I want to be your white moonlight

I remember the first time I met Huo Sirong when I was ten years old, he was very famous.

At that time, my mother still had a girlish heart, and would follow the popular idol dramas on TV.

Huo Sirong plays the male lead, wearing a white shirt and black trousers, like a prince charming in girls' minds, every girl in our class has a cartoon sticker of Huo Sirong.

Later I found out that he looks much better in real life than cartoon stickers.

On the afternoon when Huo Sirong came to our house, Dad was smoking all the time. I squatted in front of Dad, looking at his bearded face, his face was full of sadness.

Dad said that Huo Sirong wanted to take his brother away.

I was surprised, I didn't expect that the avatar posted on the cartoon turned out to be me, and he knew Lin Yan, and he wanted to take Lin Yan away.

My brother never told me about this.My brother has many little secrets of his own, and he doesn't allow me to know, so forget it.

I walked around Huo Sirong, and sadly found that my head was only up to his waist. I looked up at his face and asked in surprise, "Your name is...Huo Sirong?"

The apparently gentle face on the screen is completely indifferent at the moment. A child is always sensitive, and I can clearly distinguish his likes and dislikes.

He seems to despise a poor and desolate family like us, except for Lin Yan.

Sure enough, Huo Sirong ordered in a blunt tone: "Get out of the way."

I spit out the bubble gum I was chewing on his pants, and ran away to find He Siyuan and Wang Broken Leg, showing off to them that a star came to my house.

As a result, as soon as I ran downstairs, another man picked me up by the waist. He sent me home when I was struggling, and then locked the door despite my father's objection.

"Wen Yao, put him down." I heard Huo Sirong say.

Then the smiling man put me on the ground, put a finger between his lips, and made a silent gesture: "You can't go out for a while, kid."

Mom cooked a lot of food, Huo Sirong didn't even look at it, he repeatedly emphasized: "I will take care of Lin Yan."

My mother secretly wiped away tears behind his back, and my father said dejectedly: "Lin Yan is our son, he left with you, will he come back later?"

"Before adulthood, no." Huo Sirong said coldly: "A family like yours cannot provide Lin Yan with a superior living environment."

superior?What does superior mean?

I tugged at the corner of my mother's clothes and called out in a low voice: "Mom..." My mother picked me up and put me in front of the dining table: "Xiangxiang, eat first."

"Is brother leaving?" I asked cautiously, but my mother didn't nod or shake her head, she just touched my head, as gentle as ever.

At that time, my elder brother lived in school and was not at home. He was in the third year of junior high school and had to prepare for the high school entrance examination.

I don't know if my brother is willing to leave with Huo Sirong, but judging from what Huo Sirong means, whether my brother is willing or not, he must leave with Huo Sirong.

I couldn't bear my brother, so I jumped off the stool and ran in front of Huo Sirong, put my hands together and begged, "Don't take brother away, I'm not fun by myself."

Huo Sirong just lowered his eyes and glanced at me, I sucked the snot bubbles that came out, he looked disgusted: "Dirty."

I was so shocked that I immediately went back to the dining table listlessly like a frost-beaten eggplant, secretly looking at him from time to time.

Wen Yao sat across from me, unceremoniously chomping on vegetables for dinner. He picked a piece of scrambled egg and put it in my bowl, and asked jokingly, "Why do you keep watching him? Do you like him?"

like?What's the meaning?What do you like?Is it because I like the second daughter of the old Wang family next door?

I shook my head, blinked my eyes, and begged him: "Don't take brother away, okay?"

Wen Yao shrugged and answered me with a smile: "No, I can't decide, you have to beg him."

With the tip of his chopsticks, he pointed at Huo Sirong who was standing in the middle of the living room and confronting my parents.

That day, my mother made a sumptuous dinner, and only Wen Yao and I tasted it.

In the end, Huo Sirong said: "If you don't agree, I'll stay here until you agree."

At that time, Huo Sirong was young and presumptuous, domineering and tough, his anger was easy to show, and his way of doing things still carried the extreme and impulsiveness inherent in young people.

That night, Wen Yao left, but Huo Sirong stayed behind.

But there are only two bedrooms in our house, one is for mom and dad, and the other is for me and my brother.

It is impossible for Huo Sirong to sleep on the wooden sofa in our house, it is too hard, so he can only sleep in the room of my brother and me.

Mom said: "Xiangxiang, come and sleep with me and Dad."

I refused, and blocked the door of my brother's bedroom with pillows in my arms, stopped Huo Sirong who was about to step in, and said fiercely: "No! You won't be allowed to sleep here!"

Mom and Dad looked at each other.

Huo Sirong stared at me with gloomy eyes, and after about three or four seconds, when I couldn't help but step back, he hugged me: "Then you squeeze me."

Every time I go to bed, I take off only a pair of underwear, but Huo Sirong didn't even take off his coat. I got into the side next to the wall, my brother and I had a small bed, and Huo Sirong, an adult, seemed a bit awkward. crowded.

