coward

The red rope on Li Qinghe's wrist was broken.

They had crossed several streets before he found out.

Brother Cen searched with him for four hours.

He followed behind Li Xiluo, seeing him anxiously looking for him, he suddenly felt tired, the kind of tiredness that his body was sunken in the small sofa, and he couldn't even pull it up.

He called him: "Brother Cen," his voice was hoarse, and the bottle of mineral water in his hand was crushed and deformed, "Don't look for it."

Li Xiluo pinched his ears, "Look again."

He led Li Qinghe and looked for them in the messy streets. The two of them were bumped on the shoulders countless times.

The uncle cleaner watched the two children search for it all afternoon, and seeing that it was getting dark, he couldn't help but ask, "My child, what are you looking for?"

"Red rope, a red rope, with a small green gourd hanging on it."

Of course, the uncle has never seen or seen it.

The setting sun cast a heavy cloud over the sky, leaving the world in darkness.

Li Qinghe squeezed his brother Cen's fingers, "Don't look for it, don't want it." He lowered his head, his eyelashes fluttering.

Li Xiluo stopped and knocked Li Qinghe with his head, "Look at me."

Li Qinghe looked up at him.

"A liar." After speaking, he slapped Li Qinghe again, it hurt so much.

He himself said no to the things he had been wearing for more than ten years.

After kneading, rub it again, "Does it hurt?"

Li Qinghe shook his head.

Suddenly Li Xiluo laughed, "Wait! Let's see how powerful you are!"

The next moment, the gourd pendant was placed in front of Li Qinghe.

Picked it up from the trash can next to it.

Li Qinghe opened his eyes wide, "You..."

"Is your man amazing?"

Li Qinghe was speechless.

The red string of the pendant is too old, it has been replaced once before, after all, it cannot stand the tempering of the years.

The red rope was opened from the joint again, and several places had been worn down to a fine fluff. The red rope had been kicked from nowhere, and it was already filthy.

I can't wear it anymore.

Li Xiluo kissed the corner of Li Qinghe's eyes, "Let's get a new one, a new one! It's strong!" He was coaxing people in a hurry, and his words didn't make sense.

Li Qinghe smiled, the corners of his eyes were still red, his heart was burned by his boyfriend's silly and heartwarming words.

He reached out to hug Li Xiluo, kissed his chin, hooked his neck and kissed the corner of his mouth.

He felt the person in front of him lower his head slightly, following his movements.

He kissed lightly, imitating Li Xiluo, trying to touch in his softness.

The person in front of him was breathing more and more quickly, and when he was pressed against the wall and hugged in his arms and kissed fiercely, his panting became even more unbearable.

Li Xiluo took Li Qinghe's hand, and kissed where the little green pendant used to be.

Suddenly he knelt down on one knee and took something out of his pocket, which startled Li Qinghe, "What are you doing!" Li Qinghe said under his breath.

Li Xiluo looked at Li Qinghe's appearance, and thought it was too funny, "No one," he was still kneeling alone, laughing irritably, "What do you think I want to do?"

"Who knows! You...you get up quickly! Throw me to death!"

Li Xiluo smiled with gentle eyes.He took out a small black rubber band from his pocket, and put it on Li Qinghe's left wrist lightly, solemnly and piously.

Li Qinghe was startled.

"My boyfriend is very poor, and he doesn't have a ring." Li Xiluo said slowly, with a gentle voice that was not in front of others, "Just a small rubber band, can I wear it?" He asked lightly, and even chose She lowered her eyebrows, but her hands tightened, and she squeezed Li Qinghe's hand into her palm.

Li Qinghe stared at him blankly. This person, who was always above his eye level, was kneeling alone in front of him at this moment, with gentle eyebrows and eyes, and looked up.

Li Qinghe's world is full of fog.

Li Xiluo shook the corner of Li Qinghe's clothes, "Can you get up boyfriend? Your man's feet are numb." He said aggrieved, but with a smile in his eyes.

"Get up." Li Qing and Weng Weng said something, and went to pull him.

"Yo, are you crying?" Li Xiluo was so mean, she couldn't let her go.

He gently wiped away the tears from the corners of Li Qinghe's eyes, "Don't cry, my heart hurts when I cry."

"Don't you have to tie your hair long ago?"

"I don't know when to put one in my trouser pocket."

"Oh." Li Qinghe tugged at the little rubber band, still speaking hoarsely.

Li Xiluo wrapped Li Qinghe into his arms, took his hand, and kissed the little rubber band, "Can you wrap it up? Use mine."

Li Qinghe didn't answer him, and muttered in a low voice: "Who else is wearing a small rubber band?"

"Hey, there are a lot of men wearing rubber bands!"

"All right?" he asked.

Li Qinghe gently stroked the small black rubber band with his fingers, and the corners of his mouth curled up.

