[full-time master] bitter lovesickness

Even at his own home, Ye Xiu couldn't help but complain.Is it really the days of two bachelors?He searched the whole kitchen and found only one vegetable, a carrot.There is no onion, ginger and garlic, not to mention high-end condiments such as coriander.

Should be thankful and salt?Ye Xiu thought.

Just as Ye Xiu and Hao Mian were about to turn around and cut carrots, Ye Qiu, who had been sitting by the side in a daze, suddenly stood up. "Hey, wait a minute!" Snatching the knives over one after another, "Slicing into shreds, in a word!" Ye Xiu thought, this is really domineering, if the target is not a carrot that is about to dry The effect must be better.

"Shred."

"Let me tell you, even though I don't know how to cook, I am very good at knife skills. And you dare to use a knife casually? What if you cut your hands? If you sell me, you may not be able to afford your hands." !"

"...I think it's still possible to sell you. I believe Uncle Ye will pay enough money, and I won't be so stupid as to cut off my hand."

"That can't be done, you are my cash cow now."

"Cash cow?"

"Well, Xingxin's sponsor is Ning's Group, which is our family's business. My mother's surname is Ning, and their family is just such an only child. When she married into our family, she originally wanted to change her name to Ye's, but I At that time, Dad's career was on the rise, and the Ning family was really complicated, so he didn't change his name because he was afraid that the tree would attract wind."

"No wonder the entire team of Xingxin has a rich and willful feeling." Ye Xiu leaned against the kitchen door and looked at Ye Qiu, but a strange emotion suddenly rose in his heart.In his heart, Ye Qiu's image hasn't changed much over the years. He is a brother who likes to blow hair, is very simple, and sometimes even weak.

But now it is different.The Ye Qiu in front of him has a gentle temperament, always speaks tepidly, and his boyfriend is Max, very considerate.This was a brand new Ye Qiu that he had never seen before, and while he was amazed, there was a trace of bitterness in his heart.He really missed too much time, and he didn't even have time to witness the growth of his biological brother in the future.

Ye Xiu prepared a sufficient amount of noodles, fearing that the three big men would not eat enough. Sure enough, as he expected, Ye Qiu ate three bowls full. After eating, he still looked like he was nailed to the dining table like a statue.Ye Xiu called him for a long time before he regained his composure.With sparkling eyes, he said, "I haven't eaten noodles like this for a long time, and... the taste of your cooking is very similar to my... big brother."

Ye Huan's chopsticks also stopped immediately.

The atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly became deserted. Seeing that the expressions of the two people were not quite right, Ye Xiu quickly said, "There is only salt in this bowl of noodles. Is the master's cooking so simple and rude?" Ye Qiu looked at him. He glanced at it and smiled, "That's right, maybe it's my illusion, the noodles in the world generally have the same taste."

That smile was so forced that it made Ye Xiu's heart ache.

After eating, the heavy rain still didn't stop, so Ye Qiu persuaded him to stay here for one night, and Ye Qiu took him to the airport directly tomorrow, Ye Xiu saw that the heavy rain really had no intention of stopping, so he agreed and sat on the side Watching Ye Huan and Ye Qiu play chess.

To be honest, Ye Qiu's chess skills are not bad, but Ye's father is a master of this game. With decades of experience and experience, Ye Qiu was killed after 15 minutes and surrendered.

Ye Huan looked at Ye Xiu who was sitting obediently beside him, and said, "Xiao Ye, can you play chess?"

"I will go down."

"Go, chess, or military chess?"

"I know a little bit." Ye Huan was delighted when he heard that, "I'm still a master, come on, quickly replace your Brother Ye, playing chess with him feels like it's lowering my IQ." Ye Qiu smiled from the sidelines. Helpless, "Dad, am I that bad? Are you belittling me so much in front of Xiaoye?"

"If you ask Xiaoye to talk about his feelings about abusing vegetables in online games, you will know how I feel. Xiaoye, tell me, is there a difference in how you feel when you fight with those Gao Yingjie and Lu Hanwen, and when you fight with others in online games? big?"

"...This metaphor is really vivid. It doesn't matter, Brother Ye, if you transfer to Glory, your level must be high in online games."

It has no consoling effect at all!

Ye Xiu's chess skills are still good. When he was free from playing Glory, he would play a few games online, but he was only in a better state than Ye Qiu, and he lasted 10 minutes longer than Ye Qiu.But Ye Huan seemed very happy, so he forced him to play three more games.

