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This is the fourth year since Lin Mo's death. Chen Huan and Lin Yan have been together for about half a year. They are graduating, and they plan to rent a house together in Y City.

Four years ago, Lin Mo had a car accident on the way to fetch cakes on Chen Huan's birthday. After being sent to the ICU for emergency treatment, all that came out was a white sheet covering his whole body and a cold corpse.

It was the afternoon when the three of them filled out their college entrance examination volunteers together. The sun was so scorching that people couldn't open their eyes. Lin Mo ordered the cake early, and specially asked the cake shop to make it more beautiful. This is for the person he likes .Lin Mo plans to confess on Chen Huan's birthday. He has been in love with Chen Huan for three years, and he has finally survived until graduation. Whether he succeeds or not, he will be brave once.

As a result, Lin Yan received a call from the hospital in the afternoon. He thought it was a scam at first, and rushed over without even seeing his brother for the last time.

That was a day engraved in the bones of Chen Huan and Lin Yan. For the next four years, Chen Huan never had another birthday. Every June 6th was a silent and complicated day.

On August 2016, 8, Lin Yan received two admission notices. He and Lin Mo's, in fact, all three received their admission notices on the same day, because they were all admitted by Y University.

Three notices, only two people went to the university to report together.

In the year when Lin Mo just passed away, Chen Huan barely socialized with anyone, and the only person who could talk to him was Lin Yan.Lin Yan, who lost his brother, was also in pain. Although Lin Mo was not good at words, he always took good care of his brother. Lin Yan also flaunted his homework. The three people who used to be companions lost Lin Mo's existence, and the strong triangle collapsed.

The days when I first entered school were very busy, with military training, meetings, and classes.Chen Huan was the class monitor in high school. He was very capable and had good grades in admission, but he refused all the activities.He went to class at two o'clock every day and then went back to the dormitory. During the military training period, Chen Huan was almost given a demerit by the college for burning paper in the corner. Since it was the first time a freshman committed a crime, he only issued a public warning.

Lin Yan pretended to be calm on the surface, but in fact, every night, he would cry secretly under the blanket.He needs to be stronger, if Lin Yan also collapses, Chen Huan is even more unlikely to get out, now only he can pull Chen Huan out of the quagmire.

Back home on National Day, Lin Yan reluctantly packed up his brother's things.When Lin Mo just passed away, Lin Yan didn't even dare to enter his room, let alone touch the things he used.

In the back of the drawer, Lin Yan found his brother's diary.

Most of the content in it is related to Chen Huan, and records the scattered changes in feelings for Chen Huan in the three years of high school.It turns out that my brother has always liked Chen Huan, but I think it is true. Although Lin Mo is friendly to everyone, it is only different when he is with Chen Huan.It was a kind of whole-body relaxation. It seemed that Lin Mo would act like a baby in front of Chen Huan, acting immature like a high school student.

The last entry in the diary is the day before Chen Huan's birthday.Lin Mo was going to confess on Chen Huan's birthday. If there hadn't been that car accident, maybe the two of them would have been lovers now.

Lin Yan decided to show Chen Huan this diary.After all, as the hero of the diary, and Lin Mo was going to confess that day.

After school started, Chen Huan finished reading the diary and went to the balcony to smoke for a long time.Chen Huan never smoked before, things that choked and hurt his body, he has never understood the thoughts of smokers.However, after Lin Mo's death, he knew that he needed a way to relieve anxiety, but this method was not correct but worked.

It was already past one o'clock in the morning after Chen Huan finished smoking the last cigarette in the pack. The lowest temperature in City Y in October had dropped to about 15 degrees.Chen Huan held the diary in his arms, as if protecting some kind of treasure, then covered his face with his hands, and cried silently.

When was the last time you cried?It was his birthday, the night he learned of Lin Mo's death, and he sat alone in the morgue until dawn.All the organs of the body were numb, and the brain played back the video of Lin Mo's accident uncontrollably. The car was driving so fast. Why didn't you step on the brakes when it was a red light?Lin Mo has just finished the college entrance examination and is ready to start a new life. Can a human life be measured by 100 million yuan?

If it's fine if it's not your birthday, why have a birthday?Lin Mo must have died of pain when he was hit. The speed of the car was so fast, the moment his body was hit by the impact was probably a heart-piercing pain, right?The spiritual consciousness still remains, but he has to endure the torture brought by the physical body. What did Lin Mo do wrong?

It would have been nice if he had told Lin Mo that he liked him earlier, Chen Huan thought, obviously they liked each other, but he had no chance to say it himself, he felt that God made a huge joke with him, and life would always be full of regrets.

Chen Huan still couldn't get out of the shadow of losing Lin Mo, especially after he learned that Lin Mo liked him, his addiction to smoking became heavier day by day, and he suffered from insomnia all night. After falling asleep, he was mostly dreaming about Lin Mo.The poor quality of sleep made Chen Huan look very depressed. He even started to skip classes and did not hand in homework. No one could contact him except Lin Yan. His average grade point in the first semester was only 1.8.

Fortunately, only the counselor gave warnings in the first semester, so Lin Yan didn't know that his report card was full of red lights.

Chen Huan's report card in the second semester is still ugly, and the college has sent a warning letter to his family. If the grades of the sophomore year are still like this, he can only be dismissed.Chen's father and Chen's mother talked with Chen Huan for a long time, and Chen Huan also promised to take his studies seriously, but the two elders were worried, so they called Lin Yan and said that they had received a warning letter, and asked Lin Yan to help supervise more at school Chen Huan.

The author says:

First time writing in this style...

I don't know how it feels

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