My cousin's daily routine

After that day, I didn't see that girl again for a long time, maybe it was really not a love letter before, maybe I misunderstood something.

Until one night after self-study get out of class, I walked alone towards the male dormitory building. When I passed the park between the male and female dormitory buildings, I saw a couple standing in the shadow of a tree. The darkness shrouded both of them in a soft halo, and only vague outlines could be seen clearly.

In fact, this kind of scene is quite common in colleges. It’s the kind of romance that many people dream of. At that time, I didn’t know why, so I took a few more glances. The girl was a little shorter than the boy. It was almost completely covered by the shadow of the boy. From my perspective, I could only see the back of the boy. That back gave me an inexplicable sense of familiarity.When the girl moved slightly, I saw she was carrying a cute pink shoulder bag.

The shadow of the girl I met in the cafeteria flashed in my mind. At that time, the girl was also carrying the same style of leather bag!I was almost sure right away—it was my cousin Xiao Yuan and the girl who sent the "love letter".

I watched from a distance, as if the two were arguing about something, the girl's voice was faintly crying, Xiao Yuan turned his back to me, I don't know what expression it was, I was very curious about what they were talking about, but it was hard to come forward , just watched from a distance.

I saw Xiao Yuan leaning down slightly and approaching the girl's face for a while, and I was shocked in my heart—as if he was kissing... I can't tell what my mood was at that time, I felt like I was being deceived There is a kind of anger, and a kind of irritability that I can't explain why.What a Xiao Yuan, obviously he just received a love letter, and it has developed to this point. At the beginning, he told me that it was not what I thought, and I had the urge to smash my schoolbag on Xiao Yuan's face, if it wasn't for this It would be too far away, and I might just do it.

I was not in the mood to watch the two of you and me anymore, and I hurried away as if I wanted to escape.

That night, I didn't have the dream that made me blush and heartbeat. In the dream, I was still standing there, watching a pair of lovers kiss affectionately. I felt like I was petrified, and I wanted to turn around and leave. Kai found that he couldn't move at all, and stood like that for a long time, and the self in his dream had the urge to cry...

The next day I woke up feeling overwhelmed, and subconsciously touched the corners of my eyes, but there were no tears... But the sense of loss I felt in the dream was as overwhelming as if it really existed.

From that day on, I began to avoid Xiao Yuan subconsciously. For a while, I didn't know what expression to use to face him, and I felt irritable when I thought that I was still kept in the dark.I no longer cooperate with Xiao Yuan's big dog sticking to people. I realized that I was always led away by my cousin many times before, so this time I decided to get rid of Xiao Yuan. A bunch of annoying guys.Even if you can't hide all the time, at least you can enjoy the cleanness for a while.

Xiao Yuan would come to me for dinner as usual, but I always refused him saying that I had an appointment with someone today, and then walked away quickly under Xiao Yuan's questioning eyes.

Xiao Yuan always likes to read books with me in the library on weekends, but I haven't been to the library in those few weekends.

Xiao Yuan knew that I like to jog on the playground for a while at night, but in those few days I just changed from getting up early every morning to morning jogging...

In this way, Xiao Yuan could see that I was deliberately ignoring him, and the look he looked at me changed from initial puzzlement to loneliness. "My brother is quite lethal, so I forced myself to ignore Xiao Yuan's existence.

At first, I actually felt a kind of relief in my heart that I finally let out my bad breath.This guy Xiao Yuan dared to lie to me, I'm really used to it!After realizing that I thought so, I couldn’t let go of my arrogance at all, oh, I can’t tell Xiao Yuan, in fact, I’m just upset that you have a girlfriend without telling me, so let’s lose my temper ￣□￣｜｜I figured it out After one o'clock, I suddenly wanted to despise myself, when my stomach became so small, it was all Xiao Yuan's fault...

This stalemate lasted for two weeks, and after all of Xiao Yuan's efforts were in vain, he was not as active as before, but he still looked at me with that hurtful look every time... It made my heart twitch I got caught, well, actually, I didn’t think about it. In other words, what can I think about? Well, I seem to be asking myself again... I’m a science student, shouldn’t my logical thinking be very good... …

I thought that the cold war between us would last for a long time, but I didn't expect Xiao Yuan to be the first one who couldn't sit still.

That night, after I finished my elective courses, I walked out of the teaching building tiredly, but I was caught off guard and pulled forward by a force. Fortunately, it was night and there were very few people passing by, otherwise I would have made a big joke.

I looked up at the owner of those hands. As expected, it was my cousin who I hadn't talked to for a long time.

Only then did I realize that his hands were huge, and he was clenching my wrist tightly, with such strength that the bones in my wrist were about to shatter.

My first reaction was naturally to break free from him, but he held me even tighter.

"Let's talk," he said in a commanding tone.

I also didn't want to fall out with him in public, between "escape" and "face", of course I chose the latter without hesitation.

He took my hand and walked through an underground passage to the lake behind the teaching building.

The light in the teaching building is as bright as day, but the street lamps here are dim and moody.

