15 diary

Since talking a lot with Lu Jue that night, Xie Yiran has gotten to know him better. After all, he grew up in the same environment as Lu Heng, and there are many similarities.

Maybe Xie still began to sympathize with Lu Jue's past, so now he is more caring for Lu Jue in normal times, and now he is more like a nanny taking care of a patient.

The exam is about to start in half a month, and Xie Yiran has been reading until midnight recently before going to sleep.

Because I often come and go to Lu Jue's place, but the mantou still needs someone to take care of it, Xie still can't carry the mantou directly, and finally put it at Mingchen's place.

Mingchen was very happy, holding the steamed buns as if he had adopted a child, and kissed the three of them.In the end, he pestered him to come and see Lu Jue, and he didn't forget to wait for lunch before leaving.

It's just that at the dinner table, Mingchen called Lu Jue "teacher's wife" casually, without any sense of being awkward at all.

This time Lu Jue didn't have the same cold face as before. He listened to each sentence very well, and the corners of his mouth were always slightly raised.

It just made Xie still uncomfortable, and finally urged Ming Chen to finish eating and leave.

In the evening, Xie Yiran bought new rice for cooking, but Lu Jue only said that he wanted to eat something simple.So Xie Yiran made scrambled eggs with tomatoes and Hepingqiao tofu soup.

In the end, Lu Jue only drank two bowls of soup, and did not touch the plate of scrambled eggs with tomatoes.

Xie Yiran didn't ask any questions, he just thought that his taste might not be good enough.He ate the dish by himself.

After Lu Jue glanced at Xie Yiran, he put his chopsticks on the dish again, but only took two simple bites.

Only then did Xie Yiran raise his head and ask, "Don't you like scrambled eggs with tomatoes?"

In fact, it can be seen that Lu Jue doesn't like to eat scrambled eggs with tomatoes, and he should have discovered that he never ate fried chicken legs when he ate with Ji Bei Mingchen and the others.

Xie Yiran realized that Lu Jue never seemed to express his likes and dislikes in front of him.what does he likeWhat don't you like?I never knew before that he was just by my side in the way of Lu Heng, hiding the real me.

Lu Jue smiled, and finally confessed this time: "I really don't like it very much. I don't eat sour food, and I can't eat any."

Seeing that he finally confessed, Xie Yiran also smiled and said: "Forget it, don't force it, I can eat it." Then, he dragged the food in front of him: "Today you can only drink soup."

At night, Xie still slept on the sofa.

It seems that because the last time he woke up and suddenly saw Lu Jue sitting in front of him, Xie still fell asleep, as if he felt something moving again.

He opened his eyes and saw Lu Jue opening the refrigerator in the living room. He took out a carton of milk and poured it into a cup.

"Lu Jue?" Xie Yiran sat up and called him.

Lu Jue looked back at him and said with a smile, "I can't sleep for a while."

"Don't you want to warm it up?"

"Go to sleep, I will do it myself."

Xie Yiran still stood up, saw that he seemed to have taken some snacks out of the refrigerator, walked over and asked him: "You didn't eat much for dinner, are you hungry? Eating snacks is not healthy, I will make you some... "

"It's okay, I'm not hungry." Lu Jue suddenly smiled for some reason, shook his head and said, "I don't have the habit of eating snacks either, this snack was brought by Mingchen today. I'm not hungry, I just took it out by the way, It's about to be put back."

Then he looked at the snacks on the table, hesitated for a moment, and put them back under Xie Yiran's gaze.

In fact, he was hungry, Xie still could tell.

For a month, although Lu Jue kept Xie Yiran here overnight on the grounds of "responsibility", but he never bothered him to get up in the middle of the night to cook and pour water.

Xie still knows that Lu Jue's "not hungry" now is because he doesn't want to bother him to do it himself.But he felt that it was indeed his responsibility to make the patient hungry, so he turned and went into the kitchen without saying a word.

After a while, Xie still made rice porridge and a plate of clear cabbage. It was simple, but the dishes were refreshing and not greasy. It was suitable for filling the stomach in the middle of the night.

Lu Jue was disrespectful and used it.

After this incident, Xie still began to ask about Lu Jue's taste, likes and dislikes.He felt that he did not take good care of him. He had taken care of Lu Jue for a month, but he never even asked him what he liked to eat and what he didn't like.He doesn't feel like he's being taken care of well.

As everyone knows, in Lu Jue's heart, Xie still can stay and take care of himself is already very good, how dare he dare to yell and pick and choose.What's more, I can't bear it.

