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At first, Li Qinghe's eyes were widened by the shock, but when the kiss gradually became violent and turbulent and deep, he reacted violently, his whole body trembling uncontrollably, Suddenly, he stretched out his hand and pushed Li Xiluo away.

no solution anymore.

Li Xiluo pressed him into his arms again.The right hand pinched Li Qinghe's chin forcefully, and the other hand wrapped around the back of Li Qinghe's head.

Step back.

Step by step.

His back was against a cold wall, and in front of him was a fiery abyss.

All struggles turned into whimpers trembling in their mouths.

Until Li Xiluo tasted a bit of saltiness.

Li Xiluo's heart trembled.

He let go, and hugged her tightly in his arms to comfort him.

"sorry."

"sorry."

Li Xiluo apologized over and over again.

He pressed his forehead against Li Qinghe's, and the hot and heavy breathing of the two intertwined in the air, ambiguously covering the entire snow field.

Li Qinghe lowered his head, his expression was sluggish, and there were tears in the corners of his eyes.

"Qinghe, look at me."

"look at me."

Li Qinghe raised his head slowly, not looking at him.

"Like me, okay?"

"OK?"

Li Xiluo watched him dodge, her tone was a little eager.

"Qinghe, may I... like you."

Li Qinghe cried again.

"Don't cry, dear, don't cry, I won't ask, I won't ask."

It took a long time before Li Xiluo heard a low sound, touching his chest and resonating with him.

"You like... a boy?"

His expression was too painful, his eyes were full of grievances, his voice trembled and couldn't reach the ground, but he was held in his heart by another person.

"Yes, I like you, very much."

"Can you say that again."

"I like you."

"You fucking say it again!"

"Li Qinghe, I like you! All your love has fallen into my heart, it has taken root and sprouted, and it has long been wrapped around my whole heart... Don't fucking try to run away! You are not allowed to run away!"

The stars fell and were inserted into Li Qinghe's palm.

The young man's lips are beautiful, he has every right to be pampered to spit out all arrogant words, but he will never express his admiration for him.

At least today, before this moment, Li Qinghe never thought about it.

He pulled Li Xiluo down by the collar, and kissed her hard.

He indulged in another person's softness and went on a rampage.

The rust spread in the mouth, and no one could escape at this moment.

……

"Are we...perverts?"

"No."

……

"Let's talk about who you like."

"I like you, I like Li Qinghe."

……

Tears rolled down the cheeks, stars fell to the bottom of the lake.

Contraindicated, hot, wet, painful.

With all the determination and meaninglessness of young people.

……

The cub was in a daze again.

It's always been like this since I went out to play the day before yesterday.

Call him to eat have to call several times.

Really become a little deaf?

Wu Guang felt something was wrong.

If the child doesn't tell, he really doesn't know.

Wu Guang knocked on the door of the cubicle and entered. Li Qinghe was reading the test paper with a pen in his mouth.

Wu Guang strode over, sat next to the person, hooked the boy's neck and shook his head lightly with his hand.

Like when I was a child.

"elder brother."

"Ah."

"Tell me what happened these two days."

"Nothing."

Wu Guang aligned Li Qing and the stacks of books and papers on the table.

"Coax your brother, I don't know what you are like?"

Li Qinghe kicked his brother's legs and scratched them with his toes.

"Are you in love?"

His brother's fierce words made Li Qinghe tremble with fright.

"No."

The sound is small like humming.

"Tsk."

"Little cub grows up, and dares to lie to his brother."

Wu Guang put his arms around Li Qinghe, not like a brother.

"That's why you didn't catch up?"

"Oh, no, bro, stop guessing."

Li Qinghe took off his brother's arm.

"Let's talk about it, it's not like I won't let you talk about it."

Wu Guang had a faint smell of smoke all the year round, Li Qinghe was hugged by his brother, and his thoughts suddenly turned around.

Li Xiluo also smelled good of cigarettes.

"Brother, if I..."

Li Qinghe came back to his senses suddenly, realizing that he almost said something.

Fortunately, his brother didn't care, so he asked him to clean up and eat quickly.

Li Qinghe smiled, but sighed inwardly.

In the past two days, Li Qinghe was indeed in a daze easily.

What he never dared to think about became a reality, which made him unable to recover for a long time.

Thinking of that day, thinking of Li Xiluo, my heart couldn't help beating wildly.

He is in love.

People who like him also like him.

The taboo's bitter underside is also covered with a layer of sweetness.

……

"I'm in love! Ah-haha!"

Li Xiluo tossed and turned on the bed for a long time, not thinking of who to tell.

