You are the sunny scenery in my heart

It is rare for Xin Jing to ask me to go shopping together. Needless to say, she must have asked me to carry her bag, because Gao Chong must be absent.

After visiting many clothing stores, I was finally exhausted and sat on the bench next to the escalator out of breath.

"You still need to exercise more!"

"Easier said than done!"

Suddenly he couldn't feel what was being carried in his left hand, and subconsciously looked at his left hand, there was obviously a paper bag.Confused, I let go of my fingers, and felt that the ring finger and little finger of my left hand were extremely numb, as if thousands of insects were gnawing on them.Xin Jing saw my strangeness and asked me what was wrong, "My fingers are a little numb, maybe it will be fine in a while!"

I found that I was too optimistic, and my fingers didn't recover until I arrived at Xin Jing's house.start worrying.

"Go to the hospital, let's go, I will accompany you."

The doctor who gave the registration suggested that I go to the neurology department.The doctor asked me what I felt unwell recently, and I suddenly remembered that I had a headache occasionally.The doctor tried many methods, but the numbness in the fingers did not relieve.He calmed down, and said deeply: "I suggest you do a brain CT..."

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I was in a trance during this process, and Xin Jing was taking care of many things. I couldn't believe what the doctor said when he looked at my CT photo: "Obviously, in your cranial cavity, here, near the center of the anterior gyrus. There is a small piece of blood in the area. I suggest you have an operation immediately, because complications have already occurred, and if the treatment is not timely..."

The doctor's voice was disturbed to pieces in my ears, is he joking!

When I came to the hospital, I didn't leave. I stayed here in a daze. The fat hospital gown didn't fit me like a school uniform from my school days.

There was an uncle on the bed next to him. We knew from chatting that he had bone marrow cancer and there was no cure.But it seems that he has put his mind at ease, doesn't inquire about anything, and doesn't express his attitude about anything. It seems that from now on, he is already a person in another world, regardless of daily necessities and worldly affairs.

I gradually accepted the fact that there was a lump of blood in my head. The doctor deduced that it was probably due to some serious injury, and suddenly remembered that time when I was in Zhou Ran's car...

The doctor said that the operation is risky, but if the operation is not performed, the blood clot may compress the motor nerve, and there will be...

Looking in the mirror, it seems that I was a little handsome when I was bald.

The doctor is already preparing for the operation, and my mother pretends to be strong to comfort me.Xin Jing is busy running around.Suddenly a person appeared at the door, I don't know how he knew, I told Xin Jing not to tell him.

"I told him," my mother said angrily, "we clearly agreed to take care of each other, why didn't he take care of you when you were sick." I held my mother's hand, "But after all, he is a very busy person. Ah! Alright, don't blame Zhou Ran any more."

Zhou Ran came over with a reproachful tone: "Why didn't you tell me earlier? You know my legs are so scared."

"I'm afraid you're worried!"

"...you must tell me first if you have anything to do in the future."

The doctor said that after the anesthesia was given, there would be no pain, so he was pushed into the operating room unconsciously, fell asleep in a daze, and woke up again because of the pain, the unbearable pain.It was very dark outside, and I couldn't see anything, but I heard the doctor say, "I'll have another test later. The operation was successful. If there are no other problems, I can be discharged from the hospital." Then I fell asleep again.

When I opened my eyes again, I felt the light slightly, and there was no one around. The nurse said that my mother was in the family room next to me.

The doctor said: "Surgery is definitely risky, let alone brain surgery."

Yes, how could there be no risk? If I knew, one left eye and one left hand, how would I choose?

Did not tell anyone, a person silently sad.

Zhou Ran is busy with me these days, wandering around me, it can be said that he is benevolent and righteous.He said it should be, because it was because of his capriciousness that I suffered so much.

Xin Jing chose a wig for me that was very suitable for me. Every day when I wore it and looked in the mirror, I would laugh at myself. I was bald just now, and I grew so much hair all at once, how funny.I was shocked when I saw it suddenly, and it took me a while to accept it.

"Actually, it's not necessary at all. You're pretty handsome with a bald head."

That's what everyone says. Everyone does.Say something to please others against your own conscience, and then feel that you are artificial.