We passed through the rows of weeping willows, and no one spoke first in a tacit understanding. Finally, Xiao Yuan stopped under a big willow tree. The willow silk fluttering in the wind cast mottled shadows, and he spoke in this kind of place. , indeed no one will bother us.

Xiao Yuan faced me, and said in a deep, deep voice, "Do you...hate me?"

ah? ⊙﹏⊙!

I looked at him inexplicably, how did Xiao Yuan come to this conclusion?Then I asked and answered myself, just because I ignored him these days?But much longer than that—we've been brothers and sisters for close to 20 years.

Before I had time to refute, Xiao Yuan suddenly pressed his whole body up, directly locking me between him and the thick tree trunk. The oppressive feeling full of invasion made me feel very strange, I raised my head to meet his deep Eyes, there seemed to be a lot of complicated emotions in them, so I unexpectedly found that I couldn't understand my cousin, maybe I couldn't understand him a long time ago.

He almost leaned against me, and said with a choked voice: "Did I... make you feel sick?" I quickly realized what the pause meant, and I realized that we seemed to have something What a misunderstanding...

Thinking of Xiao Yuan's hurt eyes, I feel that I need to say something immediately. "No, no." In order to better express what I mean, I emphasized it again, and finally patted him on the back. To be honest, I really don't want to see a boy who is always cheerful and sad expression. "I was really surprised when I first found out, but this kind of thing is not something that people can decide on their own, so I don't have any opinion. We grew up together, and this is nothing at all." I think this That's the longest reassuring thing I've ever said, and actually that's what I thought.

Then, I saw the eyes of the big dog clinging to me light up. Even in such a dark place, I can still see a strange brilliance in his eyes.

Then I felt that the stone that had been pressing on my heart for so many days seemed to disappear suddenly. I didn't miss this great opportunity for a heart-to-heart talk, and casually threw a bombshell, "So, are you gay?" Xiao Yuan laughed softly, and then leaned into my ear on purpose and said: "I don't know. If liking you means being gay, then I am." Only then did I realize that I was digging my own grave. When the hot breath sprayed on my face, it seemed that a pair of small claws scratched my heart a few times, and I felt that my heartbeat was a little out of control.I lowered my head slightly, not daring to look directly into Xiao Yuan's eyes.

Xiao Yuan let go of me suddenly, raised my chin so that I was forced to look directly at him, and then finally returned to the point of the question, "Then why are you hiding from me?" I hesitated and couldn't speak clearly, and finally fought back unbearably He: "It's none of your business!" Xiao Yuan suddenly lowered his head and approached my face, our foreheads were pressed together, this posture was unspeakably weird, and then I heard him say: "Don't tell me, I will Just here to kiss you." I turned my head slightly, in fact, I think my face is probably a little red... Although the line of sight is not good here, I don't want Xiao Yuan to have the opportunity to see my current expression.

I simply broke the jar, "Are you dating that girl from before?" Xiao Yuan was stunned for a moment, "No." "I clearly saw you and that girl in the park... kissing... kissing... ..." I was embarrassed when I said these two words.

Then I felt something soft against my lips, ugh!

Before I could react, Xiao Yuan had already stuck his tongue in, and then roughed it up a bit before releasing me panting.I held his shoulders, my breathing obviously became heavy, I didn't say a word for a long time, I just stared at him angrily. "This kind of thing, I just want to do it with you."

Do, what to do? ...Fortunately, I didn't think deeply about it...

Then Xiao Yuan pulled out a smirk, put his finger on my face, and rubbed it lightly, I could feel the heat of his fingertips, my face felt like it was going to burn, I wanted to push him away uncomfortably, But I heard him say something that shocked me. "Mo, you like me. I can feel that your face is very red."

"You, why do you say that?" I was a little at a loss for words, and put on a posture of refusing to admit it.In fact, I never thought about this possibility, I would think about this kind of thing, I must be sick...

He thought for a while, and suddenly his right hand stuck into my pants, I was shocked, I felt that he was holding something, I was so scared that I wanted to arch up, and then I felt a hot current in my lower abdomen...

Xiao Yuan stopped his hands in a timely manner, and then a deep voice sounded, "Look, you have a reaction."

"You, you... damn it!!" I was so annoyed that I couldn't choose what to say.

Xiao Yuan didn't seem to intend to apologize, he continued to explain: "I didn't do this kind of thing with that girl, in fact, that girl likes you and wants me to send her a love letter, but I'm too embarrassed to give it to you in person, for fear of being rejected by you... "I looked at him in embarrassment and surprise, feeling relieved, my heart was beating fast, this feeling was like I really liked Xiao Yuan, I found that I didn't hate Xiao Yuan The kiss, but, is this normal...

So I did something very daring.

I suddenly grabbed Xiao Yuan's collar, kissed it heavily, and then licked Xiao Yuan's tongue without any skill. On, started a deep kiss, his tongue was deft, sucking, twirling, and chasing my tongue until it was entangled with each other... I even forgot to breathe, until finally we were both gasping , Xiao Yuan let me go.

