You are the sunny scenery in my heart

The train station is full of people coming and going, and the waiting room in City C is so big that the people who come and go, before they have time to say a word of greeting to each other, rush to the ticket gate, trembling with the tickets in their hands Hand it over to those expressionless "statues".

When I have nothing to do, I pick up the photo album of my mobile phone. I used to have the habit of keeping a diary. Later, I bought a personal computer, and the notebook disappeared from my life. But facing the computer, I have nothing in my heart. I couldn't write a diary, or even a weekly diary, so the habits I had developed since elementary school were abruptly cut off.Then I started to take pictures with my mobile phone, and the photo album became my diary, which recorded all the interesting things, unhappy things, people I met, and experiences I experienced.

There is also a private photo album, which is full of Zhou Ran's photos, all of them, there is no trace of me at all.At the station, at the basketball court, in Jiangnan, in Shanghai, on the bridge, in the aquarium.Every one of them was taken by me personally, some serious and some secretly taken behind his back. Some of the photos have not been seen by him so far, which is a bit of a pity for me.

Looking at these photos, I sometimes smile aloud.

"An Ji!" The familiar shout came from a distance, and I was alert, it was clearly Zhou Ran's voice, and I hurriedly followed the voice to look over, but there were all unfamiliar faces in a hurry, and I was flustered for a while Get up, stand up, look around, look around.However, there are only passers-by here, who are anxious or forced to step on the train leading to all directions, and no one wants to stay.

Hearing hallucinations, laughing at his gaffe.Connected to the wifi at the station, downloaded Xu Song's "Auditory Hallucinations" without thinking, plugged in the earphones, listened intently, and suddenly burst into tears.

when you are alone

sneak peek at your weibo

what do you do every day

I know it all

I thought you were talking too much stupid

Now that I think about it, the picture is old

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Nowadays, listening to music alone always makes me feel sad

Love is no longer here but I haven't escaped yet

if you look back

don't let me go

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"Anji!"

This time I heard it for real, I couldn't be more familiar with it, and then Zhou Ran appeared in front of me with a bag of food in his hand.

"I just heard your voice."

"Yes, I went to the food store and bought you some food for you to eat on the train."

Originally, I thought that he was here to fulfill his promise, that he was planning to go to have a haircut with me.But it seems that he seems to have forgotten what he said that day, or because he is not yet young.

"How are you and Sun Hongwei?"

Zhou Ran sat next to me, fiddling with my suitcase, and said: "We separated, he proposed it, he said he felt sorry for Lao Zhang, and he wanted to wait for Lao Zhang to come back. I think this is also very good , Our relationship is already in jeopardy." Zhou Ran deliberately said it freely, but the discouragement in his tone did not escape my ears, I still feel it is a pity, and I still feel that there is no need to separate.

I lightly patted Zhou Ran on the back and said, "That's fine, Lao Zhang has been fulfilled. What's your plan?"

"Me? I don't plan to. I feel that my good days have come to an end, and I will be busy with my career in the future." Looking at me with a slight smile, he grabbed my hand, put it on my knee, and put my hand on my knees with both hands. Hands wrapped in it.At this moment, I had the urge to cry, his hands were too soft, sweaty and hot.

I can take the initiative, I can throw myself into his arms immediately, begging him to get back together.However, I am not a person who is good at taking the initiative, and I am not very capable of asking for help.What's more, I don't know if his melancholy at this time is because of Sun Hongwei's departure. I don't know how important Sun Hongwei and I are in his heart now. I am here, but I am thinking of others in my heart. I don't have the courage to challenge in such a day.

He glanced at the time, looked at Zhou Ran, and said, "It's time, I'm leaving, you should go back early too!"

"I'll take you to the platform!"

I am not allowed to be polite, and I have already walked firmly towards the ticket gate with my luggage.I was stunned behind, Zhou Ran has not changed at all, he likes to arrange my life, every action of mine must be under his control to make him feel at ease, sometimes he thinks it is a good thing, sometimes he thinks it is Paranoid.

"Come on, why are you in a daze!"

I hastened my pace, chased after Zhou Ran, and held his arm, brimming with happiness, the last happiness.

After handing the ticket to the serious-looking police officer, he finally asked Zhou Ran, "Have you already bought the ticket and plan to surprise me?"

Zhou Ran was taken aback, before he could reply me in time, the hand that carried the luggage was also slow.

I gave him the brightest smile and said, "I'm just joking with you, why is it still broken, hurry up and keep up."

He looked at me, dazed for a moment.The lack of focus at that moment made me feel disheartened, and the little warmth I had just seen in the photos disappeared like smoke in a moment.At this time, one look revealed too much information, and as he grew older, he cared too much about these small hints, knowing what he was thinking, he didn't want to make things difficult for him.

He sent me straight to the train, put my luggage on the upper shelf, watched me sit down safely, and then sat on the seat next to me for a while, but didn't say a word, I deliberately fiddled with the things I carried with me, It felt like I was too busy to say goodbye, Zhou Ran saw my thoughts, patted my thigh lightly, and said, "Then I'm leaving, take care of yourself."

I pretended to be indifferent and nodded, squeezed out a calm smile, watched him turn and leave, looked at his back, who knew how much I wanted to rush over and hug him tightly from behind at that moment, how much I wanted!

After he got off the train, he turned his head and looked at me through the window glass. I waved to him with a smile on my face, so hard that I almost broke my wrist.That square window framed a man at this time, and he was far better than the sunniest scenery in the world.

The train moved slowly, the announcer dutifully broadcast the train information and some weather news, then Zhou Ran and the whole platform began to retreat slowly, paranoidly retreating, no one could hold back.

Some people disperse as they walk, and some things fade away after looking at them.Some people forget when they think about it, and some people wake up while dreaming.We said goodbye today, as if we would never see each other again. Zhou Ran and I still couldn't get together. Before we knew it, Zhou Ran had already fallen in love with Sun Hongwei subtly. I know, he loves him, I know.He loves me too, I know that.I finally believe that a man can really fall in love with two people at the same time.I really fell in love with two people, and I did it with all my heart.

I, while weeping, smiling, and falling asleep, watched the changing scenery framed in the square window. Every second is fresh, and every second is passing away...