through those heavy years

I thought that in a few days, Zuo Wanyu would gradually get better.Her temperament is like this, and she can't stand in a stalemate for too long.

I'm trying to change something during a month.Because I realize the importance of family life, I will try my best to make myself laugh, talk more, and build a warm atmosphere.Of course, my change, because it didn't take long, was forced and weird enough to make people laugh.However, Zuo Wanyu didn't seem to see it, she didn't feel it at all.The two of us seem to have reversed personalities. She was depressed and silent for a month.I asked her what was wrong and she just shook her head.

For a month, she often went to the hospital, saying that there were a lot of prenatal checkups, which were related to the health of the child.Sometimes I go with her, sometimes she goes alone.She prefers to go alone.

Bad intuition, sometimes really not neurotic.Many things are destined in the dark.And the life I feel is always full of drama, it's very ramming.

One day, accompanied Zuo Wanyu back from the hospital.I never thought I would meet her, in a huge city, I met her twice unexpectedly - a woman squatting at the door of Zuo Wanyu's room, her head buried in her arms, her clothes were plain and cold.

This woman is Xiaowen Zuo Wanyu said.We saw at the same time that Zuo Wanyu called her name softly.

She slowly raised her head, and her whole body slowly stood up along the wall.The light at the door of the room was very dim, but the appearance of the person could be seen clearly.Xiaowen didn't respond to Zuo Wanyu, and looked at me in disbelief for a moment, the expression on his face changed from calm to panic.My hand supporting Zuo Wanyu also hangs down feebly, looking at her with the same gaze, I suddenly feel mixed feelings in my heart.

Wang Caixia, at the farewell five years ago, she was thin and helpless, in pain and despair, and the image of her face full of tears is still vivid in my memory.Seeing each other suddenly now makes me feel in a trance that it took decades for such a long time to meet again.She became thinner and more emaciated, with endless vicissitudes and sadness in the corners of her eyes.She learned how to make up and dress up, with a thick layer of powder on her face, and her eyebrows depicted enchanting and kitsch.Maybe she can't forget her happy smiling face, so no matter what she looks like, she can be recognized at a glance.Five years later, a woman who was once full of happiness has been reduced to a whore who sold her body for money.Luo Feng's wife turned out to be a gangster.

It seems that it is really hard to understand.Let's just say it's the difference between likes and dislikes.I can tolerate and accept my wife as a prostitute without any grievances, but I can't tolerate facing the wife of the man I like who sells her body to make money.For a moment, my anger rushed straight to my forehead, and I rebuked loudly, "What did you do?"

The sound was loud, echoing up and down the entire building.Zuo Wanyu has probably never seen me yell at me so loudly, her frightened body suddenly shrank into a ball, and she stood unsteadily leaning on the wall.

There was a sneer sound in the air, such a sound could pierce a person's heart.Wang Caixia walked over step by step, the smile on her face was cold and full of violent sarcasm.

"Why did I do it? Do I still need to explain to you? What are you?"

I was a little stunned. I didn't expect that after five years, Wang Caixia's tone and attitude became so blunt and rebellious, as if she was full of hatred for me.I don't think it was her intention to kill her that made her abnormal now.

"But... are you worthy of Luo Feng?"

"Heh!" Wang Caixia's side face cast a cold light, "Why don't you ask him, he is worthy of me?"

I don't understand what she means at all.Luo Feng has passed away for more than five years, is there anything he can do to feel sorry for her?Her abnormal behavior, could it be related to Luo Feng and me?

"I don't understand what you mean, but no matter what, you can't do it. Even if it's not for Luo Feng, you still have to consider your child. If your child sees his mother selling her body to make money, what will he think?" , How sad, what impact will it have on his life?" I spoke resolutely, completely ignoring that these words hurt Zuo Wanyu.She was looking at me sadly, as if she could see the real face of a person clearly at this moment, no one has any scruples, just pretending to be good, I am a wolf in sheep's clothing, and now my true colors are revealed.

"Then what should I do!" Wang Caixia suddenly roared and burst into tears, as if all the backlog of grievances were about to be vented.

I was so startled by Wang Caixia's roar that I froze in place as if I had lost consciousness.Wang Caixia was full of resentment in her body and mind, and her state of mind was completely different from five years ago.Seeing Wang Caixia's frail body seemed to have lost its support all of a sudden, she sat on the ground slumped, covering her eyes with her hands, feeling sad and helpless, angry and unwilling to reconcile, and realized that her life was also very miserable. She had unavoidable difficulties. many things.

