Can I love you?

"What do you think I want?" She looked at me and asked back.

"Take me back to school, I'm tired." After I said this to her weakly, I turned my head and looked out the window, as if I didn't want to communicate.My dear, I really can't bear to be with you like this anymore, why don't you let each other go, it will be easier for everyone.

"I'm tired and go back to the hotel to sleep." I don't know how the driver reacted to these conversations. Two girls, one said to open a room and the other was unwilling, it was strange.

I don't know if I really know that rejection is useless or I don't want to leave her side at all, even if I stay with her, I feel the torment of being unable to love.I didn't say any more words of refusal, just let her do whatever she said, even if it was painful, it was also joyful and painful, I laughed at myself.

During the ten-minute drive, we remained silent for more than ten minutes.When I arrived at XX, she took me upstairs directly. She had already booked a room and planned to play here for a few days, but I didn't expect that I would have such an attitude. Dear, are you disappointed?

The room number is hard to come by, somehow she happened to live in this room - 520.Open the door, the inside is pitch black, when is it already dark?It's almost seven o'clock now.

She turned on the light and let me in first. The structure of the room was different from the previous one. This room was obviously bigger and more luxurious.There is a big heart made of red rose petals on the bed, probably because the room number of this room is 520.

Before I could think about it, I was hugged by a warm body from behind, and I couldn't help shivering.It's her, why does she...?

"Linlin." She called my name softly in my ear, her warm breath sprayed in my ears, her voice was so soft that it almost melted me, her heart was beating very hard, and my intuition told me that there must be something next What will happen, I am nervous, apprehensive, uneasy, and at the same time with a little bit of anticipation.

"Let go of me, talk to me if you have something to say." I struggled, trying to get away from her embrace, but she hugged me even tighter.

"Don't move, let me hug you." She hugged me tightly, her head was already buried on my neck, and she made a muffled sound, which sounded very wronged, which made my heart ache.I didn't really move, I just stood and let her hold me.

Is she unhappy?What made her unhappy?Is it my attitude that makes her unhappy?That's right, if it were me, I would come all the way to play with her, but she would shy away from me and ignore me, I would definitely be unhappy, I guess I would want to bite her to death. .

"Why are you so indifferent today?" She said aggrievedly, my heart was throbbing with pain, and I didn't know how many times I said sorry in my heart, but I couldn't say a word and couldn't say it.What am I going to say?How do I explain my indifference? Do I have to tell her the facts that I can hardly accept?Tell her I actually like her?No, I can't, I wouldn't be in so much pain if I could, wouldn't I?So I'm going to lie to her that my relatives are here?Or make up other lies to deceive her?I don't want to lie to her, not at all.So I chose silence again.

"Did I do something wrong?" she continued.

"No, you're right, you didn't do anything wrong." When I heard her say that, I stopped her immediately.Honey, it's not your fault, it's me, it's my fault, it's all me, it has nothing to do with you, you haven't done anything wrong.If you really want to say that you are wrong, then you are wrong because you are too beautiful and charming, which made me fall in love with you unconsciously and unable to extricate myself.

"Then why are you ignoring me and being so indifferent to me?" She let go of me, and the warmth behind me disappeared.She walked up to me, took my hand with one hand, and supported my lowered head with the other, letting me look at her.Her hands were warm, her expression was half serious and half wronged, and the person reflected in her eyes was me.

"I'm sorry." I just said this, and then I wanted to lower my head again, but the hand on my face stopped me from lowering my head.

"Why say sorry? Why freeze me?" She seemed obsessed with this question.But dear, how do you want me to answer you?If I could really tell the reason so easily, I wouldn't treat you like this today, I wouldn't be so indifferent to you on purpose, I wouldn't be indifferent to you on purpose.

I shook my head and still didn't speak.She took a deep look at me, then smiled suddenly, out of nowhere, it was a happy smile, a beautiful smile that made me addicted.I looked at her puzzled, but she didn't explain, she just patted my shoulder and smiled, "Don't go back tonight, stay with me, as compensation for your indifference to me today." Strange, but I nodded anyway.

I suddenly understood that if you can't love, you can't love. How many people in this world love someone who happens to love themselves?If you can't be together, you can be your best friend, the closest person besides your lover and family, watching you happy when you are happy, and being sad with you when you are sad, isn't it good?Although I am somewhat unwilling to see that you have a lover and that one is not me, I will be a little unhappy, but I am happy for you and wish you the majority.Love is not possession, but letting go.What kind of mood did the person who wrote this sentence write?

She brought me a bathrobe and underwear, surprised, how could she have prepared them?Meeting my puzzled eyes, she didn't explain anything, she just said: "Didn't you say you were tired? Go take a bath, you won't be so tired after washing." Finally, she asked me to turn up the water temperature a bit so as not to catch a cold .

I stood in front of the shower, letting the water wash my body over and over again, and my mind was over and over again thinking about what happened between me and her today, no matter what I did, she tolerated me, which is normally very good One thing isn't it?But how could it make me so miserable when it comes to me.Whether it's her or the "boyfriend", any one of them treats me well, which makes me feel guilty, whether, I don't deserve anyone's kindness at all, yes, how can I deserve such a bad person like me.First, he has impure thoughts about his cousin, and then he uses his "boyfriend". They are not good people.Hehe, it deserves it, it's so painful, it deserves it.

The water stayed from the top of my head, and I couldn't feel whether I was crying, I only knew that my heart was very painful.If you make a mistake, correct it, you can’t love her anymore, you can’t suffer for her anymore, let’s be like this from now on, since you can’t leave and don’t want to hurt her, then be her good friend and sister, that’s how we should be It’s just that I’ve crossed the line, and now I’m returning to my original position, so what if I love her again, just stay with her silently, that’s fine.I feel guilty about the "boyfriend" who treats me with sincerity and I take advantage of him, don't ask him to forgive, just hope he's just for fun, like all the girlfriends he's had before.

"Dong dong dong..." His thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door.

"..."

"Thank you." Did she call for some service?Dry cleaning?or something else?

I wiped my hair casually, and blown it with a hairdryer to keep it from dripping, and I didn't walk out of the bathroom until I was almost done.When she came out, she was already wearing a white bathrobe and sitting by the bar with her feet overlapped, maybe she took a shower in another bathroom.The white and slender thighs are bare/exposed, one hand is propped on the table to stabilize the body, and the other hand is holding a glass of red wine and shaking gently, the hair is coiled up, revealing the white neck and beautiful collarbone.Maybe because she heard the voice, she turned her head to look at me, and smiled slightly, indescribably sexy and full of temptation.I almost couldn't control myself, I guess if it was a man, I would have jumped on it.Fairy, who are you trying to seduce by wearing such a sexy dress? !

The author has something to say:

Why are you wearing such a sexy dress?

What do you say? [evil laugh]