time gap

Wu Shixun woke up with a splitting headache, squinted his eyes and glanced at the messy room, and shook his head vigorously trying to recall what happened last night.It's a pity that I can't remember anything. The problem of getting broken when I get drunk seems to be irreversible.

This realization made him very irritated. He looked at Lu Han who was sleeping in his arms with only a piece of clothing on, the red and purple marks on his exposed neck and shoulders, and looked at Luhan's limbs with the same clothing. Intertwined and squeezed myself on the sofa...

Wu Shixun was so annoyed that he wanted to shoot himself to death with a beer bottle.

What happened?I really can't remember it, but looking at the marks on Luhan's body, it's not hard to imagine...

Wu Shixun sat up cautiously, and vigorously rubbed his hair that smelled of alcohol.The discomfort after a hangover, the irritability of fragments, and the love for Lu Han and the disgust of his own animal behavior, his current mood is simply mixed.

Luhan may have been too tired last night, he slept on the sofa all night and froze, his face flushed unnaturally, Wu Shixun picked him up from the sofa and moved him to the bed, he just twisted his neck He grunted twice, but was still in a deep sleep.

I touched my forehead, but fortunately I didn't have a fever.

Wu Shixun breathed a sigh of relief.He rubbed his hair again, "Xibaer~Wu Shixun~" He seemed to feel better after scolding himself.

When Lu Han woke up, it was already afternoon, the living room was tidied up by Wu Shixun, it was clean and tidy, and nothing happened last night.

On the dining table was a bowl of cold porridge, a tube of ointment, and a note.

"Brother, drink some porridge when you wake up. If it's cold, warm it yourself~ Well, medicine... ^.^"

He even used emoji... Luhan imagined Wu Shixun frowning and biting the pen while writing a note in embarrassment, he smiled and folded it carefully, and put it in the jar.

The jar is almost full, and it contains their trivial but sweet memories of these years.

Lu Han twisted his waist that was about to break, "hiss" he couldn't help taking a breath, it still hurts...

He picked up the ointment and looked at it, "Reducing swelling and pain relief", rubbed his hair and blushed, took it up after hesitating for a while and went into the bathroom.After being together for so many years, this is the first time I need to use this kind of thing...

Thinking of last night, Lu Han's face turned even redder...but what's with this inexplicable heartbeat?Such domineering and powerful, the other side of Wu Shixun, Luhan seems to like it very much.

However, after pinching the ointment in his hand, and looking at the dark circles under his eyes in the mirror, Lu Han's face collapsed again, such Wu Shixun is really terrible...

In fact, he woke up when Wu Shixun picked him up from the sofa in the morning, but for some reason, after living together for so long, he became shy again today, so he had to pretend to be asleep.It wasn't until Wu Shixun closed the door and left that he fell asleep again.Really, too tired.The whole person seems to collapse...

Seeing the red and purple marks all over his body while taking a shower, Lu Han blushed again in a hopeless way.

There are even bruised and purple finger marks left when Wu Shixun grabbed him on his waist...

Lu Han covered his face with water, his heart beat a little.Compared with eight years ago, Shixun has grown up so much, not only is his height becoming more and more slender, his appearance is becoming more angular and sharp, but also his body is getting stronger and full of masculinity...

But I am still the same, from height, to appearance, to physique, there is no change at all, if this continues, even if I don't fall into the darkness again, if I stay here, Shixun will see something Bar……

"Since it's not you, tell him! If you don't tell me, how do you know he doesn't believe you? You didn't dare to tell him the truth from the beginning, so you were careful not to breathe in front of him. But your matter What's the matter with him? Are you sorry for him? Did you think this way and you became like this? It's obviously not your fault, why are you blaming yourself? Why are you short of breath? "

"I thought you were gone again, don't go again, why can't you promise me to stay by my side forever? Even if you lied to me... I just want a promise..."

"I know that I did something wrong back then. It was all my fault. You can beat me or scold me, or you can ignore me. Why did you abandon me..."

"Can you stop leaving me..."

Zhang Yixing's words, Shixun's words, rang in Lu Han's ears over and over again, and his mind was about to explode.

Should I tell him?How should I tell him?Will he believe it?Did I do something wrong in the first place?In the first place, one should not keep silent about all problems.At that time, I only wanted to escape, because sooner or later I had to leave, but now...

Luhan smiled self-deprecatingly, Luhan, how could you have such an idea, how could you have such a ridiculously selfish and naive idea?

How can you have the idea of ​​wanting to be with him forever.

You don't even have a life like this at all.

I don't know when it will disappear again, so I can't promise you.

No matter how much you don't want to leave, no matter how much you want to stay by your side, you will fall into the darkness without any choice in the end.

Everything will be swallowed by darkness.

Even if I was lucky enough to wake up in your room last time, how can I guarantee you that I will see you again the second time, the third time, and even every time after that?

What's more, how can I selfishly ask you to stay put and wait for me during those times swallowed by darkness?

The steaming mist in the bathroom is like Luhan's chaotic thoughts, tears or something on his face, slowly falling, evaporating, and dissipating in this mist.

It's like the time that can't be grasped, the love that can't be kept.

In this world, there are always so many people who are powerless and unbelievable. When they can love each other well, why are there so many people who don't know how to cherish.