You are the sunny scenery in my heart

In the morning, while having breakfast, I received a call from Zhou Ran, saying that the company organized a trip, and each employee could bring a family member, but Zhang Jing didn't have time, so she asked me if I could go with her!

If I refuse on the spot, in what capacity should I go?I am no longer the one who lives with him.

"Think about it. On Saturday, I will go to you and give me an answer!"

My mood is affected by such a thing, I can't write the article, complaining about Zhou Ran, not because I have already separated, but I still have to be involved in this way, which makes it difficult for me to do it. From my perspective, I am the one who can make Zhou Ran cheat. man, and he was ready to move.

When it comes to emotions, there is no one who is right or wrong. I often hear people say that if it is a relationship between three people, the one who is not loved is usually called the mistress.So of the three of us, who is the one who is not loved?

I thought I had already refused, so I would not come suddenly. I didn't expect that on the weekend, I would suddenly drive here, and the journey was full of dust.

"Anyway, you don't have anything else to do. It's time to relax. It's not good for your health to be bored at home all the time. Go, I promise you will feel that this trip is worthwhile."

I'm a person who doesn't have any opinions. If others call me, I will lose my backbone, not to mention that person is Zhou Ran.So he changed into light clothes and prepared to go with Zhou Ran.Zhou Ran looked at me changing clothes without hesitation, "You have really changed, you never wore sportswear before."

Zhou Ran is right. In the past, I hated the baggy sportswear. However, some clothes fit well, but they were not suitable for wearing. However, the baggy sportswear, no matter how exaggerated your movements, can bear it. Live, just like a person, who doesn't want to find someone who is completely suitable, but the one you think is completely suitable may not be suitable for him, it is better to find someone who is so ordinary that you are not picky about anything.

"That's right, everyone will change." If there are no redundant words, I'm afraid to say too much, to let Zhou Ran know how good at disguising I am.

I have been in the society for so long, and I have ridden in countless cars, but none is as comfortable as Zhou Ran's car, even though I died in this car.

When I arrived at Zhou Ran’s work unit, there were all unfamiliar faces, but there were no sharp faces. Everyone looked very kind. I am flattered, because I feel that I am completely different from Zhou Ran.

After a while of inexplicable pleasantries, we set off.

The elder brother sitting next to him has been playing with his head buried in the iPhone 6P. He is engrossed in playing, and I am engrossed in watching it too.But in fact, I don't like Apple. My personality is a bit flamboyant, and I don't like Apple's closed system.But what is rare is that Apple's mini-games are really good.

"Da Zhouer, you haven't introduced him yet, who is this one of yours?"

A very thin person, and the only one I don't think has a good face, asked Zhou Ran.If it is someone in the circle, it is definitely a bitch.

If you don't want to talk to him, you don't go to see him.

"Okay, then I will give you a grand introduction. This one is my childhood friend, my best friend since childhood."

I looked at Zhou Ran, lying without blushing at all.

"Oh, it turned out to be him. I used to hear Zhou Ran talk about you, saying that you are so good. I didn't believe it. When I saw you today, it turned out to be true."

"Yeah, Zhou Ran always talked about you, but he never said that you are so handsome." An uncle with a beard looked at me and said.

"Go away, Lao Zhang, this is my friend, I don't allow you to harm me!" Sure enough, no wonder the eyes were full of laughter.

The skinny man was obviously not very happy, but he was paying attention to Zhou Ran from the beginning to the end. Although his movements were not obvious, they couldn't escape my eyes. After all, he had been a base for so long.

I looked at Zhou Ran, who was chatting with others with great interest, consciously or unconsciously avoiding that skinny man's eyes.I suddenly understood something, and finally realized that I was being self-indulgent.Thinking about it this way, it made me feel a lot easier. I don't have to continue to carry the burden of my mistress, because the purpose of my trip is just to escort Zhou Ran.

"Zhou Ran, I seem to be a little motion sick, let me rely on you."