Xu Yitang can't do it, that idiot might still be sad, neither can those in Class [-], they don't have a clue, Li Xiluo is afraid of scaring them.

Gee.

"I'm so sad."

Finally, he went to the bathroom to go to the toilet. When he was washing his hands, he looked up and saw his broken lip in the mirror, which was still covered with small scabs.

Thinking of Li Qinghe's feeling of posting it up that day, he laughed again.

"Damn, my boyfriend is really fierce."

In fact, his boyfriend doesn't know anything, he gnaws upwards when he comes up, his teeth hit his lips, hard and soft, no skill can stop the love and hotness in his heart.

In the end, the little boy blushed.

"Fuck, it's great."

Now that it's all over, Li Xiluo is indescribably happy to have found the little boyfriend.

In the past two days, I coaxed the sticky person to send him a message and call him.

He robs and plunders people to admit everything that should be recognized and what should not be recognized, and no one can try to hide it.

When they met again, they were pure like little boys.

The snow has almost melted, and the road is wet when walking, and the lights at night are dazzling.

The two walked side by side, with their hats and masks tightly covered, and they didn't put their hands in their pockets. There was a distance of two or three punches between them, and they didn't say a word.

Simply come out and press the road.

The two of them have never been in a relationship before, so it feels awkward to find a topic now.

The two hands next to each other shook again and again, tentatively approaching, but in the end they didn't touch at all.

Li Xiluo squeezed the cigarette in his pocket through his clothes with his left hand, and went to hold Li Qinghe's hand stiffly with his right hand.

As soon as their fingertips touched, both of them flinched in shock at the coldness of each other's fingertips.

Li Xiluo grabbed Li Qinghe's left hand violently.

Li Xiluo took a breath: "Your hands are so cold."

"……Um."

"..."

Li Xiluo stuck her fingers into her hair and scratched.

Damn, he usually has a poor mouth, and when he has nothing to do, he always says a few flirty words to make people blush, but now he can't say a word by himself.

Promise!

He took Li Qinghe's hand and put it in his pocket.

He turned around and clasped his fingers.

Both hands were in the same pocket, warm.

Thinking of the awkwardness between the two of them just now, Li Xiluo couldn't help laughing.

The heartbeats of the two trembled together, passing along the intersecting hands.

The two started laughing on the deserted street.

At first, I was a little embarrassed to hold back my laughter, but then I couldn't stop laughing because of the other party.

"Don't laugh."

"Obviously you laughed first!"

Wearing a mask, you can't see your face, but you can clearly see each other's smiling eyes.

Li Xiluo looked at the young man, he saw no one else but himself.

The boy's eyes were smiling, and he was very close to him at the moment, with his head slightly lowered, leaning into his arms.

Li Xiluo's heart was fascinated for a moment, he hooked Li Qinghe's neck with his left hand to pull him over, and gently stuck it to Li Qinghe's lips through the mask.

Although the sense of touch was not obvious, Li Xiluo's heart trembled.

Li Qinghe blinked and lowered his head.

"I miss you." Li Xiluo said suddenly, and he took out their hands and pressed them to their faces.

Li Qinghe bit his lip and looked at the shoes on his feet.

Li Xiluo tilted her head to see that he didn't speak, and squeezed Li Qinghe's hand maliciously: "Tell me quickly, do you miss me?"

"..."

"If you don't tell me, I'll kiss you again."

Li Xiluo stared and squeezed Li Qinghe's fingers.

"...Thinking about it." Li Qinghe glanced at him and whispered.

"miss who?"

The hands underneath were dishonest, pinching Li Qinghe's fingertips one by one.

Li Qinghe felt that every time his fingertips were pinched, it was like an electric current ran along his fingers to his heart.

"Miss you."

he said softly.

"It's almost there!"

Li Qinghe felt the other party's tightening hand.

Finally, the two hands were tightly held together.

Two or three people came across, all looking at them.

Passing by them, there is unstoppable horror and discussion behind them.

Li Xiluo smiled wryly, holding Li Qinghe's hand back slightly.

He closed his hands in palms.

Li Qinghe retracted his hands slightly, and clenched Li Xiluo's fingers again.

As before, fingers clasped together.

The bones of the ten fingers are distinct, and they are firm and stubborn when they are held together, but the palm is tightly grasping the softness and warmth of the other party.

The old street lamps on the street flashed a cold white light, and behind them was a ruined broken building, the snow melted in the cracks, facing the coldness of the night, crawling again in the dark corner.

……

The few people just now had already left.

Li Xiluo pulled Li Qinghe to stand still.