Ye Xiu played very happily, not only because he hadn't played chess for a long time, but also because he couldn't remember how long he hadn't seen his father smile.In Ye Xiu's memory, Ye Huan has always been tough, serious, and unambiguous.He knew that Ye Huan liked chess, but in the first twenty years of his life, he never played chess with Ye Huan once.

The two of them get along with each other either in silence, or intense eye contact, and sometimes even quarrel.The relationship between their father and son has been rigid from the beginning to the end. Even if Ye Xiu tried to ease it in the end, there are too many things between the two of them. There are so many years, and Ye Xiu does not know his relationship. Back then when his father was in high spirits, Ye Huan didn't know about his son's ups and downs.

Ye Xiu never knew that his father could also be gentle, like every retired old man, raising flowers, teasing dogs, playing chess, and telling the younger generation about those war-torn days.

Regret overwhelmed him so unexpectedly.He looked back at his life for so many years, but found that the two most important people in his life had been absent.

Ye Xiu is also human.He also craves affection, craves a lot of things, he just tries to take them lightly.Because at this time, when some things in life hit hard, he can let go gently.Many injuries, they can't hurt those who have already cultivated a copper-skinned iron body in life, they can only stab those innocent people who have not been deeply involved in the world, let them touch those bumps after years Uneven marks will still feel pain.

Ye Huan was like this to Ye Xiu.The care that he never experienced when he was young makes Ye Xiu feel empty after many years, but maybe he has been living in a warm place like Jiangnan, and he is not so cold and hard when he is alive.Ye Xiu has always wanted to find a suitable time to apologize to his father, so that father and son can sit down and talk.

But there is no such opportunity.

The next day Ye Qiu sent him to the airport, but before he got off the car, Ye Qiu suddenly said, "Xiao Ye, can you leave me your phone number?"

Ye Xiu was a little embarrassed all of a sudden, "This is really not there."

Ye Qiu's expression suddenly became weird, "You don't have a mobile phone number?" Ye Xiu really wanted to hold up a sign to complain, "I really don't have one." But Ye Qiu didn't pursue it too much, but he was leaving again The □□ number.Before leaving, Ye Qiu formally thanked him.

Ye Xiu was a little confused.In fact, shouldn't it be him who said thank you?Otherwise, it must be drenched outside.When he was still Ye Xiu, he had never heard Ye Qiu say this word. Who knew that he had changed his identity by accident, but he had experienced everything.

After returning to Xingxin, Fang Rui called Ye Xiu away before turning on his computer.Fang Rui is now a tactical director, and has an independent office, but Ye Xiu doesn't quite understand Fang Rui's purpose for looking for him. He has been in normal condition recently, and there is nothing wrong with his silver equipment.

Fang Rui didn't seem to know what to say, but he scratched his hair a little annoyed and said, "Jiu'er, do you know why you haven't gotten along well with the team yet?"

When he said this, even Ye Xiu was a little dazed.This is also a question that he has been unable to understand for a long time. With his strength, no matter what, after six weeks of continuous training, he should have a good result, but the fact is that he is still in sync with the team. The rate is not high, and it is always particularly awkward to cooperate.

So he said very frankly, "I don't know. I don't know what's wrong."

Fang Rui glanced at him, and sighed vaguely, "Everyone on the team has seen this problem, except you. The problem is actually very simple, that is, you have been changing your style for this team. For example, if Yifan releases the ghost formation, you will immediately adjust your position. For example, if Xiaoan is in danger, you will definitely make small adjustments when using skills. Actually, this is completely unnecessary. The current situation This team is not like the...Ye Xiu era back then. Qiao Yifan, An Wenyi, Luo Ji, and even me back then were all immature and childish, so Ye Xiu back then needed To adjust his style, he needs to be a bomb disposal expert to make up for the various shortcomings of this team."

"But you are different. You have to trust your teammates. You are surrounded by the best ghosts, the best summoners, the best gunners, and the best priests. You don't need to change anything for them. You just need to be a simple main attacker who tears apart the opponent’s formation. We were not strong enough back then, so we never saw the true brilliance of God of War. At that time, we thought, wait for the next season, we will get sponsorship …Bring back One Autumn Leaf, let's work harder and become stronger, so that he can return to being the real battle god."

