You are the sunny scenery in my heart

After all, Rick Street is still too luxurious for me, and all I can afford is a shopping mall of the same level as the wealth field.Sometimes I would ask Xin Jing to go shopping together, although I really didn't lack anything.

Sometimes when the mood is not so bright, I choose to go by myself. From the aisle through the stylish glass window, I see the dazzling array of objects inside, and my mood gradually relaxes.It's not money worship, it's because the products in each store are neatly displayed and eye-catching.

Unexpectedly, I actually saw my military training instructor in college here.

He walked up to me, greeted me with a smile on his face: "Little Anji is getting bigger now, I have to say hello to you first when I meet you. What's the matter, what work do you do now?"

I was a little ashamed when he said that, and admittedly, I wasn't going to say hello to him because I'd be embarrassed!

The two sat in the coffee shop. The instructor is now almost 35 years old, and the edges and corners of his face are beginning to appear. The reason for smoking for a long time is that his voice has become very generous.It may be because of his fatness that he didn't see his surroundings. He said that he is now the father of two children. The older one is six years old and the younger one is still in his infancy.I am happy for him from the bottom of my heart, because once, I secretly liked him.

At that time, because I had just stepped into the university, I was very unfamiliar with seeing every face and listening to everyone's accent.When I met the instructor, he greeted us with his authentic hometown accent, and my eyes lit up instantly. We came from the same place and spoke the same words.

After coming and going, we gradually got to know each other, joked with each other from time to time, and occasionally went out to eat like buddies, chatting and chatting.

However, something I didn't expect happened. The instructor invaded my heart like a bottle of poison, which made me itchy. I seemed to like him.

After realizing this problem, every time I saw him, I would blush involuntarily and stutter when I spoke. The instructor doesn’t like cowardly people. Since then, I can’t do anything well. The instructor couldn’t bear to teach me, but he also Don't call me brother or brother anymore.

The instructor was originally a national defense student in the same school, and he was not a few years older than me. I basically knew what he thought. Who would want to make friends with a submissive and timid person?So I also wisely disappeared into the scope of his care. Every day in the military training, I stood in the most inconspicuous position. During the training, I was just ordinary and serious, neither lagging behind nor ahead.Gradually, the two of us lost contact.

Until today when we met here, he generously invited me to drink coffee and cappuccino, and I told the waiter to put more sugar.

"Why? Do you like sweets?"

"No, I'm afraid of suffering!"

I am afraid that when I am chatting with you, I will suddenly think of my cowardice and cowardice at that time, dare to love but dare not speak, I am afraid that it will be more bitter than coffee.

The instructor took a sip of coffee, looked at the table and said something that stunned me, "Actually, An Ji, I liked you at that time."

Is the instructor drunk?Get drunk with coffee?

"What? What did you say? I don't quite understand!"

The instructor looked into my eyes seriously and said: "I said that I liked you at that time! On the first Sunday after we met, when we went to Haidilao, everyone else was drinking, and you were the only one. I was drinking fruit orange. I still remember that you pretended to be drunk and pretended to have a big tongue. It was so funny! Then I found that I seemed to like you a little bit, like your innocence, kindness and purity, It’s like taking a drug, you can’t get out of it.”

Just like a dream, there is an angel calling my name in the dream, asking me to fly with him.It was so unbelievable that I panicked for a moment, and the instructor said that he also liked me at that time!

He liked me!

But why didn't he tell me then, why didn't he tell me until now?Now that I have said it, for me, it is a tragedy or a tragedy or a tragedy!

After a thousand turns in my heart, I smiled! "Thank you for taking me so seriously!" All I can say is thank you. After all, it's too late. After all, I have Zhou Ran, and he has a wife and children.

But still strange, "Then why didn't you tell me?"

He smiled calmly and said, "At that time, I might be about to talk about it, but you suddenly became cold to me, and you couldn't cover it up! I realized that you should know my intentions and start to dislike me! Those I was so sad that I cried secretly. I was accidentally bumped into by other instructors, and I explained that someone in my family had passed away! Haha, thinking about it now, I was really young and frivolous at that time, and I still thought you were wishful thinking Would love me to come as much as I do!"

The instructor said it was very pertinent, but in fact, I should be the one who should look at myself.

The instructor was finally relieved. He told the secret he had buried for many years to the protagonist in the secret, making this secret a story with readers. He was very happy, because the person he liked knew his love, and he did not waste his life.And I, another secret holder, can't tell this secret to its protagonist. I don't want the instructor to feel cowardly on the basis of regret, I don't want him to go through the ups and downs I just went through, and I don't want us Knowing that cruel fact, the two clearly loved each other, but they passed by each other because they didn't take a step forward at the beginning.I can't help but smile bitterly in my heart, life really makes fun of people.A person, a relationship, missed is a lifetime!

"Why did you marry a woman later? Don't you like men?"

"No! I only liked you as a man. Maybe it's because you are too girllike in every way. I didn't always like boys. You were an exception. In fact, I also thought about it later. Even if we were together, we would leave Not too far, after all, a man will marry a woman in the end."

He said the same thing, and Zhou Ran said the same thing. Could it be that two men really can't live a lifetime?Two men are destined to part ways one day?

When saying goodbye, I took the initiative to give him a hug, fulfilling my long-cherished wish.

Back home, watch a movie called "Permanent Residence".

After chasing love for more than ten years, I still don't know what is love for someone, what is life, and what kind of talent is worthy of marriage.The instructor liked me and is now married, Zhou Ran liked me and is now married.How redundant am I? I love me, but I still want to marry someone else without hesitation!Why is homosexuality divided into 1 and 0?Why is the life of 1 not so difficult?They can marry women, have children, and receive authoritative legal protection, but I can only watch them happy, attend their wedding, and wish them a happy family!The more I think about it, the more pitiful and pathetic I feel!I will be thirty soon, and the time when I could pick and choose is long gone. Zhou Ran's departure is the beginning of my catastrophe. In the days to come, I will never meet someone like him. Perhaps, I will die alone like this, enjoying the loneliness of a lonely life alone.

One person falls asleep, one person wakes up, one person finds that his quilt has been kicked to nowhere, one person cooks, one person uses a big dining table, and one person thinks about Zhou Ran and recalls the past.