masculinity

Yunlong was sitting on the sofa in the living room, I looked at him, didn't he have something to tell me?

I think it should be an important matter. If it is not important, Yunlong can say it on the phone. It's not that he doesn't know my phone number.

"I'm getting married."

"Huh? When did it happen?" I wasn't too surprised, but I never noticed it.

"It happened a month ago." Yunlong closed his eyes, as if he was confused.

"Oh, so fast, then congratulations." I instinctively reacted, Yunlong made a decision so quickly, he can't remember if he was divorced?Don't you know what marriage means?

I thought that Yunlong would understand or have a lot of worries if he got married once.

Thinking about it, I think too much, although I don't know why Yunlong is in such a hurry to get married.

I still want to wish him sincerely and hope that he will live well in the future.

"Lin Xi, you know what I want is not your words!"

Yunlong looked at me with very devoted eyes, and his tone was very firm.

I know, I have always known Yunlong's thoughts on me, but I can't let go of the person in my heart, I can't let go of my true love and choose another person.

This is not what I want.

"I've already told you, don't you understand?"

I have already told Yunlong before that I don't love him and I'm not suitable for him.

But why is he so persistent?The obsession is too deep, this is not the so-called love, it makes me feel more and more that it is a unique possessive desire.

Because I have been with Yunlong since I was a child, and as I grew up, the relationship between me and him is not as close as mine. I started to have people I like, and Yunlong is no longer the only one in my eyes.

Yunlong began to feel that his position in my heart had been shaken, so he wanted to overthrow other people, and still maintain the original me and him.

This is just my guess. If it is true, I think Yunlong is too naive.

People will change, and I am no exception. Besides, my feelings for Yunlong are only at the stage of brothers and friends, and it is impossible to rise any further.

"Thank you, Lin Xi, you have given me these years of dreams, and you have also given me a reality."

Yunlong suddenly laughed very strangely, as if he couldn't laugh or cry...

"I will never bother you again." Yunlong said so decisively that I haven't had time to speak in the future.

Yunlong had already got up and walked out the door. I had accumulated a lot of words in my heart, and they were stuck in my throat for a while.

Looking at the back of Yunlong disappearing at the door, I felt a little guilty, am I a bad person, I have enjoyed the affection from Yunlong for so many years.

Now that I had enjoyed enough, I kicked him. Such self-blame and guilt surrounded me tightly.

I sat back on the sofa weakly, staring blankly at the window facing me, the window was dark, as if my current thoughts could not find the direction I wanted to go...

It's been so long, it's like I've lived through the end of an era and am preparing for another time.

The next day, early morning.The sun was very good and the breeze was warm. I lay lazily on the bed and looked at the white ceiling, thinking for a while.

"That's good. Although it hurts, at least it solves one thing."

Yunlong is getting married, I believe he will be happy.

The phone rang at this moment. I was curious who sent me a text message so early, so I picked up the phone and took a look.

"Lin Xi, you don't have to feel guilty. I chose to marry myself. I won't see you in the future."

Yes, it was Yunlong who sent it. Looking at those short words, I still feel sorry for Yunlong.

I know it's his business that he likes it, and it's not my fault that I don't like him.

But I was still wrong!The fault is that I don't like him, but I just want to enjoy the love I don't like very confidently.

This is the reason why I feel guilty, so I am such a scum, hehe, I also said that Chi Cheng is a scum, I am similar to Chi Cheng...

I didn't reply to the text message, but deleted it, since it disappeared, it disappeared.

Now I am very indifferent and calm in dealing with feelings, not the kind of man who emphasizes feelings.

I have become more and more selfish and only think about my own feelings, because I find that now I can't find anything to worry about except for myself.

My parents haven't been tracked yet, and there is no news at all. I also investigated the person who wanted to kill me by the lake, but there was no result.

It seems that all of this is deliberately concealing something, and I can't find a trace of it.

I remember that my parents are abroad, but after so many years, I don't know whether it is dead or alive...

Today is a holiday, and the little one is still sleeping soundly. I was too tired from playing yesterday, and now I am still sleeping soundly.

I woke up quietly, afraid of disturbing the little guy's dream, I had to make breakfast in advance.

While I was still busy in the kitchen, I heard Little Dot calling me from the bedroom.

"Papa, papa..."

I looked back, and the little guy was wearing kawaii pajamas, stepping on the ground barefoot and shouting at me.

The little hand was still holding my iPhone, "Papa, Daddy is calling you."

puff! ! !What?Daddy, where did you come from? Daddy, boy, are you still awake? Isn't your daddy making delicious food for you? !

