lifetime flower

[-]. Come back

My name is Ye Yuhan, a southern girl studying in the north, and I am a junior this year.

It's the end of the term again, buying tickets, reviewing, taking exams, going home, everything is the same as the procedure, I follow the steps indifferently, what is hard to suppress in my heart is the beating desire to go home soon.

The winter in the north has a coldness that is very different from that in my hometown. The coldness here is rough and undisguised, unlike the damp and coldness of that southern town, which is cold to the bone quietly.In a way, it's colder at home.Even so, I miss the pervasive cold very much.Across the whole of China, nostalgia can't be extended, it just lingers in my heart and even freezes.When I resolutely left home to study in the north, it was tantamount to giving up the most important part of my life.I encountered some troubles on weekdays, perhaps because of the distance, I was always wronged in my heart.

This afternoon, when I came back from picking up the ticket, I was walking in a hurry against the wind when the phone rang. I picked it up and checked it.Yi is my cousin, whose full name is Xu Yi, who is two years older than me and is already a senior this year.We grew up together, maybe due to our close age, she and I were sometimes more like best friends than sisters.I rarely call her sister, and sometimes I don’t even call her by her name. Some people say that when two people get close to a certain level, the name loses its meaning.

"Hey?"

"When will you be back?" A gentle and clear voice came from the other end of the phone, which was enough to make me ignore the knife-like cold wind and the pain from my fingers that were about to freeze from answering the phone. "Soon, the exam will be over soon, and I will come back after the exam." I replied.

"Then when will you finish the exam?"

"Well... there is still one exam period that has not come out. If there is no accident, the exam will be finished in the afternoon of January [-]rd, and I will come back overnight. The bus at [-]:[-] will transfer in W City on the night of the [-]th, and at [-]pm on the [-]th. I can go to City K soon." After I finished speaking in detail, there was a pleasant chuckle from the other end: "Heh... You really are a girl, you just said it all at once, so I don't need to ask."

My heart was filled with a kind of bright joy. Talking to her would make people feel relaxed before I knew it. I couldn't help laughing and said: "That's it, I'm afraid that you will be tired all the time. Anyway, you are older than me, it's me. Where's my sister?"

There was another burst of laughter on the other end of the phone: "You still know that I am your sister, but you counted with your fingers, how many times have you called me sister?" I just laughed and listened to her without saying a word.After a while, the girl seemed to have had enough laughs, her tone calmed down, but she was a little serious: "Yuhan, why do you always come back overnight? Don't be in such a hurry after just finishing the exam. Take a good rest for the night and go home the next day, right?" Is it the same?"

"I want to go home early and meet my dear sister soon~~"

"...Little girl, is this a good reason to bluff me?" She scolded, but suddenly changed the subject and said, "I'll wait for you in K City, let's go home together." her character.But my heart warmed up, and I replied: "Okay." Unconsciously, my voice softened a little.

Then there was a few seconds of silence, and I was about to speak, but she was 0.1 second faster: "HR is no better than at home, it's so cold, you're not in good health and you still run so far, you have to take good care of yourself in that kind of ghost place , the study room is cold, so stay in the dormitory while reading." This kind of soft-spoken concern was beyond my expectation, and she never yelled "Don't freeze to death outside".He deliberately joked a few words, but for some reason, faced with her sudden gentleness, he couldn't open his mouth.After chatting for a while, she asked me to study hard, and asked me a few other things, which was in vain.After hanging up the phone, the haze caused by the recent review was swept away.

I will be home in a week, no, I will go to K city first, the place where I want to go to school, a prefecture-level city under the jurisdiction of this province, and it can be regarded as a must pass to go home, three or four hours away from home by bus.This time she intends to pick me up, she will definitely take me shopping and eat delicious food, haha~ heaven and earth conscience, I miss K City so much because of the delicious food, ahem, I haven’t seen her for half a year, I miss her very much, even I miss it~~~ Who said I just miss the food in K City.

I was in a good mood, and I stepped on the thick snow and walked towards the dormitory with one foot deep and one foot shallow.

A few days of review is the intense exam period, and the undecided exam of that subject has also been arranged, but it has not passed the [-]rd, so I don't need to modify the itinerary.The luggage was packed long ago, and I didn't bring any clothes. I only brought a notebook and a few books, which was relatively easy.Enduring the crowded train along the way, I plugged in my earphones to isolate myself from the outside world.