Xie still thought that he would never let the patient go hungry again.I don't know if he got up in the middle of the night looking for milk to drink, was it because he couldn't sleep, or was it to fill his stomach?

During the day, Lu Jue would also ask Xie Yiran to go out with him, take a walk in the park, and bask in the sun.Life is a bit like an old man in his 70s and [-]s.

But Lu Jue felt that if Xie Yiran was by his side at that time, his life would have been the best.

Lu Jue basked in the sun, squinted his eyes, a little sleepy.

Xie was still reading with the book in his hand, the words under the sun were a bit dazzling.Then I heard Lu Jue say, "I've been having some insomnia lately."

Xie Yiran looked up at him, and said, "Then you can drink an extra glass of milk before going to bed, and I will change my dinner to something lighter. The phone has radiation, so you can't keep it by your side when you sleep."

"It's useless." Lu Jue said.Because there is a person in my heart.

Xie Yiran turned a page of the book, and said naturally: "It should work, Lu Heng couldn't sleep for several nights before, that's how I..."

As he spoke, he flicked his hand to flip the book.Why can't I forget it? When I think of him coming, it's so natural.

Lu Jue's originally relaxed expression of raising his head and squinting to face the sun immediately froze.

The two were speechless for a while.

The meal in the evening was indeed very light. After the two of them finished eating, Xie Yiran read a book for a few hours as usual, and went to bed when he felt sleepy at almost twelve o'clock.

Maybe it's because he hasn't slept much recently, Xie still sleeps more deeply than before, and he doesn't even know he was carried away in the middle of the night.

Lu Heng carried Xie Yiran into the bedroom, put him gently on the bed, and lay beside him, and he looked at him quietly.

Looking at his sleeping face is very peaceful, eyes closed, breathing evenly.He was very relaxed, maybe he no longer dreamed of that person every night in his dreams.Maybe he really started to forget him, but why did he mention it so easily today?

Lu Jue's heart tightened, he turned over, and gently embraced Xie Yiran's waist.

He pulled him into his arms, buried his breath into his neck, and absorbed his breath.

He remembered that Lu Heng said in his diary that he always liked to hug Yi Yi's waist when sleeping, it was very comfortable, and the feeling of hugging him tightly was as if he was always his own and couldn't break free.

When they met for the first time, he was still lying on the bed with Xie who had just finished his IV drip. He learned to put his arms around his waist naturally. Lu Yue's impulsiveness is tighter, but his body is still very fragile, and he really needs to protect it by himself.

But gradually he understands this seemingly fragile but stubborn person better, the traces in his heart are difficult to remove, and the person in his heart is difficult to replace.

Lu Jue hugged him tightly.Still, don't think of him again, give me a chance, and give yourself a chance.

When Xie Yiran woke up the next day, he found himself sleeping on the bed. He sat up and thought for a while, not knowing how he fell asleep on the bed.

When he arrived in the living room, he saw Lu Jue opening a book and reading it. He glanced at himself and replied knowingly: "I saw that you didn't sleep well last night, so I carried you to the bed to sleep. You Stay up late to read a book for a few days, and sleep well."

"Then where did you sleep?" Xie Yiran asked him with a frown, hesitant.

Originally, Lu Jue didn't intend to hide the matter of sharing the same bed last night, but seeing that Xie was still a little uncomfortable, he finally changed his words: "I couldn't sleep last night anyway, so I slept on the sofa for a while."

Only then did Xie Yiran say "um", and then said that he was going to cook, and he needed to wait for a while.After speaking, he immediately went into the bathroom to wash up.

Lu Jue frowned. Although he looked normal at ordinary times, he didn't expect Xie Yiran to mind the contact between the two after knowing that he was Lu Jue.

Even though everything happened to them before, Xie Yiran just acted as if nothing happened.

Xie Yiran still read the book for a long time at night.

It may be because the quality of sleep is not good recently, and I am sleepy quickly, and finally fell asleep unconsciously.

Lu Jue suffered from insomnia again, maybe it was because Xie Yiran slept comfortably with his arms around him last night, and it reminded him of his previous feelings. This feeling of not wanting to quit once he started a mess made him want to hug him again.

Walking into the living room, he saw that the person on the sofa was already sound asleep, so he bent down and carried him into the bedroom, and slept on the bed with his arms around him again.

Lu Jue felt helpless in his heart, and also felt a little funny. Is this considered "stealing"?

Xie still woke up the next day and found himself sleeping on the bed again.

When he arrived in the living room, Lu Jue was sitting on the sofa reading a book as usual, looking like he was waiting for his meal.