As the setting sun sank, two teenagers walked side by side in the old and dark street.

"When you miss your mother, why don't you think of me?" He asked with a smile, his eyes fell on him, dispelling thousands of cold silences.

He didn't answer, bent his eyes, pinched his fingertips, "Go home, boyfriend."

The small red rope pendant broke, and the past that had torn him for more than ten years was torn apart by the pain, and a small black rubber band was wrapped around his wrist, binding him tightly.

This little rubber band is another coward's chain, gently wrapping around another coward's wrist, wrapping him, locking him, making him think of himself, of himself.

Don't try to run, you lock me up, and I'll put you on too.

I am alive when you love me.

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Children are pretty good most of the time, but if they really want to do something, no one can stop them.

Li Qinghe got a tattoo.

The day after he put on the little rubber band.

I secretly got the tattoo myself, and the two brothers didn't tell anyone.

When someone lifted up his clothes to look at him, his eyes turned red instantly.

He has that evening tattooed on his body.

On the back waist, the longest scar was patterned along the lines into the knife in the dark alley, and finally disappeared in the afterglow of the setting sun.

Below the collarbone, there are two strings of numbers.

20140916

20191219

One is the day when brother picked him up, and the other is the day when Li Xiluo picked him up.

Every number is his rebirth, and every string of meanings is proof that he is loved.

He carved them into his skin, into his blood.

Li Xiluo didn't say a word, since then he also has a tattoo on his body.

Left rib, at the second root.

He tattooed a gray sunflower closest to his heart.

Shriveled, thin, broken, bent over, and full of pride, it was just imprinted on his heart.

I kiss your tattoo and feel my soul beat every time.

You carve me into your blood, from now on I will be attached to your life forever.

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On the day Li Qinghe started school, neither Li Xiluo nor his brother.

The three of them tacitly agreed.

He was sitting in the car by himself, holding the phone tightly in his hand, without looking at it.

Kilometers change little by little, shortening and lengthening.

It's September, but I still think about summer.

I missed him, the moment I got in the car.

………………

It has been more than half a month, both of them have started school, and they have to call every day.

Li Qing got along well with everyone in the dormitory, and there was never any awkwardness.

"Hey, Qinghe, who do you call all day long? It's quite mysterious!" As soon as the roommate finished talking, several other people started to make trouble.

Before Li Qinghe could answer, Li Xiluo responded, "I'm asking you, who are you calling?"

"Follow the person." Li Qinghe dropped the three words and went out after closing the door with his bag on his back.

Li Xiluo laughed happily on the phone, "Does anyone know that your date is a man?"

Li Qinghe also smiled, "I know, I knew it on the first day of school."

Li Xiluo was really shocked, "Then why did you tell people?"

"Qi Si asked me to ask for my sister's WeChat account! I definitely have to say it!" Li Qinghe said in a raised voice, but he was quite angry at first, but actually he was holding back a laugh.

The kid turned bad and wanted to make trouble with his boyfriend.

"Damn it! Fuck him! What the hell I didn't agree to!" Li Xiluo kicked the footbasin, spilled the footwashing water all over the floor, and was beaten by several people in the dormitory.

He didn't really beat him up, everyone knew that he had a petite partner.

Several people were laughing and laughing, as if they had returned to Person Y 412 for a moment.

"Hey, let's not talk about it, there is a meeting, a meeting, and another meeting!" Li Xiluo ran up the steps.

"Well, bye, remember to mute the phone."

"Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm)-bye bye squeamish."

"Goodbye old partner."

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Gu Yiwei posted a profile photo of his brother in the group, and immediately withdrew it. Zhou Cong still didn't chase him. Zhao Xin's little girl had a match today, and Sun Ming and Sun Ming had a fight. I started Tik Tok, and there are still a lot of fans. Lao Zhang is running around as always. Mr. Yuan took pictures of Mrs. Zhang’s dishes, and there are still comments below. Chen Jingyue became their monitor. Love, enough to make people miss.

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"Damn it, I'm fed up! This old godmother fried rice! It's not delicious at all!" In the video, Li Xiluo was pawing at the fried rice and was busy spraying it.

"Then you enjoy eating too." Li Qinghe laughed at him.

"Hungry~ I'm so hungry, today's class is full."

"Hey, I'm playing video with my little one again." Li Xi flashed past a boy behind him, but he didn't see his face.

"Yes! Be envious." Li Xiluo raised an eyebrow at him.

"Damn! Beat him up! Let him have a look!" The dormitory people rushed forward.

When a group of people broke out, Li Qinghe laughed at him, "Why are you so indebted, no wonder Yang Hao wanted to beat you up."

"That's right, I'm so proud!" Li Xiluo raised her chin and looked at his little boyfriend, who was quite handsome.

The handsome guy thinks so too.

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"Have you finished writing your afterthought?"

