Gee, are you picking me?

"Your back..."

Xu Yang shook his head, bent down and unbuttoned his clothes while kissing him, the kiss was not gentle at all, at least for Song Xu, he had never seen such a passionate Xu Yang.

His kiss was passionate and desperate, so rough that it seemed to grind his lips, and made him taste a bitter salty taste.

Intense passion-desire overflowed from the two people, but it was not as sweet as before, as if a sea of ​​bitterness imprisoned the two of them, allowing them to sink in pain, suffocate and struggle.

Xu Yang seriously felt the pain in his body, he closed his eyes tightly, frowned, thin sweat leaked from his forehead, his heart seemed to be bitten by something, it was very uncomfortable, but he was very happy.

He didn't dare to tell Song Xu that he would never forget this night, fearing that no matter how soft-hearted he and himself would be, making some useless delays, they would eventually inevitably accept the mercy of fate and instead resent the current self.

That night was endlessly long, and the two of them seemed to have boundless energy. Even though they were exhausted and their hands and feet began to tremble uncontrollably, neither of them would let go.

I thought there was still time to take my time, but now it has come to an abrupt end. It turns out that the spring night is really short.

The two fell asleep in their embrace at last, no one cared whether it was sticky with sweat or whether they were in a mess.None of them can care about these things, even if they can hold the person in their heart tightly at this moment, even one more minute is precious.

Until the sun rose, until the warm sunlight slanted into the room through the floor-to-ceiling windows, sprinkling the brilliance of the room, and the dust in the night finally had nowhere to hide.

Xu Yang opened his eyes, and Song Xu in front of him closed his eyes tightly, as if he was still in a deep sleep, but he knew he must be awake.

No one slept last night.

He only looked at it for a moment, then gently removed the other party's arm from his body, and slowly got up.

His whole body was limp and weak, his consciousness was drowsy, and his lower body was throbbing with pain. Xu Yang sat by the bed for a while, then slowly got up and went to the bathroom to tidy himself up.

The person in the mirror was haggard, and there was a line of red blood in his eyes. Those who didn't know would probably think that he had stayed up for several nights.

It's too ugly, it's not just breaking up.

Xu Yang patted his face, and opened the door and walked out after he got better. Song Xu was still lying sideways on the bed with his eyes closed.

Xu Yang was afraid of disturbing him, so he didn't dare to let his gaze stay on him for too long. He put the medicine and gauze on Song Xu's hands in a prominent place, left a note, and then took his own things, left.

Song Xu lay on the bed until the afternoon, then slowly opened his eyes, got out of bed, looked at the empty room, and felt full of emptiness.

As if being hollowed out, he had never experienced this before.

Thinking about not seeing Xu Yang in the future, I actually feel that this kind of life is actually quite boring.

He felt as if he could understand Xiao Qi all of a sudden, his way of being idle, thanks to the fact that he used to think that he was heartless and enviable, but now that he thought about it, he realized that important people had left. It doesn't matter anymore.

Compared with him, I am considered lucky, at least Xu Yang is still alive, in the future... if I want to see him in the future, maybe I can meet him once.

Song Xu walked out of the room and saw a bag of medicines on the dining table. He walked over and found a note inside that said "remember to change medicines".

Song Xu stared at the note in a daze for a while, then sat on the stool next to him, and slowly tore off the bandage on his hand.

The blood on it was dry and a little hard, and the innermost layer of bandage stuck to the open wound, and when Song Xu tore it apart, blood came out again.

He applied good medicine to himself with a blank face, tied the bandage, went to the bathroom to wash up, and then lay back on the bed.

Two days later, Xiao Qi called and asked him to go out to play. When he saw Song Xuren, he was shocked.

The person in front of him had a dull face and dim eyes. If he didn't really look like that, Xiao Qi would jump up and call you who the hell, tell me you are Song Xu?

Seeing his surprised look, Song Xu smiled and said flatly that he broke up with Xu Yang.

Xiao Qi was so surprised that he couldn't speak for half a minute, what's going on, this person was so proud of himself a while ago, showing off his love and affection, why did he break up all of a sudden?

Song Xu has nothing to hide from him, he said everything, he really needs a sympathetic person to confide in now, even for Xiao Qi, his energy has long passed, and now at best it is just that the sea was too difficult, and he doesn't want to Just find someone else.

But Song Xu knew some feelings, he must understand himself.

"You to him..." After listening to Xiao Qi, he wanted to sum it up, but couldn't think of any words after thinking for a long time, and finally had to say, "It's really unusual."

