Bamboo horses come around the bed

It wasn't until he met Li Tian that Xiao Bai's life gradually improved. The two began to work hand in hand to start a business together. After saving enough capital, they started filming TV dramas, and then it was time for them to meet.

Xiao Qing saw the diary of the two of them meeting on the first day.

"On the set of my TV series, I saw a child. If someone hadn't told me, I would never have discovered that he looks so much like me. It's just that when I first saw him, my heart suddenly hurt. I know why. I didn’t think about it until I found out that we look alike. Is this person’s child my son? But it’s impossible. I’m not such a lucky person. How could I just see my child like this? Baby, if it is really you, please give me a chance to know you, if not you, please let me approach you slowly, and give this child all my love for you. "

Then came the diary written by Xiao Bai on the day he found out about the relationship between the two, that is, the day Qiao Yu showed the hospital's identification certificate.

The entire sheet of paper was crumpled and traced with tears, and many handwritings were blurred.

Xiao Qing carefully identified it, looked at the handwriting that was only very blurred, and suddenly found that he couldn't read clearly. It turned out that it wasn't the font that was blurred, but his eyes were blurred.

"My child, God is so merciful to me, let me meet you like this, let me meet you like this, but I'm sorry my child, I can't recognize you, because I know you have Your own life, you hate me now, so I can't recognize you, I just hope that you can always be by my side, I can always take care of you, no matter in any way. But God knows, my child , how much I want to meet you, how much I want to hear you call me dad, this dad who has been separated for more than 20 years, makes me almost unable to sleep.

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In the last diary entry, there is only one sentence, "This is actually very good."

I didn't finish writing, and everything after that was traces of tears.

Xiao Qing could imagine that when Xiao Bai was sitting by the table, he couldn't write any more after writing this sentence, and was crying all the time, not knowing what he was writing, so he could only comfort himself like this.

But what?That's it, just let yourself hate him, right?Xiao Qing thought.

Xiao Qing read a diary for 3 hours, and Qiao Yu came to him, but without Xiao Qing's permission, he did not sit over to read the diary, but kept watching Xiao Qing's eyes slowly turning red.

He could think that it was Xiao Bai's diary, and he could also think of what was written in the diary.

Because only Xiao Qing himself doesn't know how much Xiao Bai loves him, they can all see it as bystanders, but the authorities are always the most confused and the least able to see clearly.

"Xiaoqing, I know that just a diary may not be able to let you truly understand Abai's mood, but at least it has touched you a little bit. You have not had a father by your side for more than ten years, but what about him? At least You have a mother, but there is no one around him, no friends, no family members, no partners. He is not willing to interact with others until I appear. He has been blaming himself for abandoning his child. You know how long it took me Did it take time for him to come out of this shadow?"

Li Tian will never forget how decadent he was when he first met Xiao Bai.

Then after a certain drunkenness, he found out that Xiao Bai had abandoned his child and wife. At that time, he was still thinking, why would Xiao Bai, who likes men, marry a woman?

After getting to know Xiao Bai slowly, he realized that looking at Xiao Bai's gloomy appearance, it took him almost a whole year to let Xiao Bai walk out of the shadow of abandoning his wife.

Afterwards, it slowly got on the right track, which is why Xiao Bai had no achievements and no funds for more than ten years.

"And then? I know what he said now, but so what, I have to forgive him because of a diary, right? Forgive him for leaving for more than 20 years?" Xiao Qing said, without looking at anyone, But the voice was already trembling.

Qiao Yu looked at him helplessly, he knew that Xiao Qingming had softened his heart, but his mouth was stubborn, this is Xiao Qing's temperament, if he really accepted it all at once, it would not be him.

"Xiaoqing, I told you yesterday that your father is not easy. The diary you are reading now makes you more sure that it is not easy for him," Li Tian said.

"It's not easy for him? Of course I know it's not easy for him. He left his wife and children to live alone without anyone to accompany him. How could it be easy for him?"

Even knowing about Xiao Bai's hardships before, Xiao Qing's mouth is still unforgiving.

Yes, he just can't forgive, can't forgive someone who suddenly left them for more than 20 years, and then suddenly reappeared in their life, not to mention disrupting his originally peaceful life, Xiao Qing can't forgive, no matter who it is unforgivable.

Li Tian originally thought that Xiao Qing was a very kind person, and after reading Xiao Bai's diary, he would definitely forgive him.

However, what he didn't expect was that the knot in Xiaoqing's heart had been more than 20 years old, and it could not be untied so easily, so he could only leave disappointedly with his diary.

