coward

The sunshine outside the window was warm on Li Xiluo's face, he frowned, staring at the ceiling of the small hotel in a daze.After a while, he buried his face in the pillow and rubbed it again and again, heaved a long sigh, lifted the quilt expressionlessly, pulled the sheet and went to the bathroom.

It was almost eleven o'clock when he finished packing and putting on his shoes and was about to go out to buy something.

He turned on the phone, and the overwhelming news kept ringing.

He sighed, turned around and threw himself on the bed, and opened WeChat to read one by one.

The one on the top is Xu Yitang, with just one sentence: [I'm done. ]

Even his sand sculpture emoji package is gone.

He typed a note and sent it to him: [What's wrong? ]

Xu Yitang directly sent him a video call.

"Fuck! Who are you stupid?" Li Xiluo saw a Meteor Garden with an explosive head as soon as he connected, and then the camera shook for a while, and focused on a picture with swollen eye sockets, sluggish eyes, and swollen eyes. Some blue face.

Li Xiluo raised her face from the pillow, a little in disbelief of Xu Yitang's appearance.

Xu Yitang didn't wear any clothes on his upper body, just sitting on the floor with his head blown up like this, shirtless.

"Fuck, what are you doing in Chinese New Year! Get up!"

Xu Yitang got up from the floor, tripped over something, and slipped on the floor again.Xu Yitang groaned, the screen flipped, and Li Xiluo's side was completely dark.

"Xu Yitang! Are you okay?"

There was no response, not even a sound.

Li Xiluo became anxious: "Xu Yitang! Xu Yitang! Fuck!"

Just when he was about to drop his phone, Xu Yitang said in a hoarse voice: "Don't shout, it's okay, kowtow, I'll slow down for a while."

"Damn it, you scared me. I thought you just fell right down and burped."

"Get out." Xu Yitang scratched his hair and leaned back against the bed.

"Hey, what happened to your face?"

"what."

"Ah fart, let me ask you what's going on!"

"I... went to find him yesterday."

"I can't forget him..."

After speaking, he laughed at himself.

Xu Yitang's voice was hoarse, mixed with a cold nasal sound, he buried his head in his arms, and his words were slurred.

"Why? I've liked him for three years, and someone just took him away?"

"Tell me...does he like me..."

At the end, Xu Yitang was so choked up that he couldn't speak, he wiped his face with his arm fiercely, touched the wound on his face, and trembled in pain again.

"I really... like him..."

Xu Yitang's voice trembled, he choked up, Li Xiluo threw his phone on the bed and could only see Xu Yitang's trembling shoulders from time to time.

He really didn't know how to persuade him, so he just listened to the video.

How can I persuade you about this kind of thing.

He lay on his back on the bed, listening to Xu Yitang yelling for a while, wanting to fight again with the shameless man who abducted his boyfriend, and feeling that he was a fool and a coward, and had to rush to find it.

Li Xiluo sighed.

He also met the boy Xu Yitang liked once or twice. At that time, he and Xu Yitang were still in the art training camp, and it was snowing. He asked for leave from school to visit Xu Yitang.

The boy didn't like to talk, and the little one nestled beside Xu Yitang.

On the night of seeing off the boy, Xu Yitang took Li Xiluo to drink, and talked about how good his boy was by himself, full of pride.

Xu Yitang started to save money on food and expenses, and he stopped being extravagant and bought gifts for his boy in different ways.Until one day he began to borrow Li Xiluo's cherry blossom eraser.

Li Xiluo:!

Only later did he know that the boy's family conditions were not good, and at that time Xu Yitang had already started thinking about giving him a better future.

Before the college entrance examination, Xu Yitang was still a young man, trying his best to get into a good university and give his boy a hope for the future.

Xu Yitang worked hard.

He was repeating the art he learned that year, nothing more ridiculous than that.

At first, he himself felt incredible, until he sat next to Li Xiluo.

Only then did the two of them know what it means to be the same person who has fallen into the world.

Hey, the two of them rented the same small hotel, and it was incredible that they would stay up late every night to draw sketches.

Sometimes I paint all night.My back hurts from sitting, and I get up and bounce when I doze off.Under the incandescent lamp, two tall and slender teenagers nestled on a small drawing bench and drew sketches with serious expressions. The charcoal pen brushed the paper to leave a good or bad movement.Sometimes the two of them will sketch each other, and when the painting is destroyed, they will laugh, point to each other to see their own appearance, and insult each other.

After laughing, tear it up and start again, it doesn't matter what you don't want to give up.

Li Xiluo would also think, it would be great if the relationship could be repeated like this.

He twitched the corners of his mouth lightly, with an unclear look in his eyes.

Over there, Xu Yitang had already fallen asleep. With his chicken nest head on his head, he obediently lay down on the bed and covered himself with a quilt. In the end, he didn't forget to say Happy New Year to Li Xiluo.