In the middle of the night, although I was sleepy, I couldn't settle down to sleep.The song in the earphones is "The Last Train", which matches my current mood very well.Looking at the lights that flashed from time to time outside the car window, the weak lights seemed to be struggling in the dark night, and I was at a loss and had nowhere to go.I just feel that this journey doesn't know where it started, and I don't know where it's going.At this time of confusion, I suddenly thought of it, thinking of her maintenance and care for me since I was a child.Sure enough, she is still a sister, which is always reassuring.Thinking of this, I thought of sending her a message, but when I saw it was three o'clock in the morning, she was probably asleep, so it's better not to send her a message.Just as she was about to put her phone back, she thought again, since she was asleep anyway, she should not have disturbed her.Flying fingers, pressed a text message like this:

"The night on the train was too long, the lights outside the window struggled, and could only flash by. This station, the next station, there is no light for me. In this night that fills the sky and the earth, I can't see There is no way to know where you are going, and it seems to be drifting like this. Everything is silent, only the monotonous sound of the collision between the wheels and the rails, as if this sound is eternity."

After sending, I put my phone in my pocket and rested with my eyes closed.After a while, the phone vibrated with a "buzz".I suddenly opened my eyes, there is a message, is she not asleep?

"This stop, the next stop, is not worth your stay. The direction of your heart is at the end of the road. There is a light at the end of the road that will light up for you all night until dawn. Your gaze penetrates the night and time." Sure enough, he didn't sleep.

"Why didn't you sleep so late, and still have the energy to talk to me?" I replied to her.

"I just got up to go to the toilet, you're sour and I'm sour too~"

"Go! You're so sore. I'm feeling it and I'm sending it. It's okay. It's okay. After going to the bathroom, go back to sleep. I'm going to sleep too." Although I really want to chat with Yi, but for the sake of her sleep, Still lied.She is in her senior year, and she is also very busy, so she is not in good spirits.

"Hmph, I'm asleep." She replied, okay, Fan Er, the tall and cold goddess.Regardless of her, if you can't fall asleep, read a book.I took out a book from my schoolbag, rubbed my sore eyes, and started to read.

When I looked up again, the sky was already bright.Someone has already started to move around, and my heart is a little more stable. I closed the book and was about to sleep for a while, but found that her information had been on the phone for an unknown amount of time.

"If you don't feel at ease, you can go to bed at dawn." Seeing that the time is past four o'clock, this is disrespectful and said that I didn't sleep at night, and it was probably because I had a bad stomach last night and always woke up at night, haha.Smiling, I closed my eyes.

I didn't tell her that I didn't get a sleeper ticket for the two trains, and the two seemingly endless nights made me feel restless.On the second night, the whole carriage fell into a dream, only me, still with aching eyes, looking at the lights that flashed past the window from time to time, the night came, and I felt like I was a lonely boat in the sea.Stubbornly staying awake, refusing to admit that it was the hard fear in his heart that was causing the trouble.Yes, I'm terrified of places like this, where there seem to be malicious looks everywhere.In the midst of anxiety, I couldn't help being homesick, missing my parents, my younger brother, and my love.If she was here, she would never let me look around so uneasy, be careful.

Insufficient sleep will always cause a series of discomforts, such as rapid heartbeat, such as occasional, a little boredom, a little heartache, although not severe, but enough to make me feel haggard.The will could not overcome the physical discomfort, and I fell asleep uncontrollably. During this period, I woke up several times in a daze, with the lights flickering outside the window, and I knew in my heart that this was going through a tunnel.I am getting closer and closer to City K.

Finally, the train drove into this rainy and foggy small town in the southern country. After getting off the train, there were wet traces on the bluestone slabs, as if it had just rained.I called my parents to report that I was safe, and I walked towards the exit with my bag on my back.After walking a few steps, the phone rang, needless to say, it must be meaning.

"Hello? I'm coming out."

"I just heard the sound of the train coming into the station, and the radio announced the station. Just come out. I'm right here at the exit. You can see it when you come out."

"Got it." I smiled, walked through the underground passage, and walked out of the gate. There were bustling people picking up cars at the gate.Xu was too tired on the train, his eyes were foggy and he couldn't see clearly. He squinted his eyes and searched carefully, when a familiar voice came: "Don't look for it! Here it is!" Not far away, there was a tall girl with bright eyes and a tall figure standing beside the roadblock. Who is it if it's not Xu Yi?

"I didn't find you." I walked over with a smile, and she came up to me, trying to take off my schoolbag, but I avoided it: "It's not sinking, it doesn't matter, I can carry it by myself."

"It doesn't matter if it's not sinking, give it to me." She couldn't help but said that she took off the schoolbag, forget it, it's up to her.The two walked side by side.She was wearing a navy blue coat today, with a British style. Her long flowing hair had been cut into neat short hair at some point. It was a bit messy, but it had a different kind of beauty.This kind of her is not as soft and quiet as before, but a little more tough.

"What are you looking at me for?" she asked with a smile.

"I found out that you have become handsome."

"My sister has always been handsome, you just found out today?"

