can i trust you

Some time ago, Ding Li noticed that people around him would secretly stare at him.

The eyes are strange.

Ding Li sat in his seat and endured for a while, but he still couldn't hold back.

Ding Li pursed his lips, turned his head and asked Xie Lei, "Is there something strange about me?"

"Ok?"

Ding Li pursed his lips, "Why do people keep staring at me recently?"

Xie Lei was stunned for a moment, then smiled, "You don't know?"

Ding Li frowned, "...know...what?"

"The grades of last semester came out, you know."

Ding Li nodded, "Ah."

"Have you read your grade point?"

"Look at it."

"Then you should know your grades."

"Ah, it's almost the same as before."

"...Oh, by the way, what you can see is the total grade, not the single semester."

"Ah."

"You know a lot about the exams last semester, right?"

Ding Li nodded.

"You know the results, right?"

Ding Li continued to nod.

"Is your grade still the same as before, 90+"

Ding Li still nodded.

"Then your GPA is 3.96, did you know that?"

"..."

"Now you know why people look at you so much."

Ding Li didn't know what to say.

He pursed his lower lip and whispered, "I see."

Ding Li was a little unhappy.

Most people like to be that boss, but Ding Li doesn't like it.

Ding Li has been used to trying to bury himself as low as possible since a long time ago.

He used to expect that he could be paid attention to.

It's not others, I just hope that people around me can pay more attention to me.

However, gradually he discovered that the people around him don't care how you do at all.

No matter how high you climb, no one cares.

But the oppressive feeling of standing at a high place will make him feel very hard.

No one has expectations of him, but he himself is afraid of falling.

And after falling down, the indifference of the people around him made him dare not expect too much from himself.

He doesn't want to work so hard to be the person in the eyes of others.too tired.

What's the point?

Gradually, he began to be afraid.

Fear of attention.

That's why he doesn't like others calling him "Xueba".

That feeling made him very oppressive.

But this time, that oppressive feeling came back.

Ding Li sat on his seat, trying his best to ignore the eyes of his surroundings.

Silence sat next to him at this time.

"What's wrong?" Shen Mo looked at him, "You look bad...why are you sweating?"

Ding Li pursed his lips, "I..."

I feel very uncomfortable.I feel like everyone around me is paying attention to me.My GPA was too high this time.What if I don't do well in the exam next time?How can I refute when they call me Xueba again.I'm not a top student, I can't...

I just want to get everything done...

I……

These words floated in Ding Li's mind, but he couldn't say a word.

These words are too emotional, Ding Li has not said these words to others for a long time.

So he couldn't speak.

But today he wanted to talk to Shen Mo again.

When he became emotional today, he suddenly remembered how much he had been hurt by the emotions he occasionally revealed.

I just forgot.

How could I forget.

Ding Li laughed at himself inwardly, and then slowly said, "I'm fine...it's just that there are too many people."

Mo Mo always knew that Ding Li would break out in a cold sweat when there were many people, so he nodded and said, "You are really amazing."

Ding Li looked at him suspiciously.

"Your grades. Obviously we also studied together, why are there so many grades?"

Ding Li was speechless, "...does that count as learning?"

"At least in spirit."

……Fine.

Shen Mo smiled, his expression became serious, "Let me take you to celebrate..."

"It's not necessary."

"I want it. I've never seen the first grade in my life. It's fresh."

"Huh?" Ding Li felt that the silence was teasing him, but he couldn't find any evidence.

"Really. I have been studying since I was a child, and the first grade is not on the same floor as me, so it is not easy to meet."

"..."

"So you can satisfy my desire to have a meal with the first year, and let me rub your bullshit by the way."

Ding Li sighed, "Why do I feel that you regard me as a tourist attraction?"

"There must be none. Go or not."

Ding Li hesitated, "... let's go?"

"Take it off and go."

"it is good."

The time and place of eating are all chosen silently.

In fact, Ding Li felt that the silence was too solemn.

Ding Li followed Shen Mo to a restaurant. The place is not too big, but the emphasis is on quietness.There are partitions between each table, so that they will not disturb each other.

After ordering, Shen Mo and Ding Li sat facing each other and chatted.

Ding Li turned his head and looked around, "How do you know about this place?"

"I saw it when I recommended it nearby."

Silence didn't seem to have any big mood swings, but Ding Li just felt that there was something strange about it.

"Why did you want to bring me here?"

"Quiet, enough privacy."

"...It's true."

Ding Li felt that everything was weird tonight.

He was thinking wildly when the food came.

After the service was finished, the waiter went out, and Shen Mo walked across from Ding Li and sat down next to him.

Ding Li continued to look at Shen Mo with a puzzled expression.

Looking at Ding Li silently, he pursed his lips, "Ding Li, do you still remember how we became acquainted?"

Ding Li thought for a while, then nodded slowly.

"Then what were you thinking at the time?"

What do you think?Ding Li thought for a while, he didn't seem to know what he was thinking.

I just remember that I must have really wanted to know Silence.Otherwise, he would not have taken the initiative at that time.

Silence saw that Ding Li had been silent, and his head drooped slightly, and then said, "Actually, I don't know what mood I was in at that time, but I think I should be happy."

Ding Li nodded, "Me too."

Shen Mo shook his head, "You are not. I am dispensable to you. Just like the time we didn't communicate before, you can leave me at any time if you don't want to. But I can't."

Ding Li felt that silence seemed to be the opposite of what he said, and he was about to refute when he was interrupted by silence.

"Ding Li, in your heart, what do you think of me?"

Ding Li was stunned unconsciously.

The silent expression was unprecedentedly serious.Ding Li didn't understand what Shen Mo was going to do today, but he had an intuition that it shouldn't be a trivial matter.

Ding Li didn't understand why Mo Mo suddenly behaved like this.

He just watched silently.I didn't speak for a long time.

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