"Well, happy new year, sleep well, idiot."

Sometimes Li Xiluo felt that Xu Yitang was an adult anyway, and he was still like a child from time to time.

I was crying with you just now, and I can say goodbye to you after crying, saying that he didn't sleep last night and he wanted to sleep.

There is a kind of happiness in Xu Yitang, sometimes it can be said to be innocent, Li Xiluo can feel it, but can't understand it.

He was not born innocent.

That was too far away from him.

Just like a person who has lived in the mountains and forests for a long time suddenly comes to the world, and is grateful for the difference between himself and others, and sometimes wonders whether he has the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of the world.

A pool of old water, throwing a stone will splash circles of ripples, and it will return to calm after a while, and the ripples will not appear.

The stone sank to the bottom of the pool, never to be born.

Many times Li Xiluo felt that everything around him made him at a loss, he just walked forward without seeing any direction, as if he was alone in a deserted forest, the surroundings were cold and strange, and he was fascinated by it.Sometimes he feels that he is living in a crowded and lively world, surrounded by cheers and excitement, but no one is looking at him. He doesn't know whether it is because others can't see him but can only see the carnival in his own inner world, or because he himself He is not worthy of others' attention. He is crowded in the crowd, as if he is playing a game of life and death. He does not know if he wins. If he loses, he will definitely be pushed, trampled under his feet, and crushed to death.

There is a trapped beast in his heart, and he will also learn to make many expressions. He is used to performing anger, and he will get a moment of peace when he suppresses other people's voices. If he can't, he will subvert it in an even more angry roar.Most of the time, he would have a cold face, unable to guess what other people were thinking, so he would walk forward with a cold face, and he would always walk away.

But when he is quiet, lets go of the beast in his heart, and becomes his naughty boy, he will always be attracted by the hot young boys and girls around him. They have endless enthusiasm, and the childishness and innocence he craves .

Many times when he chatted with Xu Yitang, he would discover the differences between him and Xu Yitang one after another, and sometimes he would think that by relying on Xu Yitang, he might be able to get some emotions that he didn't have.

Who knew that Q's soft and cute innocence didn't touch a little bit, but he learned a lot of stupidity.

He rolled on the bed, picked up the quilt, rolled it up and threw it away.

What should be done?

It was already three o'clock, and Li Xiluo was lying on the bed and flicking on her phone.It is extremely boring to open a software and exit again.When he clicked on WeChat for the third time, he saw a small sunflower, which was particularly conspicuous among the lines of black text.

Looking again, it was sent by Li Qinghe.He opened it and saw that the time was seven o'clock in the morning.

Li Xiluo sighed.

He didn't wake up until after ten o'clock, and he heard Xu Yitang howl for a long time, and he was only able to see a ghost.

Li Xiluo clicked on the dialog box, and then deleted the input. He stared at the flickering input line and couldn't turn his head.

Finally, the phone "slapped" off his face.

"Hold!"

Li Xiluo rubbed her face and got up, and finally lay down on the bed again.

No, how do you reply to the WeChat that I haven't replied for several hours?

What does it mean to send out a small sunflower?

It's so cute...

In the end, he clicked on the emoticon library and searched for a long time before finding the little sunflower.

Send one here?

Just one.

No, I have to have three.

Ok.

In the afternoon, Li Qinghe's cell phone beside him vibrated, and when he opened it, Li Xiluo saw three identical little sunflowers.

Li Qinghe smiled, dawdled with his fingers on the dialog box for a long time, and returned a small cactus.

Over there, Li Xiluo quickly returned to a coconut tree.

The two of them had a great time playing, playing with those little plant expressions all over the place.

Li Xiluo: Do ​​you still do your homework in the afternoon?

Li Qinghe stared at the new WeChat message in a daze.

How?

Before he could reply, Li Xiluo sent another message.

Li Xiluo: Come out, at the door, I will take you to skateboard.

Li Qinghe's eyes widened instantly when he saw the news that popped up, and he quickly put on his shoes and ran out.

The iron door was exposed to the wind and sun, and Li Qinghe tripped while pulling it up, but he didn't understand where it was broken.

He pulled it one meter high and couldn't pull it up, so he crawled out.

He frowned at the hard-to-reach door.

"Is this door broken?"

Li Qinghe was just about to take a photo for his brother to see, when he felt something whispered behind his ear, the heat touched the back of Li Qinghe's neck while speaking, and he shrank his neck uncomfortably.

Li Qinghe turned his head, and Li Xiluo stood behind him with his skateboard slightly lowered.

Li Xiluo looked at Li Qinghe and curled her lips.

Li Qinghe also smiled, his eyes were crooked, and he looked very obedient.

"Let me see."

Li Xiluo gave the skateboard to Li Qinghe. He took a step forward, supported the left bottom of the iron door with both hands and pushed it up with a "click".