"What daddy?" I took the phone in the little guy's hand and looked at it carelessly.

"Huh?" I rolled my eyes at the little one.

He was so scared that he ran back to the bedroom in despair. I put the phone to my ear and said very unhappy: "Chicheng! If you continue to talk nonsense to the little one, then you can do it yourself!"

"My wife, I'm sorry, I was wrong, can we get back together?"

What did Chicheng say? !Get back together, what's the situation, Chi Cheng didn't take the wrong medicine recently, right?

"Stop kidding, okay? I have something else to do."

I was about to hang up Chi Cheng's phone, but Chi Cheng suddenly said loudly, "Open the door!"

"Uh?! Open the door?" I paused. Is Chicheng talking to me, or is there someone else beside him?

"I let you open the door!" Chi Cheng repeated impatiently, and I opened the door in half-belief.

Since the door has no peepholes, I opened it directly.

As soon as the door opened, a tall figure stood in front of me, holding the door with his big hand, and barged into the house abruptly.

"I'll go! Squatting in front of someone's house so early, don't be afraid that I will call the police!"

"Hehe, this room is nice!"

Chicheng ignored me directly, and began to look at my room, looking around the room very researchingly.

"Hey! Chicheng! Do you know that it is illegal to break into a private house!"

I saw his attitude of indifference and indifference, so I couldn't get angry. Do you have to ask me to call the police?

"Daddy, are you here?"

At this moment, the little guy came out of the bedroom with bare feet and came out wearing kawaii pajamas.

Daddy? !Calling it that way again, why do I feel that I am now an outsider instead!

"Lin Xiaomi! Try saying it again!" I stared fiercely at the little one.

This little guy makes me gnash my teeth, but I can't do anything to him.

Fight, I can't do it, scold, I can't open my mouth...

Forget it, just be my paper tiger.

"Daddy, Papa always bullies me!" Xiao BuDian looked at Chi Cheng pitifully and cried...

I know, I raised a "white-eyed wolf". Since the two of you hit it off so well, let's talk, I will continue to cook...

I wave my sleeves and I will not take a cloud with me. This sentence is very appropriate now.

I was busy in the kitchen to make breakfast, and I specially heated milk for the little one, and added a love golden poached egg to him very caringly!

However, he, the little guy, made me feel stuck. It seems that I was so kind to him that he was tired of him, so I couldn't feel my love for him.

The mood is very low, hum!It's all Chi Cheng's fault, if he doesn't show up, Xiao BuDian will still love me!

But now, why do I feel that the little one is very clingy to Chicheng, I looked at the living room with a heartbroken heart, the two of them were having a great time, and I was left alone in the kitchen.

This is fate...

"What are you thinking about? Wife." A voice suddenly sounded from behind, when I was sad alone.

I was startled and my whole body trembled, but luckily I didn't overreact.

"Who is your wife, you can't be serious!"

I picked up the spatula and pointed to Chicheng's nose and said, "I'm telling you, Chicheng, I let Xiaobudian play with you, that's because I think he's happy, and you, I hope you know yourself!"

If it wasn't for the little one, I wouldn't make him feel like this. I also know that if there wasn't for the little one, I wouldn't have rejected Chicheng's teasers so firmly.

Often things are always mutual, and we all have to learn to choose and choose, which ones we want and which ones we don't.

"I only know that I like me, and I can't let you go!" Chi Cheng held my shoulders with both hands, forcing my gaze to collide with his...

I'm afraid that I can't help it and I'll compromise, I've been running away, running away!

I really want such a dangerous man!But I'm afraid of hurting myself.

If I have been hurt before, I will be afraid of being hurt again. I know the danger, even if I want to, I will be scruples.

I am no longer young, so I will not dedicate myself recklessly because of the so-called love.

I know that is the privilege of youth, but I am no longer the youthful one, and I don't want to continue.

As long as there is someone who can make me feel the company of life quietly and safely, I can be with him.

This is what I want most now, even if it is true love, turbulent, I will give up.

All I want is a stable life, I have tasted love, bitterness is sweet, sweetness is astringent...

Love and life, I now resolutely choose life.

"But what I want, can you give it to me? Live with me forever!"

I directly expressed my thoughts, and I couldn't believe that Chicheng said that I like it, because sometimes liking is just liking.

"Lin Xi, if you give me time, I will definitely handle the situation at home!"

"Hmph, isn't the time given to you not enough?" I said sarcastically.

"Lin Xi, have you recovered your memory?" Chi Cheng looked at me in surprise and asked.

"Well, you don't seem to want it?" I raised my eyebrows and asked Chi Cheng.

"No." Chi Cheng was embarrassed.