It's just that he didn't expect that Xiao Qing's heart had softened long ago, it's just that his mouth was not forgiving.

After Li Tian left, Qiao Yu immediately took Xiao Qing's hand and returned to their room.

Looking at Xiao Qing fixedly, "Xiao Qing, these days because I know you don't want me to intervene in the affairs between the two of you, I have been keeping silent, but I can't keep silent because it's your family. , that is also my family, your affairs are my affairs, I will always intervene, it is impossible to ignore any of your affairs for the rest of my life."

Xiao Qing nodded, "I know."

These days, because he was afraid that he would get angry, Qiao Yu did not talk about many things, but he knew that Qiao Yu still hoped that he would forgive Xiao Bai.

Sure enough, Qiao Yu's next words were, "Xiao Qing, your heart has softened, why are you still saying that?"

"What do you mean, I don't understand," Xiao Qing said fascinated.

Even in front of Qiao Yu, he didn't want his thoughts to be revealed so easily.

Qiao Yuna sighed, "Xiaoqing, you really want to keep this secret from me, don't you?"

His voice was a bit serious, and Xiao Qing immediately understood what he meant. If he continued to hide it, there would be many things in the later stage, and Qiao Yu would hide it from him.

They have already said before that no matter what happens in the future, they must inform each other immediately. He has already done a very bad job with Xiao Bai's matter, at least he did not inform Qiao Yu of his mood immediately.

He could imagine that Qiao Yu would be angry if he still didn't admit his feelings now, and the consequences would definitely be serious.

Immediately begged for mercy, "No, I didn't tell you, but I don't know how to express my feelings."

Seeing his anxious look, Qiao Yu's heart softened.Sure enough, this person is tough but not soft. The more you talk to him well, the more he will push forward. If you talk to him a little harder, he will immediately surrender.

Qiao Yu couldn't bear to force him, but turned to look at her tenderly, "Whatever you think in your heart, just say it out, now it's just the two of us, even if you say it, no third person will know. "

Xiao Qing thought about it, and his eyes suddenly turned red, "You know what I was thinking in my heart when I saw the diary just now? I have been telling myself that I can't forgive that man easily, but I have always been We all know that it is not easy for him, and even I can feel that he really wants to be nice to me, but I can't get over the hurdle in my heart."

"You know how I was bullied when I was young. If it weren't for you at that time, no one would know what I would be like now."

Qiao Yu nodded, sat beside him, and hugged him into his arms, "I know, Xiaoqing, I know what you think, if it were me, I wouldn't forgive it easily, but after all, it's been over. After such a long time, the things that should be in the past still have to pass, how many 20 years can there be in life!?"

This sentence is very clichéd, but it is true. How many more than 20 years are there between them? One more than 20 years has passed, and then more than 20 years have passed, then they are all in their 40s, almost half of their lives have passed .

"Even if you can wait, you can continue to not forgive, but what about him, how old is he now, you should be able to imagine how long he will be able to wait for your forgiveness, no matter what, your blood is thicker than water, No matter what method you use, the relationship between you is unbroken, and you know this better than anyone else," Qiao Yu said.

Xiao Qing lowered his head, clasped fingers with him, and didn't say a word, because he knew what Qiao Yu said, and he had thought about it in his heart, but...

"But I really, as long as I think that my father who I thought was dead for more than 20 years is still alive, but has never seen me, I am not happy. I don't want to forgive him. He disturbed my life. Inside my life There is no such role, and now there are more of them, I am afraid that I will not adapt to it in the future, what if he leaves one day? It is impossible for me to bear his departure after getting used to him," Xiao Qing said .

"Xiaoqing, you have to know that if you don't try some things, you will never know its beauty. Just like Xiao Bai, if you don't accept him, you will never know how much he loves you in his heart. Why don't you try to give others a Opportunity, how about giving yourself a chance?" Qiao Yu said.

They seldom have such in-depth communication, because he rarely has any secrets between the two of them, but now the different person who appears between them is Xiao Bai.

As a lover, Qiao Yu has the responsibility to help Xiao Qing out of this matter?

"Do you all think that I am unreasonable and making trouble for no reason?" Xiao Qing finally asked.

This is what he has been wondering these days. He is so unreasonable and refuses to forgive a person who loves him very much. Does it mean that in the hearts of these people, he seems to be very bad?

Qiao Yu patted his head, "How is that possible? No matter what happens, you will always be in my heart the Xiaoqing I met for the first time, the person I love the most. Now you are just There are some things that I haven't figured out, so there is no such thing as bad or bad," Qiao Yu said.