"The upper scroll is stuck."

Li Xiluo clapped his hands and raised his arms, put his arms around Li Qinghe's neck and abducted him.

The two went to the small basketball court where Li Qinghe saw Li Xiluo skateboarding for the first time.

"Do you want to watch me skate?" Li Xiluo raised an eyebrow.

"Think." Li Qinghe smiled all the way, nodded his head and uttered a soft crooked sound.

Li Xiluo was stunned for a moment, looking at Li Qinghe.

Look at the corners of his mouth. When he smiles, the corners of his mouth will curl up into a small curve.

very nice.

Li Xiluo thought.

Li Qinghe suddenly felt embarrassed when he looked at him, blinked his eyes, and lowered his head.

Li Qinghe felt that there was no whistling wind in his ears, so he hooked his hat and put it on.Li Xiluo's fingertips were very cold, and when they touched his right earlobe, he shivered instantly.

He looked up, and Li Xiluo had already stepped on the skateboard and flew close to the thin barbed wire.Leave a sentence: "Okay, look at me."

look at me.

Li Qinghe stared at Li Xiluo's back, the small piece of his right earlobe was very hot.

He said look at him.

He just kept looking at him.

Very obedient and persistent.

He just kept staring at the leaping figure.

The eyes are glued, and I look everywhere I go, and I can't tear them off.

He saw him jumping up from the springboard, exerting all his strength suddenly, jumping very high with the board, stepping on the board over the table tennis table, the skateboard lightly kissed the edge of the table tennis table, and finally being firmly stepped on by Li Xiluo.

Easy and casual.

He looked at Li Xiluo's thin and powerful waistline, his slender figure, and his hair fluttering casually with the rapid sliding, wild and tired.face, shoulders, back, waist, legs, hands, eyes, hair...

Li Qinghe felt that he was too greedy.

After flying two laps, Li Xiluo slowly skating around Li Qinghe, stepping on the skateboard carelessly.The circle around it is getting smaller and smaller, and finally it seems to be turning around him.Li Xiluo's clothes would rub against him from time to time.

Li Qinghe turned around to look for that wanton boy.When he turned around, Li Xiluo slid close to him, after several teasing, Li Qinghe blushed first.

He lowered his head, hid his ears in the hat, and rubbed against each other. He felt like laughing, a little embarrassed but very happy.

"Yo, are you hot? Or are you shy? You're blushing."

Li Xiluo is too bad, she only picks embarrassing words, which makes people bury their heads even lower.

"Qinghe, look at me." He said.

Li Qinghe looked up and saw Li Xiluo stopped in front of him, smiling with pretty lips, and even the end of his wide eyes were slightly hooked up.

Li Qinghe was very annoying, he always felt shy involuntarily, and he didn't know how to hide it.

Li Xiluo laughed softly, grabbed a handful of candy from his pocket and held it out in front of him: "Choose one."

Li Qinghe stared at the pile of candies, there were all kinds of candies, but they were all mint flavored.He blinked and looked at Li Xiluo.

"Don't know which one to choose?"

He laughed again.

"This." Li Qinghe laughed again when he heard him, and quickly took one out of a handful of candies.

Li Qinghe was very happy, what he took was the kind of candy that Li Xiluo gave him before.

Same as that day.

The same.

"it is good."

Li Xiluo took back the mint from his hand, tore open the package and threw it into his mouth.The corners of the mouth hooked up even more.

Li Qinghe looked at him blankly.

Not...for...him?

Li Xiluo laughed out loud: "Okay, I won't tease you anymore."

He took Li Qinghe's hand and put the handful of candies in Li Qinghe's hand.

"Give you all."

He fumbled in his pocket again, and took out another handful.

"It's all yours."

"Give it all to me?"

"Well, I'll give you all, all, all."

Li Qinghe just stood in the harsh winter with a bunch of candies in his hands.

The setting sun climbed westward, and the warm yellow light fell on the candy paper in Li Qinghe's hand, shining golden light.

Warm yellow, gentle, fiery.

He held the handful of sugar and put it away slightly in his arms, like holding the sunset in his arms.

Li Xiluo couldn't help smiling when he saw his little movements.

Li Qinghe also laughed.

When he smiles, he wants to laugh.

The young man's heart is simple and fierce, rushing wildly, with all his heart, he wants to give it to you.

They looked at each other and smiled in the sunset.

Li Qinghe twisted the sugar paper, put it in front of his eyes and watched the sky with Li Xiluo, the treetops in the distance, the sparrows on the wires, and the sunset in the sky through the sugar paper in the quiet, afterglow of the setting sun.

Childish and sincere.

Tenderness is better.

The author has something to say: "It's all for you."

"It's all yours."

Give it if you want it, and give it if you don’t.

as long as i have.