15 diary

He thought of a lot about Lu Heng just now, and now seeing Lu Jue's face too much like his, he felt a little sad.He didn't want to face it.

Lu Jue actually knew what Xie Yiran meant, but now he had to be tough, he had to let Yiran face things that shouldn't be avoided.

Lu Jue sat down on the edge, and said lightly: "You said that you have to take care of me until I remove the bandage. I think I'm recovering very well, maybe it will be fine in a week."

Xie Yiran looked at the room and could only say, "Then I'll sleep in the living room tonight. There is no sofa in the living room. It's more spacious and I can sleep on the floor."

Throughout the afternoon, Xie Yiran didn't say much, but quietly tidied up the room that hadn't been cleaned much recently, then spread the floor in the living room, and went to bed early.

He dreamed that Lu Heng was standing in the crimson maple leaves and waving to him. He was wearing a suit, very formal, and holding a bouquet of flowers in his arms, what was he declaring to himself?He was waving and laughing, calling himself while laughing.

Xie Yiran ran towards him, and Lu Heng also turned around and ran. Xie Yiran was very anxious, afraid that he would not be able to catch up with him.

Xie still ran desperately, chasing after him all the time, he inhaled heavily until his throat became dry and he coughed.

He was exhausted, but he didn't dare to stop. If he stopped, he couldn't hold on to anything.

Finally, he desperately stretched out his hand, grabbed it, grabbed the corner of his clothes!

Xie Yiran saw him looking back at him, he smiled at himself, very gently, he hugged himself, and gently called his name.His smile is very gentle, which makes me feel very at ease.

Finally caught.Xie still shed tears, grabbed the hem of his suit, hugged him tightly and cried, "Lu Jue, I thought you didn't want me anymore, why did you run? What if I don't catch up with you?"

He immediately consoled anxiously: "No, I will always be here, how could I abandon you? I will always be with you."

Xie Yiran hugged him even tighter: "You can't leave me."

"Don't leave me..." Xie Yiran was crying, slowly opened his eyes and looked at the person sleeping beside him, and stretched out his arms to hug him.

The hand holding Xie Yiran suddenly froze, and he felt that the person in his arms was very disturbed, so he hugged him even tighter, and said softly: "No."

Xie Yiran heard Lu Jue say a word in a daze, woke up completely, and stared at him blankly.

Only then did Lu Jue realize that the person in his arms woke up.But he still didn't let go of the hand holding him, and asked, "Why did you wake up?"

Only then did Xie Yiran realize that he was hugging Lu Jue's waist tightly, and immediately pushed him away: "Why... did you sleep on the floor?"

"I'm suffering from insomnia."

Xie still remembered the dream he had just now, and seeing Lu Jue so close, he felt a little uncomfortable, so he immediately sat up.

"Still..." Lu Jue looked at the tears still hanging from the corners of his eyes, and wanted to reach out to help him wipe them off.

Xie still turned his head away from him: "Go back to the bedroom and sleep."

Lu Jue stopped in mid-air.He glanced at Xie Yiran, then reached out and picked him up into the bedroom.

"What... what are you doing?" Xie Yiran struggled in his arms.

Lu Jue gently put him on the bed and covered him with the quilt: "You sleep on the bed, I'll sleep outside."

Xie Yiran was taken aback for a moment, then Lu Jue bent over and kissed him on the forehead, as light as water. "Sleep better." After he finished speaking, he straightened out of the bedroom and closed the door.

Looking at the light in the crack of the door connecting the bedroom to the living room, it should be that the light in the living room has been turned on.Without Xie still by his side, he could only sleep with the light on.

Xie was still lying on the bed, but could no longer sleep peacefully.All that lingered in his heart was the dream just now, and the heartache in the dream was still there. At the moment when he woke up from the dream just now, he could hardly distinguish the dream from the reality.

Why did I recognize at the end of the dream that the person in the dream was actually Lu Jue, but still hugged him tightly?

Xie still shook his head, no, he loves Lu Heng.

Maybe, I just thought of him as Lu Heng.

Xie was still lying on the bed looking at the ceiling, the face that was always lingering appeared in front of his eyes, handsome facial features, some mixed-race silhouette, nice smile, a little gentle.

But, is it Lu Heng's or Lu Jue's?But suddenly they couldn't tell the difference.

Xie was still a little flustered, he immediately sat up on the bed, feeling some inexplicable fear in his heart.I love Lu Heng, I will not fall in love with others.

But now Lu Heng has left, taking away his love and hope, leaving only sadness and confusion.Although I always wanted to let go, I knew that my life was not good.

I have been trying my best to forget him, and I don't want to suffer the pain of losing and not being able to ask for it anymore.

But what happened to me now?Why is my heart so confused, why do I feel like I can't figure out anything?

When I woke up in bed in the morning, the sun was already bright, piercing through the curtains.Xie Yiran checked the time, it was already 9:05.

He got up immediately to wash and cook.