Song Xu was silent for two seconds, then suddenly asked, "Your family is beginning to know about you... What is your attitude when you are with a man?"

Xiao Qi was stunned, looked at Song Xu's cautious but curious expression, smiled and waved his hands as if he didn't care, "It's okay, it's been so long, I just can't forget him, actually I haven't seen the photo for a long time, and I almost forgot what he looks like... My family, when my family found out, he was already, um, already dead, so what else can I care about."

"Then ..."

Song Xu knew that Xiao Qi had gone through the darkest period of his life at that time, and he was very fragile and would break at the first touch, so no one dared to mention these things in front of him at that time. Song Xu cared about his buddies, and went to Look for him and accompany him to recover slowly, so I don't have the time to pay attention to his family's attitude.

"You mean now?" Xiao Qi didn't have too much expression on his face. He was very delicate, with a little masculine and feminine appearance, and looked small, especially when he was only wearing a simple T-shirt and five He looked like a student when he was parting his trousers, but he had a very masculine temperament. Although he was grinning, he seldom really smiled. Whether I am looking for a man or a woman, as long as it is a person, I will take it back as a partner, and they will feel at ease."

"Then how do you..."

"Why didn't I look for it?" Xiao Qi knew what he was going to say, smiled and said, "It's boring, it's boring, it's boring to think about it with anyone, I might as well live alone and be happy."

Song Xu lowered his eyes and said suddenly, "If I tell my family..."

"You want to have a showdown with your family for Xu Yang?" Xiao Qi raised his eyebrows, slightly surprised, and then said, "Tell your father to find a man, why don't you just let him strangle you to death, and then you will kneel down." Listening to him pointing at you and scolding you for losing the face of the family on the ground, if you dare to find a man, wait and see who dares to be with you... I advise you, just save it."

Seeing Song Xu's expression of being hesitant to speak after being hit by the rumor, Xiao Qi added, "It's not that you don't know your father's methods, but don't forget that the reason why you didn't dare to go to the suburbs that night was Who made it, if your father didn't throw you into the woods outside your house when you were disobedient when you were young, you..."

"Enough is enough," Song Xu waved his hand to tell him not to say anything. In fact, it's not like he doesn't understand these principles, but sometimes people don't get there, and people always have a fluke mentality.

He knows his father's temper better than anyone else, and he is definitely not as gentle and negotiable as Xiao Qi's family. They have no object, but with him, it is estimated that his father may not be able to let go of his mouth once he dies.

He knew it all along, but he just didn't want to think about it. Speaking it from Xiao Qi's mouth now is equivalent to showing him the naked --- naked --- naked dissection of the reality. The most terrifying thing is that everything still overlaps with his subconscious .

Helpless, in his life, there were really few such powerless moments.

Very upset.

Song Xu stayed alone in the house where he and Xu Yang lived for a few days. Obviously, nothing unforgettable happened. They were all simple and trivial daily routines. But when he recalled it, he felt a surge of emotion in his heart. , I can't get out no matter what.

He used to be alone most of the time, why did he just return to the previous state, and the memories of living together tortured him like a shadow.

After more than a week like this, the situation didn't get any better at all. Song Xu felt that he couldn't hold on if he didn't look at Xu Yang again. He knew where Xu Yang worked, so he went downstairs and passed a road. On the road, into an office building.

He never knew that one day he would be so impatient to see a person, and as he got closer, he felt indescribably excited.

It seems that with just one glance, the two of them are not separated, and he can hold on for a while, until one day he may really be able to let go.

He came to the floor of Xu Yang's company, sat on the soft bench outside and wanted to wait for him to get off work.

When the front desk saw his eyes light up at first, he thought it was some client. What was rare was that he was so handsome, like a model walking out of the TV, so he paid attention unconsciously.

But after waiting for a long time, no one came to receive him, and he didn't look like he was here to talk about work, so he went up to ask.

Song Xu smiled at her politely, and asked hesitantly, "Xu Yang...has he come to work recently?"

He was not in good condition, and after a few days of work, he also wanted to know if Xu Yang was doing well. After all, Xu Yang was not as casual as he was, he was working for others, and even if he was in poor condition, he still had to force himself to complete the task.

"Xu Yang?" The girl at the front desk asked suspiciously, "He has already left the job?"

Song Xu was startled, "When did it happen?"

"Let's think about it...it's been almost a month."

"One month..." Song Xu stood up and walked out slowly.

Xu Yang didn't even tell him about the job change. Ever since he left his home that day, Beijing is so big that he didn't know where to find him.

Now it's impossible to even see each other.

This is forcing him to completely empty people out of his mind, so, so be it.