[Full-time master] Take dreams as horses

When a person likes another person and wants to be with him, why can't it be called love?

"Everyone said that falling in love affects learning and affects the future. Oh my God, love has taken the blame for love? Tell me how innocent love is. People have no self-control, don't know priorities, and think about things when they are young. I don't know, these faults are all blamed on Ai, and I feel relaxed. If I were in love, I wouldn't do it.

"Why? Why should I be the only one to blame? What did love do wrong? It did nothing wrong. It is a kind of emotion that exists naturally in human beings. Many people write poems to praise and compose music. Praise, even some people spend their whole life pursuing it. If it is not good, then why should those people bother?

"Love is such a natural and beautiful thing. When it came to us, it was a scapegoat. It's like a game. It's always called electronic. But is it the game that's wrong? It's just a thing, a thing, and it's still Can you hold your head and force you not to read books and take exams?

"Our people always like to blame their own mistakes on inexplicable things, as if there is nothing wrong with throwing the pot like this, and they are pure and non-stick. Don't you think it's funny?"

Wang Jiexi didn't speak for a while.

"I don't blame you for saying this. Really, I fully understand your choice. Take myself as an example, I know very well that the reason why I can do what I want to do is that if I don't study, I will Playing games instead of studying is entirely because of the conditions provided by my family so that I have the capital to make such a choice. But not everyone is like this. Some people’s life is that they can’t make mistakes , Facing such a person, of course I can't tell him, 'Brother, you have to be brave enough to choose your own life, and don't be oppressed by those old ideas'. Distressed, but I have no other way, I can only say to them, study hard and work hard for the college entrance examination.

"I'm right now. I just made my debut. I still have time. If I don't win the championship this year, I can come back next year. So of course I am not qualified to tell you, 'Wang Jiexi, let's not break up. It's a big deal if I can't win the championship this year and come next year' ...I know how desperately you need this championship, and how afraid you are of missing it by one step. So I have no position to tell you not to break up with me, which is why I have always said before, you ask yourself, don't ask Me. It's useless for you to ask me, I can't make a choice for you, because this time, I'm not qualified to choose for you.

"I'm just very depressed, not for you, but for myself. Because I know that you and I are both victims under such a system. Because of the club's inhumane rules that do not allow dating, you are forced to To make choices you don't want to make, to be forced to suppress the urges you want to express in your heart. This thing itself is wrong, and I don't want you to be its victim, but I can't save you. This is what makes me most desperate , I know it makes you painful and sad, but I can't save you.

"So I'm just disappointed in myself, not being your hero in this environment.

"I'm very sorry."

The author has something to say:

This chapter and the next chapter should be the most important chapters of "Dreams as Horses", none of them.

Let me make a digression: it is really cold to fall into the river in winter. . . . . .

20. Chapter 20

What Qu Youyou said that day made Wang Jiexi think about it for a long time.

In the past, he always felt that Qu Youyou was childish and young, but when he thought about it carefully, he was not like that.Compared with her, he seems to be the one who needs to grow up.

Qu Youyou sees things very clearly.Maverick, but not the same as his maverick.

He remembered that night when Qu Youyou looked into his eyes and said "I'm sorry" to him seriously.

She is a person who is easy to empathize, easy to be sad or happy for others' emotions, sad or happy for others' experiences.

Wang Jiexi always felt that it was easy to hurt himself.Because it is too easy to be influenced by others, and it is too easy to grieve for the misery of others, it is too difficult to obtain real happiness in such a life.But it was also because of Qu Youyou's empathy that she felt his pain and struggle.

He is not a person who likes to show his emotions, but Qu Youyou relies on every minute and every second he spends with him, as if leaning on the surface of a mirror-like lake, he can easily feel the wind and grass above.

She was the first person who said to him "please be self-willed with me", and the first person who thought he needed to be "loved" and "cared for".Not to mention other people, even Wang Jiexi himself has never considered this issue in the past 20 years.

It seems that habit is a kind of thing that naturally exists in genes. The true needs of human beings have been ignored without mentioning for a long time, making everyone think that it never existed.