"The contract with Samsara has been negotiated, and I plan to give him a surprise. Chairman Feng originally planned to change the rules and shorten the time for professional players to come back...but who knows."

"We are all sorry. We were not strong enough at that time, so we have not been able to share anything for him, but you are different, you have enough unscrupulous capital. So, our trump card, you just need to rush forward alright."

Ye Xiu was a little taken aback.He didn't expect that there would be such a reason why he didn't get along well with the team, and he never knew that his team members would have such thoughts.He always felt that it was nothing. The changes he made were all for the team's victory, and he wasn't the only one doing it. Isn't it the same for Wang Jiexi and Han Wenqing?

But now a person jumped out and told him, you don't need to do that, you just need to be a brainless output, and when you are stunned and surprised, you are so moved.He couldn't explain that feeling clearly, but it was indeed very comfortable and warm.

Ye Xiu saw that Fang Rui seemed to want to touch his head, but he retracted his hand half way out, "You really look like him... both human and glory." The bright Fang Rui was shrouded in a faint shadow, looking at him with a smile on the corner of his lips, but the smile didn't reach his eyes, leaving only an inexplicable depth.

In Ye Xiu's impression, Fang Rui had always been energetic and a bit funny, but he was the kind of person who was very decisive and could afford to let go.But now Fang Rui is almost a bit Zhang Jiale, and Zhang Jiale can no longer be Zhang Jiale.Although Ye Xiu couldn't figure out the moment when Fang Rui's temperament changed drastically, he could tell that his death definitely had an impact on Fang Rui to some extent.

He prefers to look at the smiling one.

Every time Fang Rui saw Ye Jiu, he would feel a little dazed.Obviously, there was no similarity between the two of them, but Ye Jiu always had a familiar feeling, which made him think about Ye Xiu uncontrollably.

Fang Rui didn't cry for a long time after Ye Xiu died.He has always been a person who is very good at hiding his emotions, so he played games as if nothing had happened, and lived as if nothing had happened.But at that time he felt that he was going to die, he was different from Han Wenqing, he didn't have Han Wenqing's stubborn courage to admit death, and he was different from Zhang Jiale and Huang Shaotian, who had so many details about getting along with Ye Xiu, and also different Yu Yeqiu, he didn't have such a tough heart.

Fang Rui didn't understand himself.You don't have anything, how can you fall in love with someone?Falling in love with someone... who obviously looks like no other.

Love this thing.

It is freedom, it is gentle and gentle, when you meet it, you will know why you are alive.

What is the difference between man and other animals?Most people will tell you that people have a high IQ; a few people will say that people can walk upright; some academics will say that people can make tools independently.

That's all right.

But perhaps, the biggest difference between humans and animals is that humans can love.Different from the instinct of animals, different from all kinds of courtship among animals, not even out of desire, human love is the most complicated and the simplest.

As long as I sit by your side, I feel satisfied, even... as long as you live, that's enough.

But Fang Rui didn't even have this kind of satisfaction.So Fang Rui desperately wanted to forget him back then, he forced himself not to like him, he thought, time is the best thief, this is always okay.But he failed, he finally understood that some things, the more you want to forget, the more firmly you will remember.

So like a real idiot, Fang Rui took out all the locked things about Ye Xiu from under the bed and put them in the room. He was like a traveler standing against the wind and snow, Can't get in...but won't leave either.Ye Xiu is like a little sun hidden in his heart, but it is fading from the best heat.

So it becomes eternity.

Enter my lovesickness door, know my lovesickness.Those days and nights alone, want to get drunk but sober again.Suddenly I remembered the eight sufferings in the Buddha's verse: birth, old age, illness, death, parting from love, long-lasting grievances, unable to take it up, unable to let it go.He himself accounted for more than half.He's only been to Ye Xiu's tomb once, and he's not like Zhang Jiale's idiot looking for abuse who checks in every day. He just closed his eyes and raised his hand to walk around the two sunken characters.

"Ye Xiu... I seem to want to continue loving you."

Then he kissed it.Very cold, no temperature at all.But Fang Rui laughed at himself in his heart, this is the closest you get to him.

Fang Rui stared at Ye Jiu for a moment, then watched the boy approach him suddenly and hugged him gently.

For a moment, he seemed to lose the strength to break free.

But suddenly wept.

If he really is you in the sky, can you tell me, how are you doing over there, don't let me live... all thinking about you who left.

Obviously loving you is so painful, but I can still go on.

Because is you.