So he didn't say anything else, after washing up, Xie Yiran walked into the kitchen and started making breakfast.

In the next few days, every time Xie Yiran woke up, he found himself sleeping on the bed. After a week of going back and forth like this, Xie Yiran finally couldn't bear to say: "Lu Jue, you need rest more than me, so I'll sleep on the sofa from now on. "

Lu Jue was drinking water, and gently put down the water glass: "No need, I don't have insomnia anymore," he smiled, "Maybe it's because of sleeping on the sofa."

"Aren't you suffering from insomnia?" Xie Yiran asked.

Lu Jue let out a "hmm", got up and went into the room.He deliberately avoided Xie Yiran's inquiries and discussions.

This day Lin Fei called and said that the maple leaves in Hongye Zhuang were turning red, and he wanted to invite everyone to go and have a look, and Mingchen and Ji Bei would go together.

Xie Yiran felt that he hadn't seen Ji Bei for quite a while, so he agreed to go and have a look. It happened that autumn was here and the weather was getting colder, so Xie Yiran wanted to go back to his house to find some clothes to change.

Lu Jue wanted to drive the patient with him on the grounds that the patient should go out to relax.

Because he was worried that Lu Jue's arm was not fully healed, Xie Yiran helped Lu Heng drive the car and went back to the original place to get some clothes.

Xie was still looking for clothes in the room, and Lu Jue was sitting in the living room waiting for him.

Xie Yiran opened the cabinet and took some clothes, but he didn't seem to remember where he put his annual card to enter Hongye Village?

Hongyezhuang can be regarded as a tourist attraction in D city, and the scenic spot is very large.In addition to the magnificent maple leaf landscape in autumn, the lake water and green construction in spring and summer are also beautiful, so many citizens visit here in all seasons.

If you don't want to pay 20 yuan for each entry, it is very cost-effective to apply for an annual card.Even if one year expires, it can be renewed for two months.

It's just that I haven't been there recently, and now I don't know where to put it?

Xie Yiran searched the house for a while but couldn't find it, and finally thought that there seemed to be a box for sundries in the cabinet, and some things that were not commonly used would be placed there.

After opening the box, I saw the card at a glance.He reached for it and saw the wallet in the box.

It was the one I bought for Lu Heng. Last time because of my mood, I don't know where to put it?

Unexpectedly, I still put it away properly.Just put it in a box that is not commonly used, just because I am afraid of seeing it often.

The family photo in the wallet was also thrown away by myself because of too much grief at the time, and now it is empty.

Xie Yiran put the wallet back and closed the box.

He turned around and saw that the wall where "Family Portrait" was originally hung was empty, and the painting on the wall seemed to be taken off by himself at some point.

Xie still sat on the bed in the bedroom, looking at the "family portrait" portrait that he put between the wardrobe and the wall, feeling a little absent-minded.

Those from the past have started to emerge.Maybe it will take some time, but I will let it go.Lu Heng, should I forget you?

Lu Jue waited outside for a long time but Xie still packed up and went out. When he came in, he saw Xie still in a daze.

"Still?" Lu Jue called him softly, and sat down beside him.

Xie Yiran looked up and saw him: "Lu..."

He choked on the name he wanted to respond to, Lu Jue, it wasn't Lu Heng, it was Lu Jue, what happened to him?Maybe it's just because they look so much alike.

"What's wrong?" Lu Jue's tone was a little worried.

Xie Yiran shook his head and said in a low voice, "...it's nothing."

Maybe it's because he can feel something, Lu Jue can see that something is wrong with Xie, what else can he do like this?He hugged him: "It's okay, I'm here."

Xie still didn't know why Lu Jue said this suddenly, he obviously didn't say anything.

He wanted to push him away a little, but the feeling of being in his arms made him need him a lot, and made him a little greedy. He felt that this was actually very selfish. He knew that he was Lu Jue, but he always wanted to let him replace him.

Lu Jue patted him on the back, and asked softly, "What's wrong? Yi Yi, what's wrong?"

Xie Yiran slowly pushed away his embrace, and shook his head: "It's nothing, it's just that I suddenly don't want to go to Hongyezhuang."

Lu Jue smiled and said, "Then we won't go, let's go back."

"Lu Jue," Xie Yiran said, "I want to stay here tonight and not go to your place for now."

Lu Jue's smile faltered, but he still nodded: "Okay. I'll stay here with you."

Xie Yiran looked at him, a little embarrassed.In fact, he suddenly didn't want to go to Lu Jue's place, just because he didn't want to see Lu Jue at this time.