He looked at the boy's drooping eyes, the thick eyelashes were not curled at all, and they covered the eyes straight.

He bent down slightly, put his forehead against Li Qinghe's, and said, "Are you afraid?"

Li Qinghe rubbed against his forehead lightly: "I'm not afraid."

There is no one on the street, and the old street lamps are faintly emitting a cold light.

The sycamore tree is dry and thin, with two or three dead branches swaying and standing in the early spring of a small northern town.

Downstairs, on the dark and humid street, two teenagers kissed lightly through masks under the plane tree.

……

"What are you doing?!" Li Qinghe glared at him.

The small cubicle is not soundproof, and the two of them dare not speak too loudly.

Li Xiluo is so inhuman, he was writing a test paper, so he rubbed against Li Qinghe's neck with the tip of his nose, was pushed away and stuck on it.

"Sit down."

"Sit down."

"obedient."

"I'm obedient, I only listen to what you say."

"I'm taking an exam."

"Take a test."

"You sit down!"

"I'm sitting down!"

"..."

Well, this went around and never got around it.

"Then go and put on your mask!"

"Why, we are at home."

Li Qinghe ignored him, took out a new mask and grabbed Li Xiluo's collar to put it on for him.

"My mouth isn't healed yet." Li Xiluo played tricks and whispered in Li Qinghe's ear on purpose.

"..."

"You bit...it hurts so much." Li Xiluo hung her chin on Li Qinghe's shoulder, tilted her head, and the sound of her breath entered Li Qinghe's ear.

"But..." Li Xiluo hugged Li Qinghe's waist from behind, and paused:

"Your lips are so soft."

Li Xiluo was so mean, she deliberately buried her head in Li Qinghe's neck and rubbed it.

The long hair fell on Li Qinghe's neck, it was a bit cold and... very soft.

"Qinghe, can I... kiss you."

Li Qinghe pushed his head away: "No...you, you haven't done your homework today."

"Then if I do my homework, will I be rewarded?"

"Do your homework first!" Li Qinghe pulled a few pieces of straw paper and patted them in front of him.

"Qinghe, your ears are red." Li Xiluo looked at Li Qinghe.

"..."

"When you're shy, your cheeks will turn red, the tips of your ears will turn red, and your earlobes will turn red." He deliberately approached Li Qinghe.

"Where do you turn red when you are angry?"

"Your face will turn red!"

"..."

"Write your homework!"

"you……"

"If you dare to speak again, I'll kick you out!" Li Qinghe tidied up the books on the table, separating them tightly with gold examination papers.

"I haven't finished talking yet, please ignore me, my boyfriend said that there will be rewards for finishing homework!" Li Xiluo tugged to the sky.

"Keep your fucking voice down!" Li Qinghe patted him with a book.

"Damn, did you curse someone?"

"..."

"I thought you never swear." Li Xiluo pushed away the stack of books between them, and covered Li Qinghe's paper with his hand.

"I was just thinking about how to confess my love that day, but I didn't pay attention. When I got home and thought about it, I thought I heard it wrong!"

Li Qinghe ignored him, pulled his handcuffs away and continued writing.

Li Xiluo looked at the young man writing the question with downcast eyes, and a warm current surged in his heart.He looked at Li Qinghe fixedly, and said seriously: "Qinghe, thank you."

Li Qinghe put down his pen, took Li Xiluo's left hand, bowed his head, and kissed him lightly.

Li Xiluo stared at him blankly, but didn't take back his hand. He opened his mouth slightly, but he didn't say anything in the end.

Heart pounding in chest.

Time stands still and is stretched infinitely.

He knew what that meant.

They don't have to face those worldliness and prejudices.

It's just that they can only be two irrelevant people forever.

I can't pick my boy what he likes at mealtime.

My boys can only pretend to be ordinary friends when they meet in the hallway.

wherever there are people,

I can't get too close to him.

I can't hold his hand.

I can't kiss him.

I can't tell people I like him and he's a boy like me.

I can't marry him.

I can't have our kids with him.

Even I don't have any reason to give him a future with me.

I want to be with him.

But we must be hanged under the eyes of the world, twisted and covered in dark places, corners, hidden, uninhabited crevices.

Reality will tear me apart, and my boy will be as bloody as I am.

I like him and I want to give him a future.

He likes me, he is willing to go to the future with me.

fortunately--

My boy is brave, stubborn and serious.

The author has something to say: Li Xiluo: "Why am I blushing when you are angry?"

Li Qinghe: "Slap."

Author: "Pretty."

? (Sunflowers today.)

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