Zhou Ran was obviously taken aback, but quickly got into the mood, posing in the most comfortable position for me, allowing me to lean forward with peace of mind.Before closing my eyes, I purposely took a look at the skinny man, and he was really angry.

He actually fell asleep, and didn't wake up from the bumps all the way, and Zhou Ran's back was the most reassuring.

I was woken up by Zhou Ran, and I will arrive at the destination soon. A male staff member in the car acts as a tour guide, and imitates the tour guide's emphasis to introduce us to the place we will arrive soon.It is an artificial intelligence, very huge, similar to the legendary crop circle, it is to use crops to paint, one after another huge paintings.

arrival.

On weekends, people are indispensable, but it is already very good, and there is a place for activities. Zhou Ran bought me a bottle of Coke, but he didn't know that I had quit.So many things, so many things happened later, he missed them all.It's like that movie, the five years that were stolen, we missed each other.

The wheat field below is not bad, with the majestic momentum as imagined.If it was a long time ago, it could indeed be regarded as a magnificent painting. However, after the crop circle was discovered, it was worthless. Sure enough, the Chinese are still used to copying.I was leaning on the iron railing, and next to me was a man with long bangs, who was looking into the distance thoughtfully, his thoughts had transcended this world and gone to a quieter place.Looking at his bangs, I suddenly remembered myself many years ago, because I liked Quan Zhilong very much, so I kept the same long bangs as him, and thought it was cool to flick them from time to time.Zhou Ran always said that I was artificial, and I still complained that he didn't understand trends.

Zhou Ran was called away by that skinny man just now, and his expression was hurried, and I knew what was going on without saying anything.It's not his fault that Zhou Ran's charm has not diminished and he is still so likable, if he has not abandoned Zhang Jing.

The unshaven uncle came up to me and asked me: "What's your relationship with Zhou Ran?"

I was very surprised, didn't I say it very clearly, "We are Fa Xiao!" "Don't pretend, I can tell at a glance that you are a gay, you are Zhou Ran's ex-boyfriend!"

Neither agreed nor denied.There's nothing to hide. "I knew it, but I also admire you very much. The ex-boyfriend's invitation can still come, and few can do it." "Because we are friends!" "Hehe, you treat me as a three-year-old child! You guys We still love each other, otherwise we wouldn’t call the other one and come.”

Whatever he says, I don't want to pay attention to it, and I won't have any intersection with him anyway. "Old Zhang, the manager is looking for you!" Zhou Ran rushed over to make a rescue. "What were you talking about just now?"

On the way back, Zhou Ran asked me quietly. "We are discussing what kind of experience it is to be liked by someone we don't like." After saying this, I looked at Zhou Ran, who was surprised, as if he thought I would not know.

People will grow up, one day.

It's autumn, the weather is getting cooler, and the afternoon is sunny. Since the two of us separated, I don't seem to have cared about whether the weather around me is good or bad. Today, the rare sun is shining.

After the last trip with an impure purpose, Zhou Ran piously expressed his humility to me.Like a long time ago, the two sat on the second floor of Rick Street in a well-decorated room.When I was young, I was moved to tears by this thoughtful outfit.Now, his heart is already calm, and he even thinks it is a kind of extravagance.

Wearing a suit and tie, Zhou Ran sat across from me in style, skillfully opening a bottle of champagne.For me, a bottle of champagne is a drink that I don't necessarily drink during the holidays.As for Yu Zhouran, it was as easy as searching for something.Time isolates not only the meeting of two people, but also the style and identity.

On the other hand, the ordinary albino shirt is covered with a blue and gray jacket, and the trousers are black and blue sporty.The waiter looked at me with contempt, as if I was not suitable to be here dressed like this.It looks like it's new here.Zhou Ran has long been used to it, ordering food calmly and negotiating with the waiter.In fact, I have never felt that the food here is any different from the small restaurant next to my home.Behind the gaudy names are not all things bought from the vegetable market, but they are just packed in a plate that looks tall.The taste of the dish will not become particularly good just because it is served on a very beautiful plate. Maybe this chef is a national special chef, but if it is not to my taste, I still don't like it.

