You are the sunny scenery in my heart

When I woke up, both sides of my face were astringent. I hurried to the bathroom to wash my face. I looked in the mirror and found myself in such a mess. I must be a poor person. I have someone I like in my heart, so I dare not speak.The face in the mirror is really not attractive. I really don't know what Zhou Ran liked about me back then.

At the train station, my mother and uncle are waiting on the platform. This scene is very familiar, and I seem to have experienced it not long ago.Presumably seeing me, my mother greeted me happily, and my uncle also showed a gratified expression.

My uncle took the luggage I was carrying, and wanted to refuse, but my mother said, "Yes, let your uncle carry it for you. You must be exhausted after driving all day."

"I'm not too tired, I've slept through it already."

"It's cold, hurry up, Mom has already made dumplings and I'm waiting for you to cook them when you come back." Mom supported me and walked on the platform where the snow had just fallen.

Sitting in the car parked by the side of the road, the driver turned around and greeted me: "You are Anji, right? I am your brother in law. You should call me big brother just like your younger siblings!"

"Brother!" called him timidly.

Uncle stuffed my luggage into the back compartment and sat in front.Indicating that the eldest brother can go.The car was driving slowly on the road covered with a thin layer of snow.

I took a closer look at my elder brother's appearance through the mirror. He was quite similar to my uncle, but his body was a little bigger than his uncle's. He was fat and big-eared. At first glance, he looked like a man who had been sitting in the office for a long time and lacked exercise.Zhou Ran also has a lot of fat, is it also because of sitting in the office for too long?

I thought that all the sons and daughters of my uncle's house had come back, but the house was deserted. I asked my mother, and my mother said that they were all at work. Only the eldest was free recently, but he left after eating.

"How is it, Xiaoji, do you have a girlfriend?" The eldest brother asked me, I was stunned, half a dumpling was chewed in my mouth for a long time, I looked at my mother, does the eldest brother not know my situation?

My elder brother felt a little embarrassed because I didn't answer, "Okay, let's not talk about this, eat more dumplings, my aunt made it herself yesterday. It's delicious." After speaking, he looked at me with a smile on his face.I smiled back and said, "Brother, you don't know, I like men."

The eldest brother was taken aback when he heard this, and the atmosphere became awkward again. He twitched the corner of his mouth slightly, wanting to say something, but didn't know what to say.

"That's right, I'm sorry, why didn't you tell me, which caused me to ask such things in front of Xiaoji."

"It's okay, I'm used to it." An Ran smiled.I'm really used to it. For so many years, every time I get along with others, everyone is like this. It's good to be embarrassed.

Uncle picked a dumpling for me and put it in a bowl, and said with the same smile: "Let's not talk about this, how is your work in City C?"

"I resigned, and I will no longer write to magazines in the future."

My mother looked at me, a little sullen, and said, "How can you resign? Then what will you do in the future? People who are almost 30 years old are still as unstable as children, which is too worrying."

I looked at my mother and said, "I want to open a restaurant."

Mom, uncle, and elder brother were stunned at the same time, looking at me inexplicably.Mom said: "Stop it, just a few days after you study, can you open a restaurant or make jokes?"

"I've made up my mind. I'll set up a store on XXX street, and then hire a few waiters. I'm both the boss and the chef. Write down the dishes I've learned and the ones I've developed. On the menu..."

Hearing this, my mother was overjoyed, "Hahaha, it's okay, Xiaoji, you can pull it off. Although your cooking is not bad, how can this chef be so good?"

"Auntie, I think Xiaoji's idea is quite good." The eldest brother said to his mother with a smile on his lips.

"Brother, I'm just playing for fun. I really don't have the energy to run a restaurant." I vented my confidence first.

"It's good to know, this matter ends here." Mom changed her seriousness and clamped a chicken neck for me.

The uncle whispered to his mother from the side: "Xiaoji wants to do it, so you let him do it. Boys have the heart to do something."

The mother turned her head and stared at the uncle, and said, "No, it looks like a waste of money. How about some money to go on a trip?"

"Okay! Mom, then give me some money and let me go on a trip, go to Japan and see the cherry blossoms." Down the donkey along the slope.

"Let's talk about it another day!"

It's quite enjoyable, if Zhou Ran is here, what kind of attitude will he have when he heard what I just thought?Will he support me to open a shop?Or, like my mother, tell me to stop out of practical considerations?

In the evening, my mother brought me a cup of hot milk, sat by my bed and asked me, "What are you looking at?"

"Writing a novel, that's what I'm doing now."

"Oh, I thought you really didn't do anything. You didn't mean it at dinner, did you?"

I turned my head to look at my mother. Under the pure light, there was a trace of fear in my mother's eyes. Didn't she deny it early in the morning?

"No, I was just joking."

Mom breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought about it later, if you really want to open a restaurant, it's okay, your uncle and I will pay you, but you have to pay it back!"

"How can a mother pay back the money she gave her child?"

"Why not? Your uncle's house is like this. Your uncle gave your second brother money to work in his career. When your second brother made money and came back, he returned the money to your uncle."

It must be to put pressure on the second brother, so that he can be more serious.

"Zhou Ran..." Mom started, looking at my face tentatively, I tried to be as natural as possible. "How are you two doing now?"

"Still like that?"

"What is that like?"

"same as before!"

"You are not together anymore?"

"It's been a long time since we were apart!"

"What will you do after that?" Mom's tone suddenly became worried.

"Mom, what's wrong with you? Why do you ask like that?"

"To tell you the truth, one day I was chatting with my sisters, and we talked about the topic that men like men. The sisters said, people like you are prone to depression and suicide. After hearing this, I was frightened to death. Thinking about if you and Zhou Ran can't get back together, will you be depressed, will you commit suicide?"

"You don't need to talk about it, it's so easy to be depressed! I'm going to live soon! Don't worry, I will be your son honestly and keep myself safe, ah!"

"If there is anything you can't think of, you must tell me, ah!"

"Okay, I'm going to sleep, you go to bed too!"

Mom went back to her room, but I couldn't sleep.