Zhou Ran asked her mother to go back with peace of mind, took me to his house, served me like an ancestor, and didn't let me do anything. Zhang Jing was jealous of his care for me.I am also happy to let him take care of me. After going through such a thing, I suddenly want to calm down and strive for something for myself.Don't pay attention to the ethics and morals that everyone thinks, because you are not a kind person, and now you don't want to pretend to be kind, or that is cowardly.

I still live in the same house many years ago, and the furnishings inside have not changed at all, but I don’t pay much attention to the interior arrangement now, maybe when I get older, I don’t love to be so serious, because I know that things come and go , What I got in the end was nothing but perfunctory perfunctory.

Zhou Ran's cooking skills have risen to a new level, "I feel that drinking your soup is a kind of enjoyment!"

Zhou Ran was delighted, "It's rare to hear you praise others."

"Why does it feel like you two are more like a family!" Zhang Jing said jokingly or sincerely.

Because of the reason of my left eye, I would occasionally stray when holding something. Every time at this time, I would laugh at myself and say: "I can't get used to your home anymore. Look, your hands don't listen to me."

Zhou Ran rubbed the back of his head in embarrassment.

Lying on the bed, taking off the hood, looking at the growing hair, I feel slightly moved in my heart, Zhou Ran undoubtedly still loves me, but why did he leave without saying anything at the beginning, why did he take away one of my hair after we met? Eye!Put away the headgear, never use it again.

In the early morning of the next day, Zhang Jing said at the dinner table that she was going on a business trip for a while and would take about four days to come back.After saying some high-sounding polite words, I couldn't help but secretly happy.

The relationship between the two of them is plain, with occasional teasing, which makes me feel that we are not separated, and I am still the owner of this house.

On the second night Zhang Jing left, I bought a bottle of old wine and drank with Zhou Ran under the moonlight. We talked about the bitterness and hardship of the past five years, and wept when we talked about sadness.Taking advantage of the sliver of rationality left in him, he drank a few sips of aged vinegar, and with the help of the sourness of the vinegar, he became slightly clear-headed.Go back and continue drinking with Zhou Ran.Slowly, he was already too strong to drink, and his tongue was spinning in his mouth but he couldn't speak.The table was messy and he didn't care to clean it up, and he helped Zhou Ran back to the room. He had never felt this way before, this kind of urge to get him, and took off his clothes one by one... He was fascinated He opened his eyes in a daze, and looked at me lewdly... Zhou Ran's body is very hot...

Early the next morning, because I drank too much, the alarm clock rang and did not wake up until a scream pierced the sky——I opened my eyes dimly, and saw a woman standing outside the bedroom, carrying her bag in her hand. The bag you always carry with you.

"Boom—" The bag fell to the ground.

Zhou Ran stood up naked and wanted to say something, but after looking back at me, she gave up.I lay quietly on the bed, my heart was as calm as a pool of water, without any waves.

I watched like this, Zhou Ran walked into Zhang Jing little by little, Zhang Jing seemed to be crying, and ran out the door wearing slippers that might have just been changed.Zhou Ran followed out of the bedroom, and came back disappointed after a while, probably because he didn't stop him.He sat by the bed for a while, as if thinking about something, and then put on his clothes one by one, "Put on your clothes too!"

"How about I go back! Here..."

"No need!" Zhou Ran said loudly, "I can handle it!"

That tone is as if I was ruined by him and he is responsible for me.

In the bathroom, I put a lot of shower gel on my body and back, and I want to wash off the things he left in my body, because I don’t feel so good, and even a little disgusting.

Zhou Ran began to be reticent. I know that this may be the beginning of ruin for him. The key is to see how Zhang Jing handles this matter.

Zhou Ran called Zhang Jing several times, but she didn't answer.I should care about her, no matter how you say it, if you are a husband and wife with a hundred days of kindness, even if you are a stranger living together for so long, you will still have feelings.

I don't know if what I did was too much, but that's what I really thought at that time, to make it difficult for Zhou Ran, to make it difficult for him to choose, I want him to taste the feeling of being rejected by others.For him, it's not hatred, let alone love, it's just knowing that there is such a person, who is clearly together and tortures each other.