"It's all your fault!" Wang Caixia was heartbroken, hating me to the extreme, "You guys make me sick a hundred times!"

Her words made me terrified again.Did Luo Feng and I destroy her? Is there something I have been kept in the dark about?

"Yes, you don't understand, he hasn't had time to tell you yet!" She burst into tears, "I could have guarded for a love, not afraid of hardships and hardships, because my heart is sweet. I can think of it as intoxicated love. , but it's fake, so fake that your heart is broken, so fake that you'd rather die than die, but you're still powerless to hate. Because of retribution, his deceit was retribution to my son. My son is so young, but he was plagued by illness and died Hospitalization every now and then. It's retribution, I admit it, so I don't have time to grieve him, our mother and son are facing high medical expenses, and we have to spend the rest of the time crying bitterly. He has nothing but death It’s early, cheated, didn’t pay anything, and was deprived of the only spiritual support. You said that I have no obligation to be worthy of him. Oh, let me tell you, after I felt the death of my heart, I only knew that I had to let me My son is alive. It’s trivial to sell your body. If you are forced to help, you have to sacrifice your life. So my son doesn’t have to worry about you, he will understand me, and he won’t feel disgusted by his mother. Because he can Understand that this love is great, and cherish it. He is not like some people, whose soul is filthy, selfish and despicable, and he has the face to accuse others."

Her words shocked me.Vaguely seemed to understand something, but still felt impossible.My soul is filthy, and this sentence makes me shudder.Wang Caixia's eyes were dark and cold, and she sneered from time to time.I always feel that she will say something that I don't know, so that the temperature in my blood and the oxygen in my body will be completely weakened, and it doesn't stop there.

"Let me tell you, you're just a poor guy, and you really don't have the right to feel righteous." Her voice was piercing, and every word was a sharp weapon.She said, "After your grandma heard that you were imprisoned in an accident, she was struck by unbearable grief and fainted. She was bedridden, unable to take care of herself, and her body was tortured by pain every day. But she still wants to grit her teeth and live strong, hoping to see you for the last time. However, after a year, she still couldn't make it through and left!

"It's sad, it's ridiculous, do you still feel good about yourself? Don't you feel that you are selfish and cold-hearted? What can you use in your life to repay your grandma. Even if your grandma raises a dog, she will not To be away from home for so long and ignore her. To die with the stigma of having an uneducated grandson who has been in prison."

In an instant, I felt my head numb and my heart hollowed out.I can't understand it clearly for a while, I only know that it has changed drastically.But after a while, the eyes that hadn't cried for a long time were about to shed tears like blood.I can already feel the eruption of the Great Desolation in my chest, destroying the world and destroying the world.My grandma, is my grandma dead?My whole body was as heavy as if it had been poured with lead. My body suddenly hit the ground hard, and my head hit the plaster wall heavily. The pain was unbearable.My grandma, the grandma who loved me all her life, left without her grandson even seeing her for the last time?

When Wang Caixia sneered, she could no longer deceive herself.I wanted to say something, but my face was completely frozen, only my lips were trembling slightly.Grandma, the thin grandma in the candlelight, the pale grandma in the moonlight, the grandma who always shed tears.Just thinking about her makes me feel like hell.Grandma, the grandson who has let you down all his life must have made you leave this world in tears.He broke your heart and let you down.You are tired, and you can't wait for your grandson to come back, so you just leave.You really want to hate your unfilial grandson. He seems to have made up his mind not to come back once he leaves. He has not shown any filial piety to you.Isn't he what people call a mad dog, or even more hateful than a mad dog.He is truly humble, his insides are rotten and festered, and his soul will be whipped for a lifetime.He didn't talk about repaying grandma's kindness, and now he can't even say sorry in person.

Heart and body are bursts of severe pain.The pain made me feel like I was suffering the saw of No.18 hell.

Wang Caixia said coldly: "Wang Xiaodong, it's fine. You are a poor guy, but at least you are loved by someone. They all love you with their lives. As for me, I gave all my blood, and all I got was deception. I think My innocent smiling face was once intoxicated in happiness, but now it seems that it is all jokes and disgusting.

"Wang Xiaodong, you don't have the right to cry. You can be thankful that your selfishness and indifference have successfully sent away those who love you. They didn't get any warmth from you when they were alive, and they still have deep love and hatred for you after death. That's what you want, right?"

The cold words pierced the eardrums like a loud bang, and the monstrous darkness rushed to swallow the temperature head-on.Life seems to be frozen, and I can't feel the slightest breath.The entire icy body seemed to be abandoned in the boundless wilderness.