You are the sunny scenery in my heart

Yes, it’s not just that Lao Zhang cheated on me once, but I didn’t tell the truth. I was worried, not because I was worried that the road I planned to walk with Lao Zhang would not be able to go on, but because I was afraid that I would see him in the future. Zhou Ran always looks worthy of sympathy, and I don't want him to look at me with sympathetic eyes.

This is my tolerance. Lao Zhang thought that he had already cheated the world, and I pretended to be ignorant, but I didn't expect that I would become a joke because of it.

In the evening, I wanted to visit Lao Zhang on a whim. I didn’t see each other for a few days and felt that the two of us were a bit unfamiliar. Even friends have to walk around frequently. Lao Zhang gave me the key to his house early in the morning.I didn't say hello in advance, so I went in directly.When I opened the door, the sound filled my ears for an instant, and my heart suddenly rose to my throat, and then fell heavily on the ground.

When I was hesitating whether to leave, I only heard Lao Zhang yell heartily, probably it was over, and Lao Zhang was going to go to the bathroom naked, but unexpectedly saw me standing at the door.

"Xiao An? Why do you..."

Looking at the bewildered old Zhang, I suddenly felt a surge of anger in my heart. I don't know why, but I felt that my dignity was ruthlessly trampled on.He can find someone, but why did he bring him home, and why was he bumped into by me.Feeling embarrassed, I turned my head and left without saying a word.

Sitting on the bus, looking at the lit street lights, my mood suddenly darkened, and there was an indescribable bitterness, which blocked my throat and made me unable to make a sound.Am I sad about Lao Zhang?Or was it because of his weakness after his disguise was punctured?Taking out the phone, there have been many missed calls and text messages, none of which have been answered.

If I could pretend not to know before and continue to live with Lao Zhang and the two, then this unexpected encounter means that the two of them have no reason to be together again, and it also confirms Zhou Ran's That sentence of advice: Lao Zhang is not a good bird.

So in the end, my frustration is the general trend, and Zhou Ran always knew that there would be such a day sooner or later.

I really miss five years ago. At that time, I didn't understand anything, and I didn't know what it felt like to be frustrated, because a Zhou Ran could fill my world completely.Everything in my mind is related to him, and every decision I make revolves around him. The songs I like, and even the movies I like, all have Zhou Ran's shadow in them.

Today, I am frustrated.Because the mask of hypocrisy that I have worked so hard to weave has been pierced.Because I can't find a better reason to pretend to be happy in front of others, now I am a person who is disgusted in name.Although the relationship with Lao Zhang exists in name only.

Wandering alone in this city, it was only when I was alone that I realized that the sound of car brakes was so harsh, and the oily smoke from the night market was so smoky.

When I got home, it was already eleven o'clock in the middle of the night, and the people on the street had disappeared.

Lao Zhang was squatting in front of my house, and when he saw me coming back, he immediately came over. "Why did you come back so late, I've been waiting for you for a long time."

"You go away, the two of us, this is it."

Lao Zhang fell silent and followed me into the house.Sitting righteously on my sofa, I poured him a glass of water.

"Actually, An Ji, you have never really liked me. We are together. There is a lock on the door of your heart, but I am not the one who holds the key. So sooner or later there will be such a day, I know, I I don't believe that two people who love each other will reject sex life, even if they don't want to, they will at least occasionally desire it in their hearts, and if you do it, you don't even want to have sex with me.

"The person you love, I already know who it is. Zhou Ran, right!"

I was surprised how he knew.

"Do you still remember that time we two had hot pot? I was very curious why Zhou Ran appeared later, and why it happened that you were drunk and unconscious. Now I know that he has been following you all this time. We He will follow wherever you go. He was also the one who took you home that night."

I was speechless, it turned out that Zhou Ran was by my side all the time, it turned out that Zhou Ran prepared all the meals, it turned out that he had been paying attention to my life all the time.

"What's the matter with you all? Is Zhou Ran poisonous? Everyone likes what he likes so much. How is I worse than him? You know how much I am when I treat you to food and you say it's casual. Are you sad? How powerless am I when I try my best and can’t move you, and I can’t make you happy from the bottom of my heart? You know, when I want something from you, and you try my best not to give it, I will How lonely is it?"

"Of course you are no worse than him, but my door lock is rusted. I can't open my heart to you..."

"...Okay, An Ji, since you bumped into me today, I have nothing to say, let's get together and break up!" After speaking, he left angrily.

If there is really nothing to support a relationship, it will be like me and Lao Zhang, with only a dry shell, and when the wind blows, there will be no ashes left.

Lao Zhang and I, the muddle-headed love affair, ended indistinctly