You are the sunny scenery in my heart

Sure enough, when I opened the window the next day, a cold wind blew in my face, which made me shiver.

Standing on the balcony, I saw that the green belt in the community was almost gone, and my eyes were full of desolate and decadent scenes.

After having breakfast with Gao Ze, I went downstairs for a walk. When I stepped on the autumn leaves, I could feel the softness. Sometimes a gust of wind would blow the leaves on the ground and hit me. I couldn't help tightening my clothes. Keep your head down and try not to expose yourself to the cold wind.

Gao Ze noticed that I was a little absent-minded, so he helped me tighten my collar with concern, and I looked at him with a smile.

He asked me: "What are you thinking, so engrossed."

"Suddenly want to write articles."

"Touching the scene and falling in love?"

I smiled and nodded. Most of the time, it’s just an inadvertence, and some things will suddenly break into my brain. If I don’t write them down in time, they will disappear without a trace at another inadvertent time. It has nothing to do with memory. People just wait until they encounter a specific scene before they think of a specific thing and express it in a specific way.This is something that can’t be met, so I think that those who shut themselves in the room and wait for the spring of Evans have something wrong.

"Don't you want to paint a picture?"

Gao Ze shook his head, turned around meaningfully, and walked forward with me.He's a creative guy, but it bothers me that since I've been with him, I haven't seen him draw anything other than work.Maybe the time other than work is spent with me, and there is no time for creation at all!It seems that I am too selfish, and one person occupies all of him.

So I wanted to leave him some space alone, so I went to the supermarket without packing, and it happened that I ran into Lao Zhang here.

"Anji, do you know where Zhou Ran has gone? I haven't seen him for many days."

The name I am most afraid of hearing is like a curse. Once it is mentioned, my heart is very tight and I can't let it go.

"But I heard that he resigned. He resigned quietly. I don't know why. It seems that the world has disappeared. Did something happen to you two?"

"What can happen to the two of us? Maybe he just thinks this job is not suitable for him!"

After leaving Lao Zhang, I lost all intention of continuing shopping, so I simply turned to go home.

On the way, I kept repeating what Lao Zhang said in my mind. Zhou Ran had really resigned, and his only clue to the city might be cut off because of this. It was easy to see him, but this time, I seemed to have lost the final bargaining chip, and felt that the connection with Zhou Ran had been completely severed. For some reason, I was very afraid of this feeling.

If Zhou Ran really goes to another city, hides his identity there, gets married and has children, and lives an ordinary and ordinary life, will it be impossible for me to see him again in this life?A nameless despair enveloped me, making it hard for me to breathe.

When I got home, Gao Ze was staring at a blank drawing board in a daze. When he saw me coming back, he hurried over to ask my health.But she was not in the mood to make out with him, and left him alone in the living room coldly.After a while, he knocked on the door lightly and asked me if I wanted something to drink?

I said no.

He didn't ask me why I was depressed all of a sudden, but left quietly.

When I was like this before, Zhou Ran would sneer: "Hypocritical! It is said that young literary and artistic youths are either coquettish or hypocritical. It seems that what you said is not bad at all. You are both coquettish and hypocritical." Then the two of them inevitably fought each other, Rather than saying that, it might as well be that Zhou Ran asked me to fight for a while, and then the atmosphere became less dignified. Zhou Ran's method, for me, has been tried and tested.

Gao Ze will not be like this. When I am in a bad mood, he will give me enough space and time to digest it alone. After I have dealt with my emotions, I will play around as usual.

Everyone has their own way of love that they think is the most beautiful, so don't ask another person to love in the way they like.Lest you lose your head and lose your wife and soldiers.

"Anji, do you know? I just saw a news on the Internet, saying that because of the El Nino effect, the winter in China this year is warmer than usual!"

Gao Ze told me cheerfully, that is really good, I am a person who is afraid of cold, so this winter may not be too sad.

"Gao Ze, it's so cold, why don't we go eat hot pot! I treat you to eat, it's very delicious."

Can't wait for Gao Ze to agree, he pulled him out of the house, stopped a taxi and went straight to Rick Street.

Gao Ze was amazed at my familiarity. After ordering the ingredients, he quietly asked me: "Anji, do you always come here? It feels like you know this place like your own home."

In one sentence, I was stopped by the question again, how should I answer it?Tell him directly that in the past, you always came with Zhou Ran?It's just that this sentence is too cruel for him and me. "No, occasionally I get a raise in salary, or I get paid for the manuscript, so I come here for a luxury. Although it is a bit expensive, it is really a rare delicacy."

Gao Ze dubiously ate hot hot pot with me.

After feasting, on the way back, I asked Gao Ze: "Is it delicious?"

Unexpectedly, he looked at me seriously and said, "No! An Ji!"

"Tell me the truth, did Zhou Ran always bring you here before?"

Surprised by his insight, he was speechless in embarrassment.

"I knew that you would not forget him so easily. How ridiculous it is for me to foolishly think that you have left your life with him and are going to have a big fight with me! In other words, yesterday you were frustrated It must be because of him!" After speaking, he looked at my eyes tentatively.

I didn't intend to deny it, it's not that I don't want to deny it, it's that I don't think it's necessary, if he really thinks that I am like that, no matter what I say, I will be like that in his heart.

Gao Ze walked in front, and I timidly followed behind, like a child who made a mistake, waiting to be scolded or beaten by his father.The two of them, in the cold wind, one in front of the other, accompanied by the west slanting sun, stepped on the leaves that were still soft yesterday.

"let's break up!"

A very abrupt sentence, Gao Ze said with his back to me.

"Why?" I thought that the two of us might just need a big fight to be fine, maybe at most he scolded me a few words, and I sincerely repented, and everything would be fine.

"Anji, when I started to realize that you didn't put Zhou Ran down at all, I thought I was big enough to bear that there was another person living in your heart, but I was wrong. I am shamefully a selfish person, and I can't say that we There is no fate between the two, it's just that we met too late, if I met you first, the person who is heartbroken now must be Zhou Ran! Hehe!"

"But I love you!"

"But you love Zhou Ran more!"

"Gao Ze..."

"You better go!"

I am confident that I am a person who is good at planning, but now, I can't count it as being driven away by Gao Ze.I didn't have any psychological preparation at all, and my begging was fruitless, so I had to accept it silently.

A decision without a plan brought about a hasty escape.

Maybe this is what I deserve. I could have had a sincere relationship, I could have started to be happy, but I didn't know how to cherish it. I kept challenging Gao Ze's bottom line and thought complacently. Fortunately, he didn't find out. He was not a person with extraordinary mind, how could he do things in a seamless manner, Gao Ze said that he hurt him again and again.What he said was not wrong at all, it might really be impossible for me to get out of Zhou Ran's shadow.How can a person who loves to the bottom of his heart just forget it?It seems that I am the one who lost his wife and lost his army!