"Soon." Li Qinghe didn't lift his head.

Believe him.

"Does your hand hurt?" Li Xiluo asked softly, it was even more uncomfortable if you asked.

During the college entrance examination, Li Xiluo had to rub Li Qinghe's wrists after every exam.

The injured hand will shake after writing too much, it will be cold in winter, and it will hurt on cloudy days.

They are so far away that they cannot be rubbed.

"It doesn't hurt anymore." Li Qinghe said, raising his head and bending his eyes at his old partner.

"It's almost winter." Li Xiluo said.

"Ah."

"It's very cold over there in winter."

"We are not far away." Li Qinghe smiled.

"I say cold is cold."

"Well, it's cold." He coaxed him, "Then you wear long johns."

"Damn, wear it! Remember." Li Xiluo laughed angrily, and gave Li Qinghe a headache through the screen.

Both of them laughed.

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"Fuck! Why are there so many boys in this school! There are boys everywhere! Why do we only have more girls in art, and there are not many boys in a class!"

Li Xiluo complained about his school and talked a lot.

"We're fine." Li Qinghe said.

"Hey, what did you eat this morning?"

"steamed stuffed bun."

"anything else?"

"Black rice porridge."

"Try oatmeal with milk tomorrow."

"okay."

"Goodbye, little squeamish."

"Goodbye old partner."

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"Are you all right? Just... you and your parents."

They had a meal with Li Xiluo's parents before school started, and they were silent the whole time.

When it comes to certain topics, the child still said fiercely: I pull the person in my hand, and no one wants to move.

Li Xiluo wanted to laugh every time he thought about it, "That's it."

"Oh."

"Oh."

"Oh."

"Oh."

"What are you doing?"

"It's solid."

"You man never let up!"

Li Qing smiled happily, and the two of them had fun together.

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The university is very free and very busy, and the two of them took a video call and made a phone call all day long, and they thought it was okay, as long as they didn't want to meet each other, they couldn't think about it at all, and they couldn't stop thinking about it.

"I'll see you on Sunday."

"I have class!"

"Who are you bluffing, Xiao Hezi! I can memorize your schedule!"

"Don't come!"

"I do not."

"What are you doing here? It's been a whole day!"

Li Xiluo listened to Li Qinghe imitating his accent and was happy no matter how angry he was.

"I miss you--"

"I know--"

"Then you are obedient and study hard."

"I can't control myself."

"I miss you--"

"I miss you as well--"

The two of them are very naive, and they don't know what to talk about every day, so they can do a lot.

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The two caught a weekend and met.

"Miss you."

"Me too."

"It's tanned." Li Xiluo pinched Li Qinghe's face and said.

Li Qinghe was amused now, holding a skewer of gluten and laughing happily, "Don't you say that you can barely watch it with a little tan?"

"Where did I say that!" Li Xiluo suppressed a smile, "That's standing with you to make me look bad!"

But no, the little boyfriend's whiteness is a bit abnormal, and it will look pale to anyone who stands next to him.

Now that the face and neck of the military training have faded a few colors, the old partner feels distressed again, "Look at the child, the skin is bald."

Li Qinghe laughed again, and Brother Luo couldn't stop laughing even with him.

The two younger ones made a video call for my brother, and my elder brother picked it up right away, talking to the two younger ones.

Brother talks more than before, and laughs too, this old man is not fierce at all.

Brother is on the road, going on a trip.

It's the first time I've traveled so much.

Just a bag, a few clothes, a small pot of cactus the size of a palm, placed by the window, took a photo and sent it to Moments.

Two little seconds of praise.

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They went around the snack street, oh, and met a cool girl on the street corner.

That girl is very eye-catching, with eyebrow studs, lip studs, and ear studs side by side, she is very cool, and she walks freely and neatly, with a coldness on her body, but she is carrying a milky white plush doll backpack on her shoulders .

When they were eating, they sat at the next table, and the little girl in white skirt who was with the pretty cool girl smiled sweetly at them.

The cool girl is called Lin Yu, and the little girl in the white skirt is called Li Muyun.

She was with her all the time.

Before leaving, Li Xiluo said cheers to the two of them, all four of them laughed.

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The days are long, and I miss you every day.

But I enjoy the torment of happiness.

My name is Li Qinghe, and I am not a very nice person.

My name is Li Xiluo, and I hate my name.

But I am grateful for all the suffering that life has given me.

In the long years, I will look forward and walk with him from now on.

Tomorrow will be sunny, high temperature 16°, low temperature 4°, northerly wind 4-5, good air, a bit cold in the morning and evening.

He waved to him: "Goodbye."

"Well, goodbye."

"Goodbye."

"Goodbye."

Goodbye, looking forward to seeing you again.

The author has something to say: the rest of my life is long, we, goodbye.

?(The last little sunflower.)