"Oh, you never had a chance to find out for me, okay? Usually, you are always the style of Yu Jie. Which string is wrong and you want to cut your hair short. Really..."

"Big sister doesn't want to be a goddess anymore, but wants to date girls, okay?" This person exposed her in just a few words, why didn't those suitors around her recognize her rascal nature?Hey... female hooligan, female man...

Although I was slandering, my mouth kept saying: "Okay! Sister, tell me which girl you like, even if you steal it, I will snatch it for you!" I patted my chest and promised her solemnly.It made her chuckle: "Come on, I'll grab it myself, you? I'm afraid you will be snatched away."

The two of them were arguing as they walked, and walked away from the train station unknowingly. She reached out to hail a taxi and drove me to her dormitory.

The dormitory was empty and everything was tidied up.I was a little surprised, and asked, "When did you have your vacation? Why are you alone?"

She said nonchalantly: "Yesterday was on vacation, and some of them went home last night." Seeing that I seemed to doubt the authenticity of this statement, she quickly added: "Otherwise, why should I wait for you? Anyway, when you arrive I also happened to be on vacation at the time." Then he took out two bus tickets: "Look, I have bought all the tickets, tomorrow morning, I will take you out to have a good meal tonight, rest at ease for a night, tomorrow morning we will go home."

I nodded and watched her lock my bag into her locker, sat down on her bed, rolled up the quilt and lay down without taking off her clothes.

"What are you doing? You don't feel comfortable sleeping like this. Take off your coat! You're still like this at such a young age... Really..." She closed the door, came over and pulled me up, grabbing my sleeves to help me take off the clothes on my body. I took off a big thick down jacket that was used to fight the cold in the Northeast, and took off my glasses: "Look at you, I don't take off my glasses." I smiled, and I didn't have the nerve to say that I was too tired.I haven't had a good rest for two days, and it's my limit to be able to last until now.

Xu Yi messed up my hair, stuffed me back into the bed, and looked down at me: "Go to bed with peace of mind, there is still a while before dinner." Her voice lowered, almost whispering: "I know You must have not slept on the train, with your persecutory paranoia, no one here will disturb you, and you are so emaciated, go to sleep, I am right here." Speaking of this, she opened her mouth, her face There is a touch of distress, and he hesitates to speak.But in the end he didn't say anything, he helped me tuck the quilt, his eyes wandered, and then he sat down on the edge of the bed.

Am I right, Xu Yi, Xu Yi, after getting a haircut, he actually learned to be gentle?Where did my tough sister go?Maybe this guy is in love, what can be more transformative than liking someone... This is starting to be a woman... I am a little upset, who is this, which kid is worthy of her... All kinds of thoughts swirled in my mind, and the sleepiness was unstoppable. Without thinking about it, I fell into a deep sleep.

When I wake up again, it is already the beginning of the Chinese lanterns, and people are already much more energetic.The lights outside the window are not as erratic as those glimpsed on the train. Thinking that I finally returned home after traveling for two days, my wandering heart also settled down.When I got up, the bedside lamp was on, and the color was warm.She was sitting at the desk, typing something on the computer.Maybe it's a graduation thesis, after all, she's already a senior.Thinking that I am also a sophomore this year, I thought that I was the little girl who was led by her to pick melons and beans in the vegetable garden.

"Are you awake?" She was in a daze when she noticed that I got up and called me. "Get up and wash your face. I just filled the hot water. After washing, we'll go out for dinner." I answered, looked at my watch, it was past seven o'clock, and I slept for more than three hours.I glanced at her quietly, she must be hungry, but she has let me sleep until now.My heart felt warm again, this elder sister has always been like this, she seems carefree, but in fact she has a delicate mind, and she cares about people so quietly.Mensao girl, it is the kind of mensao who is very boring when she is bored, and very coquettish. Thinking of this, I can't help but smile secretly.

Dinner was my favorite beef and sour soup hot pot, and I ordered a few side dishes. I ate the bowl with the bottom upside down. I hadn't tasted the hometown flavor in half a year. Tears would flow down regardless of the image.

After the meal, I paid the bill and wanted to go back, but saw a light rain falling outside.She took out the umbrella from her bag, propped it up, and led me out the door.The dotted lights of the mountain city were smudged by the rain like a painting. I took a deep breath of the cold and humid air after the rain on a winter night, and felt that the dust accumulated in the smoggy north in the past six months had been washed clean from my lungs.

"I went to that place where it doesn't rain often for two and a half years, and I forgot what it means to bring an umbrella." I laughed at myself.She smiled: "Wherever you go, you are still from here."

Walking with her on the wet bluestone road, there are faint mountains in the distance.

Neither of us spoke, as if we were afraid of destroying the beauty of this tranquility if we opened our mouths.

The author has something to say: How will it end like this?