs.

When he got a piece of meat, it hurt like a fire. Chen Ziran jumped and hid like a monkey in a circus, crying "I don't dare anymore" while crying.

Liang Roujie didn't feel any pity, she yelled and scolded: "I told you to steal my sister's things! You shameless little bastard!"

In the end, Liang Roujie stopped, not because she felt distressed, but because she was tired and sat on the sofa to rest, and she didn't forget to let Chen Ziran kneel on the cold and hard tiles to admit her mistake.

"I was wrong, I shouldn't have stolen from my sister."

"anything else?"

"Things that are not mine...can't have..."

You can't take things that aren't your own, this sentence, Chen Ziran has been remembering until now.

In the long years that followed, even though she was able to make money by herself, she never ate boiled eggs again.

I even saw the boiled egg sellers on the street, and the scars on the arms and legs that had faded away seemed to be still hurting.

She thought, probably because she was too ugly and stupid, far inferior to her sister, that's why her parents didn't like her.

Later, she found out that she was not born to her mother. No wonder she looked at her like an enemy.

She was originally an enemy, and she was the child of a third party who destroyed her family, so it was understandable that she hated herself.

Chen Ziran is also relieved, since this is the case, then she will work hard to improve herself, and in the future she will definitely meet someone who likes her, and that person will be the same as Chen Ziran, whether she looks ugly, has a dull personality, or is not good at words. Well, it's fine if you don't know how to make money and have no ambitions. As long as he likes Chen Ziran, Chen Ziran also likes him, and has always liked him.

He treats Chen Ziran twice as well, and Chen Ziran treats him ten times better.

Cooking for him is also fun, holding an umbrella for him is also happy, lying side by side on the bed with him in the dead of night, listening to his heartbeat, I feel happy and at ease.

He would call her wife, and she would call him husband.

They will have a child, just one, so that he can get all the love and affection from his parents, and he doesn't have to share with others, all the love belongs to him alone.

Chen Ziran will have a family.

A home that belongs only to her and cannot be taken away by anyone.

Her plan was perfect, and it was almost certain to be realized—if Gu Qiong hadn't suddenly appeared in front of her and broke into her life.

Gu Qiong said to Chen Ziran: "I like you."

Although she is a woman, although before her, Chen Ziran didn't even know that women can like women, and women can be with women.

But Chen Ziran's heart was warmed by her words.

Gu Qiong sang those sweet love songs for Chen Ziran.

So Chen Ziran thought, maybe they won't have children, but as long as they have Gu Qiong, they will be fine.

The home of her and Gu Qiong is already very good.

wow-

Like a mirror, the dream was suddenly smashed to pieces.

Fragments fell from head to face.

Chen Ziran foolishly plunged into the trap made of honey, and after being covered in bruises, he finally realized that some people's liking can be said casually.

Even the love that is said so softly can be a lie without emotion.

There was a throbbing pain in Gu Qiong's heart, as if someone had stabbed her heart with a knife, and turned her heart into a bloody mess. She half knelt beside Chen Ziran, holding her shoulders, letting her Leaning in her arms, she choked up and said, "You are not wrong, Aran, you are so good, you deserve to be loved by someone alone."

"There won't be." Chen Yuran's tears kept leaking from between her fingers, her shoulders were trembling in the dark night, and she whimpered in despair: "No... there will be no... no one will like me."

When she was good looking, no one wanted to like her, let alone she is ugly now?No one would like her, let alone talk about such a heavy and passionate word "love", Chen Ziran couldn't bear it.

She will never forget the first reaction when others saw her face, the eyes full of horror, and then turned to sympathy. Everyone outside, their horrified or sympathetic eyes reminded Chen Ziran and reminded her all the time. It's an ugly, scary monster.

Who likes a monster that rolls around in the garbage all year round?

There will be none.

So no one in the world will like her.

In the past, Chen Ziran still had a glimmer of expectation, but now even this expectation has become an unattainable luxury. Just thinking about it tonight, it seems that her life will be the price.

Gu Qiong's heart ached in pain, this person was so timid even when crying, he didn't dare to let out a sound, so he could only cover his mouth, pressing all the pain in his throat and heart.

She huddled herself into a ball, but she was still shaking like a frozen sparrow in the snow.

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