And now she apologized to him again, telling him that she was sorry that she couldn't save him in such a high-pressure environment.

He could feel her pain in saying that, as she had complained before about the lack of an education system that deprives children of the life that should belong to them.She felt the pain that even the person involved was not aware of, and finally collapsed in her own helplessness and powerlessness.

Regret, anger, she is not anyone's savior.

Back to his own question.

Did the love relationship with Qu Youyou really affect his state and that of Tiny Herb?

Wang Jiexi didn't think so.On the contrary, the relationship between the two of them allowed him to bounce back as soon as possible after the setbacks of the previous year, let go of things he shouldn't think about, and persevere.

So why is he hesitating?

In the final analysis, it was a desperate feeling that forced him to walk more cautiously.Even if he vaguely understands that the root of the problem is not the relationship between the two of them, considering various factors and the notions formed by the environment for a long time, he can't help but attribute the cause of the defeat to love, which has been taboo since childhood.

What Qu Youyou said is right, there is nothing wrong with love itself, it is people who are wrong.

And he and she are not the ones who will care about one and lose the other because of small losses. They will not delay training because of love, nor will they give up their goals and dreams because of love.

They all know that there is a shining trophy calling not far ahead, and the power called dream drives them forward, using dream as a horse, never stopping.

That being the case, why did he give up?

Being human is not to feel the suffering in the world. People praise the value of suffering too exaggeratedly, while ignoring the concern for the happiness and happiness of human beings themselves.

It shouldn't be like this.

Even if the social system exists, it is to provide people with a better and better quality of life.After economic development, through the progress of art and thought, that kind of human care tries to reach the inner level.

A sound system should not make people's lives more painful, and should not expect to teach life through suffering.Because pain is not the only way to reach the destination, it is just a journey station that may or may not be there, and those who can pass through it are naturally worthy of praise, but a society itself should not use it as a specimen and format.

Perhaps because he has lived in such an environment for a long time, he is used to what his parents and teachers said, "you can only be a master if you suffer hardships", and he is used to "you must work hard to get rewards."So those difficulties that should have been avoided have become a routine of life. People no longer try to avoid it, but let themselves get used to it.

It shouldn't be.

There must be something wrong.

There seemed to be an emotion surging in Wang Jiexi's heart, like an undercurrent.

Why did he give up the love, luck, and life he should have for those unnecessary things?

Perhaps it is the long-term suppression of himself that made him forget that he is also a human being, and he has the right to pursue the life he needs and wants.Those things that made him feel happy and happy are without evidence, so why should he give up?

Perhaps the general environment will not become better because of a person's actions, but at least, when he clearly knows right and wrong, he can try to take one more step towards being right.

He can fight against invisible pressures that shouldn't exist.

For a moment, just for a moment, the world is at least a little bit better for it.

That night Wang Jiexi didn't sleep all night, the first ray of sunlight fell into the window in the morning, he looked up, and saw a golden ball jumping out from behind the stratus clouds.Squinting his eyes, the other party seemed to be smiling and greeting him.

He met Qu Youyou at the entrance of the restaurant. The other party was sneezing, wrapped in a thick scarf and hat, his cheeks were flushed, and the cold from falling into the water had not yet dissipated.

Qu Youyou saw him and came up to say hello to him.

Wang Jiexi stood still in place, Qu Youyou was puzzled, and also stopped. The two stood on the steps, separated by a distance of a few feet, and looked at each other.

"I thought about it for a long time last night." Wang Jiexi said slowly, "I think you're right. Love is an instinct, an instinct, and it's not a bad thing. It shouldn't bear unwarranted charges."

Qu Youyou smiled, and took a step forward: "Yes, it shouldn't. But what should I do? I can't do anything."

"You said you can't save me, I understand. In this general environment, life is really difficult and difficult. But as an individual, at least we can try to make some changes. For example, not to compromise with it, such as to resist .”

"Are you sure? There is a price for resistance and awakening. Not only that, it also requires strength from within to maintain it. I don't tell everyone about awakening, because I can't ignore everyone's personal under the current conditions. It is selfish and nonsensical for the circumstances to persuade him to do things beyond his own ability.