Just like a woman, she looks very beautiful, but I like men.

"I heard you're writing a novel recently!"

"Yeah, idle is idle anyway."

"Is anyone watching?"

"Of course there are, although not many, but enough."

"Is there me in the novel?"

"No……"

No questioning.Maybe I don't really care, I just don't want to be polite.

Use a knife and fork that you are not used to, cut it and insert it.

"Well, what happened that day, I didn't mean to hide it from you. I wanted you to treat it as a trip, and I'll take care of the other things. I didn't expect you to find out."

I want to tell him that I am not angry because of this, and I will not be angry. I just feel a little sad, because in his heart, I am just a person who can be used.Use my identity to reject others.

But that kind of sadness is just a flash, after all, I have grown so big, I have experienced so many things, my expectations for this circle have disappeared, and I am used to being sad.

So he smiled and said to him: "It's okay, I didn't take it to heart."

"You won't take it to heart. You are such a serious person. You must be holding it in your heart, right?"

I took a sip of champagne, put down the knife and fork, and said, "Zhou Ran, is it in your heart that I have always been such a person, a child who can only make trouble for no reason, and who doesn't understand the reason! You are wrong, everyone can grow up Yes, now I will not disturb my mind because of trivial things, not to mention that I have found an ideal that I can pursue for a lifetime."

Zhou Ran stood there in a daze, my change was beyond his expectation, he would not believe that I had also become magnanimous and could tolerate his mistakes.But, that was only at that time.In the days without him, no one will accommodate me, no one will take into account my feelings, no one will do everything according to my will.Slowly, I also began to adapt to this kind of life alone.It was he who told me that it doesn't matter if no one loves you, you can still be sunny by yourself.

The background music is elegant jazz, and the deep and penetrating sound poured into my ears, fascinated.

"You give good love!"

"Are you listening to jazz?"

"Occasionally listen!"

"Anji, I find that I don't know you more and more. The original you, even musicals are boring."

"Now I don't go to musicals anymore because I made a promise to someone."

Yes, I once promised Zhou Ran that I would never watch musicals again in my life. At that time, I felt that it was a kind of suffering.At that time, Zhou Ran was from a good background and was well educated, so he went to see a play or listen to a concert every now and then. In comparison, I was much poorer. I think it is a luxury, and I will only watch it when there are resources on the Internet that can be downloaded.Moreover, the awareness of copyright at that time was not as strong as it is now, and many websites had pirated movies to watch.The times are different, I have grown from that rustic child to a person who knows how to enjoy himself and cultivate himself.

"Do you want to go to a movie?"

An old movie, Peng Yuyan's "Break Up Contract".

Under the huge screen, Zhou Ran and I were sitting next to each other, my heart was warm, and I was in a trance for a moment: Has the person next to me never left, otherwise why do I still feel so kind?

But when that woman with full aura and big breasts appeared, Bai Baihe was dumbfounded, and I was also dumbfounded.Zhou Ran already has a wife, he already has his own family, so no matter how nice he is to me, it is just making up for that concealment.Thinking about it this way, I lost all interest.

At the end of the movie, Zhou Ran planned to send me back with a very tough attitude.In the past, I must have been overwhelmed by his stubbornness, but now, "I can go back by myself."

Zhou Ran still looked at me in disbelief, and after a long stalemate, finally, he drove away helplessly.

He didn't call a car to go home right away, but just walked on the street eloquently alone.It's true that my heart betrayed me, but I still love him, otherwise I wouldn't be moved, and I wouldn't be so sad.And he always thinks that I am still the person who can't do anything well five years ago, because our memory of each other stays there.But Zhou Ran has nothing to change, because he was good enough when I knew him, and there is no need for him to become better.I am different. My growth period happened to be during the five years when Zhou Ran was away. It’s a pity that Zhou Ran couldn’t see me growing up step by step with his own eyes.Does he feel sorry too?