I saw him blushing a little and looking at me expectantly.

I took out the remaining courage, "Xiao Yuan, maybe I might... like you." Then I fell into a warm hug, and heard Xiao Yuan say softly: "I like you, I like you the most." I hugged him back. Actually, I don't know if this is considered liking, but I really want to see Xiao Yuan's happy expression at this time. I like the one who will show this expression for me. guy.So, probably, I like him.

Then, the daily routine continued, and I finally realized what it's like to have a big dog. "I like you." "Yeah." "I like you." "What do you want to hear?"

I simply kissed him, and then I was pushed down by various gestures...

(End of the article)

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Supplement: Extra Story - My Cousin's Careful Thoughts

My name is Xiao Yuan.

Although I don't have an older brother, I have a cousin who dotes on me. His name is Qin Mo. I will silently say this name several times in my heart. I think his name is really nice. If I have a child in the future, I must give it to him / Her name is Xiaomo.

However, gradually I found that my wish could not be realized, because I fell in love with my cousin (if I must give this feeling a name, I am afraid it can only be described as love).

In fact, I can't tell when the brotherhood began to deteriorate.

When I was young, I was very thin, and some bad guys always came to bully me. At that time, my cousin was like a hen protecting the food, to teach those guys a lesson, so when I was young, I always felt that my cousin It is the Ultraman sent by God to protect me.

But I found out that my cousin was not made of King Kong, and he would be injured, but he never shed a single tear in front of me, and always gave me his thumbs up proudly, as if he was awesome.

I scolded him secretly in my heart: You are a big fool.

So when I hid behind that person, I started to think, when I become stronger one day, I can protect my cousin in turn, and then he won't have to pretend to be strong, he can be with me Crying in my arms, I will definitely not laugh at him. After thinking about that scene, I suddenly felt my heart beating a little faster...

My first goal is to grow taller than him first.

So I drank milk and ate calcium tablets in those years, but I grew so slowly at the beginning. Seeing the small stubble of my cousin who was taller than me, I always felt very irritable, and my cousin My brother didn't feel my urgency at all, he just naturally felt that it was right for my elder brother to be taller than my younger brother, and he habitually patted my head to show how tall he was.

I never thought about what I would think of my cousin until I was 13 years old when a nasty porn film changed the course of my life.

In the video tape, the two bodies of Bai Huahua were entangled on the bed, and a high-pitched wave filled the room. I felt a little dizzy, and my consciousness seemed to be separated from reality and entered a fantasy: Bai Huahua's body was still entangled, It's just that it's no longer the handsome guy in the movie, but me and my cousin, and my cousin is being pressed under me, spreading his thighs to bear my bumps again and again, constantly moaning softly ...and then, in the midst of my charming fantasies, I shamefully ejaculate...

I was ashamed to see my cousin for a while, and those fantasies would appear in my dreams again and again, clamoring to become reality.Then I figured it out, since I couldn't give up this relationship, why didn't I try my best?So, my cousin became my prey when he was unsuspecting.

In the third year of junior high school, I was finally as tall as my cousin.I regard this as a kind of acquiescence from God to me. Can I work a little harder? If I work harder, I can catch up with my cousin and tell him openly, in fact, I like you very much.

In the summer vacation of the third year of junior high school, I actually thought a lot. If we were together, there would definitely be a lot of moths in the future. Then I had to become strong enough to protect this relationship, so I began to demand perfection in everything. , study, sports...of course height too.

At the end of the college entrance examination, I finally confessed, and then I fell in love with him and kissed him.I knew that this was his first kiss, but it was also mine.Then I cunningly blocked everything he might say. In fact, I was just a little afraid that he would reject me without hesitation.

But my cousin seems to like me more than I thought.He will avoid me, but he will not reject me forcefully, hehe, actually, I still have a chance.

But be careful, there are still nasty moths appearing.

That girl, I've been observing her for a long time, she always looks at him secretly from a place where my cousin can't see, o(TヘTo) is the one I fell in love with first, okay?So I became more and more afraid that my cousin who had never had a relationship would fall in love with her in such a ignorant way... What, I can't even think about it!

Finally, that day has come.

That girl sneakily followed us to the cafeteria, then handed me the love letter, and whispered to me to give it to my cousin, hehe, would I agree with you... So, I secretly hid the love letter Get up, actually I know that I am wrong, that girl has the right to let my cousin know her mind, but I am still too scared to hand it to my cousin... I feel so useless, but my cousin started avoiding me again Well, damn it, nothing good has happened since that girl appeared.

I decided to take the initiative.

That night, I stopped my cousin at the place where he would pass by after class, dragged him to the back of the teaching building, and then vented all the anxiety of the past few days. My cousin just looked at me in surprise, And then said...so cute words, so I kissed him again without restraining myself.I even touched him... But he didn't show as much resistance as I thought.Then, as if a miracle happened, my cousin actually took the initiative to kiss me. I was so shocked that I forgot to enjoy this kiss, so I just kissed him again without doing anything...

Since my first love is dedicated to you, cousin, you must be responsible to me.