I turned my back to Huo Sirong, with my back against his coat, sullenly: "You can't take brother away."

Huo Sirong seemed disdainful to answer, I turned to face him, stared at his profile and said, "You are not allowed to take brother away!"

Goodness behold, this man has been living on the screen, and when he first appeared in my life, I felt disbelief and dizziness almost every time I saw his face.

So much so that when I couldn't finish speaking aggressively, I immediately lowered my head, not daring to look at him again.

It seems that looking at it more is a blasphemy against the unreachable gods.

At that time, I just had a cold and kept sniffing.Huo Sirong was very annoyed: "Can't you stop smoking?"

I was very angry, my head was overwhelmed by anger, I immediately propped up my upper body and wiped all the snot bubbles that came out onto Huo Sirong's coat.

I saw him raise his hand and tried to hit me, and immediately shrank his neck, head and shoulders reflexively, and then I heard the sound of him taking off his coat.

Under the jacket he wore a polo shirt.

"Why can't you take your brother away?" I heard him say, "I came here for him. I can give him everything better. Why can't you take him away? Do you want to keep him here to suffer with you?"

I feel that our family is together without suffering or suffering.

I really can't understand his thoughts, what is "coming for him"?

At that time, I vaguely remembered that I learned a word called "jealousy" in Chinese class, but I didn't understand its meaning, but I knew early on what kind of emotion it was.

There was a man of gold who appeared at my door, but it was for him.

I'm not happy, whether I'm lost because of my brother's departure, or because the good things didn't happen to me, I don't know.

I slept very restlessly, and I was woken up by Huo Sirong slapping my butt and beating me halfway. At that time, my whole body had already crawled on top of him. Huo Sirong was lying on his back.

"I'm sorry." I climbed off him, he turned sideways to face me, he hugged me into his arms naturally, his arms were like iron tongs that were too hot, Huo Sirong said: "Forget it, sleep. "

Huo Sirong stayed at our house for three days, and I rubbed my snot on him in different ways every day. Every time Huo Sirong jumped in anger, I made a face at him, climbed on my father's bicycle, and was sent to school .

I didn't tell others that Huo Sirong came to our house, it was a secret, I wanted to hide something so beautiful and not share it with others.

That afternoon I went home with a pile of homework on my back, and Huo Sirong left.

Mom took my hand and said, "Xiangxiang, from now on, Mom and Dad will only have you."

The elder brother also left. After returning home from vacation, he agreed to leave with Huo Sirong, and his parents had no reason to stop him.My brother just said, "I'm not your own."

At that time, I didn't understand the meaning of too complicated and entangled. I only knew that my brother and Huo Sirong had left.

Huo Sirong left me a note, which said: Little brat, study hard.

I silently put the note into the pencil case.

Unexpectedly, a month later, my brother came back.It was Wen Yao who sent him back, and Wen Yao said, "Mr. Huo threatened Huo Sirong, it's too dangerous for Lin Yan to stay there now."

Wen Yao said that when all the dust settles, he will come back to pick up his brother.I blinked and asked him: "Then is he still coming?" Wen Yao nodded with a smile: "Yes, kid."

After waiting for four years, my father died on the way, my mother fell ill, and our family was completely destitute.

When I was 14 years old, my brother was in his third year of high school, and Huo Sirong came again.This time he didn't even stay for more than an hour. When I got home, he had already packed my brother's things and was going to leave.

I thought for a while and called out to him: "Uncle!"

Huo Sirong turned his head and frowned: "What did you call me?"

"Uncle," I said, "Uncle Huo."

Huo Sirong managed not to get angry, he warned me: "Brother, I'm not that old."

I snorted softly, disapprovingly: "Uncle, are you leaving?"

Huo Sirong walked back in front of me angrily, when I reached his chest, he raised his hand and pressed my head: "Stinky bastard, you are still so short."

I leaned over to hug him, Huo Sirong waited for a while, seeing that I refused to let go, then pushed me away impatiently.I said, "Uncle, I'm missing in your life, why don't you visit me often."

He said: "Stinky bastard, how old are you, and you still act like a baby?"

I let him go sullenly, Huo Sirong patted my head again, and they left.

One to three years and nearly four years.

When I was worrying about what job to find after graduating from high school, Huo Sirong unexpectedly appeared again on the afternoon when I returned home in my third year of high school.

I didn't expect that black private|family car to be his, otherwise I should stick a few more chewing gums on it.

In fact, I almost forgot about him. I was amazed that he suddenly appeared in our small and shabby living room.

This time, he finally came for me.

At that time, my head had reached his chest, and Huo Sirong was more mature and reserved than three years ago. His appearance had not changed much, but his personality was much calmer.

I made a nasty joke, passed him, and went to the kitchen to help my mother prepare dinner.

That night, Huo Sirong explained the purpose of his visit: "Lin Yan hopes that Lin Xiang will continue to study. I also understand the situation of your family. This time I came here to support Lin Xiang's study expenses."