You are the sunny scenery in my heart

In the middle of the night, I heard my grandfather lose his breath, and my mother and uncle hurried over to him, crying, and begged my grandfather, and also to God: "Dad! You have to hold on, hold on, hold on! "

The people in the room became restless, and Zhou Ran hugged me tightly again. The more motionless the two of us are at this moment, the more sensible we become. If we are busy, we will only help more and more.The two of them curled up in a corner, cuddling each other, the fear in their hearts was beyond words, and they wept silently.

The yelling on the sickbed became louder and louder, and grandpa's more and more worried gasps could be vaguely heard.Could it be that the end is approaching?I don't know where the courage came from, I suddenly broke free from Zhou Ran's tightly encircling my hands, and ran to the sick bed, the remaining rationality was talking: "Didn't the doctor say that I can still work for at least three or four days? Why is it that one day?" None of them..."

Compared with my uncle and the others, my voice is extremely weak.However, who can stop what is about to happen?Uncle, mother and aunt shouted desperately.This is a human criticism. Often when something is about to be lost, knowing that it is impossible to keep it, you still try your best to delay it for a while.

Under everyone's desperate efforts to persuade him to stay, grandpa left cruelly and closed his eyes peacefully.When leaving, I feel at ease.My sons and daughters have already married and established businesses. Perhaps the only one who is a little bit reluctant is grandma. In this world, how can we bear her?

Personal experience?Why leave her alone?

"Maybe this is also a way to love her?"

I looked at Zhou Ran suspiciously. I don't know why he said that, or he felt that leaving someone behind can be said to be true.

Another love for him.

"Think about it, grandpa needs to lie on the bed when he is alive, and grandma has to be by his side all the time and take good care of him. A patient, no matter how strong he is, will drag others down."

"So what about you, when you left, did you also want to drag me down?"

"I was—"

Zhou Ran didn't say it out. In my expectant eyes, he swallowed back what he wanted to say.

"You all did the same thing at the same time, but have you ever thought about how much self-blame the abandoned people have? We blame ourselves for not being able to keep you and make you die. You know, we really Do you need the care you think you think? Do you think that you will really live better if you leave me? Do you think grandma will feel more at ease in the future because she doesn't have to take care of grandpa anymore? Do you?"

Zhou Ran was speechless after being questioned by me, he turned his head and didn't dare to look at me, not knowing what was going on in his heart.

Shockingly, a coffin was carried out from under the shelter from the wind and rain. It was black and very big.I heard from my mother that when I bought the coffin, there was a dispute because my aunt was dissatisfied with the second-class coffin bought by my uncle, and quarreled with my uncle. My uncle said that he was not rich and powerful, so why bother to slap his face to pretend to be fat.

Anyway, the person has already passed away, so what kind of coffin is put into it, there is nothing to care about.

When they were sent to be cremated, except for the uncle and aunt, everyone else waited quietly at home, waiting for a person who was completely intact yesterday, and when he came back in a while, it was already a jar of gray ashes.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help crying.

Zhou Ran wiped my tears, looking at his increasingly plump cheeks, there was a trace of resentment, but also a trace of peace of mind.

In their hearts, letting go is the right way to be good to their loved ones, and they did it according to this. However, all they got was complaints.

When the car came back, it hadn't stopped yet, and everyone was crying. In such an atmosphere, my tears couldn't stop flowing down. I tried to hold back my tears while persuading my mother not to cry out my eyes.

The uncle holds the ashes of the grandfather tightly in his arms. The life of a person, he gave birth to four children, and the four children have already married. He has his own fields, and the grain is plentiful. to attend his funeral.There is no eulogy from the priest at the funeral in the countryside, only a big "Dian" character, and a photo of grandpa placed in the most conspicuous place in the house.

Really disappeared, a person really disappeared like this.

With Zhou Ran by my side, I was suddenly very scared. I was afraid that one day he would disappear too, and I would cry helplessly just like my grandma.At this moment, I want to forgive him, I want to forget all the hardships I suffered before, and forget that I only have one eye left.

Zhou Ran also felt emotional, and kept crying, "Anji, if one day, I, like grandpa, accidentally leave you behind, what will you do!"

"you dare!"

I know he dare not, he said, I remember, in this life, apart from my mother, I am the most precious person to him, how could he be willing to leave first.

"Anji, come back, be with me again, we two will live together again, and forget all the unpleasant things in the past, okay?"

I pushed away Zhou Ran's embrace, yes, I was reluctant in my heart, now, we are not children anymore, each of us has beliefs that we think are worth spending our whole life, and each belief is different, everyone hopes Your own things and what you do are respected by others, so who is willing to give up what you cherish?

The two of us have already lost our way. As for whether we can return together, it depends on how God arranges, but not now.