When they arrived at the living room, they saw Lu Jue bring out the prepared breakfast from the kitchen.

"If you don't wake up again, I'm going to bring you over." Lu Jue put the breakfast on the table, looked at him and smiled.

Xie still felt sorry: "Sorry, I got up late."

"I would like you to stay in bed," Lu Jue directly pushed him to sit down at the table, put a cup of warm milk into his hand, and said with a smile, "Hurry up and eat."

There are two fried eggs on the table. The egg core is half-cooked, tender yellow and moderate, with milk and bread with bacon and lettuce sandwiched.

Xie Yiran looked at the carefully prepared meals on the table. He wanted to say something, but when he saw the good mood on Lu Jue's face, he hesitated.

In fact, Lu Jue's injury has almost recovered. He can carry himself to the bed and cook by himself.

But Xie still knew that Lu Jue didn't mention it because he wanted to keep him for a while.

But Xie still didn't want to procrastinate anymore. After yesterday's incident, he didn't want to face Lu Jue anymore, because he could always remind himself of the past and mess up his thoughts.

I have made up my mind to forget it, and I absolutely can't be with Lu Jue, he is Lu Heng's younger brother.It was a mistake to be together before.

I have made Lu Heng unable to look back, and now I don't want to let Lu Jue fall into the vortex of feelings by mistake.Although I have never regretted my decision to be with Lu Heng desperately, but that decision ended in pain.

Now I have struggled to survive in pain because of my past relationship, so I don't want to fall into it again.

What's more, Xie still thought, what I love is Lu Heng, since I don't love Lu Jue, then I shouldn't give Lu Jue the illusion, I shouldn't give him hope.

He is different from himself, he can still have a normal life, he has a career and relatives.

"Lu Jue..." Xie Yiran held the cup but did not move.

Lu Jue looked at him with a gentle smile in his eyes: "Huh? What's the matter?"

"I haven't brushed my teeth yet...I'll go wash up first and then come back." Xie still didn't know why, he had made up his mind to say it just now, but when he saw Lu Jue looking at him with a smile on his face, he couldn't help it. And a little moved.

"I'm going to wash my face and brush my teeth first, you can eat first." After Xie Yiran finished speaking, he got up and walked towards the bathroom.

After a while, Xie Yiran came out from inside, he just saw Lu Jue drinking milk, he just sat at the table and waited for Xie Yiran, the breakfast on the table did not move.

When he saw Xie Yiran coming out, he turned his head and smiled again: "Come here, I'll wait for you to eat together, I'm hungry."

In fact, Lu Jue treats him very well, and Xie Yiran always knows it.But the more this happened, the more Xie still felt that he deserved it.

"Lu Jue," Xie Yiran sat down beside him, "I think you've almost recovered..."

"Yan, how about going somewhere with me today?" Lu Heng suddenly interrupted him, pushed the milk and breakfast towards his hand, and said with a smile: "Eat first, we'll talk about it when we come back."

Xie Yiran had no choice but to hesitate and took a sip of milk from his glass.Well, let's talk about it when we come back.

The place where Lu Jue drove Xie Yiran was a large playground.

Xie Yiran felt a little strange after getting out of the car: "What are you bringing me here for?"

Lu Jue took Xie Yiran's hand and went inside: "Play with me."

In fact, Xie Yiran had been to the playground a few times before, and he came with Lu Heng at that time.Sometimes when I think about it, he really looks like a child.

Except for thrilling games such as roller coasters, Lu Jue played Xie Zhan in the playground for more than half, and didn't take a rest until around 4:00 in the afternoon.

Xie Yiran was already exhausted, but seeing that Lu Jue still seemed to be unsatisfied, he had to pull himself to stand up and go to the claw machine machine.

Xie was still helpless, but he really wanted to laugh. He waved his hands quickly, as if he was lazy on the chair.

Lu Jue insisted on pulling him up and pushing him towards the claw machine, and said with a smile, "This is the last item, we'll go home when it's over."

I don't know what happened to Lu Jue today?Xie still thought that since this was the last item, let's go with him.

But a big man in a suit and leather shoes insists on standing in front of the machine and grabbing the toys inside, really...

Xie Yiran was amused, why do these two people look alike?

Lu Jue half pulled Xie Yiran to the front of the machine, and then put a coin into Xie Yiran's hand: "Catch it for me." He pointed at the pink rabbit inside through the transparent glass and said: " I want that."

"..." Xie still looked at him in astonishment, unable to believe that he wanted a pink rabbit.

Seeing him not moving, Lu Jue seemed to realize that his appearance just now was somewhat inconsistent with his usual appearance.

But he didn't hide it either. Seeing Xie still looking at himself with some uncertainty, he smiled and said, "You haven't even given me a gift. Give me one, just this rabbit." His tone was as if some children were asking A grown-up's plea for a gift.

Xie Yiran threw the coin in, and then started to help him catch the pink rabbit inside.It's a pity that he is really not good at this, so he didn't catch it.

Xie still looked at the rabbit inside apologetically.